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links are in the  times new roman  font  

















an


old


aboriginal


legend


visit


the


flinders


ranges


and


you


will


live


forever


the


dreaming


told


me !
















intelligence


is


a


very


mixed


bag


there's

not


enough


to


go


around


so we specialise


in


certain


areas


and


those


areas


we


don't


specialize


in


leave


us


vulnerable
















heart


specialists


some

of


these


men


are


more


powerful


than


prime

ministers


the


way


people


treat


them !
















go


rub


your


face


in


a


broken


beer


bottle !
















why


tell


the


talentless


they


are


talentless ?
















its very odd the net, we can look across time and an ocean , peer at each other, form conclusions and then go our ways !
















this


endless


road


of


writing


that


nietzsche


went


down


to


his

doom !
















the


trouble


with


war


is


it


suits


 human's


natural


abilities


too


closely
















if


life


was


any


less


rough


it


would


be


smooth !
















if


you


want


to


live


by


viscera


you


can


take


the


  consequences
















age


and


ill


health


is


the


collapse


of


dreams
















the


thing


about


the


net


is


what


do


you


get


involved



in?

stupid


fistfights


with

idiots ?
















the


perishability


of


the


human


world


you


can't


even


take


any


joy


in


   sex !




   comment : sex is like an attempt to gainsay that illusoriness
















verbal


diarrhea ?


no


it


don't


flow


that


easy


or



maybe



it



does !
















there


are


actually


some


limits


to


information


on


the


web


historical


for


example


and


non-

descript !
















do


i


have


to


die


every


day


of


the


week ?



i


suppose


i


don't !
















it's


a


funny


thing


income


and


survival


how


it


compels


your


attention


to


the


detriment


of


everything


else
















what


we


would


hang


onto


gets


pulled


from


our


hands

as


we


die !
















14


years


in


a


lead


painted


room


;

o

(

)
















after

a


while


you


start


to


write


beyond


your


own


   thinking !
















a


woman


and


her


children


is


in


fact


quite


a


solitary


thing !



even


the


children


become


removed


eventually !
















a


woman

alone


with


her


own


  reproductive


  opportunities
















it's


a


funny


thing


after


all


these


years


i


am


ceasing


to


get


involved !


too


hard


physically


basically !
















it's


funny


how


i

always


get


involved


in


things


at


transitions


the


transition


happens


then


i


move


on



very


wearing


actually !
















the


word


of


god

is


actually


very


fallible


the


vision


of


god


is


not !
















the


female


of


the


species


just


has


no


idea


about


her


own


survival !
















effective


problem


solving


requires


the


deliberate


introduction


of


chaos
















witless


people


can


be


very


intelligent


degrees


financially


successfull


bill


gates


comes


to


mind


whereas i would say that


warren buffett


wasn't


witless

for


some


reason


maybe


more


of


an


arsehole ?
















i am not sorry about you being scared, mediocre minds can't handle my writing !
















is there a connection between the horrendous drug use in the usa and it's medical sanctity syndrome ?


you bet, eat rubbish, no sun on the skin and pop a pill for everything !
















the


witless


hate


the


  witted !
















mills


&


boon


the


most


evil


force


in


the


universe



women


don't


need


that


extra


    unreality !
















always


the


old


story


of


trying


to


do


too


much


and


life


needing


more


than


can


be


done !
















it


is


far


better


in


life


to


appear


poor


than


actually


be


poor


: o )
















a


thin


sliver


of


a


crescent


moon


through


the


gums

on


the


hill


it


looks


like


a



  fire !
















i had this image


of


a


woman


surrounded


by


her


children


with


their


teeth


into


her


flesh !
















genius


is


always


going


to


look


mad


to


the


norms


because


anything


of


 intelligence


is


outside


of


   normal !
















a


bit


of


fish


i


don't


know


who


i


am


any

   more !
















when


i


look

at


what

it


took


to


free


me


from


springwater


it


was


incredible !


toni regressing i think


;


o


(


as


usual


everyone


gone


and


i


am


the


only


one


here !
















everything


is


chaotic


the


world


is


just


bizzarely


insane


   pressing
!
















my


main


natural


ability


appears


to


be


to


get


things


completely


wrong


and


right
















you


think


it


means


something


it's


just


mistranslated


garbage


that


has


lost


it's


true


sense


in


the

mists


and


sands


of


time !
















the


french


revolution


freed


the


 marquis


de


   sade
!
















holofernes


didn't


understand


himself


judith


asserted


his


evolutionary


programming


with


the


consequences !
















my


life


is


unstable


and


can


take


a


number


of


unlikely


turnings !
















as


you


get


older


you


get


so


intricated


in


your


own


skills


you


can't


extricate


yourself


for


a


moment !
















from


your


point


of


view


all


this


writing


is


mad


since


no -

one


reads


it


except


infinity


:


o


)
















this


reading


is


not


for


the


blindly


conventional !
















religion


and


medicine


natural

havens


for


schizophrenics


no


questioning


   allowed !
















writing


i


just


weep


with


the


exhaustion


and


relentlessness


of


it



ever


ongoing


being


pulled


forward !
















an

ideal


man


some


combination


of


myself


and


others


and


mills


and


boon


: o )


where


does


he


exist ?
















males


are


always


disposable


for


breeding


purpose


because


there's


always


another


women


are


not


because


their


lifespan


represents

a


finite


amount


of


children !
















boorbosie


boor


and


boob


and


the


tail


end


of


bourgeoisie !
















you


can


criticize


religion


no-one


cares


a

fig


criticize


medicine


and


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


well


of


course


it


has


replaced


the


old


religious


beliefs !
















there's


very


few


on


the


net


that


are


not


total


arseholes


it's


just


amazing !


but


not


everyone


is


a


complete


arsehole !
















wikipedia is an odd animal,  house's  story lines in immaculate detail but anything that threatens the boorbosies comfort with the sanctity of medicine is removed !
















everybody


looks


around


humans


live


in


a

state


of


blind


self


absorbed


  optimism !
















there's


no


such


thing


as


perfect


love
!
















wittgenstein


is


overated


as

a


 philosopher


he


was


famous


too


   young !
















i


should


have


a

little


sign


up


and


look


at


it


every


morning


don't


save


the


world
















movement


the


attraction


of


the


positive


or


the


repulsion


of


the


negative ?
















i


love


you


as


much


as


the


sky


and


the


sea


and


the


beautiful


green


fields


and

the

bush


and


the


streams ............
















my


homilies


infinities


wikileak


: o )
















i


really


think


teaching


poisons


one's


approach


to


life


i don't


bloody


well


know


what


it


is

a


lack


of


contradiction


or


something ?
















marilyn


munroe


wasn't


a


natural


blond


her


hair


was


brown


and


her


eyes


were


brown !


and


in


autistic


fashion


may


have


changed


iris


colour


a


bit !



it's


quite


illuminating


the


extent


to


which


her


image


is


a


construct
















“ is   


this


a


cold


      call ? ”


evasive


 meandering


“ ta   

   da ”
















a


lot


of


zen


is


mistranslated


or


alienated


by


culture


difference


that


is


the


true


fusion


of


sense


and


language


has


been


lost


it


will


even


happen


to


these


words


i


write



   perhaps !
















sun


rises


in


the


east


sun


sets


in


the


  west !
















 blue cliff record case 17


why


did


 bodhidharma


come


from


the


   west ?


my


comment


if


he


had


come


from


the


east


he

would


have


had


an

easier


time


of


  it !
















why


is


the


world


like


it


is ?


the


general


level


of

psychology


is


not


very


good !
















are


there


some


bridges


explanation


cannot


cross



well


most


    actually !
















when


we


say


mad


we


simply


mean


different


from


normal
















what


is


this


murderous


life


full


of


stupidity


about ?




the


self


serving


hordes


grasping


until


at


last


they


are


incapacitated


by


illness !
















i


am


not


enjoying


getting


older


as


one's


conditions


mount !
















the


blue


cliff


record


stilted


rubbish


with


the


odd



dash


of


silver


glitter !
















the


trouble


with


the


written


word


is


we


have a


tendency


to


take


stories


as


literally


true !
















don't


be


intimidated


by


phd's


they


are


   idiots !
















reply to paul breslin :


there is no gold standard of poetry, if there's one thing i have learnt you write for yourself and not others !


really if you can entertain the idea hirshfield is within a cooee of bukowski ..............


we are just poles apart the difference cannot be explained across !


analysis ain't begetting i am afraid !
















zen


is


just


an


optical


illusion
















we


become


a


memory

even


before


we


die
















the


easy


way


to


see


zen


is


a


fraud


is


they


sound


good


quoting


hakuin


the


blue


cliff


record


dogen


or


the


book


of


serenity


but


the


moment


they


talk


off


their


own


bat


it's


rubbish



they


know


this

which


is


why


when


they


talk


on

their


own


account


it's


disguised

neath

a


persiflage


of


the


masters


words
!
















r


u


reading


what

i


said


or


what


you


think


i


said !
















we


are


all

experts


in


being


entertained


what


we


enjoy !
















the previous two homiles are in part a comment that the real purpose of women's lives is to raise children, but they need skills to be employed in today's world


like it's a contradiction between what they do naturally and what society now requires of them


more and more these pages take in the context of what else is written on them
















women


only


have


one


skill


snare


a

male


get


pregnant


and


raise


children !
















it's


a


technologically


sophisticated


society

now

unskilled

labour


has


no


   place !
















when he (mu chou) arrived there, he came forth from the assembly and said  what is buddha ?  hsueh feng said  don't talk in your sleep 


from the blue cliff record



my comment


     buddha is  an arsehole  that's who he is !
















it's


really


basic


that


groups


always


get


it


wrong


individuals


can


get


it


right !
















life


is


so


full


of


endless


mistakes


that


uncovering


something


i have


been


doing


wrong


for


thirty


forty


years


doesn't


bother


me
















zen


didn't


do


leonard


cohen

any


good


he's


jewish


and


his


business


manager


ran


off

with


all


his


money !


: o )
















my response to a query asking me to elaborate on my saying  hirshfield is not the first writer to be ruined by zen's faulty schematization


charles bukowski has a correct schematization if that makes sense.


he is right about life and zen isn't
















hirshfield is like a dulled knife, cuts but it doesn't, zen is like that and all religion really, the blunting is part of the indoctrination


having been involved with zen i can tell you its pure poison !


plagiaristic mediocrities trying to put one over you !




it's


all


the


same


religion's


raison d'κtre
















what i find interesting about robert pinsky is he has an open mind compared to so much of the younger generations around now who just can't handle even minor disagreements !


todays generations are missing something and of course the poetry shows that lack of breadth
















people


only


read


what


interests


them


they


don't


ask


how


well


that


interest


serves


them !
















boorbosie


it's


really


just


the


ignorant


mass


culture


we


have


these


days !
















in


some


ways


i


am


so


stupid


it's


not


particularly


funny !
















what


is


thought


i


don't


know
















wether


you


take


illegal


drugs


or

prescription


drugs


or

supplements


or


do

some


medical


intervention


like


taking

a


radioactive tracer


the

problem


is


always


the


same


do


they


do


permanent


damage ?


the


internet


is


very


good


for


researching


this



generally drugs


are


illegal


because


of

very


significant


permanent


damage
!
















i


think


people


who


took


lsd


got


a


glimpse


that


everything


was

a


model



i


have


never


seen


one


work


it

through


properly


tho !
















medicine


the


religion


of


the


boorbosie


as


religions


go


it's


extraordinarily


effective


that


doesn't


make


it


any


the


less


a


religion !
















one


of


the


benefits


of


the


net


is


i


have


been


able


to


go


through


the


past


and


tie


up


a

lot


of


loose


ends


due


to


the


much


more


complete


information


available



some-one


like


robert


crumb


is


fascinating


i


saw


those


pics


around


as


ateenager !
















the


net


is


sorta


made


for


me


i'm


very


fast


varied


and


intutive


some


sort


of

ability


to


go

through


the

bales


and


find


the


needles
















if


you


can't


hear


it


i


can't


help


you


but


maybe


you


can


hear


it


just


listen


and


look


for


it !
















nostalgia


is


a

bit


like

an


illusion


the


construction


of

an


emotionally


safe


past !
















buddhism


is


a


con


there's


a

lot


of


conning


in


the


world


i


just


take


it


personally


when


it


happens


to


me
















hirshfield


a


sickeningly


lucid


example


of


what's


wrong


with


american


poetry
















the


hirshfield


photo


is


fair


use


under


the


copyright


act


since what is written

is


a


criticism


and


parody


of


fake


buddhist


serenity


and


it's


monetized


bandwagon !
















yes


:


o


)


my


eyes


mad


as


a

hatter


and


writhing


in


pain


would


that


the


joy


of


infinity


passes


through


them


maybe


it


does

a

  bit !




      the above is the reply that hirshfield will never write !
















jane


hirshfield


i


don't


think


she's


robust


to


the


pain


of


life !



well


looking at


her


eyes


maybe


she's


just


mad !
















the


premise


of


poetry


is

that


damage


lets


the


light


of


infinity


in


the


question is


how


well


that


light


is


revealed


often


or


rather


mostly


it


is


not


revealed

well


at


all !
















andy


cutler


is


a


miserable


narrow


minded


arsehole !



: o )


just


had


to

say


that !
















i


just


had

a


vision


of


charles


bukowski


he


told

me


i


was


wasting


my


time


with


the


american


poetry


boorbosie !
















being


on


autistic


spectrum


what


is


so


hard


is


the


constant

necessary


breaking


out


of


continuity


in


one


direction !
















american


poetry

the


brain


dead


in


pursuit


of


the


empty


skulled !
















you


can't


stop


a


person


being


a


nut


they


want


to


be

a

nut


they


don't


even


regret


the


consequences


but


will


rationalise


them !
















child


rearing


all


that


work


into


what


so


obviously

perishes !
















the


powerlessness


of


men


before


women


i


don't


think


they


have


it


in


their


hearts


to

resist !
















i


am


extremely


suspicious


of


chrisma !
















richard


von


sturmer


you


never


evolved


your


own


style !
















hirshfield is not the first writer to be ruined by zen's faulty schematization
















of course anybody


can

write


poetry


but


wether


it's

interesting


is


another


matter !
















the


illusion


of


competence


or


being


adequate


to


any


situation !
















it


doesn't


mean


anything


to


anyone


else
















missionizing


that's


what


religion


is


missionizing
















you'd


have


to


be


blind


to


breed
















there


is


such


a


thing


as


seeing


too


far


ahead !
















looking


for


something


presupposed


it's


not


empty


when


you


find


it


you


know


it


is !
















i


have


never


known


such


a


virus


to


aquaint


one


with


life's


meaninglessness !
















empty


empty


it's


just


returning


circles
















modern


poetry


is


a


wasteland


of


mental


retardation
















what


am


i


doing ?


i


don't


know



will


it


ever


end ?



no
















what


is


amazing


about


comets


is


such

a

small


amount


of


material


covers


such

a


large


amount


of


space


and


can


be


seen


from


so


far


away !
















all


life


suffers


from


being


of


a


volunteer


nature


of


course


if


it


wasn't


it


wouldn't


be !
















women


have


an


evolutionarily


assigned


purpose


to


have


children


and


successfully


raise


them


hungry


vaginas


the


role


of


males


is


2nd


fiddle


to


the


female !
















what


is


why?



well


why


is


what !
















you


can't


think


straight


if


you


are


coming


from

a


burden


of


incorrect


thinking !
















i


just


want


to


look


at


the


universe


slowly !
















net


overload


a


real


phenomena !
















inquiry


is


basically


anti-social !
















there's


a


truer


perspective


of


life


from


which


the


world


looks


schizophrenic


which


it


is


of


course !
















just waiting around to die


most


of


   us !
















if


you


can


call


yourself


a


teacher


you


don't


know


what


it's


about !
















andrew's


cruelling


of


the


booboisie !
















you


can't


make


the


catholic


church


look


more


foolish


than


they


are !
















if


you


don't


have

a


degree

but

talk


informed


sense


about


health


you


are


rubbished


if


you


have

a


degree


especially


medical


one


the


booboisie


will

take


poison


with


thanks !
















it's funny how life turns out


i'm not blaming the parents, i think madeleine was killed accidently by them with some sleeping medication overdose


they were with a group of swingers at the time in portugal which is why one or two of them helped the mcCanns dispose of the body


they have been living well on the search for madeleine fund, i guess this is a  promotion  to see if anybody will donate


the


couple are both doctors and that has given them a very uncritical public response


good for them, their daughter can't come back and why not screw the medical worshipping public ?


plus avoiding a jail sentence !



it's


interesting


how


completely


uncritical


the


press


is !
















there's


basically

a


lot


of


half


done


morons


out

there


especially


on


the


net


it


seems


to


filter


them

positively


keep


clear


of


them !
















the


same


time


you


use


something


you


should


develop


your


skill


of


understanding


it !



it's


the


only


way !
















bleeding


to


death


before


breakfast
!
















i


had


forgotten


how

badly


one


could


be


treated


by


arseholes !
















with


fame


you



become



the



property



of



the



crowd !
















do


you


fit ?



if


you


don't


what


are


you


doing


here ?
















one


of


the


weird


things


about


the


web


is


it


brings


you


into


contact


with


people


who


you


can


see


the


similarity



but


who


you


disagree


with !
















do


the


shoelace


ends


co -incide ?
















what


happens


when


we


die ?


you


get


reborn

as


a


can


of


coke !


reincarnation


meets


consumerism !
















show


me


a


true


religion ?


atheism


is

a


religion


btw !
















everybody


goes


through


life


possibly


being


killed


three


or


four


times !
















women


seem


to


know


what


love


is


men


don't


tho


it


is


the


pole


star


around


which


their

lives


revolve
















this


stuff


is


not


 commercial
















if


you


don't


mind


don't


let


it


bother


you !
















i


can't


believe


how


much


shit


people


put


over


in


blogs



absolutely



insane !
















again

and


again


one


comes


across


how


precious


little


orginality


there


is


in


this


world !
















i think the devil


and


heaven


have their origins


in

the


egyptian


book


of


the


dead
















there


is


no


rest


even


for


the


non


wicked


: o )
















it's important that you don't have to apologise


i am glad you feel you can cry with me
















he

doesn't


say


such


and


such


but


just

because


he


doesn't


say


it


doesn't

mean


it


is

negative


it's


often


positive !
















you


can


be


stupid


to


your


own


detriment !
















with love


the boundaries blur cause it blurs who we are


love is contact with infinity


since we are illusions that contact is going to show up the illusory nature of self
















it's all just observation, what i feel is reasonably consistent with how things are !
















sex wether both parties know it or not is love
















the promiscuity of men is founded in romantic idealisation
















even


being


a


little


bit


famous


removes


some


one


from


  you !
















it's


depressing


the


constant


hassle


of


telling


people


what


they


don't


want


to


hear !



tell


them


what


they


want


to


hear


or


vacuous


bullshit


and


they


smother


you


with


kisses !
















the


world


would


be


a


better


place


if


all


the


university


arts


departments


ceased


to


exist !
















it's


a


neo -


world



we


are


beyond


post


modern


into


neo
















mother


teresa


a


neo -


saint


:


O


)
















people


use


power


rather


than


thought


ultimately


they


are


only


concerned


for


their


own


perceived


advantage !
















i


lack

a



good


sense


of


what


works


first


time


so


i


am


always

doing


wrong


things



not


much


upstairs


i


am


afraid !
















a weird


thought


the


white


feral


kitten


i


accidently


ran


over


and


buried


out

by


the

front


door


some


years


ago



i


may


be


the


only


one


that


remembers


it !
















if


you


don't


feel


very


estranged


from


life


you


are


not


going


to


see


it !
















if


you


see


something


first


keep


it


to


yourself !
















in


the


end


it's


about


something


it's


not


about


wasting


your


bloody


time


pretending



insert


self


honesty
  here !
















men are more romantic than women


more  ADHD  with it


  tho !
















of


course


women


never


age


and if


they


are


to


believed


actually


get


younger


but


we


who


do


are


cognizant


of


it's


effects !
















i


am


a


reincarnation


of


my


parents


and


grand


parents


and


great


grandparents !



the


other


sort


phooey !
















homilies


anyon


braids


trapped


in


two


dimensions


so


they


don't


unravel


and


the


communication


from


infinity


is


not


lost


to


our


reality !
















atheism


is


actually


a


religion


the


human


species


worshipping


it's


own


arse !
















all


these


religious


teachers


have


concrete


blinkers


what


can


they


be


teaching


except


stupidity !
















life


is


a


circular


event


with


absolutely


no


progress


at


all
















why


does


everything


have


to


be

modified


to


work


these


days ?
















science


fiction


presaged


science


worship !
















the


weirdness


of


getting


younger


while


everyone


else


is


getting


older !
















boy


longevity


and


retention


of


mental


faculties


is


a


lottery !



well


not


quite


a


lottery



but



very



random !
















emily


dickenson


a


different


or


heightened


state


of


attention !
















that


such


a

thing


would


only


occur


once


or


twice


doesn't


make


sense


there


must


be


billions


of

other


universes


and


occurrences !
















often


it


is


very


much


to


your


benefit


that


things


don't


work


out
















i

think


the


neo -


advaita


movement


has


been


strongly


influenced


or


almost


created


by


toni

packer


uncredited


of


course


which


is


usually


the


way


these


things


are !



it's


just


a


little


bit


freer


than


it


technically


should


be !
















don't


stand


between


me


and


fruit


sugar !


: o )
















you


can


be


in


the


wrong


spot


in


more


ways


than


one


i


think


the


trick


is

to


be


there


without


being


there
















sometimes



our

natural


inclinations


really


lead


to


what


kills


us !
















“ typical


male ”


a


thought


thought


by


every


female


down


the


generations !
















i


am


not


a


people

person


in

fact


by


and


large


i


would


go


so


far


as


to


say


i


don't


like


the


species
















poor


guru's


the


intensity


of


dealing


with


other


peoples


problems


scrambles


them !



not


to


mention


the


endless


viral


contact !
















the


advaita


“ now ”


is


an


   illusion !
















it's


just


that


everything


keeps


going


back


to


zero


i


keep


telling


myself
















it's


not


simple


and


it's


not


easy !
















we


can


take


two


phrases


one


is


“ a


reckless


regard


for


truth ”


and


the


other


is


“ a


reckless


disregard


for


truth ” !


do


they


mean


the


same ?


no
















there's

a


lot


of


strength


in


not


doing

anything


at


all
!
















hirst


he's


not


an


artist


he's


a


con


artist !
















i


think


art


is


a


form


of


memory


you


have


to

ask


about


the


quality


of


it !


that's


the


rationale


behind


the


cave


drawings


they



were


processing


their


lives !
















inlight117 asks :


have you experienced a clinical death ?



my reply :


lol every time i come to this  page  i hear toni swigging some water (i hope !)


to write what you wrote, you are coming from a point of estrangement, that is you don't know that communion with infinity and therefore don't give it priority.


if you know that communion you wouldn't ask about death.


let alone "clinical"


the so-called spiritual search has three aspects


one knowing infinity when it occurs


two developing a theoredical and “wisdom” background to offset all the cultural and personal crap foisted on us


surviving !


where the neo advaita is weak is a lack of reading around and across the centuries particularly in western and chinese culture and not emphazing one's own writing enough as a form of memory


for example heraclitus makes more sense than krishnamurti !


it's all quite simple tho it took me many years to work out because nobody seemed to have a clue


the


problem is people pretend and don't pay the price


don't pay attention to guru's and teachers


because


they


are


almost


entirely


phoney



had a bit of black mackerel yesterday, seems to have done my brain some good !


the mercury hasn't scythed too many neural trees i hope !
















in


the


end


it's

just


one


activity


versus


another


you


have


to


sort


your


priorities


  out !
















i


think


we


tend


to


give


people


the


benefit


of


the


doubt


when


we


listen


to


them


when


perhaps


we


shouldn't
















what's


gone


wrong ?


the


days


seem


to


drift


endlessly


into


one


another


and


nothing


gets


done !
















just


looking


at


the


stars


tonight


without


thought



maybe


a


sorta


rest


there !
















is


there


anything


or


is


there


nothing ?
















what


is


it


about


damp


weather

that


kills


one ?
















imitation


is


the


sincerest


form


of


flattery


it's


so


sincere


one


is


hard


pressed


to


criticise it !
















the


main


problem


with


the


union


movement


is


itself


very


narrow


minded !


just


like


the


working


class


everywhere !
















non


children


that


would


be


the


easy


way


i've got


those




parenthood ?
















who


are


you


and


i


who


is


me


to


you


who


is


the


shit

of


a


poo ?
















success


itself


is


a


disaster !
















you


can


only


make


limited


progress


going


forward


because


you


are


moving


in


constrained


directions


if


you


go


back


wards


things


open


up

because


the


full


potential


of

action


is


being


restored
















entertainment


gladatorial


contests


were


entertainment !
















what


is


called


normal


is


highly


schizophrenic



so


anything


that


passes


for


normal


is


highly


schizophrenic
















i


have


written


enough

to


make


me


ill !
















from


each


according


to


his


ability



to


each


according



to


his


need !



stalin


yezhov


and


beria


were


amazing


they


needed


the


blood


of


millions !
















kafka's


sisters


were


killed
















if


you


do


things


in


a


right


coherent


way


they


mightn't


seem


to


come


together


but


when


they


do


it's


in


a


functional


stable


way


you


can


move


on


from !
















zen


sitting


was


a


wrong


road


why


did


it


take


me


so


long


to


see


that ?
















atheists


have


a


particularly


rigid


and


non


artistic


mindset
















my


experiences


with


cold


calls


are


really


getting


bizarre



my


phone


has


an


intermittent


connection


and


he


couldn't


hear


me



he


just


kept


rabbiting on



i



hung



up !
















astrophysics


string


theory


has


become


so


good


that


it


has


become

a


basis


for


belief


that


the


material


universe


is


all


it's


easy


to


disprove


just


tell


me


where


the


hunting


of


the


snark


fits


in


the


material


universe !
















well


i


like


an


audience


but


i


am


not


sure


it


will


do


me


or


them


any


good


: o )
















none


of


the


moronic


hordes


yet ?


i


guess


they


will


turn


up !
















i would go so far as to say mystical experience is not clinical death because the brain would be too damaged, even in recovery


it's a paradoxical experience requiring a deep unseating of accepting the validity of the the joys of life yet suffcient health to give reasonably good brain function


however people like this used to dead by about 50, emily dickenson died at 56, of course it's a bit different now but the diet is so lacking in adequate brain nutrition that the ground is bare !
















a


new


emoticon


for


blinkers


is


needed


| .. |


yes


you


the


readers !
















clinical


death


experiences


like


out


of


body


and


floating


just


get


interpreted


schizophrenically


rehashing the reality model


in


the


usual


distorted


ways


the


essential


point


that


it


is


a model


they


never


get !



they


are


not


even


the


beginning !
















i


think


clincal


death


experiences


are




absolutely meaningless


like being knocked unconcious


i


could


write


a


mystics


handbook


i


suppose


death


and


nondeath


and


union


with


infinity


except


it


is


covered


by


the poetry


and


homilies !


my


entire


life


is


an


out


of


body


experience


:


O


)
















i


think


a


lot


of


modern


art


is


just


a


form


of


currency


objects with restricted imprints !
















i


think


art


has


drifted


back


to


itself


something


original


you


do


for


yourself


and


don't


expect


to

be


paid


for


it!
















there's


a

lot


of


fraud


in


art


and


i


think


the


fraud


extends


to

what


is


art


kinkade


warhol


hirst !
















you can paint with words
















it's


not


even


warhol


just


absolute

bloody


  ghastly !
















what


is


the


 attraction


of


the


mona


  lisa ?


 leonardo


da


vinci


who


was


gay


painted


it


partly


or


greatly


as himself


as


a

woman


it's


that


region


where


 imagination


is


more


vibrant


than


   reality !
















the


net


so


many


people


so


many


lives


mostly


it


pays


to


be


callous


indeed


your


own


survival


can


be


threatened


otherwise !
















outcomes


are


too


uncertain


for


most


advice


to


be


practical


use !
















i really think low vitamin d and iodine is making a generation of mongols
















the


extent


to


which


the


prospect


of


sex


will


motivate


female


behavior


will


seem


extreme


to


the


male !
















chemistry


and


biochemistry


are


very


different


quantum


doesn't


begin


to


describe


it !


biochemistry


has


direction


capability


and


capacity
















lol


the


truth


hurts !



it's


not


so


bad,


life


is


always


a


disaster


don't


be


so


fragile !
















you


played


your


card


i


saw


it


and


got


out


no


point


in


continuing


with


the


same


mistake
















in fact i think men have beards because it helps disguise their emotions from women



those


face


readers


par


   excellence !




no surprise that beards are obligatory in that very anti-female religion



islam
















to


see


clearly


you


have


to


be


prepared


to


throw


all


your


previous


work


away !
















you


can


actually


write


forever,


or


while


the


health


holds


up


it's


a bit


of


a

trap !
















i


am


not


natively


a


good


speller !
















the


net


has


huge


population


skews


particularly


those


who


think


flowery words


are


better


than real

life


actions


you


better


hope


you


don't


fit !
















if


you


want


to


understand


someones


character


look


at


their


eyes


i


guess


that's


why


women


disguise


theirs


so


much !
















you


don't


really


see


what


people


are


made


of


until


you


contradict


them


or


tell


them

what


they


don't


want


to


hear !
















acute


vision


cuts


and


people


react


negatively
















people


are

a


dime



a


dozen


a


good


view


is


not !
















it's


a


funny


thing


but


blogs


have


been


going


so


long


that


you


can


see


the


health


issues


start


to


catch


up


and


the


people


crash !