You tell me to trust you with all I hold dear
You ask me to give up my darkest of fears

You don't understand these things in my life
You don't understand all my worries and strife.

I try to be strong and yet I am weak
I try to be patient and I try not to speak

I try not to judge others and not be too proud
I try to be humble and not be too loud.

I want to find happiness - but I'm not sure what it is
You don't understand why I'm here and I'm his.

You don't understand why I run and I hide
When you hold out your hand to have me by your side.

You don't know what it's like to be taken away
To be told your no good and you're nothing to save

You don't know what it's like to live with the fear
You don't know what it's like with these words that I hear

You don't know what it's like deep in my head
That makes me keep running when I'd rather be dead

You don't understand these fears that I have
That all those that I love are gone or there dead

You don't understand what it's like all-alone
When you hide in yourself because you'll never belong

You don't understand the pain deep inside
That black hole in your heart where you just want to hide

You don't understand why I don't just believe
That you'll always be there and that you'll never leave,

You can't understand because you just can't know
These things in my heart that keep telling me "no"

I'm sorry to hurt you, I'm sorry you've cried
I'm sorry for all the pain in your eyes

I'm sorry for all of the horrible things
That have made me this way and have broken my wings.

I'm sorry for all that I've put you through
I'm sorry I can't fix it once more for you.

I'm sorry I'm here and I'm not yet dead
I'm sorry for all these fears in my head.

I wish I could make you believe what I say
That I'm trying my best every day and all day

I wish I could take back all the things that I've done
And make you believe I'm not special -- no one.

I wish I could make you know that I care
And in my own way that I'll always be there

And yet at the same time I feel that it's wrong
To be in your life -- you're so patient and strong.

You've given me friendship and you've given me love
You've given me more than I could ever dream of

And yet I'm still running all scared and alone
With these things in my head, They won't leave me alone

I don't want to hurt you and you say that I can't
But I've seen your hurt and I've heard you rant

I've seen your tears in the word that you write and
I don't know how I'll ever make things all right

I don't know how to find what you see
When you say that you see these things looking at me,

Like hope and compassion and tenderness too,
When all I see is me looking at you

And thinking these same things and wondering why
You're here with me now and wasting your time.

I don't know how to believe in what's there
I only can stop and try not to stare

At this hole in my heart that goes all the way through
That has stolen my soul and made me a fool.