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i
think
there
is
a lot
of
problem
solving
ability
associated
with
depression
van
goghs
painting is
at his
best
in
his
last
months
theres
a
lot
of
non
casual
shit
in
this
world
yes, i believe.
you know that you do not have the right?
the
face
of
death
there
are
no
rights
the
human
brain
is
much
more
demanding
nutritionally
than
the
body
why
i
take
another's
grief
like
this
i
don't
know
the
worlds
most
financially
successful
artist
alive
at
the
moment
paints
these
kitschy
english
cottage
rose
garden
scenes
van
gogh
shot
himself
then
walked
wounded
what
must
have
seemed
endless
miles
and
died
penniless
his
paintings
were
given
away
last
writing
is
a
natural
mode
of
thought
it
develops
you
it
is
always
worthwhile
if
you
let
it
follow
its
natural
line
and
stupidity
are
the
writers
lot
i
never
wanted
to
be
a
writer
the
words
sucked
me
in
publishing
this
is
little
and
big
editors
are
no
talent
twits
some
are
malign
you
need
to
slay
your
own
body
i
don't
think
many
get
that
it
arises
naturally
but
something
extra
is
required
i
just
go
to
sleep
for
a
long
long
time
and
never
wake ?
i
feel
today
has
contained
more
mistakes
than
most
but
if
i
am
honest
the
day
before
contained
a
fair
few
too
not
even
minor
i'm
non
existant
women
are
a
predator
i
don't
know
what
men
are
i
don't
think
they
are
anything
in
particular
at
this
point
i have
finished
writing
i
am
called
to
people
of
infinite
need
scary
isn't
it ?
a
decent
computer
and
broad
band
link
and
you
can
get
a
way
better
arts
education
than
any
university
you
can't
prevent
the
world
going
to
seed
an
infinite
sink
of
need
bill
unfortunately
amber
too
and
donald
and
john
i
think
we
are
different
not
so
needy
thats
why
everyone
latches
onto
us
tho
our
message
sticks
in
their
throats
evolution
is
one
of
the great
advances
in
human
understanding
along
with
string
theory
chemistry
and
the
periodic
table
biochemistry
and
medicine
you
have
no
idea
how
mis
targeted
the thinking
could
be
on
these
subjects
when
you
do
things
its
important
not
just
to
get
the
job
done
but
take
extra time
to
gain
insight
into
the
process
stalin
someone
who
makes
ivan
the
terrible
look
like
a
little
mouse
if
you
seek
truth
in
collectives
you
are
going
to
get
a
collective
truth
that
is
truth
by
committee
my
work
will
fall
into
the
hands
of
collectives
:o(
a
pass
[sexual]
is
quite
a violent
thing
they are all totally tasteless
[usa]
low life users basically
its
the culture
think
i'm
thinking
of
myself
as
a
writer
now
i
have
written
so
much
don't
know
how
to
reason
its
all
them
or
others
but this
[poetry the bcd, compendium]
has
a
life
of
its
own
you
just
follow
that
its
the
nature
of
the
first
rate
to
be
killed
by
the
second
rate
people
are
like
mosquitos
or
flies
so
much
the
same
nothing
works
if
something
works
you
just
haven't
broadened
the
context
enough
stretched
beyond
stretching
the
upper
class
and
lower
class
have
always
been
united
against
the
middle
class
democracy
the
middle
class
paying
for
the
breeding
of
the
lower
class
here
i
am
teaching
again
will
it
be
interesting
uninteresting
dullards
stupids
a
spark
of
light
do
you
have
to
be
so
schizophrenic ?
i
guess
you
do
thats
the
nature
of
it
you
can't
touch
whats
between
another
persons
ears
they
love
you
and
this
is
the
excuse
for
suffocating
you
everything
is successive
approximation
there
is
an
asymmetry
in
the intensity
of
love
between
women
and
men
men
always
have
to
go
through
the motions
to
a
certain
extent
intense
relationships
can
be
void
gets
cuckolded
yahoo
iodine
those
singers
of
looney
tunes
we
look
at
each
other
and
what
do
we
see
i
see
a
wall
of
judgemental
retards
that
will
be
punitive
if
everything
is
not
sugar
coated
to
suit
their
preconceived
views
what
do
you
see?
the
trouble
with
zen
is
they
sorta
get
accelerated
into
what
is
too
strong
for
them
bukowski
has
his
weaknesses
hard
to
see
because
he
does
somethings
so
well
if
he
didn't
drink
he
wouldn't
have
had
to
chuck
half
his
poems
away
as
you
get
older
every
pain
worries
you
is
it
cancer?
how is it possible
for
a
woman
to
love
so
intensely
a
man
that
infuriates
so
much
his view on women
seen
though
broken
windows
is
fractured
what
does
that
say
about
her
women
are
pretty
much
cut
from
the
same
block
are
men?
i
don't
know
not
necessarily
michael
you
are
a fake
and
bloody
fraud
go
back
to
your
fantasies
of
fucking
the
virgin
mary
it goes that birds and dinosaurs had a common ancestor
then some birds eveloved into raptors
dinosaurs only ever dominated the earth because oxygen levels fell
birds and dinosaurs have different lungs which pump air through continuously
and alligators actually
crocidilians and birds and dinosaurs share a common ancestor
which must have have these continuous airflow lungs
its
very
simple
existence
is
an
estranged
condition
from
nonexistance
and
non
existence
is that towards
which
all
modes
of
existance
flow
why
this
single
literal
truth
exists
like
this
i
do
not
know
dealing
with
the
prophetic
read
what
you
write
read
it
again
anyone
can
see
it
the
modern
tendency
for
a
companies
employees
to
hijack
a
companies
proceeds in their favour
and
rob
the shareholders
heidegger :
great
philosophers
make
great
mistakes
there
is
some
validity
to
a
consensus
view
over
several
generations
but
a
consensus
view
within a generation
on
a fresh
matter
is
likely
to
be
wrong
the
world
would
be
a
better
place
if
university
arts
departments
were
closed
its
interesting
to
compare
schopenhauer and
heidegger
who
argues
that
technology
modifies
the
will
which
i think
is
an advance
what
is
unique
about
humans
is
the
extremity
of
tool
use
and
the way
humans
are
modified
by
tool
use
language
is
a tool
heidegger :
everything
has
to
be
experienced
the
price
of
genius
is
poor
sleep
and
skimped
meals
she
has
been
carried
and
now
has
to
start
carrying
herself
human
condition
is
schizophrenic
everybody
in
an
unreal
system
is
schizophrenic
aging
is
freaky
you
literally
start
to
dissolve
under
your
own
eyes
he's
such
an
arsehole
its
a
sort
of
violence
to
the
soul
to
do
anything
that
benefits
him
the
more
ignorant
they
are
the
more
they
protest
steer
well
clear
of
poets
their
lives
are
a
disaster
rather
than
do
something
its
better
to
do
nothing
maybe
i
could
sit
down
to
die
sad
farewell
to
family
friends
and
lover
then
what?
everything
that
has
occurred
already
occurs
and
will
never
occur
and
always occur
i
am
dead
but
my
words
live
on
freaky!
love
is
like
being
mauled
to
death
by
an
octopus
what
is
the
world?
i
don't
know
and
you
can't
tell
me
CAN'T
do
it
sometimes
your
only
defence
in
a
situation
is
not
to
care
its
the
caring
that
takes
the
time
and
creates
the
vulnerability
and
theres
no
return
if
you
only
look
to
your
peer
group
you
will
get
a
very
distorted
view
of
life
nothing
is
ever
right
my
attraction
for
toxic
burning
women
is
like
suicidal
schizophrenics
react
very
strongly
against
sanity
thats
almost
a definition
of
it
the degree
to
which
its
reacted
against
every
mistake
is
an
opportunity
to
look
in
detail
at
what
went
wrong
you
have
already
paid
the
penalty
for
it
why
not
take
advantage
of
it?
i
don't
think
quantum
computing
is
quantum
per
se
its
more
quantum
than digital
fuzzy
in
explain
explain
explain
said
the
guru
declaim
declaim
declaim
said
the
sceptic
wank
wank
wank
said
i
writing
fiction
is
pyschotic
religious
types
poets
and
nuts
talk
it
when
you
can
let
go
of
scholarship
then
you
will
be
a
scholar
the
whole
problem
with
zen
is
generalities
that
don't
work
theres
a
subtle
fatigue
with
aging
with
successive
year
after
year
that
sucks
i have
never
seen
true
atheism
its
a form
of
humanism
which
is
just
as
well
as
the
average
human
able
to
act
abominably
without
retribution
acts
abominably
men
who
have
regular
sex
are
pale
monsters
the
meaning
of
life ?
no
meaning
religious
teachers
are
flat
batteries
opportunity
cost
destroys
all
lives!
i
guess
it
has
it's
benefits
too
a
breaking
of
circles
though
it
can
lead
to
a
forming
of
them
the
most severe
law
of
life
appears
to
be
opportunity
cost
that
is
attention
to
and
proficiency
in
one
area
allows
other
areas
to
adversely
get
out
of
control
indeed
an
overall
balanced
view
of
success
in
life
is
an
effective
balancing
of
this
problem
the
woes
of
the
world
are
too
many
to
be
bourne
sanely
even
to
bear
the
woes
of
one
other
is
insanity
i
know
transmission
is
a
load
of
bullshit
is
it
meaningful
that
one
is
a
zen
master
or
is
transmission
just
a
load
of
bullshit
lest
i be labelled
again
let
me
say
that
men
are
an
inferior
intensity
to
women
and
don't
really
warrant
a
comment
breeding
is
such
a
nightmare
that
if
women
weren't
partly
insane
they
wouldn't
breed
i'd
rather
read
poetry
than
change
the
door
on
the
fridge
cure
me
please
of
this
strange
affliction
capitalism
is
wrong
communism
is
wrong
only
death
is
right
just
when
things
look
rosy
the
blight
of
age
creeps
on
i
see
so
much
blood
about
you ?
own
i
am
not
an
atheist
i
don't
say
no
god
i
say
god ?
if
you
answer
that
you
have
missed
the
point
successful
couple
matching
is
a
complementary
matching
of
similarity
and
dissimilarity
dissimilarity
is
more
important
nuttier
than
a
fruit
cake
their
pyschoses
are so boring
tv and movies basically
with
a
dash
of
religion
more
than
a dash
ideas without any reality testing
what she says is no nuttier than any religion
not
illegal
to
write
a
short
poem
or
obscure
thank
god!
i
think
a
certain
amount
of
pain
is
necessary
in
this
life
for
understanding
not
too
much
and
not
too
little
too
much
and
its
overwhelming
too
little
and
it
breezes
by
i
don't
think
that
zen
is
defensible
being
something
about
nothing
things
have
changed
yet
again
the
normal
condition
of
humans
is
complete
madness
we
are
two
angels
among
demons
what
i
have
started
to
people
do
not
have
an
overall
view
publicity
is
like
shaking
a
tree
of
leeches
that
fall
onto
you
the
great
secret
to
not
spending
unecessarily
is
to
wait
when
you
buy
you
know
you need it
the
nature
of
being
is
that
we
get
a very
incomplete
picture
of
things
when
we
start
to
fill
in
the gaps
it
gets
amazingly
coherent
action
and
reaction
empire
and
dιnouement
its
quite
hard
to
move
away
from
how
the
world
should
be
to
how
the
world
is
the
trouble
with
genius
is
it
always
goes
outside
the
social
boundaries
you
have
to
seek
a
null
point
where
you
conform
but
you
don't
theres
something
dead
about
zen
guys
they
never
respond
to
anything
unless
its
what
they
want
to
hear
i
think
its
a
tactic
to
make
them
appear
wiser
than
they
are
which
is
not
very
wise
i
really
think
john
loori
was
schizophrenic
able
charming
charitable
energetic
but
schizophrenic
the
more
ignore
me
the
better
the
basic
conclusion
of
poetry
and
poets
lives
is
its
not
worth
it
better
to
pay
attention
to
your
own
survival
the
problem
is
that
only
poetry
can
develop
you
in
a
certain
way
madelstham
arkamtova
bright
lives
that
burnt
out
the
net
is
not
infinite
but
finite
finite
infinity
oddly
poetry
is
perishable
the
language
changes
and
its
too
much
trouble
to
reconstruct
the
sense
the
translators just can't cope
i think in reality the poems are multilayered and missing quite a bit
what
about
having
kids ?
i'm
too
old
and
too
strange
the
pathetiqueness
of
getting
old
yeah
pathetic
hah
hah
what
is
the
limitation
of
an
explanation
that
it
mutates
while
being
looked
at
and
as
the
terms
of
reference
change
religion
has
more
to
do
with
philosophy
than
poetry
advertising
is
todays
propaganda
of
the
state
apparatus
which
is
democracy
socrates
had
the
last
laugh
suicide
there
is
more
of
a place
for
the
second
rate
in
life
than
the
first rate
the
second
rate
breeds
successfully
the
first
rate
is
crucified
by
the
second
rate
i
keep
having
to
explain
what
i
write
can
be
partly
synthetic
or
not
relating
to
me
at
all
but
observations
of
others
and
their
lives
the
males
role
is
a slave
so
why
wouldn't
i
rebel?
the
complaints
come
from
the
slave
masters
fearing
an
insurrection
they
needn't
worry
you
can't
defeat
biological
imperatives
i
think
there's
some
necessity
that
whatever
i
do
is
totally
fruitless
symmetry
is
not
necessarily
any
answer
an
imperfect
smoothing
that
conceals
thank
god
for
any
thing
he's
not
listening
reply
not
listening
cause
hes
not
there
ultra
rationality
sticks
in
the
female's
throat
some
things
unpin
miraculously
gone
they
clear
the
decks
for
something
new
its
a
funny
thing
to
come
into
some
facility
for
what
one
has
an
exceptional
ability
for
writing
and
thinking
dying
is
as
boring
as
hell
wait
for
one
day
then
the
day
after
and the
day
after
that
and
you
are
still
alive!
see
what
i
mean?
i
have
told
him/her
so
as there
is
no
god
buddha
or
jesus
its
not
very
meaningful
its
just
a
way
of
putting
something
what
i
approach
and
don't
approach
what
i
do
leads
to
the
approach
i
came
into
this
business
of
relationship
quite
late
in
life
late
enough
not
to
take
it
too
seriously
thank- god!
old
blood
wasted
and
decayed
it
doesn't
really
matter
how
it
goes
why
shouldn't
i
be
negative
on
women
despite
their
claims
what
is
their
first
loyalty
to?
themselves
and
their
children
men
can
be
suckers
what
is
health
mental
health
physical
health
what
is
health
call
yourself
a
philosopher
call
my
self
a
philosopher
time
to
get
back
to
the
3D
world
text
is
good
but
of
itself
has
no
depth
though
it
is
4D
which is
time
i
am
writing
for
eternity
therefore
i
don't
give
a
fig
how
popular
or
unpopular
this
is
why
does
life
have
to
be
so
depressing ?
you
think
its
not ?
think
again
you
are
looking
selectively
the
complete
and
utter
negativity
and
abysmal
nothingness
of
life
suicide
death
death
life
life
skite
skite
height
height
stupidity
breeds
best
but
true
intelligence
is formed on
the
anvil
of
destruction
women
manage
men
and
their
attachment
notions
of
magic
and
the
supernatural
are
a
distortion
of
the
idea
of
quantum
space
wherein
all the
answers
are
already
there
but
only
accessible
by
the
erosion
of
self
human
brains
are
not
a
s
well
nourished
as
they
used
to
be
you
can
just
eat
bread
you
will
still
breed
but
your
brain
will
be suet
what
use
is
self
esteem
on
a
message
board
hang
it
up
by
the
door
when
you
come
in
and
begin
to problem
solve
generally
for
every
male
there
is
a
female
i wouldn't
say
for
every
female
theres
a
male
if
there
is
its
a bit
of
an
illusion
i
think
you
have
to
be
schizo
phrenic
to
be
a poet
its
not
sane
sanity
goes
for
the
money
and
breeding
ivan
the
terrible
was
a bad
dream
compared
to stalin
a
full
fledged
pyschotic
the
female
is
caged
by
relationship
behavior
follows
the
neurology
it
DOESN'T
precede
it
a
good
translator
makes
einstein
look
stupid
the
sadness
of
not
being
able
to read
mandelstham's
i
know the
translations
are
missing
a
lot
its
the
freakiest
thing
seeing
the
slow
approach
of
death
i
am dying
and
its
all
going
to
end
i can't
believe
it!
if it ceases
to
matter
wether
people
think
you
are
stupid
then
you are
free
to
look
at
the
actual
meaning
which was?
thats life and if we have any sense we move slowly towards the less half arsed
billy never got to base one on problem solving, thats just look at how things
are and work away from them to something better
you
know
it
has
to
work..................
whats the big deal? i can see that in myself as well..........
might
be
is
very
hard
to think
about
because
its
not
an
object
or
person
but
rather
the raison
de
κtre
of
life
how
human
is
god?
don't
know
why
i
am
rabbiting
on
about
a
defeated
notion
an individual
cannot
challenge
the
might
of
the
state
successfully
anyway
you
do
it
to
your
own
destruction
education
is
a
malignant
cancer
on
the
brain
of humanity
dumbed
down
conformist
solutions
in
a
a
box
what
else
can
you
say?
the more i read of
the lives
of
the philosophers and
poets
theres
just
one
lesson
its
not
worth
it
wails
from
hell
and
songs from
heaven