Hi, and welcome to my little corner of the World Wide Web. I am a 34 year old transgendered person living in Louisville, Kentucky. I am a member of  BGB, a group here in Louisville for people like myself. The purpose of this site is for people to learn about transgendered people and hopefully leave with a positive feeling after viewing my site. I will address Transgenderism as I understand it, give a brief background on myself and where I fit into Transgenderism. Finally I will tell you about BGB and what we do. Enjoy your visit and please write to me at cmdavis@aye.net
 

Transgenderism : If you deconstruct the word you have trans and gender. Trans basically means move and gender is one of two identities: male and female. That is the simplest definition I have to offer. Transgender is a fairly recent politically correct catch-all term for many degrees of behavior. Some other names for people like this are crossdresser, transvestite, and transsexual. Each name also has a qualifier such as MTF (Male to female) or FTM (Female to male). Furthermore, there is the preoperative and post-operative qualifier to the definition transsexual. The medical term for all of the above is Gender Dysphoria.

     Crossdressers and transvestites are similar in their behavior. They have acompulsion to dress in the attire of the opposite sex. Most are heterosexual, however some transvestites also called "drag queens" are homosexual in their orientation and dress to attract the attention of the same sex. Transsexuals are those of us that believe that they were born of the wrong sex and live as the opposite sex on a full time basis with eventual plans of having SexualReassignment Surgery to "correct" the situation they are in. The above examples are oversimplified, but for the purpose of this site, are adequate. I consider myself a heterosexual crossdresser. I have no intentions of transitioning, but enjoy the "alternative reality" as I refer to it, of being "Christinea"  every once in awhile.

      My background is a story of thousands of people with a few unique details. I first discovered women's clothing probably at the age of 6 or 7. Over time it escalated into different types of clothing until I decided it was time to take it to the next level: hair and makeup. I actually didn't reach the hair and makeup stage until I was 28 years old. After 6 years of getting "all dolled up with no place to go" (with the exception of a couple of Halloween parties), I decided I wanted to meet others like myself and go out as a woman on occasion. I found the BGB on the web and made that first contact with Angela Bridgman, a MTF preoperative transsexual. She came over to my house to meet me and then I attended my first meeting of the BGB the next evening. What an experience. Wow!! there are others out there like me. After the meeting, 11 of us went out to a "straight" Pizza parlor here in town and ate, drank a little beer, and talked for a couple of hours. The other patrons were watching a fight on television and didn't even notice 11 tall, big boned women with deep voices come in. Of course after the fight they were surprised to see us there, but didn't pay much attention to us either way.
                 Later that evening, I went to Angela's house and met  her roomate, Anne Casebeer. a heterosexal "out" crossdresser who I have a lot in common with other than crossdressing. We sat up for hours and talked about every subject you can imagine. I left the next day excited about my new friends and wanted to go out again soon. I got the chance soon. BGB was hosting a convention here in Louisville and Angela and I went up to a transgender group in Indianapolis to drum up some interest in their members. I met some nice people and then we drove back to her house. The next day Angela, Anne, and I went out to a crowded restaurant for dinner. I was nervous at first as it was in the day time and I had a little beard shadow coming through. Of course we got a few funny looks, but  the waitress was exceptional and addressed and treated us as ladies the whole time. I felt really good at the end of the meal. We went back to their house where I changed back to my "male" persona and then Anne drove me home. I am finding that I actually crossdress less at home now because I am not going anywhere and feel there is lttle purpose in dressing for myself. I am so fortunate to have met these exceptional "ladies". They are helping me examine my true feelings and raising my confidence level when I am "Christinea".

  Since joining BGB in February '99 I have grown and evolved considerably more than the prior 6 years altogether. In March we had the IFGE convention here in Louisville which was acclaimed by all that attended from around the U.S.  We have pictures if you are interested. I met a lot of great ladies from all over the place including the Tennessee Vals whose meeting I attended April 10th in Nashville. We went out for cocktails after the meeting and had a wonderful time. I actually got to spend 5 complete days in femme last week due to a change in my work assignment! I am now going (with some encouragement) all over town dressed as Christinea including  group exercise walks with other members when I can squeeze it into my schedule. We go to "straight" restaurants and bars, shopping, and travel in femme. I could not imagine that I would be where I am now two months ago. Soon I will be going to the mall as Christinea to buy some clothing with the help of my new friends. I even got into some heavy flirting with a bartender ( A Genetic Girl) at the hotel we held the convention. I am still pursuing her as Christinea and as my male self. We haven't made a connection yet, but hope to soon. I went in and saw her showing some serious cleavage and she accused me of trying to turn her into a lesbian. I told her that was my intention. I have been told by others that some crossdressers have met their mates while dressed. I didn't think it was possible but now believe it will happen at some point if not in the near future.

I can't say enough about the importance of meeting others like yourself. They help you realize that your O.K and your not a freak, just different then the norm. If you are a crossdresser and are  interested in exploring your feminine side.
      Please E-mail me and I will try to point you in the direction of a group in your area, or if you are close to Louisville, I would be glad to have you at a meeting as my guest. A whole world awaits you and you will be pleasantly surprised when you make that step towards being a "whole" person. That's all I have for now. Please visit me again and maybe I will have more to share.