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Madison's Updates...

Madison Rabush ~ 6 Years old
Kindergartener
(Updated May 16, 2007)
 
It has been quite a long time since my last update about Madison.  Well...sit back and get ready to READ READ READ!!
 
Madison is now 6 years old and I believe I left off with a diagnosis direction (over a year ago...sorry... been busy LIVING!). 
 
The cerebellum atrophy was confirmed last summer (Sept 2006) by her NEW NEW NEW neurologist at CHOP. Her new doctor specializes in ataxias. She had another MRI in August and it showed a decrease in the cerebellum. All of her MRIs were compared and the atrophy has continued in the superior vermis of her cerebellum.  This means that "whatever" she has is getting worse...technically...however we have yet to "SEE" any evidence of this. 
 
Her balance and coordination aren't any better but it's not any worse either.  She can sit without effort (some days she still falls over but not nearly as much as she did)...I'd say that her sitting is just about normal.  She can tall kneel for a few seconds and crawl on all fours (but still prefers to commando crawl).  She started walking really well with a walker called a WENZELITE...she can actually "run" with it!!
She climbs everything and loves to slide on sliding boards.  She is my little daredevil!
 
Her speech has made some slow progress but it is difficult to understand.  She is determined to get her points across and talks constantly. No sentences but a lot of words.  Sometimes she will say two syllables now and boy is she funny!  She makes jokes now too. We don't have any difficulty understanding her.
 
She is beautiful and so full of life and although her struggles are daily she still SHINES!!  She sees herself with rose colored glasses and doesn't let her differences get her down.  She IS MY HERO!  I wish I could be more like my daughter.  I wish I could just love things the way she does...even the obstacles she takes in stride...always with a smile!
 
Back to the update:
 
We spent another wonderful summer at our "sliver of river".  Daddy really made this a nice retreat for his baby.  It is accessible for her wheelchair and geared mostly as a place where Madison can just fit in and have fun!!  This will continue on to our "main house" as we begin to make renovations on our home.  All renovations are geared toward Madison and her future.  Sweetwater...guess we're staying!!!
 
Madison started Kindergarten in September 2006 and well...she has excelled.  She is in a mainstream class this year and has learned a lot.  She is cognitively and developmentally behind but she is learning...slow and steady.  She loves school.  She hardly ever uses her wheelchair at school.  She is walking with her walker.  Making friends, going to birthdays and singing...she loves to sing or at least do the motions!
 
Madison has two wonderful aides that help her fit in and participate. They are a blessing and really make sure Madison is on task. This girl, my baby, loves school.  She will repeat Kindergarten next year and then she will probably go into a special ed program for first grade.
 
Madison just celebrated her 6th birthday in March and while we didn't actually have her party yet...we plan to do that at Disney in June (along with Christopher's).  We had a family party this year.  No big Dora gala like in 2006. But it was a curious little celebration with GEORGE!
 
Madison is playing baseball for the South Jersey Field of Dreams which is a league that was started 3 years ago for kids with differences.  She totally loves baseball and loves that she has a uniform like Chris.
 
We are taking the summer off from school, therapy, LIFE to relax and travel.  Vacations are in the works...first to Disney...perhaps Mt. Rushmore and Yellowstone too!
 
Chris is almost a second degree blackbelt and keeping busy with lots of sports...cross country, track, baseball, basketball and soccer...he is one busy kid...but one great kid too...still the best brother Madison could have asked for!!  He'll be starting 7th grade in the fall.  We are very proud of his patience and diligence with school and Madison.
 
I don't have much more to update...I'm working on my special ed degree and working steadily as a volunteer or teacher at the kids' school...Scott is still working (as usual)...we're just appreciating the things that have come our way...obstacles and all!  Wouldn't change a thing!! Well maybe one or two!
Over and out for now!

Madison at 4.10 months
January 2006
 
Well...we FINALLY HAVE A DIAGNOSIS...we took Madison to NIH (Bethesda, MD) in September 2005 and they found something that has been missed ALL THESE YEARS in her MRI...Madison has something called CEREBELLAR ATROPHY...it falls into a group of diseases known as CEREBELLAR ATAXIA DISEASES...while have a definite direction now...we are still waiting for the official official dx...that is finding out which particular disease she has...I don't even know if we'll pursue it...she is who she is...can't change this...and nothing about what we do for Madison would change anyway.  The only reason we are thinking of pursuing it would be that NIH said these diseases can be degenerative and are genetic.  Might not happen for 2 or 200 years...but she could lose some ability.  So with that in mind...we might try to figure out the exact NAME...to give us an idea of the future. 
 
Anyhow...Drs have said that this is genetic...autosomal recessive...meaning me and Scott were carriers of a gene...each additional child we decide to have has a 25% chance of being like Maddie...now that's not a BAD THING...but one of Maddie is a lot of work...so I don't think we will be having any additional children. We learned that Christopher is more than likely a carrier...so long as he doesn't meet another carrier is isn't likely his children would be affected.  But hey, Scott and I met...
 
Back to her cerebellum defect...her problem exists in the VERMIS which is the middle of the cerebellum...to be exact the atrophy is in the superior cerebellar vermis.  The rest of her cerebellum is good...the part that is affected...branches out...like a tree...and her branches happen to be narrower than they should be...causing her all of these problems...you see the cerebellum...and vermis...is like the HUB of Balance...without this HUB balance is really limited...which is why Madison can't stand or walk...it is no longer a strength issue.  Madison's balance and coordination are significantly impaired...affecting not only her physical abilities but expressive speech as well.  Never knew how important good coordination was...bet you didn't either!!
 
So these narrow branches...NIH says is the result of atrophy...atrophy however you look at it is not a nice word...but sometimes atrophy JUST STOPS...Madison has always made progress...so clinically perhaps her atrophy has stopped??  After the appointment at NIH we saw her neurologist in NYC...and he thinks...and I do too...that perhaps it is something called HYPOPLASIA...I brought this up to him that maybe NIH is jumping to atrophy...when it might just be hypoplasia...underdevelopment.   So Madison has to have another MRI to check this out...and then all four of her MRIs will be compared and we will determine if the atrophy has gotten worse.  NIH leans toward atrophy because it seems to be the right size for her age??? But the narrow branches indicated to them atrophy.  OK so who REALLY KNOWS!!  I'm just thrilled to be given a direction after so many years of NOT KNOWING ANYTHING!!
 
YIPEE!!
 
She also has problems with her eyes because of this disease...the cerebellum controls eye movement...and she was diagnosed as having ocular motor apraxia, slow saccades, saccadic pursuit, horizontal and vertical nystagmus...but her vision so far is good...just the control is bad...they say this is part of this disease all the time...and they will monitor it.
 
OK so I'll recap a little about spring and summer!  We had an amazing summer...Scott and I bought a little piece of River front property back in like 1998...and we haven't really used it a lot...no money to actually enjoy it...but this past summer we really forced ourselves to use it...it's only a mile behind our house...we bought it as an investment...into our retirement...eventually we will build a little cabin there to retire in...lol...I can dream right...who could afford the taxes...anyhow...the kids had a blast...we swam...had picnics...played...had campfires...it was the best...and we can't wait for winter to end...so we can enjoy it all again!!!  Scott made it more accessible to Madison by adding a little walk...easier for her to crawl on and we can push her wheelchair on it too...he also built steps into the river so I can carry her down into the water...she had a blast...she loves swimming in the water!!
 
We used the boat a lot this summer too...but I was more into watching Madison swim...so I stayed behind a lot with her.  Christopher learned how to kneeboard and he tried skiing...wasn't fond of it...but loved kneeboarding.
 
We have amazing friends who let us stay a week in Sea Isle City, we enjoyed the beach and the boardwalk...Scott and Chris went fishing and crabbing...they even tryed clamming.  It was a great week and we thoroughly enjoyed getting away from it all!!! 
 
We got chickens  and a rooster in the spring and they are providing us with lots and lots of eggs...it is really cool...we are hoping to hatch some babies this spring...the kids are enjoying living on a "farm" lol...
 
Madison continues to do riding therapy and she does gymnastics...Chris is a junior blackbelt and ran cross country this fall...he loves to run and jog...he is in the 5th grade this year.  Madison is in preK for the third year but will start kindergarten in September 2006...woo hoo!!
 
I'll keep you posted on any new developments!!

Madison at 4.2 years old
50 months ~ Spring 2005
 
It has been a year since our last update.  I apologize.  Madison is an incredible little girl.  She is still progressing in a positive way.  There have been no set backs though her progression is still very slow.
We still have no diagnosis for Madison. 
 
Last summer was very busy and so was this past fall and winter.  I went back to college and graduate this May.  I then begin graduate school in the fall, tenatively I plan to pursue my masters in special education with a dual degree in psychology.
 
We had a wonderful hypotonia boardie reunion/conference in Tampa last summer and we met some really great people with kids similar and not so similar to Madison.  It was very therapeutic to make such great connections.  I plan to get together with these same families in the future.
 
We also spent a week in Sea Isle for a family vacation.  It was nice to relax and think of nothing but fun, sun, & sand!  Scott and I really needed the break!  My sister's baby arrived without incident in August...Benjamin Dave Dixon. He is super cute and a handful!
 
Madison finished the school year with success she is in the same classroom atmosphere again this year and next year too.  She is getting almost three years of pre-k.  She is doing very well but progress is slow and on Maddie's time (expressive speech & physical limitations are her largest deficits currently)
 
...she has learned all of her colors, shapes, can count and knows some letters...specifically one's in her name.  She is still not talking like we wish...but we are becoming more accepting of her deficit in this area.  She will always have labored speech because of the CP and respiration issues.  She rarely says sentences and doesn't often put two words together.  Madison leaves all ends off the words and only speaks first syllables.  There is some guessing involved...yet she communicates with us without frustration.  Her receptive ability is on target and she understands everything you tell her and anything you ask her to do.  It is really refreshing...we've waited a long time to become comfortable with this.  Her cognitive skills are behind but not by far and mostly still because of motor issues...she is still only at a gross motor level of about 12 months (mostly stuck because of the not walking, balance issue)...however she can manipulate her body better than a 12 month old as far as cognition is concerned. Confusing I know!
 
We recently got her a Dynavox Communication Device to give her a more expressive outlook on life.  She uses it as a toy right now...but our hope is she will adjust and realize this will help her talk to her friends and teachers.  Really really cool device!  I love it! I hope she gets it soon!
 
She loves school, loves her friends, and even has a boyfriend...lol.  She initiates play and often conversates with others.  She is hard to understand...but she usually manages to get her point across with signing and pointing...etc.  No one will be putting Madison in a corner anytime soon...the attitude won't allow it!  It's a good thing she has spirit it will take her places inspite of her disability!
 
Madison is still small about 37 inches and 26 lbs but she doesn't look like a baby anymore...she is a little girl...all grown up!  Of course still will only drink pediasure from a bottle...and she needs that nutrition so we continue with it!
 
She is playing T'Ball this year and recently performed in the gym show.  It was a SENIOR PROM 2018 theme...and boy was that cute!!  She still has a personal aide to help her throughout her day.
 
Madison is fearless...unless you are an animal then she won't like you...lol...but man the girl can climb, do summersaults, rolls, squats (she can walk in a squat position...like a crab), she is amazing...yet she isn't any closer to walking independently than she was a year ago.  Her compensation and manipulation of her body is what is improving...her balance hasn't.  I think that will prevent her from independent walking.  She fallen so many times but doesn't give up...she has literally broken her nose twice...gotten cuts all overs...gashes and bruises on her forward are constant...yet she goes!!  One therapist said it best...we like to see bumps and bruises it means they're moving!
 
She was accepted into the SHRINER'S hospital program...the CP clinic.  They are following her case and offering many supports.  We are very pleased.  She has a problem with her hips and they are helping us correct it.  Madison wears a night time brace for that...which she hates.
 
We found a comfortable piece of walking equipment for Madison it is a guardian walker.  She does OK with it but still isn't using it consistently...though more often than before.  They use her crocodile gait trainer at school now for gait training.  She still relies mostly on her wheelchair for getting around and is pretty good with her maneuvering of it!
 
Many things are planned for this summer and I will try to update often on her progress...for now we just love her and that is all we can do.
 
Her spirit is amazing and there isn't anything she can't do. I am so very proud of who shes becoming.  What lessons she has taught.  She's only 4...she has many more years of making a difference in lives.  She might be different but different is OK!
Heck different is great!
 
Madison is my hero!

Madison at 3.2 years old
(Spring / Summer 2004)
 
Madison turned 3 years old on March 29, 2004.  We had a big gala for her at our firehouse in Sweetwater.  Many friends and family came out to celebrate her life.
 
Turning three meant a big change from Early Intervention to our local school system.  It has been a remarkably pleasant transition. Madison takes the bus to school each day...just like a "regular kid".  She enjoys it thoroughly.  Maddie now receives most of her therapies through the school district.  She is mainstreamed in a pre~K class.  It is our districts preschool handicap program.  She is with typical kids and they provide many modeling opportunities for her.  Madison has a one on one aide and all the adaptations she needed. I am enthusiastic that she will do very well here...and pray it is a correct placement for her.  Had we chosen a SPED preschool...her bus ride would be much longer as she would have to transport out of district.  We are giving our school the opportunity to pave a way for more kids like our Madison.  And if we find this is not a proper placement...we have looked into many remarkable SPED preschools...and will make the change if necessary.
 
2 1/2 years ago...our life changed forever...we were given two choices upon learning about our daughter's differences.  We could take her disability and keep it at that or we could choose to let her "LIVE"...and turn that disability into a beautiful LIFE!  We chose the latter.  There isn't a day that goes by that we don't fight for Madison and her LIFE. We are her only voice...and we are HEARD.  Madison is a remarkable little girl.  She has changed so many lives...she has filled so many voids...she is LIFE and she gives LIFE!  Three years later...and now we wouldn't change a thing about our daughter.  Her differences are what makes her unique and special.  She has blessed this family and made us WHOLE.  She has blessed so many other people and have changed their lives.  She's our HEART!!
 
Most of Madison's test results came in...all were still negative/ non specific and inconclusive...WE WON'T be finding a diagnosis.  Scott and I are settled in this reality. We have a very unique case and the doctors just don't know what to tell us.  We recently underwent genetic screening and are waiting those results (nothing was found ~ Fall 2004).  Madison had some more blood and urine testing...they are still pending.  Madison has many appointments this spring and summer.  Genetics, Endocrine, Neurology, Metabolic Specialist, Gastroenterology...it just doesn't end.  She is having a skin biopsy and endoscopy.
 
 Truth is "WE" have given up....big change in my attitude.  We will just continue to treat her symptoms and give her the external supports she needs.  If by chance we RUN into a DX...then GOOD it wasn't all in vain...but in the meantime...WE WILL LET LIVE...truth is so much time has passed a diagnosis isn't going to change anything.  It will just give her a label...and answer some questions for us.  She has a secondary dx of ataxic hypotonic cerebral palsy and static encephalapathy...but they are just symptoms...NO CAUSE IN SIGHT.
 
Maddie is still moving along very slowly...she began crawling in a quad position at Christmas time...and she is getting quite quick with it...she still prefers to commando crawl.  She is walking much nicer in her KAYE walker...she looks goods...we can muster up about 10 consecutive steps before getting tired.  A HUGE improvement. Her speech is becoming more understandable and she adds more single words every day.  She says a couple 3 word sentences...like "I'm a BOY!!" (she wants to be JUST like her brother). "Maddie's bus",  "Come Here" etc...etc...they are very slurred and hard to understand.  Her doctor has dxed it as dysarthria...she has the language but can't express them motor issue wise (muscle related). 
 
She has two black eyes right now...because she's my little tom boy and there isn't anything she won't try. She wants to be so independent...it's becoming very SCARY!!! 
 
Her receptive language is just amazing...there isn't anything she doesn't understand.  She is learning so much at school...her colors...shapes...letters...I'm very impressed with her cognitive progress and her ability to learn.  I pray that she continues to make wonderful advances!!
 
This summer is very busy for the RABUSH family...we leave for a Special Needs Hypotonia Conference down in Tampa...we are spending a week at the Shore in Sea Isle...Going to another conference in Virginia (a mini conference).  Madison is having two surgeries...we have TIMMYS REGATTA VIII in July (more details to follow)...this years recipient is a little girl (2 1/2 with leukemia ~ All proceeds are tax deductible).  My girlfriend from California will be in town for the ENTIRE month of JULY...I'm so EXCITED!!  We are welcoming a new baby into the family...BABY BOY DIXON sometime in August. Christina (my sister) and her husband, Dave, are expecting their first!!.  We'll be visiting with them after the arrival.
 
 We are taking a summer break...one needed immensly...we will resume doctors and appointments...need be...in the fall!! The kids need a break...and honestly...so do Scott and I.
 
Until our next update!! THANKS FOR READING...the chronicles of "Madison's World"
 
 
Madison at 32 months old
Fall 2003 / Winter 2004

Madison is becoming such a big girl now.  She is almost 3 years old and she is still progressing...which is awesome.  Madison weighs approximately 24lbs and is 33 inches tall.  She is still very small for her age but still following her own growth curve.

Just to recap...our community had a benefit...TIMMY'S REGATTA VII for Madison.  The benefit was amazing.  About 5000 people attended throughout the day...400 motorcycles participated in the "RIDE FOR LIFE" run.  20 or so boats entered the "BOAT PARADE".  They had an auction the night before. The weekend event were awesome. There were carnival games for the kids, food and drink for the adults, boat rides, pie eating, dunk tank and more.  It was all good...and by the end of the EVE...they had raised a lot of money in "TRUST for Madison". THANK YOU SWEETWATER, FAMILY and FRIENDS...you have all helped make a difference in Madison's life. 

Maddie recently became the new owner of a RIFTON PACER gait trainer. This piece of equipment helps Madison stand and eventually walk.  She can push (walk) herself around on smooth surfaces...the carpet in our house is too much for her to handle...we go mall walking for practice.  Madison also has a bath seat (COLUMBIA BATH SEAT) which works wonders for her sitting in water and actually on dry land as well too.  She loves the freedom it gives her.  Again without the money from the benefit we would not have been able to get her these great pieces of equipment. She has been fitted for a WHEELCHAIR (A Pink Zippie GS) and we hope to get her an adaptive stroller for shorter less independent trips. 

Madison is doing well cognitively and will transition into handicap preschool after Christmas.  She will mainstream into an inclusion class in our school district.  It is a prekindergarten class with typical developing children.  Hopefully, this will be right for Maddie.  We will see...she will start full time in March 2004.  The session is only half day and will give me a much needed break from her care. 

Madison's results from her muscle biopsy are unsettling...mostly for the reason that...we don't know anything more than we did.  We had hoped to receive a diagnosis with this procedure but the results are non~specific and inconclusive.  Her TYPE 2 FIBERS are abnormal but this is more than likely a result of her condition and not a cause of it.  Her metabolic testing came back mostly normal with the exception of a ??Copper Transporation System?? and low levels of Potassium and Carnitine.  Also...leading to a NON DIAGNOSIS at this time.  Madison will see Dr. DeVivo for more tests in December and we will discuss our options further than.  In his opinion, based upon the results we did get, he feels her condition is not progressive in the sense that she will not die.  Her muscle condition could become progressively worse...REGARDLESS...because of her lack of using them.  We understand that a diagnosis at this point...can not fix, cure, change...who Madison is but we had hoped that with a diagnosis...we (her parents and extended families) might find some peace.  It is unfortunate to have been searching for 2 years and come upon another dead end...but we will not give up our journey until someone can tell us what went wrong. 

Madison is amazing and I wouldn't trade that but our desire to learn more about her situation is undeniable and I won't stop...we owe this effort to her, her brother, our family.  We still have the hope that the Lumbar Puncture will give us some definative answers (also inconclusive / non specific ~ January 2004)...as this is still pending at Baylor...we should have the results by January sometime. In the meantime, Dr. DeVivo wants to give her an Ataxic Hypotonic CP diagnosis for the school system.  This way she will get what she needs (therapy wise).  Sometimes I feel that any diagnosis good or bad is better than NO DIAGNOSIS.  Quite honestly, this all STINKS!!

Madison at 28 months old
(July 2003)
 
Well...I finally had a moment to update everyone on Madison's Muscle Biopsy...it went perfectly!!  Great Doctors and Hospital!!  She was such a trooper...back to her smiley self the very next day. The ride home was horrible there was an accident on the turnpike and it took us an additional 5 hours to get home...what a trooper after surgery! Anyhow... They did the biopsy on her muscles and a lumbar puncture...more urine and blood testing too.  All the procedures were done while she was asleep. 
 
The hardest part was getting her put under...she cried...she was terrified!!  I heard her screaming from the OR...Scott was with her...it is a very unsettling experience...as you tell your children that it's OK when in reality...IT'S NOT!!
Scott & myself had a difficult time with this...reality is that this stinks for our daughter...reality is WE can't fix this...this is the life she was given...and we can't take away the pain.
 
Needless to say...IT's OVER...and now the fun begins...THE WAIT!! Earliest we'll have some idea of results is October they tell us.  But the idea of finally putting a name to Madison's problems will be refreshing...we will get her the help she needs and GOD willing we will GET A MIRACLE!!  They do happen!
 
Received confirmation that doing this testing was important...last Thursday...one day before she was admitted...there was a Dr. Hyland on Good Morning America...he has been able to take Cerebral Spinal Fluid and analyze it for metabolic disorders.  He is at Baylor Clinic in Texas...it is the only lab in the country that does this type of testing.  Now...it's evening and I'm filling out insurance papers...and release papers the night before...her surgery. When I come across a paper to give permission for Columbia to send some of her Spinal Fluid to this very same Dr. in Texas.  Miracle...a sign...who can be sure...but Scott and I feel really positive that we are pursuing the right track.  We are with very good Drs all over the country.  I just keep praying that our family will get that miracle...and Madison will live a normal...near normal life one day! Here is the link to the Good Morning America Transcript...you'll see why I was so excited...this little girl is very much like our Madison. Be sure to check out the related stories in the right hand corner...Dr. Hyland has had many miracles...Madison is his next!!!
 
 
 
On a lighter note...things for the REGATTA are really coming together.  Her picture has appeared in many local papers.  It will be a weekend like no other...and it's all about Madison and helping her...WHO SAID SHE COULDN'T BE PRINCESS FOR A DAY??  She's our princess everyday!!  I will update with more after the Regatta...THANK YOU for keeping up with our family's journey through...
"Maddie's Time"
 
 

Madison at 27 months old
2.3 years old
Summer 2003
 
Madison is finally scheduled for her muscle biopsy at Columbia Presbyterian...Dr. Feldstein ~ pediatric neurosurgeon will be doing the biopsy and lumbar puncture.  She will also be having some more genetic testing and blood / urine analysis.  July 11th is the date...a Friday...hopefully as long as all goes well...we will be able to leave that evening.  We are sick about putting her through more testing but desperately want some answers. 
 
In the meantime...Madison is sitting more and more...she can sit using only minimal hand support...called Tripod position...I honestly didn't know if I'd ever see the day that I can sit her down and not worry so much about her falling right over.  We did have an accident a few weeks ago...she fell over and smacked her face on a door jam...landed us in the ER for stitches...however Madison was so upset the ER doctor wouldn't stitch her and just sent us home saying if it didn't stop bleeding by tomorrow bring her back in.  The inside wound was worse than her outside lip.  Who knew sitting would be so painful...lol.
 
Anyhow...Madison is enjoying the summer and loves kicking and splashing in the pool.  We had to order her a medical bath seat ($410) because she is finally too big for the bath ring and keeps tipping them over and going under.  I just want her to have as many "normal" experiences as possible...I don't want anything to hold her back...she is very bright and so happy.  Cigna is not contracted with Scott's company to provide medical bath seats...they said to submit it to Medicaid...if we had Medicaid that might work!!  Of course we don't so it's YET another out of pocket expense...but has proven well worth every dime.  She has to have a good summer and this will let her sit in water without falling.  It is a Columbia Bath Support...found at adaptivemall.com...It should be in this Wednesday...in time for the 4th of July weekend...we plan on spending some of the weekend in Avalon at the beach...so it will work well!!
 
Madison still shows positive signs of progression and her vocabulary is increasing...we understand most of her words...but to anyone other than her family...I think she would be hard to understand.  She says about 40 aproximations of words now...I really have to write them all down.  She is still not crawling in Quad...and is no where near balanced enough to stand up...but she is pulling to stand at the coffee table and as long as we give her full support...she can do it and walk too!  Her steps are a high awkward gait...but in a cute...clumsy way!!  We should be getting her Pacer Gait Trainer shortly and hopefully can do some serious walking with that. I so want to give her more independence.
 
Madison wants to be normal...she loves going through the tubes at Chuckie E Cheese with all the big kids...she is independent and loves her life regardless of her struggles.  Now that she is getting older...she is more aware and does get frustrated with herself.  It is very sad for us to watch.  However, her motivation is sky high and her perseverance is beautiful...she does not fatigue easily and her stamina is awesome...she's like the energizer bunny and NEVER quits!!
 
We recently had a positive neurology appointment...I think it was a first...no tears from me.  The neurologist thought she was doing wonderfully...better than he anticipated...considering last October the geneticist and neurologist told me she would be severe to significant MR...they said we missed the opportunity to change Madison's outlook.  They took it all back and said...I have this quite normal two year old with unfortunatly a physical disability.  Cognitively she is pretty good....scored a solid 15 months with skills through 28 months...so her final score was 22 months (she was only 25 months when she was tested) We were very pleased...and NO social delays at all...she scored above average.  Her gross motor skills are only at a 7 months level but fine motor FINAL score was about 18-20 months.  Her Speech lags pretty good...Expressive about 9-12 months and Receptive much better 18-20 months. Again she was only 25 months when she was tested. This was all positive...as our world was blown to bits when they said she "wasn't there".
 
So in the meantime...we just keep plugging away with THERAPY THERAPY THERAPY...as this is what REALLY HELPS MADDIE.  We are getting excited about the TIMMY'S REGATTA CHARITY EVENT...at this point we have so many medical bills...it will be a relief to get out from them.  We will have to pay for part of her surgery and visit to Columbia as well...but anticipate Cigna will pick up the biggest portion.
 
As for our community...they are amazing!!  Such an outpouring of love and commitment to our family...I never really understood what community meant...until now!!  THANK YOU!! THANK YOU!! for making a difference in my family already!

Madison at 2 years old
Spring 2003
 
Madison remains undiagnosed with a neuromuscular disorder compounded with the possible metabolic error...she is to undergo a muscle biopsy and other tests...but we are still waiting for the insurance approvals and hospital dates...it's all quite exhausting considering this was to be done in January and now we're in April and still waiting!! Our insurance only approved a visit to the neurosurgeon...Dr. Feldstein but Dr. DeVivo wants the tests to be done regardless...so we have to see what happens...we will be responsible for some of the cost.  It is an out of network Dr.
 
Madison has turned TWO...this spring (March 29th)...and she has made some great progress!!  Madison has nearly mastered sitting...she remains wobbly and with out balance but has begun to use some compensation skills.  She can stop herself from falling over most of the time...we do still get some bumps and bruises...but they are getting less and less.  It will be picture time soon...lol.
 
Maddie still can not  crawl in quad, stand, or walk but in 12 weeks we should have a new RIFTON PACER GAIT TRAINER. This gait trainer will come with full support and it is our hope that as her ability increases that support will decrease.  The gait trainer will give Madison the ability to stand up and eventually walk.
 
Madison's swallowing and vomiting has decreased even more...we only run into episodes if she cries for prolonged periods or when she is sick (mucus build up especially)...because she is vomiting less and less...she has begun to enjoy meal times.  Madison is trying new foods...mixed textures...and has even tried some tender chicken and ham.  She's doing very well...and no longer gets feeding therapy (oral).  She drinks well from a sipper cup (when she wants too) and can drink from a straw too.  We still rely on a bottle to get her calories via pediasure (4 cans per day). Funny thing she will not drink pediasure out of a cup...nor will she drink juice from a bottle.  We are dealing with some minor behavior issues...lol.
 
Madison's gross motor skills seem to remain her biggest obstacle...being that her problems are neuromuscular... but her other skills are SHINING!!!  Her speech is beginning to pick up and she is more verbal...making many new sounds and even imitating some words...juice (DUCE)...dog (DOA)...down (DOW)!!  Speech therapy has helped her reach these new verbal milestones.  Fine motor skills are becoming more useful...she can actually get the Fisher Price Little People to sit in there seats on the bus...she is feeding herself with a spoon and fork (messy but she's doing it...she wants to be very independent...a little 2 year old attitude....something typical ~ HURRAY!!)...and the girl is pointing...she points to everything!!  Her cognitive ability is the most impressive she now has skills mostly on target with her age.  She tested in at about 19 months with scattered skills through to 28 months.  This is awesome as this is our main concern.  Drs have said that she would have severe mental deficits and she is proving them wrong!!
 
Madison's deficits are directly related to her physical disability...as with any physical ailment there will be other affected areas...her speech, her cognitive, and self help.  We make every effort to keep her cognitive abilities on track.  There are obvious differences with Madison compared to "normal" two year olds...but we try not to let them bring us down.  We are very proud of her and all her accomplishments...she works really hard!  And brings much love and joy to our home.
 
Our community is holding its annual charity benefit for Madison's behalf...this gesture is the most amazing act of kindness and we are so thankful to be living in such a caring community...they all want to help give our daughter the life she deserves...and for that we will be forever grateful.  Thank You!!!
 
 
 
 

"Little ones to Him belong, They are weak but He is strong"
Author Unknown
 

Madison at 22 months
 
Winter 2003
 
Madison has been sick for most of the winter, she has a very vulnerable immune system.  She had strep throat twice and lost several pounds which we are trying desperately to regain.  Last week, Madison had a double ear infection and sinus infection.  Needless to say...we try to only leave the house when we have too.  Can't wait for spring to come. 
 
Madison recovered briefly when we were visiting Nana & PopPops house in the Carribean for Christmas.  We wonder if it isn't an intollerance to the cold weather.
 
Madison was sceduled to be admitted to Columbia Presbyterian Hospital on the 23rd...this visit was postponed to a future date (presently unknown).  Our insurance approvals did not go through and the office is working to find a solution.
 
Madison's vertical nystagmus (her eye dysfunction) had been virtually absent for almost a year...but has recently returned.  She is also sleeping with her eyes open...which I thought was due to her lack of tone.  Her doctor said it can be a indicator of muscular dystrophy (but remember her reflexes are still good).  I have contacted her neuros office to let him know about these developments.
 
Maddie has several appointments coming up in the next few weeks, in addition to her hospital stay.  She has a gastro appointment and a neuro~opthamalogist appt next week.  She also has an appointment coming up with her neuro...and a impending EI evaluation.  I inquired about getting her a hearing evaluation as well.  Her therapists thought we should start using a picture exchange form of communication...in hopes to encourage some speech.
 
Madison continues to amaze us with her spirit and motivation...she COMPLETES us!
 
 

"Let the wise listen..." Proverbs 1:5

Madison at 20 months old

(fall 2002)

Madison has had a very busy FALL...as you read...she saw a geneticist in September...who decided to run several series of tests...all of the testing came back normal...she was tested for William's Syndrome, Some repeat Lab work (prior bad results).  Madison also had a repeat MRI in October at CHOP...this MRI...showed her brain developing normally...meylinating (sp?) as it should.  This was a relief as we had been told that we WOULD see damage on this MRI...MIRACLE IN PROGRESS?!? She was tested for Cystic Fibrosis as well. Our visit in October with her neurologist was a huge wake up call for our family...Madison's delays are now defined as disabilities and it is occurring to us that they are not going away and she will not catch up to her peers.

Anyway...moving along...we had our visit with the specialist in NYC...Columbia Presbyterian Medical Center at the Neurological Institute...he is a guru in the metabolic/mitochondrial fields...is director of pediatric neurology.  The overall visit was very good.  He did complete histories on our family and examined Madison carefully.  It is his determination that Madison's Hypotonia is of Central Origin meaning...that it is a central nervous system deficit...neuro problem.  He felt her tone wasn't that low...but she has a gross delay in function.  Called her very uncoordinated (which we knew) and said it was what he considers dys~equalibrium.  He was quite "impressed" with her lack of motor ability. He also felt the Madison has truncal ataxia and his impression of her hypotonia is more than was one would see in a regular occurance of hypotonia. He feels it will be in Madison's best interest to have her admitted to Columbia for some controlled and invasive testing.  They will admit Madison, short term, and perform a muscle biopsy, spinal tap, MRS (like a MRI but measures brain chemicals??) and more blood and urine testing for specific mito/meta disorders. 

He validates our reasons for wanting to find a diagnosis but warned that although we may diagnose a metabolic condition...most can not be fixed, treated, or cured.  He said he wished that all kids could have the kind of problem that can be treated with vitamins or diet change.  It is our hope that Madison's condition will be treatable.

Madison's gross motor improvement is so slow the doctors aren't sure how much further she will go...they give you a 24 month cut off for sitting.  If she can not sit independently by 24 months (without support of hands) then more than likely she will never sit or walk.  We, of course, disagree and believe that she will eventually sit and stand and even walk.  What the doctors don't realize is we have the Lord on our side! And a heck of a lot of FAITH!

Madison is currently seeking more services through the intervention system...we hope to get her 2 days of PT, 1 day of OT, 1 day of ST and 1 day of Cognitive therapy. She qualifies for a CH9 based upon our income therefore the state will provide her with therapy above and beyond the required 2 hours per week.  As long as our insurance will still cover visits to Bacharach Rehabilitation Center we will continue to take her.  Our insurance will provide her with 60 visits of rehab per diagnosis per lifetime...we will try to get approvals to continue when we've exhausted the allotted amount. Presently, she is receiving PT at Bacharach and soon to be getting Speech and OT as well.  At 20 months old, Madison's developmental age for Gross motor skills is about 5/6 months, her fine motor and cognitive is about 9 months, her speech is about 9 months and her social skills is about 13 months.  She is considered GLOBALLY DELAYED (this assessment done by her neurologist).  Her EI assessments have been more promising.

We feel that we will find a diagnosis for Madison sometime next year, once the testing is complete. We have been searching for over a year for answers.  We have been told that Madison's window has been missed and she will retain many deficits...as quoted by our doctor "she will never be a normal 5 year old, she will never be a normal 13 year old, she won't be a normal 17 year old and will not be a normal adult".  Obviously, accepting this has been painful...but it is our hope that Madison's Journey will "save" another child one day.  And to give the reassurance that although all those original "dreams" are different...it is still OK.  She is our beautiful, little angel...a miracle from above...and without a doubt she will continue to touch the lives of everyone around her.  To know Madison is to know unconditional love and to be able to experience unconditional love...is, no doubt, a little piece of HEAVEN!

 
   

"Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall
sustain thee: he shall never suffer the
righteous to be moved."
Psalm 55:22

"Hugs multiply when you give them away"
Author Unknown
 
"Give, and you will receive.
You will be given much....The way you give to others
is the way God will give to you."
Luke 6:38