this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don’t warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of  the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed  !



the most important abilities to develop for  ‘ a spritual teacher ’  are to be able to give a talk people can relate to and answer questions, actually its far better if people let you know in writing in advance what their question is and facebook is as good as anything for communication !

its also a great help to be able to transverse christian, zen, neo-advaita/non-dual, sufi and islamic lingos !

maybe the last one needs some caution ! : o)

talk to your walls, i do !

its typical of  “ spiritual centers ”  that the advice is all screwed up

i wonder why you promote total fiction as real ?

dumb posts like yours never get removed do they, you know, r|whatever for drugged mindless fools !

philip k. dick from  “ a scanner  darkly ”

  . . . knowing very little and getting that little fragment wrong too

halsey singing  ghost

one hundred years ago in serbia she would probably be seeing visions of the virgin mary !

the lyrics are intelligent, the video is pornography !

“ jeff foster has a lot of followers ”

he does a lot of retreats, people get attached once they do a retreat

he’s aging ,  but he was quite a  “ pretty boy ”  and a lot of his  ‘ entourage ’  i think are housewives looking for a bit of excitement in their lives, just like lisa cairns attracts autistic young and not so young males grateful for anyone that will even speak to them !

lisa cairns is  “ approved ”  by tony parsons and she doesn’t really understand what it is about though she is very solipsistic

as a result she mostly, but not always talks blather !

retreat organization wise and that sort of thing she would be the most clued and if you ever read this lisa, cut way back on the time spent talking at your retreats !

she’s talented, but is choosing to inhabit a no-talent space, you know

she’s talented, but is choosing to inhabit a no-talent space

“ if a person is a certain way, and then later they are not, is it possible for them to revert to the way they were before ?

i said this to a friend earlier  :  a person reverting is like a wave uncrashing ”

a person reverting is like a spring taking its original shape !

i have always  wondered  about people with a protruding jaw !

jesus, dentistry is income for life !

“ leonard cohen  went to a church run by  a sex predator  who he seems to think  “ awakened ”  people ?

lol.

   sex predator fail. ”

abused women  “ fail ”  fucking and being pawed by a 70 to 105 year old !

its hilarious when you think about it !

: o)

steve sanfield’s  poems ,  he sounds like a hermit

you know, in the real world talent counts for something unlike the pretend worlds of reddit were the mods chase down and remove anything intelligent !

“ would brad warner benefit anymore from leaving leaving zen or is he stuck now ? ”

he is split in too many directions, he should have dropped the music and the monster nostalgia

we all have focus issues !

hasley’s  (ashley nicolette frangipane)  song  colours  rises above the expected teenage pap i don’t know why ?

autistic  ?

“ blue is just my creative colour.  its like so many things at once.  its electric, and its bright, but its also calm.  its also ethereal.  blue is just an otherworldly colour to me.  blue is the sky.  blue is the sea.  blue for me represents the unexplored territory ”

“ my song  ‘ colors ’  is about being in a relationship with someone and kind of watching the vibrancy slowly start to leak out of them, watch the colors  start to fade ,  whether they’re falling victim to drugs or falling victim to work or any sort of negative behavior that’s kind of taking them away from the bright and lively person that they used to be, you can kind of see them start to fade to gray, and you wish you had them back the way that they used to be ”

“ and now everything is grey, his smoke , his dreams, he is so devoid of colour he doesn't know what that means ”

you can learn as much or more from the guys doing it wrong as doing it right !

there is an extreme in failure that makes everything clear !

you can learn as much or more from the guys doing it wrong as doing it right !

you can learn as much or more from the guys doing it wrong as doing it right


an r|zen post titled  ‘ dreaming of zen ’ 

alright just a quick dream i just had

somehow a singing bowl was in front of me and some voice said  “ how many world honoured ones have humbled themselves in front of this bowl ”  to which i started crying tears of joy

just wondering what this could mean, i don’t study a lot of buddhism but i have in the past

is there any info on dreams related to this sorta stuff ?

my

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that is very distinctly a dream and not a vision or kensho

you have always been on the wrong track and always will be

ed.  a believer in reincarnation apparently  !

your appetite is for bullshit !

all the dream is doing is reflecting that, how can there be hope ?

i have spent a lifetime working with the visionary, there are subtle and not so subtle clues that i know from experience and i have never seen anyone else alive today with that sort of knowledge !

i am reluctant to discuss how i know beyond what i have said because its copied quite easily and a new race of  “ visionary fakes ”  will spring up !

i think i’ll keep that as my  “ secret knowledge ”  no point in spilling the beans ! :o)

the nearest i have come across this is eihei dogen’s visionary accounts !

°       °       °       °       °       °       °       °       °

you have a talent for  “ process ” ,  you just need to move from parallel to co-incidence

quality reading is important as well as getting some solitary contemplative time

“ process ”  means your dream had some right features about it, just the semantics were fucked, like a building built wrong

so all you have to do is build right

right is  “ co-incidence ” and wrong is  “ parallel ”

i read an account on reddit by a computer technician who had been called out to look at a computer by the wife of a man who had just comitted suicide ,  the computer was felt to be somehow associated with it,  so he went out and the family  (and friends?)  were gathered around waiting for him to look at it  !

immediately he noticed the hard disk was missing and he knew from the news that the police had raided and removed the hard disks of several men suspected of having paedophile pornography

so he just told the assembly the hard disk was missing and left !


r|zen and r|enz are like spinning wheels and when you get off, you can see them spinning and don’t want to get back on !

r|enz and r|zen are like spinning wheels and when you get off, you can see them spinning and don’t want to get back on !

you need to focus on what will be your future  !

you need to focus on what will be your future  !

you need to focus on what will be your future

occasionally you have to make a public statement, there’s no good in thinking somethings privately  !

occasionally you have to make a public statement, there’s no good in thinking somethings privately

occasionally you have to make a public statement, its no good thinking somethings privately  !

occasionally you have to make a public statement, its no good thinking somethings privately

heading the ball in soccer is  a concussive event  and the rule setting authorities  know  and need to do more ! !

all the media fuss about david beckham and no mention ever of the glaringly obvious, he has subtle brain damage from soccer induced concussion !

soccer will get declining attendances until they change the rules or are induced to do so by getting hit by a big lawsuit, that’s their problem !

i played hockey at secondary school and never got hit in the head once  !

there’s a well known poem by wang wei who got lost in the woods on his way to visit a hermit getting scared shitless by the prospect of being out at dusk and the night with tigers around !

he could hear the bell of the hermitage but couldn’t find it !

“ if i cooked a meal for my father i could put mk-7 on it ”

honestly i don’t try to help my family at all supplement wise, its a lost cause and you shouldn’t give anything to some-one secretly, for instance mk-7  (K2)  is a bit osteoarthritic

“ yeah i haven’t given anyone something secretly but have thought about doing it obviously, would feel bad if i actually ever did though ”

it can go really wrong is the problem !

mk-7  is likely the best thing for cardiovascular problems

other people and supplements is always problematic

 take good care of your brain, its your only asset !

i have come to a different view as its all you seem to be suited for  (ed.  being a  ‘ spiritual teacher ’ )

its a hard road, i’ll say that !

basically you need to give retreats and get the numbers necessary to go

the authority you have is the childhood dai kensho experience and that is really the only authority and people won’t understand that so basically you are just organising retreats etc, maybe giving a daily talk during the retreat, springwater has very good retreats, no forced attendance of the talks, can be a sort of holiday if you like which is something lisa cairns does well . .

if only people would be content with what they have in the way of skills and abilities . .

i don’t think zen and other centers offer good value on the work in exchange for board and food front any more if they ever did ? !

the information on the net is better and the so-called teachers are usually away with the fairies !

it pays  to dig ,  rather than project !

it pays to dig, rather than project

the problem is that what you wrote is just junk, and from an aporetic view you need to move into a different space

i suppose that is happening as we dialogue . .

“  the oxford english dictionary includes two forms of  ‘ aporia ’

the adjective  “ aporetic ” ,  which it defines as  “ to be at a loss ” ,  “ impassable ” ,  and  “ inclined to doubt, or to raise objections ”

and the noun form  “ aporia ” ,  which it defines as the   “ state of the aporetic ”  and  “ a perplexity or difficulty ”  ”

‘ which it defines as the  “ state of the aporetic ”  and  “ a perplexity or difficulty ” ’

yeah that’s it

the real zen !


so come up  to the lab  and see what’s on the slab  !

25:40

an interesting  interview  with richard o’brien who lived in tauranga and the waikato in new zealand from age 9 to 22 !

oddly i know some of  the places  in his teenage and young adult life in new zealand, victoria street, the  “ main drag ”  in hamilton and have a vivid image of the embassy theatre in my mind as we lived only twenty minutes drive away !

“ and crawling on the planets face  some insects  called the human race  lost in time  and space and meaning ”

 publicity poster ringling bros and barnum bailey

mabel stark and rajah, an interesting if traumatic   I  II   life  !

the efficacy of negation

well you can negate what’s wrong, but you can’t negate what’s right you see ?

i’m not encouraging real life zen but am saying that you won’t understand it, without real life experience of it !

real life warfare differs considerably from strategy and role playing games

only the insane could think they understand zen without any real life experience of it  !

only the insane could think they understand zen without real life experience of it !

only the insane could think they understand zen without any real life experience of it

our writing is our thoughts and should develop them  !

our writing is our thoughts and should develop them  !

our writing is our thoughts and should develop them

when people complain about what you write, its potent ! : o)

when people complain about what you write its potent ! : o)

when people complain about what you write its potent !

when people complain about what you write its potent

jason  writes

i ran out of gas, then went to refill after but it wouldn’t start

after moving it from the road with the tractor i think it jostled around the gas because it showed more than right after i put gas in

so after i moved it with the tractor it started

my

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never ever run a car out of gas, all the gunk at the bottom of the tank goes into the system and clogs it up !

you are on the right track when everyone starts avoiding or denying you

you are on the right track, when everyone starts avoiding or denying you

some people overly conceal information if they feel its not to their advantage

they are tangled messes

just be aware that their own self interest or what they see as that comes before a concern for you

some people conceal information if they feel its not to their advantage

ewk ,  you do nothing but preach how you understand and no-one else does

“ buji ”  or  “ negation zen ”  is  not  understanding

you do nothing but preach how you understand and no-one else does

“ buji ”  or  “ negation zen ”  is  not  understanding

why r|zen is like it is

it is moderated to make it safe for the dull and halfwitted, especially those whose pot smoking has wiped out their hippocampus !

r|zen is moderated to make it safe for the dull and halfwitted, especially those whose pot smoking has wiped out their hippocampus !

a lot of  that stuff  is suicidal

but we are always sorting random unreal stuff out from what it actually pays to do !

an interesting thing about jōshū is he lived  ‘ the life of riley ’  ,  zen buddhism was at its peak, large monasteries, a supportive lay population, ideal for a travelling monk just swanning around

then ch’an got kicked off its pedestal when he was supposedly sixty-eight with the 845 a.d. closure of monasteries, temples and shrines, which incidentally was how he ended up in an abandoned temple in a small town several years later !

he really in some ways is a product of unusual circumstances, for many years in a  “ sinecured ”  position then to have all that collapse, but the best part of his life had the advantage of the  “ sinecure ”  and hence the depth and complexity of his understanding !

zen needs a combination of ease and freedom with some aspect of crucifixion which is usually health and i have seen one indication in his  ‘ recorded sayings ’  that spoke of poor health !

the reason all these hard work schedule places like green gulch, mt. tremper, tassajara etc produce incompetence is they simply don’t give enough time !

scientology has the same problem actually !

the tassajara center has some funding problems, i think their cold shouldering of brad warner was very telling about their inability to manage anything !

you are not interested in zen, you are only interested in your own confused reality

people are not interested in zen ,  they are only interested in their own confused realites

“ Burnie man jailed  for attacking  policewoman with a sex toy called Barry ”

yup, posted it  (unsuccessfully, it had been previously posted which surprised me)  to  nottheonion   !

at the galactic scale gravity drops  proportionally  less than at the solar scale and thus dark matter is not needed as an explanation !

a good sum to compute when assessing marriage or relationship compatibility is to add the autism quotient of both partners  (look at the parents too)  and see what the sum is, if you can even see what this homily is about, the quotient is already too high !

when both halves of a couple are high functioning autistic and hyperlexic, then the bomb has already gone off !

when both halves of a couple are high functioning autistic and hyperlexic, then it can only be a disaster

when both halves of a couple are high functioning autistic, then it can only be a disaster

“ the  mastiffs ,  just like modern tibetans, have adapted to the latter challenge by producing less hemoglobin, the protein that carries oxygen in red blood cells

this helps them avoid the clots and strokes that can arise when the body produces additional red blood cells in an effort to acquire more oxygen at high altitude ”

maybe i won’t visit the  altiplano  !

“ honestly, andrew, over the years, you have been one of the most reasonable people on here

you may have a bit of madness in you, but there is creativity, connectivity, life experience, and reason within your madness

ewk, on the other hand, has none of those positive qualities in his message that i can see

i’m a female  (ed.  jessica)  and i don’t always like the aggressiveness, and yeah i’ve come to understand a slight bit about how zen was shaped via patriarchy, but still.  why won’t anyone stand up to ewk ? ”

at the end of the day, what does one take away from time spent on reddit zen ?

the main teaching of reddit zen is that there is no value in conforming others to your opinion !

ewk has devoted two years of his life to teaching me not to be sensitive on the subject of   “ psychiatric normality  —  abnormality ”

reddit zen has also made me a better writer and more able to handle disagreement with finesse

so basically the people are there to improve various skill sets needed by you, you use them and that people disagree with you or the forum is on balance disagreeable and wrong minded are secondary factors !

be careful what  you wish for  !

relationships, somebody to be used and discarded when a better dream came along  !

relationships, somebody to be used and discarded when a better dream came along  !

relationships, somebody to be used and discarded when a better dream came along

the brain shuts down in sleep, is there rest in dreams

p2                p3

the brain shuts down in sleep, is there rest in dreams ?

p0                p1

maybe life offers more fulfilling directions for you than zen ?

yeah i have spent time at various centers and experienced their varying forms of  “ social control ”

zen master bon yeon is married with children, that’s where the real interest lies and why zen has to be celibate to be done effectively

because zen is  “ looking for the traces of fish in a dry river bed ”

its crazy to do that unless you are one of those  “ nonexistant ”  fish

jane mclaughlin as she was then was staying at the cambridge zen center when i was there, she was studying at the harvard school of divinity and had been to tibet studying with lamas !

the big issue with zen is does it return for the huge amount of volunteer labour put into it and now we are a couple of generations after the introduction of zen into the west, i would think that most people if they are honest admit that it wasn’t worthwhile as the declining enrolments and decreasing interest in zen attest !

basically zen is a mistake is it always was for any zen great and is now for those here on r|zen !

jane won, she successfully hedged her bets and has the real interest of her family and lately has pretty much dropped zen . .

jason  writes

scream in my head

imagine throwing the table

no point in physically exerting myself

the wishing bone cycle  :  narrative poems  from the swampy cree indians

yeah, interesting, its actually a  ‘ wisdom literature ’

reincarnation is about as good as any other theory of death, that is, not very good at all !

reincarnation is about as good as any other theory of death, that is, not very good at all

when you get enlightened, you will have your own words, not endless quotes

that’s not in your lifetime is it ?

ewk, when you get enlightened, you will have your own words, not yunmen’s

that’s not in your lifetime is it ?

“ do you love anyone  ?

we can talk about other stuff if you'd like, but i really want to hear your response to that question before we do so ”

 what is love ?

religion

 intellectual lipstick for fools !

zen

 intellectual lipstick for fools !

r|meditation is basically ex addicts and schizophrenics, took me along time to work that out !

r|zen is full of narrow minded crazies trying to  “ gloss up ”  their drug habits !

its not impossible the universe could be gone in a week or however long it takes since apparently the universe is metastable !

but its impossible that ewk could post  “ i can see what you guys are on about with my posting ”  !

what does this mean ?

r|zen versus r|meditation, the flavour of schizophrenia is different, r|meditation is way more addictive if that’s possible  !

r|zen versus r|meditation, the flavour of the schizophrenia is different, r|mediation is way more addictive if that’s possible  !

“  ‘ the buddha is like stretching out the hand, the way is like clenching the fist ’

what do you think this means ? ”

infinity stretches out her hand, buddhists clench this into  ‘ the way ’  !

peter owen jones’s best  episode  in the bbc  “ extreme pilgrim ”  series

“ the  ‘ natural mind ’  is the way

in pali the  ‘ natural mind ’  is pakatimano which is undefiled ”

well the pali is screwed up because its seeing the  ‘ defilement ’ ,  not its occurrence which can never be avoided !

“ hi, its me  jōshū ,  ordinary mind is the way ”

i think that’s a complete mistranslation and it should be

“ daily life is the way ”

the problem with  “ ordinary mind ”  is its really not  “ ordinary mind ”  which you will discover as  “ introspection ”  progresses !

human resources is where they park their incompetents so they can visit their stupidity on the rest of the company  !

human resources is where they park their incompetents so they can visit their stupidity on the rest of the company  !

human resources is where they park their incompetents so they can visit their stupidity on the rest of the company

human resources is where they park their incompetents so they can visit their idiocy on the rest of the company  !

human resources is where they park their incompetents so they can visit their idiocy on the rest of the company  !

human resources is where they park their incompetents so they can visit their idiocy on the rest of the company

shaolin is just a platform for nancy boys to be pretty !

if you are writing haiku, you are a retarded idiot !

charles bukowski’s  words  on writing

“ if you first have to read it to your wife

or your girlfriend or your boyfriend

or your parents or to anybody at all

you’re not ready ”

more acid

reddit  on the dangers of carbon nanotubes

Honestly, I can't imagine that it isn't dangerous.  I've been doing a lot of research on Carbon Nanotubes, both singlewall and multiwall

Originally I thought they would be awesome to use for a capsule to deliver drugs, but I soon found that the structures migrate to the liver which is "poisonous"

Not like the toxic, gonna kill you if you ingest any of it type of way, but more like the if we moved in that direction and made it the "norm" for drug delivery, over a long period of time we would see a lot of issues arise due to them

(Carbon Nanotubes are just a layer of graphene wrapped into a cyclinder)

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Your immune system tries to engulf things to break them apart

If the item in question is too big, it'll recruit many more cells to engulf and form a large granuloma trying to break the 'invader' down

Now if the cells are physically incapable of breaking down the thing in question

It'll forever surround it and create a fibrotic coating around the thing to keep it form damaging your tissue/body

Now this sounds all well and good, until you realize that means that these foreign bodies are going to be held indefinitely in your tissue, taking up valuable space, not to mention the fibrosis around them, changes the physical properties of the tissue around it, making the tissue less elastic and generally less useful

This is similar to miner's lungs/ sarcoidosis/ TB (non-necrotizing)

And normally your immune system doesn't produce massive armies worth of cells to patrol your body, but rather only produces an army when needed

But now imagine if each invader is a colossal giant and there is an army of them, it will need many armies worth of cells

This level of production means you're not doing much else for the time period your body is 'fighting this invader', because your body is in wartime mode and all your resources are going into making your army

So your immune system is effectively freaked out

Not to mention physics still applies and these thin rigid tubes that won't break under common stresses applied by your cells, can mean they can puncture your immune cells trying to engulf the tubes, your immune cells leak out all these enzymes meant to break down the invader and all they're doing is secreting these hazardous chemicals outside and now you need cells to clean up this mess

I hope that explains why your immune systems doesn't like foreign objects, especially thin things that puncture cells easily

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Graphene is a very specific phase of pure carbon

It is not a building block of life in any meaningful way, and at the end of the day graphene is small particulate matter, and small particulate matter is almost always bad for human health

women can make severe errors of judgment about a man or future partners

i have seen it in women you not expect it of !

women can make severe errors of judgment about a man or future partners

women can make severe errors of judgment about a man

women can make severe errors of judgment

battering me with your words doesn’t make you any more right does it ?

battering people with your words doesn’t make you any more right does it ?

bashing me with your words doesn’t make you any more right does it ?

bashing people with your words doesn’t make you any more right does it ?

advertising is a racket  !

advertising is a racket

two captains can’t steer a ship  !

two captains can’t steer a ship

an intelligent victor enters into a mutually beneficial relationship with the defeated

an intelligent victor enters into a co-operative relationship with the defeated

an intelligent victor enters into a co-operative relationship with the vanquished

saturday afternoon at the supermarket,  definitely a different class of people, more relaxed i think ,  nicer children ,  who knows why ?

true celibacy is when you look at a woman and think  “ what a burden ”

poor jōshū

stuck at the end of time

with a bunch of dumb monks

in an old falling apart temple !

poor jōshū

stuck at the end of time

with a bunch of dumb monks

in a ramshackle temple !

it often takes some-one bitching about someone to see that someone more as a person

it often takes some-one bitching about someone to see that someone more sympathetically

it often takes some-one bitching about someone to see them more sympathetically

life is full of catastrophic mistakes  !

we don’t have to be equanimous about them

do we  ?

life is full of catastrophic mistakes  !

we don’t have to be equanimous about them

life is full of catastrophic mistakes  !

life is full of catastrophic mistakes

how can you put so much effort into being wrong  ?

what’s wrong ?

drugs ?

how can you put so much effort into being wrong  ?

what’s wrong ?

how can you put so much effort into being wrong

how can you put so much effort into being wrong  ?

how can you put so much effort into being wrong

there is no plateau

well there is and isn’t

there is no plateau

there is and isn’t

there’s no plateau

well there is and isn’t

there’s no plateau

there is and isn’t

jason  asks

“ do you think society is becoming more female centered ? ”

my reply

young males are so damaged now !

vaccines possibly, the way you vaccinate in the usa is unreal !

jason’s

r e p l y

i agree, i don’t know if you remember me writing about seeing my old childhood doctor at a restaurant on easter ?

he came up to the table after he recognized us and said to my whole family  “ he used to run around the office crying screaming  ‘ no pica, no pica  ! ’   ”   (no shot, no shot)

in the context of zen, buji means a sort of fake with no connection to reality !

in the context of zen, buji means a sort of fake with no connection to reality

fame without income from it, all penalty, no benefit  !

fame without income from it, all penalty, no benefit !

fame without income from it, all penalty, no benefit

this is why ewk doesn’t like dogen ,  its  the visionary nature  of enlightenment which doesn’t fit his  “ psychiatrists determine reality ”  view of life !

“ another episode with supernatural implications is dogen’s account of a vision of the round full moon at mt. a-yü-wang temple while looking at portraits of the thirty-three patriarchs

this section follows a lengthy philosophical discussion of an anecdote in which nagarjuna is manifested as the moon

dogen says that  “ in former days, while traveling as a cloud ”  he went to mt. a-yü-wang in the first year of his journey to china but when he saw the paintings he did not understand the meaning

then he returned to this site about two years later, during the summer retreat of 1225 ,  apparently a short time after his enlightenment experience under ju-ching

this time he alone among the monks understood the vision, whereas the others either took it too literally or did not see it at all

dogen sensed the deficiency of the others, for whom there are  “ no nostrils in their complexion ”  and no sword in their laughter, this episode marks the moment in the traditional account of when dogen becomes clear and confident of his spiritual authority and superiority

i lived at a hermitage with a  “ hermit ”  and a greek orthodox monk for a while, it was a good time

its quite possible dogen forged his shisho document from ju-ching, but it would have been a political necessity given the competitive religious climate he lived in !

the pureland adherents i have come across are all off the wall crazy !

the pureland adherents i have come across are all off the wall crazy

buddhism is mayberry land  !

all the mayberry-ites with their constrained fornicating universes and benign blinded vision !

buddhism is mayberry land  !

buddhism is mayberry land  !

buddhism is mayberry land

“ how often do you take vitamin A and at what dose ? ”

not much these days, say 10,000 iu before going to town and its viral exposure

so, occasionally as an anti-viral, but i eat heaps of double cream and some liver so must get quite a bit through that

“ do you still take  (K2)  MK-4  along with  MK-7  ? ”

just  MK-7  as  MK-4  seems to give me digestive problems

 MK-4  seemed to work better than  MK-7  for depression, but as i say, digestive issues . .


the   A1  protein is not the only problem in cows milk

there’s the  β-Lactoglobulin  allergen  (the major  whey protein )  in cows, sheep and goat’s milk !

“ namo amitafo!  shed your hard hearted ego-delusion.  there is no other way to do it but   love & devotion. that’s the buddha way.  if you don’t follow it, you’re a hell being ”

namu amida fucked in the head !

anal rape the buddhist con artist !

fellatio kwan yin

yeah i’m a hell being

no pot in hell once i get my hands on you dumb arse !

a contemporary  update  of hieronymus bosch’s  “ the garden of earthly delights ”

she’s schizophrenic, you can see it on her facebook page, its the way she projects without synchronizing as to whether its actually so !

she’s schizophrenic, you can see it on her facebook page, its the way she projects without synchronizing as to whether its actually so

a   poem  by fernando pessoa

that’s actually the real shikantaza

r|zen is full of drug addled retards  !

r|zen is full of drug addled retards  !

r|zen is full of drug addled retards

its like reddit zen ,  people just want you to entertain them in their wrong mindedness !

to entangle your life in their’s and drag you down . .

jason  writes

it doesn’t cross people’s minds to take things into their own hands

in this case it doesn’t cross people’s minds to split a pill  themselves  but have to go to the psychiatrist

i think i’ve always known doctors to be fallible, a lot of people take them to be demigodical

“ learned helplessness ”  ?

“ learned helplessness ”

learned helplessness  ?

learned helplessness

“ the first point to stress is that the soto school in japan, at least until the last decades of the nineteenth century, was in fact a  celibate monastic  tradition ”

what you write is insane, but that’s part of insanity isn’t it, not to see it

when will the drug clouds clear ?

why don’t you read what the passage  (ed. #139, page 55 in james green’s translation  “ the recorded sayings of zen master joshu ” )  actually says which is effectively that zen masters don’t practice !

the entire passage is simply saying that  “ practice ”  is worldly perspective and not one of the zen masters

smoking pot is not enlightenment, you will never be enlightened so you will never understand why zen masters don’t practice !

practice is for people like you who seem to think proxying your life into drugs, chanting and aggressive bullshit is doing something !

you are totally drug culture, lying stupid aggression, all that matters to you is your next puff !

your crazy version of zen fools you somehow !

you don’t excel in anything except garnering wrong minded junk !

you don’t excel in anything except garnering wrong minded junk

reddit meditation, so many schizophrenic’s with addiction problems

there’s nothing like meditation for deepening off the wall lunacy !

reddit meditation, so many schizophrenic’s with addiction problems

there’s nothing like meditation for deepening off the wall lunacy !

on the left a cocksuckingly voynichated buddhist translation by james green  (1998)  from  “ the recorded sayings of zen master joshu ”  which book i think is a plagiarism of yoel hoffman’s (1978)  “ radical zen ” which the stanza on the right is from !

my remedying/rectifying re-translation is below them


he who dances and skips on the great way

is face to face with nirvana gate

just sitting with a boundless mind

next year spring is still spring




the one who freely walks the great way

faces the gate of enlightenment

when one is just sitting, the mind is limitless

each year the spring, again the spring





one who freely walks facing infinity

lacks no understanding

not doing anything

spring constantly arises

do you have an addiction problem ?

‘ yes ’

i don’t have an addiction problem so my advice is useless isn’t it ?

‘ yes ’

another way of looking at it is i am successfully am not addicted !

‘ i hadn’t thought of it that way ! ’

addiction, smoke less, drink less, take less, its so simple !

addiction, smoke less, drink less, snort less, its so simple !

addiction, smoke less, drink less, its so simple !

addiction, smoke less, drink less, its so simple

there’s so many drug fucked brains on reddit zen . .

there’s so many drug fucked brains on reddit . .

“ our new research shows that a driver who has slept for less than five hours has a crash risk  comparable  to someone driving drunk ”

six to seven hours of sleep  :  1.3 x  the crash risk

five to six hours  :  1.9

four to five hours  :  4.3

less than four hours  :  11.5

53:55  marvellous thermal camera  footage  of leopards at night in mumbai

jason  writes

i was on a lifeguard stand by the beach when i took mushrooms, it was  night-time  and i had my eyes closed for a while and when i opened them the landscape was more  3D ,  like when i looked out the ocean went far out wide and the sky the same and they showed more color and depths of those colors

eventually the cops came and had me leave, they were pretty sympathetic to me that time but i’ve also got a ticket on the same beach for being there past dark for $50

projections

dave, you have done enough zen to know its all about  “ approval ” ,  who approves who and this concern is quite clear in the records and the opinions of people in real life today if you have ever been in the zen circuit and you have

you don’t approve me and i don’t approve you, what more is there to say ?

°       °       °       °       °       °       °       °       °

if i don’t approve you i think you are talking nonsense, if you don’t approve me you think i am talking nonsense

there’s just no basis for dialogue is there ?

go and talk to those you approve of or like ewk indulge in tilting at rather big and formidable windmills !

well i have offered my advice, since you have a low opinion of it i would suggest you have better things to do than talk to me

well  (ed.  of dave)  i have offered my advice, since you have a low opinion of it i would suggest you have better things to do than talk to me on r|zen !

taffy’s problem is he pisses his time away on r|zen when in reality he has a child who could do with some financial support

he’s just in a really weird space of conflict, buddhism is actually quite friendly to abandoning wife and child if you look at the legends !

he’s an arsehole basically

 borderline personality disorder  !

the golden rule for me with r|zen is for it to simply generate writing material, any other motive is insane in my view !

reading quality is a conversation with those who  “ understand ” 

reading peon junk and getting lost in entertainment is just to irretrievably amplify the confusion of the world !

basically zen is a public domain word, it can mean anything and that’s what you get on r|zen, the clash of  “ anythings ”

there’s too much distance to cover, years even if there was a will, its an interesting insight into how society works actually !

its too directly aggressive for women, though there might be one or two male blurred females around !

one day we will have a fight between the zen hair salon and the zen restaurant over the real meaning of zen, how can hair be zen, how can a four course meal be zen ?

its a playground for druggie wallpapering, the retarded thinking they are doing something and the outright schizophrenic creating new dysfunctional worlds !

joshu’s  tone  is not one of approval of conventional notions of proxy like practice !

joshu’s  tone is not one of approval of conventional notions of proxy

early summer, when jehovah’s witnesses and the 7th day adventist’s have their recruiting drives !

1.  Kings keep secrets to preserve their power

   kings ride tigers, don’t let the tiger know

2.  Priests keep secrets to preserve their humanity

    only a wannabe priest would fall for that crap  !

3.  Mages keep secrets to preserve their meaning

  the biggest gossips ever and you are claiming they keep secrets ?

4.  Secrets keep themselves to preserve their mystery

    these secrets must have never met a woman  !

people wander into voynich as a defense of sorts

 but what’s the point they could be doing something more worthwhile !

people wander into voynich as a defense of sorts

 but what’s the point when they could be doing something more worthwhile !

people wander into voynich as a defense of sorts

 but what’s the point when you could be doing something more worthwhile !

ewk ,  never had dai kensho ,  will always waste his time thinking zen to match his construction of it  !

ewk ,  never had dai kensho ,  will always waste his time thinking zen to match his construction !

never had dai kensho ,  will always waste his time thinking zen to match his construction !

what the people of r|zen are is anti-aporetic, they impose some inflexible schema and don’t explore how things are !

what the people of r|zen are is anti-aporetic, they impose some schema and don’t explore how things are !

what the people of r|zen do is anti-aporetic, they impose some inflexible schema and don’t explore how things are !

what the people of r|zen do is anti-aporetic, they impose some schema and don’t explore how things are !

zen is true mysticism !

zen is true mysticism

dave your brain is just one ragged edge !

what’s the problem, low gaba  ?

artemisinin or gaba  convert  pancreatic alpha to beta cells

a separate transmission outside any teachings

words are known and not

a startling flux beyond yourself

you return imbued with infinity !

ed.  i guess you could say  “ an imbued buddha ”

alternatively

a separate transmission outside any teachings

words are known and not

a startling flux beyond yourself

you return imbued with time’s unconstant stamp !

that’s a description of the experience that makes a patriarch and is the very center of what zen is about

its not poetic license ,  its the source document so to speak and all the koans need to be read with the same comb

in terms of the buddhist legend, its exactly the same, buddha had dai kensho under the udumbara tree and the doors of reality/infinity opened and the view is forever changed  !

the zen  ‘ mu ’  concentration practice is  for retards

the  ‘ mu ’  concentration practice is  zen for retards

‘ mu ’  concentration practice is  zen for retards

mu concentration practice is  zen for retards

borderline personality disorder is not a template !

borderline personality disorder is not a template

i’d say he has borderline personalty disorder, maybe more than touch of schizophrenia, basically they will fuck you around without worrying about it too much !

i’d say he has borderline personalty disorder, maybe more than touch of schizophrenia, basically they will fuck you around without worrying about it too much

the  guilded rich

   easy entitled lives !

zen ,  there’s   more   less money in that than writing poetry

zen   more   less money in that than writing poetry

dave  snarks

“ is it my fault you don’t understand metaphors ? ”

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i said before you don’t understand, you really are missing something, just copying doesn’t cut the ice !

there’s extra dimensions you are not seeing . .

you are building a house, there’s many extra dimensions to that a person with no experience in building would not see

most people take zen like you do . .

tack a few bad ideas together then live in that thinking what they do is zen !

reddit zen home of the faux poseurs ,  they can’t even get that right !

reddit zen home of the faux poseurs, they can’t even get that right !

reddit zen home of the faux poseurs, they can’t even get that right

reddit zen, home of the poseurs !

reddit zen, home of the poseurs

“ if cosmo gave sex tips for guys to use on their girlfriends rather than the other way around, what would some of these tips and tricks be ? ”

subtlety or satire seems a lost art,   this  however gives cosmopolitan and male   “ simplicity ”  a good poke !

i might define  ‘ aporetic ’  as being  ‘ open ’  to your own detriment !

i might define  ‘ aporetic ’  as being  ‘ open ’  to your own detriment

i might define aporetic as being open to your own detriment !

i might define aporetic as being open to your own detriment

yeah these people on r|zen already have  “ all the answers ”  which they just endlessly repeat and try to enforce without wit or intelligence !

no delicacy, skill or any idea where the target is at all ! ?

enforcing is against the spirit of what zen is about which in essence is  “ aporetic ”

what i notice is the mods of r|zen and actually its a lot in real life zen as well, are strongly anti-intellectual and anti artistic and the most arrant junk is welcome while anything with intelligence is removed

sort of rule by retards so to speak, but as i say its also very characteristic of real life zen, neo advaita and the rest . .

they will read this and not understand what i am saying ,  like  “ intelligence ”  is bad ,  not in the moment or something you know despite the best of the zen masters being outstandingly intelligent and in their way, artistic, the more complete the record the greater the extent the artistry becomes apparent

real life religion is all about the zombies taking over and historically this has usually extended to torturing and executing those who stand in the way !

a monk asked jōshū/zhaozhou  “ where were you born? ”

he pointed with his hand, faced towards the west, and said,   “ west ”

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the sun sets in the east and jōshū sets in the west

this is the enlightenment conundrum

that gives the fakes no peace !

a bed needs to be kept dry during the day with a heated/electric blanket, i insert it between the sheets and remove to sleep since in the off state the wires conduct heat out ! ?

duvets are much better than blankets, all that trapped air !

trapped air is the best insulation, all insulation is really is trapping small pockets of air !

warm evaporates the water trapped in the bedding out and this also kills the dust mites by dessiciating them !

how can there be winners on reddit zen, its just an endless waste of time

“ practice ”  is a  “ proxy ”  word, joshu can have only criticised it

i was thinking david beckham who has a reputation for being a bit  “ stupid ”  likely has a degree of chronic traumatic encephalopathy from heading a ball and other shock contact during his soccer career !

i suppose celibacy is a form of promiscuity since it represents a lot of potential relationships discarded !

jason

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i was thinking about the times i’ve been so close with women but never got too close that a relationship was formed

like being a sort of tease to these girls, it happens often and with meaning

i suppose celibacy is a form of promiscuity since it represents a lot of potential relationships discarded !

i suppose celibacy is a form of promiscuity since it represents a lot of potential relationships discarded

shakespeare was an underworld heavy, the real author was  sir henry neville  !

“ I never have any idea whatsoever what  you’re saying  but I find your posts to be fucking awesome man ”

the bernard maybeck  designed  christian scientist church in berkeley

if you avoid women you avoid the problem

if you don’t avoid women, you have a problem

sixteen  hundred  years  of  illusion

‘ when the men are women and the women men ’  !

‘ when the men are women and the women men ’  !

‘ when the men are women and the women men ’

when the men are women and the women men

jon  writes

i was talking to my mom the other week

me being a grouch like usual talking in a certain tone

she shot back at me saying something along the lines of

“ quit talking to me like that it’s bad enough i have to deal with your dad speaking to me like that ”

made me feel bad and think about the whole thing

jon  writes

my thoughts are embarrassing

oh well

that’s what i’m thinking

my  comment

 you lose the embarrassment eventually !


jason  writes

the providence and cambridge centers got upset when i asked to pay a reduced fee to stay as a guest, only for retreats was it possible

there are a couple of christian monasteries around here and they said i could stay for free

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yeah i spent $5000 nzd including airfare from new zealand in 1990 for six months in the usa  !

i hit the jackpot !

: o)

the problem with the christian monasteries is basically the dogma gets to you  .  .  its really way  f  u  c  k  i  n  g  c  r  a  z  y  .  .

that’s all up expenses including travel and a missed plane flight from boston to rochester and then on by a lift in a springwater car south to the center just above hemlock  lake  !

i had to take a very painful overnight bus  trip  !

i seem to remember daily board at $12 to $15 dollars a day and maybe an hour’s light work a day though i didn’t have to work at all at springwater .  .

the other thing was i was looking for some-one who would understand my  “ dai kensho ”  experience since john loori plainly didn’t, nor anyone really at the kwan-um centers and it was the weirdest thing ,  looking through some old records, maybe a magazine article when i was at providence of a visit toni packer had made there and a transcription of a talk by her with a few interjections and comments by those at the providence center which sorta amounted to flak actually !

anyway what she said resonated with me and i was much more confident seeing someone who i could understand . .

anyway my next stop was the cambridge center in boston and while there i went into the harvard bookstore and they had a copy of her book  “ the work of the moment ”  displayed which i dutifully read while stuck in bed for a couple of days with the flu . .

it was very changing for me that book and in fact the trip to springwater was sorta redundant, just in reading that book for the price of $15 or whatever and two or three days reading it was just being catapulted me light years ahead . .

you do start to see after a while the reason reddit zen is the way it is, is that there is subtle and not so subtle censorship

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i think it upset them so much because of the true life resonance !

from green’s translation of recorded sayings of zen master zhaozhou  (aka joshu)

the master made a fist and asked  :  i call this a fist, what do you call it ?

a monk replied  :  why do you instruct us by means of objectivity ?

the master replied  :  i am not instructing you by objectivity

if i were to instruct you by means of the objective world, i would have entirely done away with you

the master then said  :  how will you deal with this ? and took his leave

my  anecdote

i was in dokusan with george bowman  bo mun  at the cambridge zen center

i had brought a sheet of paper into the interview with him then crumpled it up into a ball and placed it on the floor between them

bo mun was bemused and asked what the meaning of it was !

i uncrumpled the sheet of paper and smoothed it flat !

the interview then ended !

actually i was disappointed in george bowman, but now i know at the time he had  “ woman troubles ”  and perhaps other distractions !

he was really very good looking !

dave  replies

did ol’georgie ring the bell because you got this pissed off in the interview ?

if so, maybe you need more time in the oven . . .

my  reply

all equanimous i am afraid, now my interview with barbara rhodes was a different story, a really nice day retreat at some-one’s place by a lake, i went into the interview and did the prostrations and kneeled, but i didn’t say anything and stared, she got so pissed off, she bloody near chased me out of that room

after the retreat she said she was a bit hasty and i gave my view that we were two arrowheads not meeting !

now i’ve had a bit more experience i know people like me are rarer than hen’s teeth, actually interested in zen and prepared to work at it so maybe she was interested in me as a disciple, but i was never cast in that mold

dave replies

so why is it that you’re still all crumpled up with barbara and george??

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and boston and 99 pound road in providence, i just loved them !

i think that sort of travelling center life has gone now, its a pity, it was a fun time for me and room and board was just small change by today’s standards !

i spent a brief period at john loori’s monastery in the catskills, i think the way they were with their very strong financial orientation and constant retreat and paying guest classes was all too busy and the way the rest of Zen was to become in the next decades  . .

so these other centers were much more relaxed and it was really fun to just wander around the environs and avoiding work where i could as a paying guest and actually i came to know the centers and their histories much better than anyone else i ever met staying there, well maybe at springwater toni packer knew much more than i ever could, but i did listen to some very old tapes and was surprised to hear how mean the rochester center was to her at the time of the break up !

summer in the bay of islands, new zealand

we used to anchor  in that bay  every summer on our sailing up and down the north east coast over the christmas holidays !

is zen a form of addictive reverie for schizophrenics ?

is zen a form of addictive reverie for schizophrenics

is reddit zen a form of addictive reverie for schizophrenics ?

is reddit zen a form of addictive reverie for schizophrenics

was dogen a grey, white or reptilian ?

did he really go to china or was he abducted ?

is zen really run by aliens and ewk is their stooge ?

all this and more on    starcrossed    reddit zen !

 how distinguishable is schizophrenia from religious belief ?

will the real 7th patriarch stand up !

sorta  mayberryland  in  2016 really !

the physical work and chores you do are exercise

gyms lead to a lot of physical disablity, you absolutely cannot afford to be physically disabled

with gym, joints are stressed to the limit and beyond with a lot of repetitive motion, a recipe that brings a lot more disaster than the  “ devotees ”  admit too !

your question was answered if you had the wit to realise it !

your question was answered if you had the wit to realise it

you mean steve jobs zen ,  be a billionaire and zen master ?

you mean steve jobs zen, be a billionaire and zen master ?

you mean steve jobs zen, be a billionaire and zen master

nanotechnology for dental implants

“  .  .  .  nano-engineer the surface of commercially established implants with nanotubes, which can later be loaded with drugs such as antibiotics or proteins for maximised therapeutic effect

when these are inserted into the patient’s jaw, they improve soft  (gingiva)  and hard tissue  (bone)  integration and therefore dramatically  decrease  the likelihood of oral microbes being able to enter the tissue

based on the initial results, we expect to achieve early implant stability and long-term success of such therapeutic dental implants ”

of course you get no hint of problems with current implants from the dental profession do you ?

the jordan lead codices, they certainly have the look of  “ voynich ”  about them, that blend of fantasy and what a blinkered world view thinks they should look like !

“ what do you think makes someone a hermit ? ”

very overlooked is the ability to live as a hermit which requires survival nouse and skills and good health

modern values, a plane flight  delayed  because a soccer player wanted his video game from his baggage, that lost flight time meant a necessary refuelling stop was closed . . .

“ but i try to gain knowledge here on r|zen ”

yeah knowledge you agree with !

a person of intelligence will understand what i am about to say, ignorant hicks don’t and really i have hardly ever come across anyone who understands !

the tang and song zen records are a transcription and translation of something that may or may not have been recorded accurately and certainly the translation is very incomplete in conveying what is said

if you have ever had any translation experience you will understand what i say !

the clearest example of this problem is coleman barks so called translations of rumi, all the dumbarses on the non duality message boards endlessly quote this sentimental twat, effectively saying how enlightened they are by quoting it when in reality if they think its such hotshit why don’t they line up at coleman bark’s door asking for instruction !

they don’t even give him any royalties, its all about hubric self-appeasment !

so ye of the idiotlost who place your faith in zen tang and song records, you are placing your faith in the translator of something that may or may not be very distorted in the first place and in fact may not have been said by an  “ enlightened person ”

its just so plain but do the dumbarses get it ?

  N O  !

jason  replies

i don’t see what’s hard to understand

i’ve just read richard zenith’s introduction to his translation of fernando pessoa’s  “ book of disquiet ” ,  already i can tell how much his voice is in the translation

still i wouldn’t be able to read the original portuguese or in the case of this conversation song/tang dynasty chinese

my  reply

oddly enough some of the best translations are by  “ laymen ”  naive in the art of translation and translating from their native language into english

they don’t have all the conceptual baggage that professional translators or  “ believers ”  have

jason  replies

red pine really plays into the role of translator

my  reply

yeah he’s uneven, but his  identification  of han shan as a leading figure in the an lu-shan rebellion is really interesting

it explains the extreme literary sophistication not to be expected of a hermit and why he had to hole up in a very out of the way place for the remainder of his life to avoid execution

 on balance red pine pretty good if not quite to my taste  !

“ last night i dreamt i went home

and saw my wife at her loom

she stopped the shuttle as if in thought

then raised it as if without strength

i called and she turned to look

    looking, she did not know me  . . . ”

“ so, you do say that a real life zen experience is a monastic lifestyle ”

in reality zen centers are the same as monasteries because they are all non celibate, just a name difference !

the core of real life zen experience is centers with teachers you have to be subservient to

this notion of teachers or  “ one who knows ”  versus the ignorant rest is very hard to understand without first hand experience of it !

i’m not saying that in fact they know, its the experience of how the system works that is valuable and absolutely not understandable without have been in zen in real life !

maybe 10% of zen is monastic and actually that’s japanese monasticism which is not celibate, though convents in japan are celibate !

it is absolutely impossible to understand zen without a varied real life experience, like anything else in life actually !

without real life experience you will end up shooting at shadows !

what is nonsensical is failing to ask what zen is about and just streaming nonsensical garbage !

on r|zen they don’t read beyond the first line or look at the links

this they call  “ knowledge ”

as you get older and see your own mistakes more clearly, you get more relaxed about the mistakes of others !

 noncritical even !

    like what does it matter  ?

as you get older and see your own mistakes more clearly, you get more relaxed about the mistakes of others !

 noncritical even !

  like what does it matter ?

as you get older and see your own mistakes more clearly, you get more relaxed about the mistakes of others !

as you get older and see your own mistakes more clearly, you get more relaxed about the mistakes of others

even a pest can be part of the furniture and you’d miss them when they are gone !

even a pest can be part of the furniture and you’d miss them when they are gone

not everything needs a reply  !

not everything needs a reply


“ the christian science  reflecting pool ,  where i’d spend a quiet moment ”

i have been in the mother church but couldn’t remember the reflecting pool, then across all those years the memory came back, i thought of walking the whole length but it was too far and i was tired from traipsing around and went inside the church which is plastered with quotes of mary eddy baker and i remember thinking, well this is the same stuff as zen is about but couldn’t discuss it at the cambridge zen center, people just seemed to get confused as soon as you went outside the boundaries . .

brad warner being a   ‘ celebrity zen master ’  is in the unfortunate position of being seen as a public service by people who in no way contribute to his income, just the opposite, they detract !

“ have you ever started suddenly cry-laughing in seiza ?

this happened to me last night during my third ever sitting meditation, maybe about ten minutes in

after my mind settled on the fact that my shoulder and back ached and that life was suffering, by definition, tears filled my eyes and i started laughing heartily

there was no particular object cause of the amusement/joy (?)

it was just a feeling of warming lightness

  anyone else experience this ? ”

my

r e p l y

its just a symptom of the emotional knots we are tied in, if you really do zen you will go through a phase of years where that will appear mild !

its a twenty or thirty year process and your brain is laughing at you for thinking you will persist with it !

aelister crowley is a sort of philosopher and literary writer trying to create an income from it !

you are just going for the bullshit half of zen

  where’s the problem  ?

you are just going for the bullshit half of zen

 where’s the problem ?

“ what makes you record audio clips for some homilies and not others ? ”

mainly that i recorded it on a voice recorder in the first place and figure ,  since i have a voice recording, i may as well use it !

very rarely i will make a voice recording of a written homily because it needs it !

mackowski  writes

I have/had issues but they weren’t necessarily different or less bad before smoking weed for two years straight

I’m better than ever.  I smoke more than ever and I don’t really want to, but it happens and right now I feel great so  .  .  .  who is to say I shouldn’t let my feet guide me ?

I take drug addiction seriously enough that I get anxious about brain damage, so yeah I’m paying attention.  No, we don’t have control

my

r e p l y

basically pot shrinks the hippocampus which makes for greater depression, suicide is one of your end points if you continue the way you are going !

a special transmission

outside scriptures

direct seeing

without proxies

both krishnamurtis were very influenced by vedanta and bodhidharma was also supposedly a vedanta priest

as you get older you learn that very little/nothing comes from nowhere !

this research  on the superiority of frequent low dose chemotherapy for breast and pancreatic cancer is ahead of current oncology practice which can be very slow to change !

adaptive therapy is a very different  perspective  on oncology !

shrunk  hippocampus  =  depression

posting on r|zen  =  depressed behavior !


charles bukowski was emphatic about marijuana being more toxic than alcohol

you have both a global blood flow reduction in the brain and  markedly lower flow  in the right hippocampus, essential for forming memories !

the idea drug for buddhism, nonduality and zen, they can all live in the  “ Now ”  !

: o(

why is it, the more words the more nonsensical it is ?

why is it, the more words the more nonsensical it is

having taken supplements for many years now i find that there’s a huge learning curve in finesse and what you really need and timing etc

CoQ10 really creates digestive and metabolic weirdness imo

basically i apply iodine on the skin every week rather than take orally ,  more even diffusion over time

chromium yeast i have found very helpful cause i eat a lot of slightly cooked fruit

mk7  (k2)  is an immune booster and anti-depressant

lithium water

those are baseline and if you had asked me a couple of years ago, i wouldn’t have said them !

diet is  huge ,  just about everybody is eating themselves into blood sugar and cardiovascular problems by the time they are fifty !

how could anything be ok in the lunatic asylum called life ! ?

how could anything be ok in the lunatic asylum called life ?

how could anything be ok in the lunatic asylum called life

philip kapleau made up the  “ enlightenment ”  stories in his famous book !

that’s from the late toni packer who, if anyone would know, would !

the rochester zen center has an endowment and investment income that could total more than all the other zen centers put together !

a woman in an interview at springwater pulled out a pistol and threatened to shoot toni packer

seung sahn ate nothing but rice and eggs, no wonder he got diabetes !

i don’t think i could bring myself to stay in a center again, i don’t know why, basically they are fairly stressful !

evasion is so typical of the drug scene !

evasion is so typical of the drug scene

faith is  “ what it suits me to believe ! ”

: o )

faith is  “ what it suits me to believe ! ”

faith is  “ what it suits me to believe ”

ewk, i notice you are being made fun of because of your  “ faux ”  ignore

but they have a point and its to do with you not addressing where you are wrong or need to look at something, you just skip off like a needle jumping on a record to play the same tune again and again

this in itself diagnoses you as schizophrenic i am afraid !

“ i’m trying to avoid working a meaningless job  (ed.  looking to work for food and board at a zen center)  in favor of doing something to better myself ”

zen is a meaningless job, in my experience having met a lot of teachers and stayed at quite a few different centers ,  99%  are like r|zen, just following some fantasy and have no clues as to what zen is really about, that includes most zen masters !

what i can say and you won’t accept is that you are not all interested in what zen is really about, if you accept that then what you do becomes much clearer which is to simply develop work skills

in terms of zen centers that is basically carpentry, computer publishing and groundsman work

by and large i would have to say zen is not at all musical

being put on psychiatric medications when young is a real killer of later health

being put on psychiatric medications when young is a real killer of health

its beginning to dawn on me that most people are on r|zen and avoid real life zen because rlz is strongly anti-drugs !

hence the constant inane belligerence and dysfunctional hubricity of r|zen

piecing together  the bits  of a life

long gone

here today

piecing together the bits of a life

long gone

here today

you can see something is a problem

then you get embroiled in the problem

then you can see you were better just to see that something was a problem !

you’re a retarded idiot just writing aggressive incoherent junk, what was my original point  ?

you’re a retarded idiot just writing incoherent junk, what was my original point ?

there’s a lot of  “ though pot smoke comes out of my ears and lsd is engrained on my eyeballs, you’re the one that needs to see a therapist, not me ”  on r|zen

“ why wouldn’t that make me saner than you who criticise me ? ”

“ I think trying to get one’s  ‘ inklings ’  is partially solitary and partially cooperative

To truly understand something requires individual application, but a lot of understanding is facilitated by interpersonal communication ”

my  reply

that’s true for most sorts of understanding, but  “ spiritual ”  contemplative work is the opposite !

its also why its a life disaster !

that’s a good comment you made !

politics is the home of voynich opinions  !

politics is the home of voynich opinions  !

politics is the home of voynich opinions

stick to your retarded politics, the home of voynich opinions  !

stick to your retarded politics, the home of voynich opinions  !

stick to your retarded politics, the home of voynich opinions

moissanite  versus diamond !

reflection and contemplation is solitary work basically

‘ mysticism ’  is solitary work basically

mysticism is solitary work basically

‘ is the real problem with r|zen ’

“ is people wallpapering their fantasies over a window and wondering where all the light went ”

they  (ed.  the druggies)  don’t wonder but only want to pluck others eyes out !

they don’t wonder but only want to pluck others eyes out !

they don’t wonder but only want to pluck others eyes out

your history  (ed.  on reddit zen)  says you don’t question your own ideas !

your history says you don’t question your own ideas !

“ one of my employers just found out she has a cataract, 66 years and blue eyes ”

yeah that mist you see in some lights with cataract is a nasty surprise when you notice it the first time !

darker coloured irises are at a higher risk of cataracts because they absorb heat raising the temperature of the lens !

from my reading the operation using a laser to break up  the lens  before removal is better ?

“ Why is everyone so harsh of this community ?

 . . I’ve seen a lot of critical comments of the users and community as a whole

Can someone provide me some context ?

the problem of r|zen is not harshness but of keeping sane in a pysch ward !

a general problem with the net and real life actually !

the loonies are not sympathetic !

more and more i am thinking r|zen is tainted by drug users and their toxicity !

their aggressive unreasonable defensiveness is very characteristic of their highly boundarized mindset unfortunately !

you  (ed.  negative GPA)  really don’t agree about the premise that i view as essential to a  “ mystical ”  or zen understanding

the visionary events called  “ dai kensho ”  carry with them a heap of gifted understanding, that without we are just dry leaves temporarily drifting down a stream

the perspective is different and a lot of stuff that people have difficulty comprehending is seen clearly . .

99%  of the stuff on reddit zen is just crashing idiocy

everyone has glimmers occasionally, but overall they are just unmitigated disasters here

you can’t do zen or mysticism part time . .

i use the term  “ decorative wallpaper ” ,   this is what zen and mysticism are for  99.99%  and i don’t mean  99%  !

its not just computer games but creating fantasy worlds such as  “ twin peaks ”  that strands one in an inane universe !

quality reading is so important to break the deadlock of this inanity !

to meditate without doing this is just to deepen the inanity !

its not just computer games but creating fantasy worlds such as  “ twin peaks ”  that strands one in an inane universe !

its not just computer games but creating fantasy worlds such as  “ twin peaks ”  that strand one in an inane universe !

i think there is a type of  “ hard core ”  addict and this may not mean a lot of drugs taken at all, who uses  “ zen ”  as a wallpaper to entertain and inform their taking when in reality they are just  “ passing the time ”

really my only interest is in  “ true mystical understanding ”  and these people are walking in the wrong direction while claiming its the right one !

i must be some sort of rarity, i haven’t drunk tea or coffee for thirty years !

the comparative harm of lsd a large topic, for instance general anaesthesia is known to be significantly harmful to children and most likely adults

i have never seen anyone who has taken shrooms or lsd develop any mystical understanding . .  they burble nonsense and are incapable of any real listening which makes me think they have taken damage

in addition flashbacks are a form of neural damage and can apparently occur from taking lsd even once

the brain is such a sensitive organ that anything that significantly intereferes with its function leaves a footprint of permanent damage imo

alcohol too, psychiatric drugs, some medical drugs, diabetes and other medical conditions, fluoride

can’t draw a line really

ewk  posts some quotes

mazu

this very mind that does not understand is it, there is no other thing

huang po

that which is before you is it, in all its fullness, utterly complete.  there is naught beside

my comments

mazu yes, but no, there’s more

hunapo, no but yes in a different context

i find this shit easy, visions have their place !

simultaneous zen !

jason  writes

i got a glimpse into my dai kensho experience as a child

how much i took away from that

°       °       °       °       °       °       °       °       °

went to a rich person’s restaurant the other afternoon

i felt so out of place, lots of snobbing

-  -  -

rich people are boring !

“ i never really thought of that before ”

°       °       °       °       °       °       °       °       °

‘ spitting insanities ’

i think they’re sanities

7th  day adventist are not entirely crazy, ellen white writes well  !

7th  day adventist is not entirely crazy, ellen white writes well  !

ewk, your no real life zen experience, usual complete weirdness on the subject !

no real life zen experience, usual complete weirdness on the subject !

no real life zen experience, usual complete weirdness on the subject

ewk, you are leaving your brain out of your skull every morning now ?

you are leaving your brain out of your skull every morning now ?

you are leaving your brain out of your skull every morning now

on r|zen, i feel like a pinball desperately looking for an exit but have got so good at bouncing that i am enternally just flicking back and forth to my detriment and never dropping out !

“ i’m sure there are some who are most sober here who would appear to have the most  “ impairment ”  when approaching an understanding of zen

some people come on r|zen with too much caffeine in their system ”

i’m not sure, the problem with the web is what one real life look would tell you, can take years to pick apart

oddly the very heavy  tea  drinkers in zen that i have come across on the web all seem deranged  !

again maybe there is drug use in their history or really tea and coffee are drugs though much less damaging in normal use and actually have some health benefits as research shows with their antioxidants, that is unlike drugs are much more mixed in effect !

when people fight too hard over complete bullshit there has to be drug use or a history of it at the bottom !

when people fight too hard over complete bullshit there has to be drug use or a history of it at the bottom

when people fight too hard over complete bullshit there has to be drug use at the bottom !

when people fight too hard over complete bullshit there has to be drug use at the bottom

ewk, have you had an alcohol or drug problem at some point, your brain just doesn’t seem able to have got where it is naturally !

ewk, have you had an alcohol or drug problem at some point, your brain just doesn’t seem able to have got where it is naturally

“ do you mean r|zen is being used as a  “ oh look how spiritual I am ”  wallpaper by drug users ? ”

zen is basically semantic, look there is a gateless gate and you go through it and return by such and such an understanding, drug users, particularly pyschedelics claim the drug itself is the gateless gate, its like a parasite feeding on what is valid in zen for its own purposes, i don’t have an issue with users who don’t claim more from their experiences than actually occurs and don’t claim that no damage occurs

its just there’s a really nasty and weird subset that just suck zen for all the validity they can manage and they can be really quite cunning about it and they are here on r|zen and seeing it more clearly i am wondering about my posting here !

“ someone doing a few psychedelic doses doesn’t a hard core drug user make ”

yeah but in my view there’s a group on here now where that’s not the case and you have to factor in multiple drug use, pot etc which explosively creates a much more brain damaging situation

i don’t have any overall philosophical objection to drugs except it peripheral to what zen is about

its the heft of brain damage with use and that is a complex subject, diet, genetics, bad synergies, drug quality, amount, its just an endless palette of degrees of damage . .

i do think that some of the  “ users ”  on r|zen are getting way damaged more than you might think and this must be from toxic combination use, diet etc

bye bye plain english again, you feel the need to conceal !

is the real problem with r|zen

that you’ve always got a knock-down fight with hard core drug users and this explains both the buji and  “ buddhists ”  avoidance of real life zen and buddhism as in real life both prohibit drug use

that really amidst all the noise, hate and complete miles of totally faecal crap, you have the place being used as wallpaper by drug users ?

adding two and two and getting four, the message i am getting is if i stay posting on r|zen i am facilitating drug users promotion of the way they use zen as wallpaper !

its an aggressive promotion of drug use . .

you guys are just like real life drug users, so disguised, cunning, hubric arseholes !

well failed and successful cunning . .  !

you’re a dangerous malevolent arsehole  (ed.  r|zen, mackowski, ytumith, bongstar) ,  pushing drug use using the zen karma

toxic and poisonous !

poseur is so  “ drugs_fakes_r_us ”

if it was me, i’d ban all the drug  “ promoters ”  like yourself, but as it is i am much closer to being banned from r|zen for having that view aren’t i ?

the person who taught me most about reddit zen was  david

ed.  louis theroux’s documentary  “ by reason of insanity ”  part 2

these people are not criminally insane ,  but have that dull hubric lack of imagination and stupidity

zen makes good wallpaper for drug users, sex addicts, the schizophrenic ,  the insane and the intellectually lazy

tick two off that list and you have had it !

drugs are  ‘ satori ’  for the mentally lazy !

drugs are  ‘ satori ’  for the mentally lazy

the mentally ill are extremely boring

the mentally ill are   very   extremely boring

  what is that  ?

the failure of semanticism

 what is that  ?

the failure of semanticism

 what is that

the failure of semanticism

 what is that  !

the failure of semanticism

 what is that

the failure of semanticism

toni packer ,  myself ,  countless others;  entangled lives

toni packer ,  myself ,  any number of others;  entangled lives

the person who taught me the most about reddit zen was  david

ed.  louis theroux’s documentary  “ by reason of insanity ”  part 2

these people are not criminally insane, but have that dull hubric lack of imagination and stupidity !

every young man killed in war is the loss of a mother’s lifetime  !

every young man killed in war is the loss of a mother’s lifetime  !

every young man killed in war is the loss of a mother’s lifetime

every man killed in war is the loss of a mother’s lifetime  !

every man killed in war is the loss of a mother’s lifetime  !

every man killed in war is the loss of a mother’s lifetime


images never have complete encoding

the real world always encodes itself

that

is

the

problem  !

images never have complete encoding

the real world always encodes itself

that

is

the

   problem  !

when you look at a laundry line , we are constnatly shedding skin oils fat water sweat . . . other fluids . . .  biofilm

those smelly old unwashed hermits knew something  !

a town is a desert of inharmonious noises  !

a town is a desert of inharmonious noises

i was thinking of joe quint’s podcast with tostono and ewk ,  lol he picked the ripe ones r|crazy !

he’s a stand up something, idiot ?

a babies face has its character already imprinted on it  !

a babies face has its character already imprinted on it

a

babies

face

its

character

already

imprinted

on

it !

a

babies

face

its

character

already

imprinted

on

it !

no tabula rasa a babies face

i have learnt to write

there’s

nothing

more

unfortunate

i have learnt to write

there’s

nothing

more

 unfortunate

i have learnt to write , there’s nothing more unfortunate


i went to town  (ulverstone)  today and hated everything

the bright blue sky ,  the fine warm day

the people ,  myself ,  the bossy school teacher in a black tracksuit ordering her small flock around

the woman sitting beside me at kentucky fried coughing her flemmy germs everywhere

the stupid fucks everywhere sitting ,  cellphones texting or talking

the deeply flawed food

the whole fucking insane mess/insanity of it all

i think i’m looking correctly !

the day got better !  ( evening  sunset )

deconstruct a woman ,  take off the mascara ,  lipstick ,  eyeliner ,  eyebrows ,  eyelashes ,  eyeshadow ,  foundation    ̲    ̲ 

what do you have left ?

deconstruct a woman ,  take off the mascara ,  lipstick ,  eyeliner ,  eyebrows ,  eyelashes    ̲    ̲ 

what do you have left ?

dealing with the insane changes you

i really think it does  !

 dealing with the insane changes you , i really think it does  !

dealing with the insane changes you

i really think it does

dealing with the insane changes you , i really think it does

why  ?  your role in life is to be a talentless nonentity, drugs will help

whereas jessica was a talented non entity and drugs didn’t help her  !

a lot of  pyschoashes  passing the time on r|zen  !

ed.  ‘ psychoashes ’  is a sort of a pun and neologism on the drug channel r|pyschonauts

a lot of  pyschoashes  passing the time on r|zen

“ There is no I, how can you try ? 

There is no I, how can you not try ?

There is no I, these words are you.

 There is no I, concentrate on  ‘ Mu ’  ! ”

there is an eye, why not try

there is an eye, why try

there is no eye, these words are new

there is an eye, the world is anew !

“ I'm just looking for inner peace.  Psychedelics seem to give you this ability.  Alas, temporarily ”

especially the life long flashbacks !

what i have noticed is that current users seem angry and roiled and surprisingly those who have given it up as leading nowhere seem more at peace !

“ It is mostly curiosity from a philosophical standpoint. My personal use of psychedelics made me really question my reality and cultural values.  If psychedelics could induce a satori like state, wouldn't it be worthy of revelation ? ”

its really fundamental that they don’t

askreddit  :  which shitty genetics did you inherit  ?  serious replies only

Nail Patella Syndrome

No kneecaps, no thumbnails, elbows fused at 45°, curved spine, and a fifty percent chance that I’ll have both glaucoma and kidney failure by the time I’m forty

A number of other symptoms but those are the most common.

ewk ,  for the same effort you put into being a fake, you could be a better fake !

for the same effort you put into being a fake, you could be a better fake !

for the same effort you put into being a fake, you could be a better fake

“ a monk asked tozan  :  what is buddha ?

tozan replied  :  three pounds of hemp ” 

what are buddhism, reddit zen, the occult, pot and schizophrenic masturbation in relation to zen ?

ten meters of rope !

‘ beautiful ’  said the man who loved ugly

i notice there’s a point at which listening to a video youtube of chanting one feels one’s brain rebelling and being damaged

religon is the natural home of the self assured ignorant

the self assured ignorant

hakuin’s drawings have his quotes on them !

a 7th patriarch quote

“ don’t ask or expect a schizophrenic not to be a schizophrenic ! ”

the ushnisha vijaya  dharani

sounds ok, but terminally boring like all chanting or is that just me being adhd ?

when i was in zen i remember chanting something similar to that but not so fancy !

its ok in another language you don’t understand, the problem is the meaning is so crap it gets to you eventually and that happened to me

they are also a cult mind control technique as in chanting hare krishna etc and following the breath in soto zen

musically they are interesting with a certain amount of taking part, but there is a line and   “ a dark side ”  !

chanting does promote the immune system in the lungs, nasal passages and sinuses which is i suppose why its always been de rigueur in those unhealthy hellholes called monasteries !

i notice there’s a point at which listening to a video youtube of chanting one feels one’s brain rebelling and being damaged !

  this one i feel really screws the brain up !

jason  writes

i was walking around late at night and a couple, maybe seniors in high school were just stopping in front of a house as i was passing

i heard them arguing from a distance and when i got close i heard her say in a pretty loud voice  “ i didn’t text you because i was sleeping ! ”  the guy mumbled something back

i saw how she was being dishonest and just whipping this guy around

jason  writes

my brother helped his old soccer college teammate get a job at a club where my brother is a board director and coach

the guy was assigned  “ director of coaches ”

so now my brother says his old teammate is trying to cut his pay by +20% and get him to pay taxes on top

i think i learned recently not to help people too much

“ if you killed ten thousand of these people  (ed. yantou’s  opinion  on hubric monks)  with a hammer no one would say you had done anything wrong ”

“ if you killed ten thousand of these people with a hammer no one would say you had done anything wrong ”

your  (he was schizophrenic imo)  doctrine is a strange mixture of therapy talk and non duality, taking the wrongest bits of each !

your doctrine is a strange mixture of therapy talk and non duality taking the wrongest bits of each !

some women definitely don’t want children

and others have them but shouldn’t !

some women definitely don’t want children

i’ve been celibate most of my life and in a relationship in recent years and having seen both sides of the coin, its as clear as daylight that most non celibates cannot have any sort of understanding !

in fact in any sort sort of communal situation you will find the  “ marrieds ”  just gang up against you !

that was the view eihei dogen came to and people quote ikkyū as an example of how it isn’t true, but he was in fact celibate up until about 30 and while talented he wasn’t at joshu’s level of understanding

maybe that’s not black and white, how can it be, most people come from caring parents !

the people here of course are untalented and non celibate so what does one expect ?

lol   “ incels ”

condensed   as  “ you are in a contemplative profession, so actually contemplate ! ”

“ attitudes ”  are for idiots !

“ on r|zen there are normal guys who, when struck by a thing, do not how to roll with it

speared by it, they shit and piss themselves ”

checked your underwear ?

dave, you’re the last person to be broke in his old age you hypocrite !

kogen at tassajara who has zero money and a baby and wife to be responsible for talks about the board meetings with these very moneyed ex monks attending discussing the financial aspects of their themselves and the center all the time !

i am old enough to have seen a generation go from hippie communes in new zealand where everything is shared to the assertion of family rights and inheritance, the communes ended up as small family owned subdivisons

its just nature, don’t be fooled

who are you fooling apart from yourself ?

don’t worry you are quite commercially astute, perhaps you will be one of the moneyed exe’s at whatever board meetings ?

my wife’s sex drive is worrying high this year and for the forseeable future actually : o (

being broke in your old age is physically painful !

people seem to view giving to their children as something accrues to them personally !

i have noticed that even the buddhists on r|zen go out of their way to not even sight a temple or center in real life

masturbating to pretty images is the norm !

no tainting with real life ambiguity for sure !

s o  m a n y  p a r a l l e l s  a n d  i d e n t i t i e s  w i t h  i n s t i t u t i o n s  f o r  t h e  c r i m i n a l l y  i n s a n e  !

having stayed at both catholic and zen monasteries/centers the problem is you live censored crazy lives of conformance to absurd dogmas that wouldn’t last a minute without the censorship !

and there were so many women floating around the trappist monastery i stayed at i was never sure they were any more celibate than the zen monastery i got kicked out of  . .  though the zen monastery went to some pains to disguise the relationships amongst its monastics !

i think a lack of net access is dooming monasteries and centers, they just remain ignorant hicks and it shows !

why waste your life working for something that doesn’t accrue to you, and at the end of the day you are just another dumb religious cultist/bozo with health problems and no money ?

times have changed !

usual  “ personally dishonest ”  buji bullshit artist aren’t you ?

why you people crap the way you do i do not know ?

young  =  tender ,  older animals are often unedible

at some point you cease to correct people and let them go their own way  !

at some point you cease to correct people and let them go their own way

my translation of a passage by the sufi mystic jami

clothed in mystery

beauty is perfect

mirrored endlessly in the multitude of the world

beauty is of the primordial light !

our soul is torn apart !

my translation of a passage by the sufi mystic jami

clothed in mystery, beauty has no imperfection

mirrored endlessly in the multitude of the world

beauty is of the primordial light !

our soul is torn apart !

when i read it, it sounded very like the  last lines  of john keat’s  ‘ ode on a grecian urn ’ ,  beauty is truth and truth beauty

and lo and behold there was a strong sufi/persian influence on the  romantic poets  of that period !

that poem had a seminal influence on me, i read it in my last years in secondary school and knowing its source inspiration gives my life an unexpected continuity !

two children  killed  by their mother  (she was having an affair with a neighbour)  who wanted to avoid her soon to be ex getting custody of them

medea !

the father of the children was given very poor advice by the  red pill  posters, they are unsubtle people with a fractured view of the universe

integrating the extra information of historical and literary context is well above most people’s reading age !

the somme ,  then and now

why not be more comfortable with your own insanity ?

why not be more comfortable with your own insanity

jessica, don’t you know about female friendship ?

between the backstabs !

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you can’t separate sufi and zen, they posted along the silk road, one is in islam, the other is in buddhism with trimmings of daoism !

let the blinds up and look outside !

let the blinds up and look outside

dharma combat

ewk steps up

zaddar steps up

ewk commits hara kiri burbling  “ i won ”  in his last breaths

 zaddar is nonplussed !

ewk just won’t address that zen requires competence and is not like christianity where you just point to scriptures like he does !

actually its crazy to give advice on r|zen, a sign of being too involved

actually its crazy to give advice, a sign of being too involved on r|zen

actually its crazy to give advice, a sign of being too involved here

everything is just squishing out in all directions  !

everything is just squishing out in all directions

everything is just squishing in all directions  !

everything is just squishing in all directions

“  affective disorders  such as depression were frequently followed by arthritis and diseases of the digestive system, while the same relationship existed between anxiety disorders and skin diseases

anxiety disorders were more common if the person had already suffered from heart disease

a close association was also established for the first time between epileptic disorders and subsequent eating disorders ”

its like kim kardashian’s jewels heist, not a word about the insurance or how much of it was fake !

she may not have even owned them ! ?

maybe the ring was identified as real via net pictures and that was the problem ?

update :  they appear to be real and were  insured  !

perhaps the ring was given to them at a very discounted value in exchange for giving a lot of public exspoure to it ?

there’s an undercuurent of PTSD and mental and physical health problems i think, california dreaming . .

in the east jellewery was a woman’s and family bank account !

the funny thing about shelley’s poem  ‘ ozymandias ’  ( greek for  ramesses II  as it happens )  is these people are becoming quite well known thanks to modern archeology and you can even see them in the form of their mummies !

entertainment of necessity has its punches pulled, of necessity it avoids the truth as unpalatable to its audience

of course it can be done very subtly like anton chekhov does, but that’s not going to bring in the dollars !

entertainment of necessity has its punches pulled, of necessity it avoids the truth as unpalatable to its audience

of course it can be done very subtly like chekhov, but that’s not going to bring the dollars in !

i get migraine and as a consequence have always put physical comfort first !

jessica writes

i’m sickly and ugly and too smart for my own good and a servant to swine, what of it ?

retribution will arrive just in time for the perfect flavor to develop

my reply

well that’s the way you have gone and will continue to !

what can i say ?

poor health, decay and eventual suicide

  its written up there in the stars, the good and even the pseudo good die young  !  : o  )

great artists usually are suicidal !

great artists usually are suicidal

zen is highly unusual in being a non-dogmatic celibate tradition, western history and society has celibate traditions, but they also have absurd dogma which means that when a culture is no longer monoculturally religious nobody with any sense will be involved as a celibate !

jason has turned into a first rate writer, he’s not pursuing me for copyright  .  .  yet !

: o )

i read that kusan sunim helped his friend go into the afterlife, this was around my mother’s passing

now i’m not sure i believe in any after life but i wasn’t going to rule it out at that time

well kusan spent days alone in a hut i think trying to help his friend to the other side

in a sense i did that too as i didn’t leave my room during the time

so i thought about her a lot, gone, maybe somewhere

i had a terrible dream either before this or after that i was in some sort of asylum looking place where all this insane stuff was happening, and in one part of the dream my mother was laid on a table bleeding and yelling for help

so i spent nights trying to help her pass even if it didn’t mean anything

one night if there were such a thing it happened, i saw her in a white background and i told her to go on, she was smiling and laughing

after that things seemed to calm down in my mind

a bankei quote

now, in point of its fundamental truth, there’s not the slightest bit of difference between the understanding i had then and my understanding now

yet with the perfection and clarity of my dharma eye, i now have a total freedom that is fully conversant with the great dharma

there is a difference of heaven and earth between the way i was then, when i was with dosha, and the way i am now

negative GPA comments

hold on.  let’s zoom in on this :

‘ the perfection and clarity of my dharma eye ’

what is any of that ?

my reply

some-one who actually has some answers and not like you who just thinks he has answers and never will get that more than most, he is wholly wrong !

i have written it in black and white but you will never get it, its a psych ward here on r|zen, that sort of crazy malfunctional rigidity of harmful paradigms !

negative GPA asks

help me get it

do I need to take myself out of the equation ?

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what people here don’t like


1.  its a lifetimes work and most suited to celibacy though obviously that is not a complete requirement as by any standards dylan thomas had that sort of understanding !

2.  the perspective of  “ I ”  is voynich and has no answers, you just get a constantly changing kaleidoscope !

so what you get when people think they are  “ seeking ”  or   “ pursuing a path ”  or whatever is views of a turning kaleidoscope which is how life looks anyway lived conventionally

3.  you need some degree of estrangement from life . .

4.  you need solitude

5.  you need to read  quality

6.  you actually have to do these things and not just take drugs, play games, watch movies, listen to music, eat unintelligently and pay no attention to the circadian rhythm

in fact doing these things just irretrievably takes you away from a real understanding !

negativeGPA  replies

quality is something i don’t think one can avoid grading on a curve

there are various types of readings, right ?  some novels give you ideas as thought experiments. most recently in that category ,  ‘ sirens of titan ’  taught me to start shutting up

then there’s readings that bring forth the blooms of seeds within you that you didn’t notice.  poetry can do that

i’m slowly peering over the poems that my poet friends send me and am working on not writing off anything as wishy-washy or seemingly contrived like i used to

i think blythe is the one to thank for that

right now i’m mid-reads.  school keeps me busy, so the blue cliff record is the most current thing i’m reading, but i don’t think that counts for our purposes here

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the blue cliff record does count and is ok

but the link i gave.  that sort of reading

i don’t have types of reading, i just read !

alan watts, reggie blyth and kurt vonnegut are the kaliedoscope though i do confess to liking  “ the sirens of titan ”  to the extent of being disappointed the real titan is so obviously unable to support human life !

dylan thomas, emily dickinson, charles bukowski and jacques derrida offer  “ the clear eye ”

there’s heaps of others even in zen, its just not what is promoted by the  “ kaleidoscopic ”  masses

education is the kaleidoscope !

negative GPA  replies

do you think that poetry is just closer to the source in itself as an act ?

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good poetry requires a holistic style of thinking that naturally is actually what zen is !

you are reading the blue cliff record, its full of poetry and poetic imagery

joshu is the master of double and triple meanings and endless inverted folding of meaning all interlayered with each other

the zen we see today is an anti-intellectual  “ redneck ”  dumbed-down version that suits the unthinkingness and anti-intellectualism of current social attitudes to which the universities have also succumbed, it wasn’t always that way ? !

i wonder if bob dylan getting the nobel prize for literature is incredibly symptomatic of the decay of intellectual standards into  “ entertainment ”  !

its a pity, the previous prize to svetlana alexievich was very well deserved and the money needed !

jessica  writes

. . . but the guidance keeps evading me

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yeah but you keep evading it !

why trawl zen for its half-arsed garbage when you claim to have read emily dickinson ?

what is the difference between the way emily approached things and you approach things ?

she didn’t do drugs, she looked for the inner semantic coherence and that carried her through her life in true mystical endeavour !

you are certainly almost frighteningly intelligent, it seems to me you have taken a deliberate road of self destruction . .  you just don’t want the trouble or bother of trying to figure it all out and the relief of  “ not existing ”  is all you seek !

basically you just play in mental junk when you know better so i can only assume its deliberate

a bit of an attention whore too ! : o)

unlike most you have the intellectual horsepower necessary . . .

the truely  “ enlighened ”  zen style take every wrong turning in life, otherwise they would be  “ successful ”  for instance you going into university rather than commercial music was a mistake, you would a well known figure today had you gone commercial . .

the really hard thing to get is this constant failure and its synchronicity with the inadequacy of life in the face of the infinite

people continually approach the matter from the point of  “ bettering ”  themselves but they travel in the wrong direction . .

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you are so intelligent you would have always been the swan amongst the ducklings, the world is cruel to people like you !

reddit zen ,  entitled arseholes mutually wanking each other  !

reddit zen ,  entitled arseholes mutually wanking each other

why are people who do drugs so boring ?  because the effects of drugs are so boring ?

cognitive imagery and experience is what’s interesting !

that is the real deal, drugs are faux experience !


basically  what uvb does  is upregulate T regs and downregulates fat deposition in the arteries !

that’s potent  immunosuppression,  anti-autoimmunity  and  cardiovascular  health improvements, the main negatives are genetic damage to skin cells and an increased short term susceptibility to viruses !

jessica you are lost as a dream

jessica you are lost as a fucking dream

the world is a confused mishmash of voynich  !

ed.  a line that came to me looking at richard von sturmer’s  photo montage  !

the word montage implies a single composition, the photos seem to combine as a single composition showing the world as erroneous, confused and voynich

the world is a confused mishmash of voynich  !

the world is a confused mishmash of voynich

excess nitrogen from protein unbalances the microbiome and complex carbs/plant fiber have an oppositional effect to rectify  this imbalance

askreddit  :  Men of Reddit, what are some things that you think us ladies just don't  understand  ?

I'm a trans man.  I've been on testosterone for two years and change.  I was steeped in nothing but estrogen and agony for 23 years before that

Ladies and otherwise estrogen-steeped people, I need you to know something :  Compared to you, men are idiotic, single-minded animals, who have no idea what's going on inside anyone's head, and that includes their own.  Testosterone makes you stupid !  I experienced the difference first hand, and there is DEFINITELY a difference between a brain steeped in estrogen and one steeped in testosterone.  Ask any trans person on hormones and they'll tell you

Men aren't being intentionally blind to your emotions or signals.  Men just can't see ANYTHING until you POINT IT OUT TO THEM, or TEACH THEM HOW TO SEE IT.  This is not something they can change, it's how testosterone works on the brain.  I used to be so in tune with the tiniest minutea of everybody's emotional state.  I was the feelings MASTER.  Now ?  HA.  I don't notice shit.  I felt like I had suffered some odd brain damage at first.  Then I realized why the stereotype of the clueless man exists.  The clueless man was me

Men also don't feel emotions as vividly as you do.  Not to say that emotions never get intense, just far less frequently  (unless it's in the anger spectrum.)   And crying is LEAPS AND BOUNDS harder to do.  I can count on my hand the number I've cried in the past two years, and I cried almost every day in my Estrogen Era

I just want to put it on the table here.  Hormones are more powerful than anything.  The strongest love you ever felt was hormones.  Your opinion on peanut butter is hormones.  The reason you would never eat your offspring  (hopefully)  is hormones.  Hormones are fucking magic and control every little thing about you.  You are not unique, you are a shambling meat puppet of shit and hormones happy holidays

Edit :  yes I am generalizing enormously.  Of course traits do not exclusively belong to one set of hormones or the other.  Of course traits do not exclusively belong to one sex/ any gender or any other.  Each individual exists as they are, and attempting to slap labels on them because of what parts they have or hormones they're on or clothes they wear is a huge mistake and also wrong.  I consider myself a feminist, and I actually got passionate about feminism after I started hormones

What I stated here, of course, is my personal experience.  In my personal experience, I saw first hand why these nasty stereotypes that fly around virtually every culture and society throughout history about men and women exist.  The effects certain hormones have on people are not solid facts that apply to every individual, but there certainly are trends.  I was seriously uncomfortable with the changes I experienced at first because I was sorely against aforementioned stereotypes.  I still am.  Stereotypes should never be applied to every member of any group

But to ignore trends, to erase facts of differences between groups of people is to erase the problems that society causes because those differences

Men and women are different.  They have different hormones.  Those hormones have different effects on the brain.  The effects are documented, and they are real.  These are facts to keep in mind

my comment

i know women can switch attention much easlier and there is a study showing a much higher energetic cost in attention switching and more areas of brain activation required for men !

i presume the advantage for men is a deeper penetration and more command of the subject of attention !

the effect is  age related

“ the researchers found that the gender differences in the extent of brain activation when switching between tasks only occurred in subjects younger that 45-50, while those aged 50 and older showed no gender differences either in brain activation or speed of task switching

According to the researchers, older men and women  —  starting at the age of 45 in women and 55 in men  —  experienced both increased activation of key areas involved and mobilisation of additional brain resources ”

i think i am taking the view that hormone therapy for trans  “ conversion ” ,  because it disrupts the develpomental course creates a schizophrenia

jessica, you are clever but misguided !

you are clever but misguided !

“  . .  and know that I’m literally half of God ”

so what is wholly god ?

ludwig wittgenstein is overrated !

so a cruiseship berthed in burnie on the tuesday and the passengers went sightseeing and visiting the coastal towns that day then left that evening again, the next day i went to devonport shopping and picked up whatever northern hemisphere viruses they had infected the locals with

& 8 days later after that town visit i am feeling really crappy and weak !

fuck !

:o(

an askreddit reply by an irish  ex-mercenary  to the question  “ what is an instance where you made a snap judgement and were proven wrong ? ”

Shot a man in the DRC because he came running out of the bush from nowhere screaming and brandishing an AK as we were passing through

He was trying to warn us about an ambush a quarter of a mile up the road

That was probably eight years ago now.  I think when Nkunda was still running around.  Given my nature and career at the time it wasn’t a life shattering event for me.  I remember feeling bad watching him bleed out as he told one of the guys with us about the ambush

It was a dangerous time.  Dangerous country.  Tribal infighting and it was really nasty business

You had to be crazy to jump out of the bush waving a goddamn AK and screaming at a bunch of mercs. We took him to the nearest village I guess.  Family came out screaming and crying.  We pooled together most of the money we had and left either his mom or wife the equivalent of about 2.5k US and the interpreter told her he died bravely as a good man or something like that

To be really honest I hadn’t thought about that until I saw this question.  I’m sure if I really thought about it there are some other snap judgment calls I made in the past that turned out pretty badly as well

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I’ve walked through burnt townships where everyone was dead.  I’ve seen someone get necklaced.  I’ve been sent in to "repatriate" villages where all the females down to the youngest of children stare at you with empty eyes and at least half start to disrobe they are so used to being raped by strangers

I’ve seen people with backs flayed down to the spine and bone as a punishment for questioning someone.  Humans are some of the most fucked up animals on the face of the planet  The  mongoose  (NSFW !) does it to eat

That’s it, nature

The humans who perpetuate the shit like I mentioned above?  They do it because they can.  No real reason


a very good  talk or interview  between brad warner and pirooz kalayeh

brad has moved further away from community type interaction on the web by not permitting comments  (temporarily he says)  on his facebook page, previously he closed the comments section of the hardcore zen blog

i think the point he is making in the talk is that there has developed a professional  “ fight club ”  audience on the web just targeting any publicity they can get for their inanity/insanity

r|zen has always been way but now its really unbearable . . .

the big thing that kills r|zen i have decided is the recent move by the mods to restrict subject matter to only what the mods deem zen is about . . .

this is the basic problem of any religion and how the usual product is boring misinformed/misformed twaddle

everything except that religion/spiritual path is excluded so any reference to quality cognition is missing and you just get the accumulation of junk through a lack of quality standards !

i guess this means i am out of reddit zen, its been a bit of a slow process, but the moderation has definitely changed, others are also complaining !

“ out ”  for me means no more public posting ,  lol ,  eat each other’s fists fight club members !

i think the fight club mentality in inevitable with web forums and springs from the very different background attitudes and life experiences of the people involved all grouped together under the semantics of a word or phrase

in my view  ‘ practice ’  is an ill-fated attempt to reconcile normality with insanity ,  a dull dead product creating the truely putrid  !

in my view  ‘ practice ’  is an ill-fated attempt to reconcile normality with insanity ,  a dull dead product creating the truely putrid

‘ practice ’  is an ill-fated attempt to reconcile normality with insanity ,  a dull dead product creating the truely putrid  !

‘ practice ’  is an ill-fated attempt to reconcile normality with insanity ,  a dull dead product creating the truely putrid

embrace your own insanity and survive it is the true zen way  !

embrace your own insanity and survive it is the true zen way

ewk, you are trying to create zen within   ‘normal’  when it is obvious from the old records that it is anything but normal !

i think the notion of practice is like this too   ̱    ̲    ̱   which is why they don’t work  !

some people can never be enlightened becuase they are afraid to step into their own insanity and to be frank it may not be safe for them  !

insanity has the virtue of being outside the bounds of normality ,  so of necessity  “ enlightenment ”  is going to be both sane and insane  !

what is the point of arguing or trying to impose one’s views on anyone else ?

what is the point of arguing or trying to impose one’s views on anyone else

kayne west is bipolar, not doubt being crucified on large psychiatric doses of lithium, i am sure he wouldn’t look at  lithium water  if you paid him !

the problem with zen is its like a one way trap, is it better to never have entered it ?

if you think you’ve conquered r|zen

then you can go on to  conquer  r|buddhism

the sophistication of patent  trolling

the problem of politics is the madness of people  !

the problem of politics is the madness of people

lives are separate and don’t want to get entangled

joshu and emily dickinson were enlightened, huangpo, buddha and ta-hui weren’t

but you are very susceptible to women

its easy for me to talk about it at my age !

my perspective is a failed life and not so gently drifting into senescence !

jason writes

i was thinking yesterday trying to get someone to understand me is like shouting across the earth

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we sorta understand each other ,  you and your mother might be the people that understand each other the best !

the basic problem is the mods of r|zen have no sense of making the message board interesting

they have their own doctrines and delete according to whether a post fits the doctrine or not, so you get the most blatant trashy spam or brainless one shot youtube link left and  this  deleted !

why is ewk so dominant here ?

because the way the mods act favours boring creeps

i mean really !

i remember two years ago, my three line spaced post would be deleted and that sutra posting nutcase would daily post his many pages of unreadable quotes unmolested !

if a post is interesting and reasonably relevant, be it desert fathers or an idries shah interview then it should be left up !

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i think the mods should leave more stuff up and discuss why they think there is a problem on the actual OP or comment

also be more ecumenical, mystical christianity, sufism, philosophy and a lot of literature are all concerned with the same questions

this board has become a refuge for schizophrenic dullards to pass the time posting endless crap because of the content restrictions

maybe that’s the way it really is, that was charles bukowski’s view !

“ charles bukowski didn’t have patriarch zen ? ”

we are all strange stars shining light to/on each other from a distance, its really hard to tell what is going on !

you have a question, an answer will come !

“ charles bukowski didn’t have patriarch zen ? ”

we are all strange stars shining light to/on each other from a distance, its really hard to tell what is going on !

a reply to jason

what i notice is that you are very similar to me, maybe that’s why i can’t place you !

having children is a different life with different priorities

what do you think the future holds ?

you just take it one day at a time building up skills

women have children regardless of their partners opinions

you might be quite wrong about what the future holds for you, or you may be right

i can’t answer it for you

ewk, why go through life being unenlightened and pretending to understand the depth of the ancients ?

why go through life being unenlightened and pretending to understand the depth of the ancients ?

ewk, if you are just going to play games, drink tea and watch movies you are going to have limited horizons aren’t you !

read some meister eckhart !

if you are just going to play games, drink tea and watch movies you are going to have limited horizons aren’t you !

read some meister eckhart !

being a zen master is the personal enshrinement of mediocrity, mental dullness and a criminal level of boringness

always the question is, why so much stupidity for something that only costs

once there was whisper of dollar notes flicking against each other, now its just the clash of coins running away!

being a zen master is the personal enshrinement of mediocrity, mental dullness and a criminal level of boringness

i was thinking of my ex, just another person i helped more than i was helped by   ̱    ̱    ̱ 

i was thinking of my ex, just another person i helped more than i was helped by

a quote by martin luther king jr

darkness cannot drive out darkness :  only light can do that

hate cannot drive out hate :  only love can do that

he was a chronic womaniser apparently, they must have loved this shit

fancy sounding crock !

gandi the paedophile and luther king the man slut

the public’s demand for illusions !

: o (

what dream is  “ mindfulness ”  ?

“ a dream that remembers it’s a dream ”

 the ground of the dream is empty, what can stand on that ?


i lived as a child near where  “ the hunt for the wilderpeople ”  is set !

home

used to play in bush like that !

actually i couldn’t believe it when i looked at that link !

“ people can read the teachings without searching for truth in them ”

what truth in them

 pigs rolling in waste paper ?

even if, in order to make progress, you sorted out all the chan teachings with their thousand differences and myriad distinctions, your mistake would still consist in searching for proclamations from other people’s tongues

the above quote from  ‘ master yunmen ’  by urs app, page 84, posted by the flair  “ ewk is scared of discussing zen ”

my

r e p l y

what ewk is scared of is abandoning his role as the high priest of zen, huang po, ta-hui and yun men  (selected parts apparently)  and looking at the  “ nothing ”  he is standing on and how he wastes his time !

lol, i put aside being the seventh patriarch and what am i standing on ?

the sixth partiarch’s head so it comes back !

there’s no patriarch around except me so its unsafe for me to ignore the transmission !

i looked at that  prebiotic link ,  in fact i think it will cause more problems than it solves, the gums are not good, i have digestive issues and was really helped by elaine gottschall’s specific carbohydrate diet approach which in part is no grains, potatoes or gums

she died a couple of years ago so i continued her diet as my own development, the biofilm carbohydrate diet which is basically just an endless write up of what i find works and meshes with science studies

jessica  writes

Skip forward a few days into the behavioral health unit, I’ve been on my meds a few days, I’m feeling good, and I’m coming slowly out of the sleep state, but I stop in a state where I can clearly feel my heart beat happening to me, focused on it completely, so that my vision is inside of it, everything is inside that heart beat

Then I feel that I can not only passively allow my heart beat, I can beat it myself.  I do that a few times, in a rhythm with the Other doing one side of the beat, myself doing one, and I feel immense energy flow into me.  Untold euphoria

I see multicolored toroids spinning off into the mental space of my sleep state.  Then I am almost forced to leap from the bed, with a big smile on my face, and run out into the hallway of the hospital and do a sort of hillbilly-irish jig, like I used to do when I was happy as a kid

“ the occult ”  is bullshit  !

“ the occult ”  is bullshit

the  “ occult ”  is bullshit

the occult is bullshit

ram dass is not too bad, i like the laid back side of him

“ i got in the shower to try to clean the sin of wanting to die early off of me, and tried to calm myself ”

the way you use  “ sin ”  you have a catholic background ?

john of the cross, teresa of avila and catherine of sienna are vision mystical

and imo mother teresa is a modern saint because her life was so fucked up. . she hated the work she was in  . .

also being in india with its elaborate religiousity that has no bearing on any reality it becomes obvious that the catholic pageant was also as nonsensical . .

yeah you need visionary experiences while young, they can’t be grafted on as an adult . .

ed,  lol southern baptist as it turned out !

mysticism is not male dominated at all !

jason  recounts

when i was in my very young teens i was hanging out with some school friends at the park when a couple of older guys were walking past on the other side of the street, i jeered at them and they came over

they were drunk and carrying cans which i noticed as they were crossing the street, this was in the middle of the afternoon !

so they come over start acting very aggressively and eventually push one of my friends back so that he stumbles over his bike, i felt like stepping in and so i pushed the other guy back who was clearly bigger than me

he got angry but i just averted my gaze and sort of stood there, he decided to spit in my face but as long as he didn’t fight me i was fine with that !

the three of them crossed the street and disappeared down the railroad tracks

“ i also think your posts shouldn’t be removed 

 i like your style, and you say shit nobody else says, it’s dynamic ”

the basic tension in zen like any religion is between the genuine mystical and those who want to pretend and avoid disrupting any notions they have about the true/real basis of reality !

the real zen is not that difficult, just don’t avoid the disruption and see what is still hanging together when the dust settles . .

but being familiar with real life zen and religion as well as r|zen you see the huge trouble people go to avoid the disruption . .

 what zen master put the 7th patriarch on ignore  ?

a\the monk asked joshu

what is the meaning of reality/infinity

joshu said  “ you are on my ignore list ”

actually he didn’t, he flipped the monk on his back and pounded his head in by saying

you are not on my ignore list !

: o

 )

r|zen is really quite zen

basically its a bunch of people who disapprove of each other, fighting, which is what the  “ records ”  are !

r|zen is really quite zen

basically its a bunch of people who disapprove of each other fighting which is what the  “ records ”  are !

“ why is it that people struggle with quoting zen masters ? ”

why is it idiots like you  (ed.  ewk)  rely on quotes when the point of zen is to develop so you become a zen master and make your own  “ quotables ? ”  instead of blathering half-arsed historical nonsense ?

jessica  writes

two times, when I pressed on my eyes, the lights were first like multicolored lights, spaced like stars in the night sky, in a field of black.

Then suddenly, they went white, and the darkness seemed to envelop me  —  not my body, only my mind  —  and i began to transmigrate into the field of stars, knowing that this was a way of real travel through some real space, but I chickened out and didn’t go far before snapping out of it

The second time I obtained this state for only a second, and it went away as soon as I tried to fix on it, as if teasing me

my  reply

“ but I chickened out ”

the dai kensho experience is not chickening out !

“ the second time i obtained this state for only a second, and it went away as soon as i tried to fix on it, as if teasing me ”

the fixing on it was actually leaving it

if you leave then you have entered and though it seemed like a second it was an infinite eon and you will have been changed by it, so beware, the world is not friendly to it !

that was a genuine dai kensho event, one day it may be a bit longer and more complex and you will be a zen patriarch !

sorting the whole thing out has to mean more than living !

one hellish  toxic  stew

gordon ramsay trained in france, that’s really  sophisticated  cooking, too complex for me !

he’s got that ADHD energy for sure !

that’s one of the weaknesses of commercial cooking, too much attention on the flavour and not enough on the nutrition !

scholarship is an alien concept to zen !

scholarship is an alien concept to zen

anything new has a new and unseen set of problems to solve !

anything new has a new and unseen set of problems to solve

anything new has a new set of problems to solve !

anything new has a new set of problems to solve

you are a third rate intellect trying to be 4th rate !

you are a third rate intellect trying to be 4th rate

ewk, you are a third rate intellect trying to be 4th rate !

ewk, you are a third rate intellect trying to be 4th rate

eihei dogen said, “ i remember, a monk asked an ancient master, ‘ is there buddha dharma or not on a steep cliff in the deep mountains ? ’ ”

my reply

the bottom and the top of the cliff are the same !

jason  writes

“ nice guys always finish last ”

i’m nice, and do i ever win ?

absolutely not

jason is ahead of me, a really good  flickr page , will be a basic for everyone one day !

having no understanding of zen yourself, you seek to damage others with your ignorance ?

having no understanding of zen yourself, you seek to damage others with your ignorance

“ how can I teach myself to be patient ? ”

just let the thing you are investigating express its needs to be understood to you !

you just drill down until you hit and can see the grain, life doesn’t give time to go much further !

“ how can I teach myself to be patient ? ”

just let the thing you are investigating express its needs to be understood to you

you just drill down until you hit and can see the grain, life doesn’t give time to go much further

a lot of the zen dialogues are basically about whether they approve of each other, usually a master not approving of a monk or something ambiguous about two supposed adepts

we disagree substantially  (ed.  with tostono)  so we do not approve of each other

wumen huikai, huang po and daihui are only partially enlightened in my view, that’s really quite different from  99%  of zen who are more of the  “ vote  hillary ”   “ life should be good ”  ilk !

“ just nothing ”

that’s the buji  “ negation ”  approach to zen

however, the real problem is to get things  semantically coherent

one needs to get out in natural scenery to remain sane  !

one needs to get out in natural scenery to remain sane  !

one needs to get out in natural scenery to remain sane !

one needs to get out in natural scenery to remain sane


churches and chapels

are virtual reality machines

designed

to

impose

an

ideology

churches and chapels

are virtual reality machines

designed

to

impose

an

ideology

10  centuries later

a so-called  koan

outfoxed

   all the commentators  !

10  centuries later

a so-called koan

outfoxed

both

tostono and ewk

ewk the koan is nonsense

you make one version of nonsense

tostono makes another

both nonsense

sanity left the room years ago you didn’t

the koan is garbled and all you can do

is garble it more

and

think

yourself

wise

“ i was just driving and a mouse came from under the hood and watched me, the glass between us

  it couldn’t keep its balance and it fell off  : o (  ”

yeah turbulence ! : o (

their little paws look so neat and human like !

like a preacher giving a sermon based on bible passage you can make a koan mean anything and sometimes i wonder if there is any difference between them !

the unelightened play at what they won’t approach !

“ what is it they won’t approach ? ”

the loss of themselves !

its pretty simple when you get down to it, all this waste of time scripture crap !

“ deny yourself, but how do you do it when the one who wants to deny himself is the self ? ”

‘ deny yourself ’

that’s your projection, from that point of view its just all garbage which is what you get endlessly

the problem is to get things semantically coherent

you need to read the  “ right stuff ”  and you need solitary contemplation time and given a recent dialogue i feel i need to point out that this is not studying, listening to music or playing games . .

the big mistake soto makes is the lack of quality reading, the introspective side is done much better, you can see it with brad warner, its weakness and strength

that’s a life’s work and not for the  99.99%  of pretenders

yikes a mass post deletion on r|zen

i think this is the one they really wanted  gone

i always take what writing i want to preserve across to my web pages

ewk complains to the ops, who knows, he may be suicidal

its enemy territory

tina s.  covering   eruption

sometimes things are just in an altogether different class aren’t they ?

ewk, you’re losing, how can i put it

joshu didn’t lose once he was enlightened

why not put 2 and 2 together ?

you gonna be like u|kloudspiller claiming to be a  “ musician ”  and when asked for a demo went into a long spiel about how he never records because the music wouldn’t be  “ alive ” ,  like he was somehow better than  beethoven  and bach ?

the reality of course is he like you just pretends and can’t deliver !

buddhism is like a coat zen wears, sufi is a coat zen wears, mystical christianity is a coat that zen wears, wisdom literature is like a coat zen wears . . !

buddhism is like a coat zen wears, sufi is a coat zen wears, wisdom literature is like a coat zen wears . . !

buddhism is like a coat zen wears, sufi is a coat zen wears, wisdom literature is like a coat zen wears


reality is an hallucination, my vision with the 6th patriarch was of the true reality !

the religious authority thing  (me being 7th patriarch)  is just the way zen works with its lineage of mind to mind transmission

i was thinking alan watts was really of  “ the wisdom literature tradition ”  he is not of the zen lineage is a way of explaining it

“ when the enemy makes a mistake, don’t alert them to it ”

when the enemy makes a mistake, don’t alert them to it

ewk, being drunk with hubric stupidity is your problem !

ewk, drunk with hubric stupidity is your problem !

drunk with hubric stupidity is your problem !

drunk with hubric stupidity is your problem

soto seems to attract the dumbest and most mentally injured !

“ well, it's a mistake to generalize ”

its not a mistake to generalize !

its  “ bad ”  generalizations that’s your problem !

“ well, it's a mistake to generalize ”

its not a mistake to generalize !

its not a mistake to generalize !

its not a mistake to generalize

brad warner you are um um so  moneyless middle class  !

brad warner you are um um so moneyless middle class !

brad warner you are um um so moneyless middle class

the reddit zen motto is  “ never produce the goods ”


donna williams, author of  ‘ nobody nowhere ’  is dying of  metastatic  breast cancer and has maybe a year to live !

i guess the equanimity is in part from surviving her upbringing and difficult life !

i don’t think most people are like that at all !

the problem with breast cancer is the cancer cells consuming and  taking on features  of stem and stromal cells

her recent chemo/abraxane has given a remarkable temporary recovery at this stage and it seems like it could be that way forever but unfortunately remission is temporary !

so donna is in the unusual position of being in comparatively good health and spirits with a clear view of the   prognosis   road ahead

donna in your shoes i would be taking methyselenocysteine, i really think it does induce the apotheosis of stem cells !

interesting

i did send her an email about the health stuff, i hope she reads it !

it doesn’t matter how much they pay you, its not worth that sort  of brain injury  !

helmet to his jaw  in the video  !