Jenn lay in bed, wide awake; she had so much to think about that her head was beginning to hurt. There was simply too much information to process at this particular moment. " Now what JJ? The girl is positively gay and there is no doubt about it. Are you going to continue with the friendship? " The voice inside Jenn's head said. " The hell if I know, I like being around her so much it makes me feel younger and I can be myself. Does it really matter who she sleeps with? "
The dark haired woman felt uneasy at the thought of the writer sharing a bed with a mysterious woman. The accountant wasn't sure about anything anymore; the tension of the night was taking its toll on her but she knew she couldn't sleep until she was sure that Kristen had returned to Jean's room.
" It's dangerous to
be out, alone this late." She thought and took the phone to check on
Jean if he had news about Kris. The phone rang twice and Jean answered quickly.
" Hey buddy, any news yet?" Jenn asked, trying not to sound worried.
" Hey Jenn, no she hasn't returned, Rick and I went to look for her downstairs but we couldn't find her. It's 3:40 in the morning and I'm starting to get seriously worried about all this." Jean was indeed very concerned about Kristen's safety.
The blue-eyed woman was
worried sick and decided it was time to take some
action or she'd go crazy. "Ok Jean, I'm going to see if I can find her, maybe she found a room after all. Let me give it a try and I'll let you know ok? " Jenn stood up from the
bed ready for action.
" I don't know Jenn,
it's so dark outside, it may be dangerous. I don't want you exposing yourself to
this too. It's enough to have Kris somewhere out there." Jean said.
" It's ok I can take care of myself, believe me when I tell you that I've never feared anything. I know how to defend myself. " Jenn said confidently, she was a master of martial arts but that was only for her to know.
" Well, ok if you know
what you're doing. Please keep me informed, no one sleeps here until Kris is
back. " Jean said. He was touched by the way in which Jenn was behaving.
" Ok, I'll let you know the outcome of my little expedition." Jenn was clad only in a t-shirt and she desperately wanted to hang up the phone to get ready.
"Jenn are you sure
you're ok with all this? I know it was a surprise for you to find out about
Kristen's sexuality and it will be hard for Kris to cope after the way Jackie
talked about her in front of you. Kris is very reserved about her private life,
she's been through a lot lately." Jean
was concerned about the way in which Jenn would react once she found
" Don't worry, I think
we've talked about this enough for you to trust me, when I say that I won't
confront Kristen about this. She's a big girl. It's not for me to tell her how
to live her life. " Jenn was
starting to feel very confused herself. She was trying hard to put
aside the sexuality issue with Kristen and pretend that nothing happened. " Very mature Heart, avoid the subject and it will go away." She thought.
" I'm sorry Jenn I'm just worried about her. " Jean apologized. " It's ok, I know you care about her. I'll call you later." Jenn said, as she hung up. She put on a pair of sweats and her ever-present Timberland(tm) leather sandals. As she started looking for the author she reviewed the events of the night.
' She was visibly worried
about her new friend. The second she locked eyes with the author she saw such
sadness in them that she felt the urge to take the young woman in her arms until
she started smiling again. She wanted so much to make things better for Kris.
" Don't worry Jenn, once she's calmed down she'll be back." Jean said. He knew Kristen was very upset; he had never seen her hit anyone in all the years he'd known her. Sure Kris had a bad temper when provoked, but he had never seen her in action, until now. But Jackie had gone too far this time, she'd had it coming for so long that he wasn't entirely surprised by Kristen's reaction.
Steph was trying hard to
stop the Jackie's bleeding nose but the screaming
woman was making the task impossible.
Mary and Issa were trying
hard to keep the smiles off their faces whilst
Rick helped Steph with Jackie " Well people I think our night it's over. " Jean said.
" Wait a minute, what about Kris?" Steph asked, concerned. Jackie was looking at her in disbelief. " I can't believe the nerve you have Steph! After what that monster has done to me you're still worried about her? Why don't you run after her and ask her to marry you? Isn't that what you've been dreaming about all your life? " Spat Jackie, she was
angrier than before and her hatred for Kristen grew with every passing minute.
Jenn was starting to
understand the motives for Jackie's hatred towards the
young writer; the jealousy in Jackie's statement was evident. " What a bitch, if she had a bit more confidence in herself she wouldn't have needed to pull this stunt." Jenn thought as she watched the interaction between the couple. She didn't know why, but she wanted to know the truth about Kristen and she knew some of Jackie's accusations were mere lies.
The group left Steph to deal with Jackie and went to their room. Jean asked the accountant to join them for a drink; he needed to talk with Jenn. The accountant was still very confused about the whole thing, but for the first time she acknowledged the truth about Kristen. Denying it would do no good.
" Jenn I wanted to
clear some things up about what you heard tonight." Jean
said seriously. Jenn cut in immediately. " I have no problem with this, it's her life and
she is free to do with it whatever she pleases." Jenn said, as she looked out the window from Jean's room. " We all know it's her life, but Kris is not at all like Jackie said. And we
won't allow that bitch to make you doubt Kristen, we want you to be clear about this." Intervened Marie. " I don't use other peoples' perspectives to base my opinions on, and
Kristen has been great with me so. I don't give a fuck what Jackie thinks, it's obvious that she is out to fuck up Kristen's life because she is jealous of her." Jenn said, surprising herself at the way she was reacting to the whole ordeal.
" Thanks Jenn,
that's so good to hear because Kris is going through a difficult time and
probably thinks that what Jackie said, is true. She's been so depressed
lately." Jean explained. " I can't say that I'm completely comfortable
with this because I'm not gay
and I can't understand that lifestyle. But I enjoy being with Kristen and with all of you and I won't stop being your friend because of who you sleep with. It'd be very immature on my part, don't you think?"
Jenn winked at him; she was acting so differently to how she thought she would do, but it felt good to break down the barriers her father had constructed since she was a child. Issa, Marie and Rick began talking about Kristen's reaction and Jenn found herself very interested in the topic.
" I can't understand why she didn't defend herself against Jackie's accusations. She just stood there and let the bitch slap her with her words." Rick questioned. "You know Kris probably thinks that Jackie is right, she's been so depressed lately." Issa said. " But the bitch was lying. Kristen isn't anything like 'that', she's just had bad luck in her relationships. " Marie was pacing around the room.
" We all know that, but Kris is going through a difficult stage right now and she feels responsible for the failing relationships she's had. When Jackie brought up the 'Steph' issue, Kris lost the battle. It was a low strike." Jean commented.
Jenn was trying to keep
up with all that was being said. She felt lost by the last comment from Jean.
" I'm lost here; can someone enlighten me about this 'Steph issue'? "
asked. " I think the most appropriate person to tell you about it, is Kristen. But I'm not sure what state of mind she's in right now. You won't get the real story so I'll give you the short version; Kristen was Steph's first lover when they were just teenagers, Steph was deeply in love with Kris but they were so young and Kris wanted to learn about life. It was too soon to commit herself to a relationship. Kris left for Spain to study in a student
exchange program and that broke Steph's heart. Since Jackie learned about that, she keeps saying that Steph is still in love with Kris; it's the main reason for her hatred towards Kris." Jean said and looked towards his partner for the reassurance that he was doing the right thing.
Jenn was now surer about what had happened between Kris and Jackie and the reasons for their argument. They changed the subject and although Jenn wanted to go looking for Kris and learn more about this wonderful woman, Jean managed to get her interested in a discussion of the Internet story the author was so fond of. By the end of the conversation, Jenn's curiosity was picked, and Jean gave her his electronic book where he had stored all the installments for The R'Place Series.
Jenn started reading as soon as she got to her room, thinking that maybe she could relax after such stressful night. However she found herself taking a cold shower after the third installment because the story was so well written that she felt every part of it and those love scenes were sizzling. Jenn was surprised to feel aroused by what she was reading; she had never been a sexual person. For her it was almost as if sex didn't exist.
After her cold shower,
she wanted to check with Jean about Kristen. After
their brief conversation, Jenn headed outside to look for the petite blonde.
Jenn had looked all over the hotel twice; the casino, the lobby and pool area were combed to perfection and there was absolutely no sign of the young author. Her mind was still processing the story she had read.
" Wow that Minerva really knows how to write a story, no wonder Kristen is so taken with it. I never thought that someone could make me feel all fuzzy and warm inside, not to mention aroused. I don't remember when the last time I felt the need for a cold shower!!"
Jenn smiled at that thought; for some reason she felt alive again and that was a good sign. Now, if she'd only find Kristen she could relax enough to have a good night's sleep.
The accountant looked everywhere in the hotel and there was no sign of the blonde writer. She found herself looking at the ocean from the deck. " Ok Heart think, if you were angry as hell and didn't want to see anyone were do you go?" Jenn asked out loud as if to try and find coherence in her words.
The dark haired woman looked
at the sandy shore and saw light in one of the
small bungalows along the beach that housed the Jacuzzis. " Of course, why didn't I think of that before?" She said as she slapped her forehead with the palm of her hand and began walking toward the little wood cabin.
Kristen was angry beyond
words but sad at the same time. She couldn't decide where to go or what to do.
She went to the gym and after running herself to the point of exhaustion and
then had decided to try to relax in the Jacuzzi. It was hitting her
hard.............. the idea of Jenn listening to all of Jackie's accusations and
the accountant despising her because of it.
She knew some of what Jackie
had said was true; she had slept with so many women in her life. But she'd never
used them for her own pleasure or to hurt them on purpose. The women she bedded
knew very well the rules - A good time, no strings attached - was her
motto; yes some of the women wanted more from Kris than a night of passion, but
she'd never encouraged them to continue their relationship. The rules were
crystal clear from the
" What hurts me so
much is thinking about what she could think of me. Or the
idea of her despising me because of what I am? " Kristen thought, sadly. She really didn't want to know the reasons for her worried state. " I know I like her, but God knows I've never cared what others think of me. Why does her opinion matter so much?"
Kristen hadn't been able to read the expression on Jenn's face when she had bumped into her earlier. That made her wonder what was going on inside the tall accountant's head. Kristen recalled every single detail of her time with Jenn and found no evidence that the accountant could use to accuse her of taking advantage of the situation.
" I've behaved every time. I'm impressed of myself but it feels good, this time I didn't let my body rule my behavior. She's got nothing to be mad at me for."
For the first time since the argument Kristen smiled, she felt more confident now knowing that there was some hope for her friendship with Jenn.
" I need to find a place to sleep tonight and this hand is hurting like hell, that bitch has a hard face!!" She smiled at that last thought.
The author closed her eyes and sat back in the tub enjoying the way the hot water relaxed her muscles.
Jenn entered the bungalow and found Kristen all relaxed and drifting to sleep inside the tub; it was a beautiful sight. "Thank you God that she is fine." The accountant was relieved to see the sleepy Kris inside the Jacuzzi, and then a thought crossed her mind. " Oh please don't let her be naked inside that tub, I'll die of embarrassment." Jenn was surprised to find herself thinking how Kristen would look in all her naked glory. " Don't even go there Heart that's not for you to see. " She reprimanded in her mind.
Whilst Jenn debated how to approach the author; Kris felt another presence inside the little cabin. She opened her eyes to find a hesitant Jenn looking at her.
"Hi" Jenn said, clearly embarrassed at having been caught staring.
" Hi yourself. " The small blonde replied.
Those were the only words Kris could utter, as she found herself lost in the intense blue pools of Jenn's eyes. Jenn moved forward, a little uncertain at first and silently praying that Kris was wearing something under the water.
" What are you doing out here so late?" Kristen asked. " It's not late! On the contrary, it's early in the morning." Jenn answered, lightly; not ready to reveal the true reason for her presence.
Kris smiled and bowed her
head. " Good way of avoiding the answer, what time is it anyway?" She
asked, still smiling. " Four thirty in the morning; another forty five
minutes and the sun will be up. " Jenn sat on the side of the tub, relieved
to see a tiny green bra
covering Kristen's breasts. " Good, that means the night from hell is coming to an end; about time."
Kris said, lowering her gaze
from the penetrating stare coming from the
accountant. "Are you going to tell me the true reason for you being here at this ungodly
hour?" Kris insisted.
Jenn wasn't ready to show
Kristen that she cared for her, not now that she knew the truth. It might be
misunderstood, and she wasn't going to tell the author that she had been going
crazy inside her room thinking that something could happen to her all alone
" Yeah, Heart, like she is going to believe you anyway, she'll think I'm in
love with her or something, just don't answer at least not yet."
The battle inside her dark haired head was showing clearly on her face and Kristen knew that something was very wrong. But she too wasn't ready to face the situation this early in their friendship. " Let her go at her own pace O'Rourke, don't push her."
Jenn looked for something to change the subject and she noticed the state of the author's hand. "That hand is swelling, you need to put ice on it soon." Jenn said, with growing concern.
Kris noticed the change in
subject again and decided to let it pass, for
now. " Strike two O'Rourke, she is good at avoiding things, take note my friend." She heard the little voice inside her head.
" Now that you mention
it, it's starting to hurt a bit and tomorrow is the book signing."
Remembered Kris with disdain.
" Then, more reason to get you out of here so you can put that hand inside a bowl of ice."
The accountant stood up
quickly. Kristen wasn't sure what Jenn meant when she said those words. It was
obvious that Kristen wasn't going back to her room with Steph and the bitch.
" I hope she understand that, there's no force in this world that could make
me go back there." She thought.
Jen noticed Kris'
uncertainty and knew exactly what to say to ease the
petite writer's mind. " Let's go Kris, you need that hand taken care of, the sooner the better." Jenn looked carefully at Kris's hand. The blonde flinched at the contact
with the accountant soft hands, "Be cool girly girl." Kris decided to give a
touch of reality to the moment.
" I'm not going back to
that room. I might kill her if I see her again." She
stated. " You are going to stay with me. " Jenn said clearly, it was a statement not
The author was overjoyed but she didn't let it show, " Maybe there's hope after all at least for a friendship between us. God she is gorgeous." Kris thought, she knew the accountant had some "issues" concerning gay people although she didn't know what it was. Kris was happy that it wasn't directed solely towards her.
The author felt the need to
give Jenn a way out in case the accountant was
only being polite to her. " Are you sure? You want me to stay in your room after all that Jackie said about me? I'll understand if you don't want anything to do with me anymore." Kristen said, looking intently at the bottom of the tub.
Jenn felt so sad at the somber expression on Kristen's face, her heart melted, she felt so connected to the petite woman; like they'd known each other all of their lives.
" Listen Kris, I know Jackie said very awful things but I don't believe everything I hear. I tend to base my opinion of people on my judgment. Hell you could be a serial killer for all I care, but until you try to kill me, I will think of you as the wonderful and fun person I was with at the beach today." Jenn spoke the words seriously and extended her hand to help Kris out of the water.
When the author stood inside the tub Jenn noticed the miniature silk thong that she was wearing. The accountant was flabbergasted at the sight before her eyes; it was something she hadn't expected. "Oh Dear God!!!" was the only thought that crossed her mind.
Kristen was unaware of the tall accountant's reaction at her choice of underwear. She'd been comfortable wearing those kind of 'undies' because they never showed marks when she was wearing dresses. Furthermore, for her it was somewhat routine; not being a shy person she was very comfortable with little or no clothes on, in front of other people. She had a great body and didn't mind showing it.
The author got out of the tub and turned around to look inside her duffel bag for something to wear, leaving the confused accountant looking at her perfect round bottom covered only by what looked like green dental floss in the middle of it.
A lot of things crossed Jenn's mind at the sight of Kristen's naked butt. She recalled the scenes that she'd read in the story Jean had lent her earlier that night. The warmth that had spread all over her body, started in her lower parts and she couldn't think clearly for a while.
The only thought that crossed her mind was a silent prayer as she closed her eyes. "Sweet God don't let her bend over, I think I could die any moment now." The prayer was too late as the accountant opened her eyes and saw Kristen bend over to take a better look inside her bag.
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