blue oblivion

i saw your face today,
it was curled up in
the way the wind
shook the trees.
i wanted to follow,
to scream,
and drown,
but something,
someone,
told me
that
i couldn't run that fast
and posted on a tree
was a cloud
changing shapes
into your eyes
round and quiet
and a murder mystery.
do you know when today began?
the second
the sun lit your face.
and i'm going to choke
on the bluebird flying past
look at me, here i go
slowly away
into infinity
tripping on these words,
falling to my knees,
and then to my face.
i can't help but
laugh
at how very silly
this all must sound,
but look about--
there's nothing.
so if you leave disgusted,
only i will see.
and it won't bother me.
circling the clouds
and swimming round
i'll take your hand
if you'll give it to me...
i'll take your heart
and fly humbly into
a twilight mist
i'll dance with you,
if you want me to.
we'll dance off and forever.
they'll forget we exist
"disappeared and lost"
is what they'll say.
they'll never know that we're
gone-into a blue oblivion.
and neither will we.
we won't remember
the dead, brown earth...
and its icy emotions
living for the moment,
not knowing the past,
and thinking of who we will be--
one.
"yesterday" has fallen out of existance.
show me tomorrow
and all the ones to come.
tumbling
and bouncing
off of a cloud.
here i lie,
engulfed in a tear swept sigh,
because i know
it might never be.
if i ever fell
from the high you've pulled me to,
my heart would shatter,
and break,
and tear...
like shredding diamonds.
i feel i'm plunging,
even from the words i write,
even from the songs i hear,
even from the smile you wear.