Dear Nem
Mood:  happy
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Dear Nem,

I'm sorry... I always knew that you and I would split like this; violently and full of fire. There was never anything about us that was tame and quiet, so I don't know how I ever even hoped that we would end our friendship that way. Then again, there was nothing tender about us, and here we are with hearts raw and open. I never was any good at goodbyes, which is probably why I'm rambling right now. The first time I saw you, I knew it would end like this. We were always dedicated, if I was in trouble, then you were in trouble. We never gave a damn, never backed down, and we would ride like the wind on the shoulders of sin. Considering all that, why is it that I'm surprised we finally turned on one another? It was bound to happen; it's a miracle we lasted this long. The passions that rule both of our minds grip us too tightly when we're around each other, living crazy or apart were the only options. I was there, through broken hearts and first kisses, and you were there for my darkest hours, a bastion of support as desertion set in. Apart we were diminished, weak even. Together we were bold, cruel, and unforgiving, sometimes even too much so.
We're growing up now, Nem. We've both got lives ahead of us.... I have Garrett, and you have your night. You're right, Nem, you always were about who I am. I love the night, as much as you do, but I fear the dawn. It's for all of this that I say good bye, and for all of this that I wish you all my luck (I know, I know, "All of your lousy luck? Wow, Thanks, Regent.", but hey, it's the thought that counts). If you need me, I'm here for you. Every night has a dawning day, and every story has its end. This is our end; the end to all the private, mixed up emotions we have for one another. "When your heart is weak, do you think of love as a one way street? Well, it runs both ways, open up your eyes! Can't you see me here? How can you deny that I love you like only your best and most secretive friend loves you?" I still remember the night you whispered those words, the first night I ever had my heart broken. You showed me that there's more to love then story book romance, you gave me the love that only a friend could give without the limitations of romance. I love you, Nem, like the friend you are to me.
It takes a lot to laugh as the tears go by, but you can find me here till your tears run dry.

143,

Regent