ANOTHER HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY----25 YEARS OLD
ERIC DANIEL PINSKY
12/8/73 - 1/8/97
HE LIVES FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS
It seems impossible- but 23 months have passed since Eric's accident, and,
another birthday arrives. Difficult as it is for us to "celebrate" Eric's birthday
without being able to have him here with us, to hug him, to hear him insist he
wants no fanfare all the time he glows and smiles THAT smile- enjoying being
the center of attraction and object of attention--- we need to honor this day, as
it is the one on which we were blessed with Eric's arrival. There are enough
days in the year to mourn his death; to focus on our loss. But today we will
work hard to celebrate his life and remember the good times. We all have our
own special memories- today we will share them as we remember. As always-
we are so grateful for our family and friend's constant support and love!
25th birthday note from mom
I decided to wait until the day after your birthday to write--- thought I might have more insight into my feelings----- but I was wrong. I try to be upbeat and positive on your birthday-- should have written then--- but today I can only think of what is lost--- I can't call and tell you our plans for your birthday celebration; I can't hug you; I can't smack you when you say or do something stupid! I can only hope that somehow you are aware of my love and my constant thoughts of you and knowthat if I could, I would be with you right now. December 8th will always hold a special place in my heart. I can picture the delivery room as if it were yesterday-- and can feel the special "mom" joy I felt holding you for the first time. I can also feel my last hug with you--- somehow I can't come to terms with that one. You always have my undying love--- I hope there was a rip-roaring birthday celebration for you ........ wherever......... as always.........lovemom!!!!!!!!!!!!
It has been quite a while since I have added thoughts to this site- although you and I have chatted quite a few times-----like every day! I have grown to enjoy those chats, the first time in your life I have ever managed to win an argument! I would rather continue losing and have your wonderful face before me.
We have come a long way since those first days and weeks and months. We have become stronger, maybe better in some ways. We certainly understand the fragility and uncertainty of life better than we used to. We have endured many rough moments- some happy times that because of our situation were very difficult for us such as weddings- A.J.'s, Andy's, Matt's, David's, Steve (you don't know Steve- but I bet you know Greg!). I'd like to think we have come through them in a way you would be proud of.
Your brother continues to be an amazing and wonderful young man! (Don't be embarrassed, Larr!) He is doing well in his career, great in school, and more importantly, great as a person. He is compassionate, empathetic, sensitive!
And, we all continue to miss the heck out of you! Life is just always hard. The good times carry a bit of sadness and melancholy with them. The bad times eat up our very limited reserves of coping skills. This is sure not the way we envisioned our lives- not the way at all. But it is the lot we were given and we will keep trying to do the best with it we can.
Those little visits from you, my love, are food for our soul! Keep them coming!
Love you now and forever!
Well- it will come as no surprise to you that I'm not very good about updating your website! Somehow the organization I promised myself to partake in never quite seems to happen- so pictures all (forgive me, Lizzie!) all over the place---as are my thoughts. This year (2002) on your birthday, we went to lunch with people who love you- even if they never knew you! Of course there was me, dad and Larry- and Uncle Barry & Aunt Marsha, Linda & Ed & Amy, Lew. We toasted you- and Greg, Kyle & Sarah. We went to your favorite--- Willie's! That night was the candlelighting ceremony- so a few of our closest friends-- about gadzillion all over the world lit candles for your birthday! Tomorrow- the dreaded day- although for where you are, maybe it is a good day in your mind- we will take breakfast into the Ronald McDonald House for all those poor families who have children in the hospital-- who are probably fighting for their lives. It seems the right thing to do on "that day" and we knew you would approve!
So wherever you are, my love, whatever is for us beyond this world, I hope it is wonderful and I look forward to sharing it with you one day! Hold a spot near to your heart-- that is the "mommy " spot! You truly are always in our hearts- always in our thoughts! With so very much love------lovemom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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