10.20.98

Ok, I realize that it has been FOREVER since I last wrote in here. Gimme a break, though. I never said I'd write in here every freakin' day, now did I? Huh? I didn't think so! Now that we've gotten that out of the way...

Rehearsals for my musical are going...um...ok. It's not as great as it could be, but it's getting there. We're running out of time, but I'm sure that it'll be just fine when the time comes to perform it. I got a secret for you though. I'm having a little too much fun wearing the wigs and high heels. Just kidding...maybe ;)

Another reason I've been absent from this online diary is because I've been going through a lot of shit lately. I'd rather not get into details, but let's just say I've been under an extreme amount of stress since my last entry. I will tell you one thing that has happened to me. One evening I left the Homecoming dance to discover that some fucking bastard (or bastard-ette) had smashed my windshield! I absolutely hate the town I live in and can't wait until the day I can pack up, leave, and never look back. It saddens me to say this, but it's true. Someone's hometown should be a place where he can return in order to escape from the hassles of daily life. It should be a place to go for a relaxing weekend. It should be an escape. It SHOULD be these things, but, for me, it's not. It's just the opposite. My hometown is the hassel I try to escape. It is where I leave from in order to have a relaxing weekend. It is where I have to escape from. It really hurts me to think about all of this, but it's something I face everyday of my life. Throughout all of the shit I've been going through, I have been able to discover that I do have some friends. Not just friends, but FRIENDS. I've been able to weed out the people who like me from the people who really love me, and I've discovered that there are a lot of people who really do love me. They keep me going in this world and remind me that I don't have to go through this alone. If any of you are reading this, and you know who you are, I thank you all. You have touched me in ways that you will never know. I love all of you!