that don’t warrant a page by themselves
or seem to fit better here
pending poems index
chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page
audio files can be complemented by listening to them with the eyes closed
of the torture and slow dying prison is
execution by poor diet and the constant stress of the malignity of the othe other inmates a lack of boundaries can be a problem with very good intelligences because really there are no boundaries, only consequences i don't have any boundaries but i am scared shitlessof the torture and slow dying prison is
it's the cycle through depression to mania that gives a lot of intellectual strength it's the cycle through depression to maniathat gives a lot of intellectual strength
you have to allow that insightcan come from people and situations
one is not comfortable with
and actually insight is objective,a common property so to speak
and exists independent of people
infinity in life
it inspires in mediocrity
and so cruel to maintain its own comfort
that's what bugs me the test of greatnessis the hatred
it inspires in mediocrity
mediocre is so happy to be mediocre,and so cruel to maintain its own comfort
that's what bugs me buddhist scriptureis more inane than christian,
it's quite liberating
to accept how inane
religious piffle is
and sneer at eight centuries
waste of time carving scriptures
on stone slabs
when thirty seconds of original
thought outweights it all
how utterly meaningless those stupid statues,ceremonies
and as for carving scriptures
on stone slabs for 800 years!!!!!
like the painof going to the trouble
of posting a reply
to that recent parent post on openblooms
to have it ignored
fruitless, empty and leaves a bad taste that's a correct perception of life i guess being in love is like freefalling forever,very depressing about pornography,
the same as prostitution,
a murderous depersonalisation
by the time i diei might have worked out
how not to spill my blood
and have others lap it up
in everything i do
by the time i die i might have worked out how not to spill my bloodand have others lap it up in everything i do
no task is ever mindless,is getting something back
more than the money
which is usually not very much
the big problem with work is getting something back more than the moneywhich is usually not very much
most people are intellectually completely unadventurous timorous and cowardly when it comes to anything new too soft on themselves we are all victimised by the shape of our brains better my work go unread than become swill for the swine the problem with skippingon the amount of attention
needed by health and wellness issues
is that it's not death that is the road out,
but slow and painful
and humiliating incapacitation
yeah i'm unstable, you are the stable one so i have to back off a lot of what i think etc.and just let it all wash out in an even amicable way
the clever have sharp teethto shred the intelligent,
which unfortunately
is an old story
heart is in what you do,it's not that you do something with heart
all the phoniesdo things with heart and compassion
while being very many miles away from it
the wall of heaven is the the impassable barrier to eternity beyond only it's a bit more porous and passable than it seemsratbag humans just bounce from one zone of failed emotional comfort to another
what can look like sweetness or generosityan inquisitive and subtle intelligence
is such an unusual thing
all i have to do is stop stirring the pot and bite my tongue occasionally and just let things go on under their own momentum there is a lot of power in seeing how things are without needing them to be a certain way the trouble with love is it wants them to be a certain way start something before it begins that is, starting to do something before you begin it proper getting some early practical feedback basically what is the point of jealousy if you are not prepared to make up the shortfalls that the object of the jealousy is meeting? men can have a shock as women approach menopause, like a really nasty shock as the hormones change and they don't put up with so much, that is, they become more like men females have a loyalty to sex and not the person that males can find hard to understand. just play the patience game and you will win something not being wrong is very far from being right one can love , but its a brutal process and its helpful to be a couple of moves ahead of the lover which can happen if they make a mistake and you put the work in even in the strongest love there is always an element of a lack of requition stupidity is quite an active process and requires some degree of intelligence, it is so thorough about removing what would defeat it the tyranny of the talentless it takes real talent to go for the unglamorous, the talentless always go for the pretty sophistication is understanding of the human condition and the ability to do the intelligent option (eileen prunster) when dealing with schizophrenics, its best to keep as much distance as is possible poetry is to english as diamond is to glass the quality of politicans is usually not better than what votes them in, sometimes it can be with anything real you cannot see the way ahead theres no grief like a lost love or anything more painful than to see someone falling out of love with you there is an identity condition of infinity with the temporal but it speaks for itself and those who don't, won't or can't hear it, blubber away with the usual infantile religious crap nostalgia seems such an intrinsic sign of mental decay spam will exist until the ratio of response drops to represent a considerable economic cost mediation is a mechanical analogue of self reflection self reflection however has no context and is not mechanical zazen, satori and zen are mechanical analogues i don't love american culture, kitschy, aggressive, ignorant and boorish eileen: now i really know what bittersweet is andrew: the flower that evaporates in the hand there is a sort of sex of the soul, seeing someone directly savancy: an extraordinary skill only matched by it's pointlessness the purpose of zen is to kneecap the brain, which it does very well its a world that shits on quality our lives wear away on futilities there is a lot of thuggishness and brutality in mediocre views autistic spectrum is an adaptation and new forming of function in a different brain tho it seems something like permanent crucifixion, its part of the solution, not the problem the stuff i write is of eternity, not the puling ronald macdonald fandom that americans seem so enamoured of grammar is inherent in the brain, in reality there is no grammar beyond the understanding of what is written the evolutionarily assigned role for the male is a beast of burden for the female who is herself a beast of burden for her offspring the human brain is full of an emotional veneer that disguises this being right is a process, not an endpoint notions of god are intrinsically limited because if there is god then you also have to have a concept of god's justice for humans since obviously there is none, then you have to develop the fiction of heaven and hell to make sense of the injustice of the world so i will step away from the atheist viewpoint that says there is no god and say instead there is god but its a limited notion eileen : “so i will step away form the atheist viewpoint that says there is no god and say instead there is god but its a limited notion” would u mind expanding on what u mean by this? do u mean god is a notion or do u mean there is a god but not as imagined by some Andrew : “there is god but its a limited notion” Andrew : you can't break the meaning apart of those words Andrew : which is what essentially poetry is, you can't break the sense apart from the words if you teach something, it completely destroys your sense of what you are teaching all the tears from here to infinity don't mean a thing imagine a man in a room with ten thousand pieces of blank paper stacked high he takes one from the top and starts writing in pencil he does this until all the paper is written on, then he takes the first one he started with, rubs it out and starts writing again his name is life have i disrupted the fatuous emotional haze of waiting at the end of time? 'waiting at the end of time' is a passive fatalism tucked up in comfy emotions to avoid feeling the icy hurricane one is swept up in its a common maladaptive response to deep injury a leaf in a stream, where is it going? the decay of aging alters all perspectives christine from PAso proud so stupid
so american
why do turds outshine thier brains?
the hunting of the snark is quality, schrodingers cat and douglas adams are crapwhy fart when you can smell of a rose?
autism is both dead and alive and therefore quantum most mental health professionals are disguised schizophrenic's, safer to be that side of the system than the other just because you have a leak, doesn't mean you have to sink the ship the years sweep away under our feet where is god in quantum uncertainty? 'they see an inch and think it's a mile' an old man turned up at the gates of hellthe chief devil looked him over and said "jesus you look in bad shape, what happened?" (they swear a lot in hell for obvious reasons)
the old man said, alzheimers, pancreatic cancer and parkinsons
there upon the chief devil said the magic words "fucking shit" and the old man was changed into a young one
he said "i thought this was hell"
the chief devil said
that's so you can age all over again
love is working productively together, you want to weight that more when you worry about me and my attachment if you have to go an extra mile its cause you don't get there without going the extra mile god is objective truth what you know about something has to be balanced with how useful it is to know it............ the nature of blind is you can't see, and not seeing that we are blind is part of the blindness, life is mostly leaving old areas of blindness to go into new ones and ultimately discovering we never left the old ones women unfortunately cannot call a spade a spade. instead you get a three page essay on 'like a spade' i'm getting used to women, anything they disagree with translates to me having a problem the female condition, afraid to be afraid, but afraid not to be afraid in fact life has a sort of inverted topology whereby what is imagined to be interior and not exposed is out there to see anyway
let people go thier own way
bite off more than you can chew and you get chewed
everyday a million miles to travel
in all directions
but the old brain and frame can no longer keep up
death overtakes
what is man naught but a dream mirrored on itself
theres no innocence in being gullible, it's just slackness looking for easy pickings.
a forum thread from hermitageheart.org, photo by john loori
crying
some sadness of beyond death here
u need the red to live
its in this photo and conveys the nature of red quite well even if it doesn't conform to what red should be by theory but i have learnt to go on observation and not theory :o)
the nature of red may not change but it sure has different forms most of which i could do with out because of their painfully erosive nature
Anna S. wrote, what do you mean "u need the red to live?"
my reply:
red is what everything revolves around
i guess i am speaking of 'beyond death'
which is not a lot of fun actually
u need the red to live
but its not an answer per se like 'oh i have the red'
more just being aware of the turbulent stream we are caught in
the outcomes of aging are pretty ghastly
love and hate are human dreams that are never untangled in our short lives
the sea is wisdom life is death
literal or non literal
literal
i use jesus and buddha for lavatory paper
we get a little beauty in life, precious little and then its over
when you go down a road again and again you notice its characteristics
solitude shows
what groups don't know
sight and blind
one of the secrets of life is not to hang too hard onto things and see if it hangs there by itself................
u need to steer by the pole stars of yourself
answers are just new questions
empty eons passing the time dead time I have a single potential It can be seen in a solitary twinkle If you still don’t hear me I call the acolyte and ask him. by Xiangyan (9th century?) my reply there is no single potential apart from complexity and simplicity the fundamental oscillation
never shall together be
except in eternity
sometimes it's easy
sometimes it's hard
sometimes the moon
comes down in shards
plants that grow up in the shade of the oak
will never overtake it
the blue cliff record, case 3
just go for the case
the rest is junk
though sometimes
there can be good stuff
in the commentary
but that is stuff the compiler is quoting,
the compiler himself is a bit of an idiot.
i need some sun to survive.
through truthfulness and giving may there be some living
women write
i followed down
on the southern side
of beinn eighe
in northern scotland.
it goes past the car park.
by the beach
the waves run up the stones
they run down
Shine your lighthouse light on me,
Lighthouse man can’t help us all,
Some are saved and some will fall,
He’ll show you where the danger lies
But he can’t help it if you capsize,
He’ll light your way but that is all,
Got to steer your own boat back to shore.
stones and streams are a dream wherein i would lie until i die
Rita came up on icq last night
emp - ty
the jackals still pick out his eyes
crunch up his head
but he is still dead
males that don't meet female expectations
depression is palpable
the fish rakes run
ruining a blue sea
depression is palpable
a diamond's sparkle
is not big or small
long or short
but just as it ought
a diamond's sparkle
the muse
vacates
and arrives
according to its own schedule
the muse
star light
oh i am dying
oh i am dead
the moon's come down
crashed in my head
oh i'm dying
oh i'm dead
blow me down
knock off my head
insight unto insight springs along the way
note, the proper version is in manawa (auckland zen society magazine) i think,
will have to look up a back issue to get it
things long forgotten
toi-toi on a lakes edge
a metalled road and (paddlocked)? gate
folding unfolding
things long forgotten
toi toi
a metalled road and gate
the lap of waves on a lakes edge
the vastness of inconceivability
rain on roof — eyes laden delicious
an hour - wealth for the poorest
tui song perched on a cloud
a tui singing - dulcet drops heaven fallen
noontide sun foaming around my feet
white cottonwood branches half lit in yellow scouring the sky
boats bow wave slicing a tender sea a dolphin glints glass frozen
macrocapa tree standing against the sky
split the sun spill its fire flames of ice!
sitting on a cliff top absorbed by the sea
bush white flecked - manuka flowers
clock click stills
pull the sky through a star
punch the moon inside out
slitting eternities throat sheep shit for roses
ashes in the urn
ashes in the urn how real is real?
black white grey partiality solidify's things
walking into the dissolving dust sky the blue in hieroglyphs green streams of obscene dreams aeons burst in a yellow star glow
purling, spinning weaving dreaming suchness seems in likeness of these
and a child grabbed my shopping list exercise book
from the bottom of the empty trolley
and we looked at each other,
i took it back.
told him to stop it or something,
i wondered wether he was autistic
so i said
since it was well used,
patched with a bit of tape,
had a sort of patina to an intelligent eye
it contained photographs
i couldn't think wether it not
it might be something else,
said nothing and they moved on.