this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don’t warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here

pending poems  index

chronological order is from the bottom to the top of  the page

i like both of traci brimhall’s poems  on this page , she is writing from personal experience, i think its just when she tries to do things with a bit of less than sincere imaginative heft that her poems can  go awry 

through a glass darkly

my  reply

after the sun rises

moonlight on the trees

they never pull the asylum down

where is the joy ?

i

got

up

this

morning

i

was

going

to

do

gardening

clean

the

house

and

mow

the

lawn

i

got

a

heap

of

writing done

the

garden

house

cleaning

and

lawn

didn’t

get

done

and

i

have

a

dental

appointment

tomorrow

the

point

of

a

poem

is

that

it

is

a

unity

of

action

with

linguistics

it's

not

just

writing

its

the sadness of hormones

robots chasing something

everything

is

a

mix

of

right

and

 wrong

linguistic interrogation mutates schizophrenia

its the whole point of it

look

you

can

write

about

something

or

you

can

do

something

writing

about

something

without doing

is

meaningless

poetry

there’s

no

money

in

it

and

it

takes

a

lot

of

time

so

what’s

the

point

 of it ?

the

first

part

of

problem

solving

is

to

see

you

don’t

understand

its

that

simple

mediocrity

is

so

thick

on

a

poetry

board

you

can

crush

it

if

you

read

poetry

you

have

to

be

very

careful

to

write

it

because

it

is

very

damaging

otherwise

its

not

even

possible

to

discuss

a

poem

you

can

reply

to

it

as

a

poem

and

that’s

about

it

“ he was a failed artist ”

artistry is creating innovative new constructs from damage

the

internet

makes

things

transparent

prices

for

one

thing

intellectual

shortfalls

for

another

religion

they

use

the words

of

others

and

don’t

use

their

own

words

its poisonous

the

devil

is

nonsense

though

perversity

is

not

god is gullible and stupid

my

experience

of

god

is

he/she/it

is

very

imperfect

women

and

illness

one

shakes

one’s

head

you

can

tell

me

its

not

so

because

you

don’t

want

to

think

it

so

but

that

doesn’t

make

it

not

so

i

think

sex

is

what

keeps

life

circular

the

secret

of

a

good

con

is

to

be

partly

convinced

your

self

infinity

partly

believes

in

reality

even  god

has clay feet

if

zen

is

not

nutty

what

is

 it ?

mentally

retarded

gurus

fairy

stories

pseudo

historical

fiction

endless

craziness

thomas

kinkade

is

excrement

his

paintings

are

amplified

 kitsch !

juxtapostions

of

inconsistent

elements

that

jar

why would i bother to talk to you if you didn’t have some authenticity

there’s

a

difference

between

visions

and

day

dreams

what’s

the

 difference ?

if

you’ve

ever

had

a

real

vision

you

are

interested

in

anyone

else

who

has

unfortunately

hens

teeth

are

a

a multitude

 compared !

we are constanly pursuing the illusion of finding some-one the same as ourselves

i don't think any sexual orientation is comfortable with other sexual orientations

knowledge of yourself lessens but does not eliminate the need to interact with others

with somethings its enough to know myself and its better not have to others knowing

the weirdness of what works well

the

woman

who

was

jealous

of

the

evening

the

problem

of

life

is

the

problem

of

unresolvable

knots

where

what

you

need

gives

rise

to

unending

deeper

problems

you

cannot

resolve

problems

by

making

them

simpler

than

they

are

like

the

gross

oversimplifications

of

diets

the

recursive

complexity

of

nutritionally

supported

biochemistry

cannot

be

circumvented

whom

the

gods

favour

they

deny

what is entertainment but a distorted reality giving boyancy over life’s unpleasantness

do these two  paintings  have similarities ?

there

can

be

a

genuine

perception

of

ultimate

reality

a

s

a

child

of

6

or

seven

that

is

lost

with the

various

neural

prunings

the

infinite

is

a

limited

notion

fractals

are

a

limited

notion

unlimited

is

a limited

notion

limited

is

an

unlimited

notion

pretty

well

anything

i

do

is

poisoned !

humans are not an intellectually adventurous species, social learning is its forté and limitation

one

day

you

wake

up

and

realise

how

the

world

is

it

can

never

be

any

other

way

heraclitis

is

a

miracle

you

can

only

see

something

if

you

work

at

it

species

evolve

to

diets

diet

is

not

separate

from

human

biology

love

is

not

the

be

all

and

end

all

the

problem

all

religion

has

and

its

all

the

same

is

they

are

just

mediocre

minds

basically

it

does

fulfill

a

social

purpose

makes

men

less

murderous

to

each

other

within

the

same

religion

or

social

grouping

of

course

you

need

to

develop

a

more

fluid

and

artistic

schema

not

religious

though

dali

did

quite

well

on

a

combination

its sorta philosophical

even in wrong minded stupidity there can be sense at times

when

you

watch

a

tv

program

you

can

believe

in

the

story

or

disbelieve

in

the

story

all

education

is

moving

into

the

volunteer

realm

the

world

is

not

a

better

place

for

me

correcting

you

the

world’s

first

nutritional

supplement

armed

invasion

arabs

and

africans

invading

western

europe

on

the

back

of

vitamin D

imo

dali

is

not

100%

coherent

your

brain

palette

is

emotion

whereas

mine

is

thought

i

hate

men

hate

hate

hate

why

are

they

such

stupid

bastards

what

do

i

need

them

for ?

women

r

like

overgrown

roses

they

need

trimming

to

bring

out

the

best

and

of

course

they

are

full

of

thorns

i

don't

think

men

realise

how

animalistic

women

are

this

work

a

unique

synthesis

of

modern

and

ancient

what

i've

learnt

with

women

is

you

need

to

massage

what's

between

the

ears

bears

are

as

intelligent

as

humans

especially

polar

bears

the

net

is

a

huge

involvement

trap

women

love

because

if

they

didn't

they

would

never

stick

around

they

are

too

capricious

it's

interesting

the

extent

to

which

politics

is

about

ideas

i think am starting to understand you better, you have an extraordinarily strong natural sense of what it is about but an improverished conceptual superstructure which no religion despite your protestations and very little philosophy provides

the

moron

“ norms ”

think

because

they

can't

understand

it

that

it's

not

understandable !

intelligence

says

i

can't

understand

it,

that's

all

i've been thinking about this for more than four decades, that fiction can abstract to be truer than  truth

lewis carroll’s writings for instance

why

is

there

something

rather

than

nothing ?

it's

because

there

are

infinite

possibilites

and

one

of

those

possibilities

is

it

can

exist

is  spirituality

what it

seems

or

just

another

 day  dream ?

people

used

to

go

mad

a

lot

once

it

was

syphilis

and

lead

and

arsenic

what

is

immortality

a

fiction

a

figment

yet

wasn't

heraclitus

immortal

what

does

he

know

of

it?

“ when the truth is fiction and fiction is true ”

i always remembered those lines from the story of the stone

why was mikhail bulgakov such a genius ?

even at his most sentimental he was a still a genius

showing

nothing

but

aces

all

the

time

can

be

a

bit

intimidating

i

swear

i

don't

know

where

they

come

from

i think i have a sort of charisma because people do respond to it, also as a child i noticed it

something

is

only

liked

by

the

masses

if

it

doesn't

hurt

their

brains

which

only

run

along

certain

lines

sickly

sentiment

being

the

main

one

visions

need

not

be

true

or

very

true

at

least

broad

visions

are

less

true

than

narrow

visions

i

think

a

true

vision

is

of

the

instance

( maybe they have no dimension )

it's

sorta

disturbing

but

ultimately

there's

no

morality

no

right

or

wrong

why

is

our

life

 poisoned ?

what

people

mean

by

hypochondria

is

complaining

before

you

are

about

to

drop

dead

when

there's

no -

one

there

i

know

it's

about

right

however tidy

we

make

the

world

it

 unravels !

am

i

right

or

am

i

wrong

if

i

am

right

what

does

it

 matter ?

only

to

 me

there

are

some

things

it

has

taken

me

years

to

get

of

the

million

not

even

one

is

right

of

ten

million

perhaps

one

schizophrenia and retarded are paradigms i use to describe reality, don’t be offended

i do find that for ones own sanity that removal of some  (blogs, messageboards etc)  posts and posters is necessary though in a religious sense one is supposed to  “ accept all ”  but there’s too much aggression and schizophrenia out there

i write this of course and i am the first one removed

one can be schizophrenic but not necessarily insane

being mild mannered or weak doesn’t make a person any less of an arsehole

i guess this is what is called “ passive aggression ”

islam

is

a

medieval

religion

osma

bin

laden

acting

a

s

a

proxy

for

those

ancestors

who

fought

the

crusaders

the

rot

with

modern

art

set

in

when

andy

warhol

convinced

the

world

that

what

he

did

was

art

he

had

a

good

conceptual

understanding

but

art

melds

that

with

productive

labour

“ zen is nutty ”

no results found for  “ zen is nutty ”

double check on bing

we did not find any results for  “ zen is nutty ”.

unreal !

“ christianity is nutty ”  on bing

7 results

about 31 results on google

it's

a

strange

strange

world

where

the

millions

rule

and

the

lonely

true

voice

is

all

that

is

saying it

one

hundred

billion

morons

can't

be

wrong

or

can

they

 be ?

one

can

be

a

fruitcake

but

not

wrong

science

doesn't

have

it

wrong

but

the

view

that

materiality

is

the

ultimate

reality

is

wrong !

it's

a

trap

i

have

even

seen

toni

packer

fall

into

i

think

one

of

the

modern

problems

is

physics

has

got

confused

with

metaphysics

heraclitus

got

physics

wrong

but

it

doesn't

matter

modern

physics

has

it

right

but

it

doesn't

help

humans

just

have

so

little

tolerance

for

anything

different

geothermal ligands are the chemical  starting  point of ife

what this implies is there is other intelligent life in the universe

its not probable, its certain, all no doubt with their equivalent of biofilms as well

the ligands are pretty basic to functional biochemistry and the compendium and  BCD  supplement principles, for instance why non protein bound mineral forms suit bad bacteria so much!

life

is

terminally

incomplete

unceasingly

moving

what

does

this

 mean ?

you

can

tell

the

twits

what

they

don t

want

to

hear

well

they

are

successful

at

something

not

hearing

there's

nothing

sadder

than

middle

class

who

can't

make

the

grade

as

middle

class

like

me

pacific barrel eye  fish

the eyes are set within the transparent head so they can see from within the head, what look like the eyes are in fact nostrils

good

or

bad

the

outlook

is

always

unknown

by

the

time

you

have

done

something

you

have

worked

out

how

to

do

it

a

planet

and

a

star !

why

is

everything

i

do

cryingly

difficult

because

i

am

prepared

to

go

into

that

area ?

what

is

life

about ?

bearing

with

the

emptiness

and

utter

futility

of

it's

nothingness

it's

nutty

to

believe

in

historically

fictitious

figures

like

buddha

and

jesus

and

mohammed

does

religion

make

schizophrenics

or

just

make

them

worse ?

does sitting do anything useful or does it entrain or even create schizophrenia ?

if

it's

useful

what

is

the

context

if

it

entrains

schizophrenia

that's

pretty

much

evidenced

by

the

nuttiness

of

zen

a

man

without

a

woman

is

a

victim

a

man

with

a

woman

is

a

victim

why

does

evolution

have

to

be

so

 smart ?

i keep forgetting how people react to anything i write

that desire to kill me

advertisements

why

do

all

those

women

sound

like

they

are

having

oral

sex

and

the

men

humping

and

the

public

lapping

it

 up ?

witches

just

an

excuse

to

hang

old

women

and

gain

their

property

i

looked

a

bit

i

looked

deeper

why

do

i

have

to

get

involved

with

this ?

what looked

young or nascent

is

in

fact

senile

decay

the

world

is

tangibly

distinctly

truely

if

the

world

is

schizophrenic

and

you

deliver

insanity

to

the

schizophrenics

who

can

be

blamed?

there

is

utility

here

if

you

are

prepared

to

take

it

all

things

pass

what

once

was

is

no

more

neural

pruning

is

murderous !

women

don't

rate

their

lives

highly

they

do

rate

their

needs

highly tho

the

brain

is

female

the

face

has

a

beard

everything

is

upside

down

i'm

not

a

person

who

lives

for

today

maybe

i ought

to

more !

criticizing

something

is

easy

making

something

is

not

if

you

don't

have

to

do

something

for

money

you

can

understand

it

better

de botton

pretender

to

the

philosophy

crown

certainty

you

are

right

doesn't

actually

make

you

right

no-

one

is

interested

they

are

all

too

busy

doing

something

else

being

wrong

basically

in all these years i don’t think that reading any poem you haven’t written yourself is straight-forward, there are so many internal barriers to accepting there can be a bit of sense to it

so

sick

of

wrong

turnings

endless

wrong

turnings

wouldn't

know

a

right

turning

if

i

fell

over

it

just

a bit

of

sense

or

nonsense

or

sense

eternity fulfilled our destiny

yesterday remembered today

spiked

by

the

icicle

eyes

my

dream

failed

roses

don't

hold

the

pillars

up

the

absent stone

does

when

you

are

looking

at

a

painting

you

are

seeing

some-one’s

mind

or

reading

a

poem

university

english

is

a

complete

and

utter

waste

of

time

it

has

just

become

poisoned

maybe

it

always

was

(whisper)

actually

i

think

the

notion

of

god

is

kitsch

why

is

the

world

full

of

 nuts ?

i

don't

think

meditation

does

anything

except

embed

schizophrenia

it's

not

trying

to

be

something

that

you

want

it

to

be

they

can

look

but

don't

understand

cattle don’t care particularly where they put their feet

the

huge

demands

that

just

paying

anyone

attention

makes

there

is

some

real

interesting

stuff

on

the

net

that

has

just

disappeared

the

author

knows

and

the

reader

knows

but

it

is

gone

i

guess

the

author

knows

if

they

are

still

around

when

you

don’t

need

it

you

can

see

what

something

is

when

you

do

you

can’t

i think

i

annoy

women

being

a

sort

of

“ failed male ”

they

can

see

there’s

something

there

but

i

am

too

damaged

to

be

of

any

use

to

them

women’s lib

a

lesbian

model

of

reality

it

took

me

a

long

while

to

realise

even

the

sick

and

needy

have

their

self-esteem

wrong

minded

though

it

might

be

women

have

no

notion

of

“ policy ”

they

take

each

case

individually

i

am

not

saying

it

is

wrong

“ you are writing junk ”

“ why don’t we discuss the junk you write ” ?

“ there is none ”

“ oh well isn’t that always the way ?

mean and miserable natures are universal  ”

i

had

a

long

way

to

go

and

still

have

a

long

way

to

go

“ how do you write this much ? ”

you just sit down and days on end and end after end you write

if anyone lived a selfless life, vincent van gogh did

there is something about the dissociation of prostitutes that rings alarm bells

watch your health and keep your options open

but

we

really

are

empty

if you use your powers of observation its never lonely

even if you are by your self

little

imagined

scenes

it's

amazing

how

we

delude

ourselves

when

you

look

into

something

it

all

changes

family

is

about

the

only

sanity

except

for

the

insanity

; o )

i think respect is an unreal quality

respect is an unreal quality

clever enough to use the words of others to bolster his own reputation

but

that’s

an

old

trick

akiane

god

in

small

doses

religion

spirituality

the

net

the

joining

of

lives

that

should

be

separate

reading

philosophy

does

not

make

you

a

philosopher

i

have

no

advice

life

is

too

hard

and

pointless

and

more

often

than

not

i

am

on

the

wrong

side

of

it

life

is

just

an

endless

succession

of

conundrums

that

open

up

into

more

conundrums

alain

de

botton

a

bit

empty

upstairs

pied flycatcher 

if you think about it, its quite species advantageous because he's rearing two broods

one doing well in good conditions

one surviving in harsh conditions

so

often

we

overlook

what

is

right

under

our

noses

or

have

unrealistic

expectations

about

what

can

be

achieved

quoting alain de botton

one of the most surprising things about getting older is how unresolved and unsure one continues to feel

my  reply

one feels surer and more resolved but life is not less uncertain

when stalin got to hell the devil brought up ivan the terrible and genghis khan so they could all bow down before stalin

as the three bowed to him, stalin raised an eyebrow and asked

where’s hitler ?

the

brain

seems

to

retain

a

sense

of

developmental

shortfalls

regardless

almost

of

how

old

you

are

and

if

it

can

recover

through

improved nutrition

or

other

factors it

will

try

to

make

up

the

shortfalls

and

this

can

happen

semi-

successfully

at

least

as

late

as

the

early

sixties

if

i

am

anywhere

i

don't

know

where

if

i'm

not

anywhere

i

don't

know

where

either

i

believe

in

female

supremacy

it's

not

actually

my

belief

it's

evolutions

belief

socrates was happy to have a state assisted suicide and I suspect seneca wasn’t that far off welcoming his own execution and walter raleigh at his execution kissed the axe and said

“ this is a sharp medicine, but it is a physician for all diseases and miseries ”

of which he had a few  (diseases)

keats had a particularly painful end

well a hollow medically supported existance is the norm now, tragic death is passé tho fog brained suffering is not

you will have worked out by now that women and children are happy to walk over your half dead body

autism is a paradigm that obviates philosophy

christians

never

read

the

bible

anyone

who

reads

the

bible

cannot

remain

a

christian

it's

really

depressing

so

much

of

my

life

frittered

away

into

utter

meaninglessness

over

fifty

the

main

problem

appears

to

be

staying

alive

the

breeding

madness

of

the

young

if

i

was

disillusioned

about

life

before

why

am

i

more

disillusioned

 now ?

julian assange has the disease of trying to make the world confrom to his idea of a  better place

he’s paying the price

the

painfulness

of

realizing

everyone

is

separate

from

you

pythagoras's

theorem

is the

boundary

condition

between

euclidean

and

non

euclidean

geometery

akiane

skilled

but

not

that

bright

the whole menopause hormone thing is quite an eye opener, the extension of life for the price of a degree of crippling

unlike joints where we are being specifically degraded to crimp our life span

 there

 are

 natural

 mechanisms

 to

 protect

 true

 genius

 from

i think a prodigy is technically proficient with an adult skill

it rarely includes creativity

people don’t have to say anything, but you can see from their behavior how they think

poems have layers of meanings

its a bit hard to break them open and say well it means this

william mcgonagall writes prose very well and if you read the poems as prose they are  not so bad 

hamish henderson gives me a bad vibe, his talent sort of smeared in a non useful way!

one of the first requirements of poetry is to write what you are happy with and not give a fig for anyone else

spike milligan  understood  that

there

was

never

any

normal

life

for

going

around

in

circles

i

have

come

back

to

where

i

am

which

is

the

larger

interest

most

people

just

cannot

see

it

the whole problem with intellectual property is its complete and utter financial worthlessness, unless met in commercial reality in some way

god

is

in

the

detail

and

correctly

seen