to be the gargoyle sitting alone in his room watching sunrise after sunrise sleeping way past noon all he wants is a woman what he needs is anyone anyone to talk to anyone to cling to nobody to call no body to call home do i mind if he writes it down 21 F in LA and to think i was wondering who is this sexed up asshole? but he wasn't at all he was the gargoyle and you would think that his tongue could talk you would think would you think think would you?! he belongs to the chair holding him in breathing from that tube beneath his chin and he prefers to be called disabled but he isn't and it makes me wonder what is all my pain about? why was i crying this afternoon? he says he hates pain and i think that maybe i like it why else would i smile at this burn on my arm?