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for the first time ever

some-one on the net has got pissed about apoems i wrote about them !

unreal !

he

actually

didn't

run

well

he

has

a

bit !

i'm

so

excited !

: o )

actually

“ death

threat

michael ”

got

pissed

too !

it's not a glass house but a similarity of situation

narrowness is the human condition, none escape

but

we

all

deny !

it's

interesting

how

you

people

never

reply

a

few

words

shoots

you

down

and

you

cringe

back

into

an

enviroment

that

protects

the

intellectual

and

emotional

investment

you

have

made

in

one

form

of

bullshit

or

another !

you

can't

avoid

stress

you

can

try

to

live

more

competently

and

that

includes an

adequate

nutritionally

diet

for

the

brain

so

you

push

pull

on there being less ultimate

hassle

as

well

as

increased

brain

resilience

to

handle

life

and

that's

about

it !

byron

is

very

advaita

she

has

a

simple

algorithm

to

give

a

more

extensive

view

but

it

only

works

to

a

certain

point

there

is

no

compensating

for

a

narrowed

view

which

is

what

advaita

is

the

proof

of

the

pudding

is

these

advaita

types

recoil

like

touched

worms

when

they

are

taken

up

on

the

crap

they

promolgate !

the only

successful

way

to

have

a

more

extensive

view

is

to

actually

be

more

extensive

in

the

way

one

lives

and

thinks

and

researches

which

is

not

the

american

and

human

way

in

general

at

all

there's a lot of public and medical resistance to accepting that diabetes is not a nice “medicine can cure you” disease

in part cause that says that if you are obese your brain is going

you

don't

test

or

say

what

you

think

you

have

no

notion

of

it !

you

make

your

own

hell

until

you

become

the

sad

refuse

of

menopausal

and

post

menopausal

old

age !

katie

byrons

strategies

are

simply

about

functioning

more

competently

to

the

extent

that

they

work

:

o

(

fill

my

womb

women

cry !

let

me

fill

it

men

cry !

volunteers

for

suicide

all

:

o

)

shopping

is

one

area

where

humans

exhibit

relatively

ultra -

rational

behavior !

we all

have

the

same

problem

we

only

function

semi

competently

in

life !

look

you

have

a

collection

of

clichés

like

a

bower

bird

collecting

trinkets !

Existance

what

endless

spans

there

are

written

in

the

sand

i actually

wrote

this

in

the

sand

at

low

tide

at

buttons

beach, ulverstone !

it

rather

hurt

to

leave

it

there

i

can

still

see

the

way

i

wrote

it

in

my

minds

eye

raised

edges

and

quite

neat

for

me

with

a

well

kept

left

margin !

it's

not

enough

to

look

you

need

to

touch

and

feel

have my babies

and

raise

my

kids

not

with

me

around

though !

the

male

lament !

if

you

look

at

pessoa

or

leopardi

you

realize

being

a

zen

master

or

religious

teacher

(neither

of

whom

will

have

heard

of

either ! )

has

no

meaning !

just

so

much

air

on

a

windless

day !

i

don't

know

what

death

is

if

you

know

please

let

me

know

osip7315atbigpondcom

pessoa !

pessoa

was

another

drunk

who

wrote

a

lot !

a

form

of

memory !

like

charles

bukowski !

rhys

morgan

tar

baby

venus

fly

trap

or

sundew?

a

cleverly

placed

neuronal

network

but

short

on

nodes

like

all

the

other

IBS !

inflammation

in

the

mother

amongst

other

things !

life

requires

so

much

work

in

the

right

direction

to

keep

it

on

an

even

keel

autistic

or

schizophrenic ?

both

i

am

afraid !

why

worry

about

the

health

of

others

if

it

means

nothing

to

them ?

schizophrenic

they

eat

all

your

energy

for

little

or

no

return !

it's a different use of language, more is conveyed by the spaced style in conjunction with the words, poetic/rap in fact

this

rhys

now

he's

schizophrenic ?

i

think

i

give

up !

hermeneutics

are

aload

of

crap

always

if

they

had

any

talent

the

writers

of

hermeneutics

would

write

source

documents

and

not

derivative

commentaries

which

are

all

they

are !

the

university

system

got

obviated

by

the

internet !

it's

better

to

be

thought

poor

than

have

money

and

actually

be

poor !

she's

like

me

not

a

daughter

or

a

son

a

very

strange

animal !

life

itself

is

injury

and

injury

is

just

a

return

to

the

more

native

condition !

if

you

think

there's

any

point

to

raising

kids

you

grow

old

that

they

may

grow

older !

from

the

human

female

evolution

point

of

view

the

ability

to

identify

the

father

of

her

child

is

paramount !

because

only

he

will

provide

the

resources

to

support

the

child !

this

is

only

from

an

evolutionary

point

of

view

it's

not

100%

how

it

works

in

practice !

don't

miss

the

elephant

in

the

room

and

swat

at

the

fly !

why am i taking the time to reply to you ? like you i have had gut issues and having lived through quite a few more years have come to understand being injured and how life is

the

problem is survival and it doesn't understand anything except results and doesn't give a fig for convention or what other people think or the normal activities and joys of life !

the

first step is

to

accept

one

is

injured !

and

then

you

have

to

do

things !

this

drop

down

style

is

to

slow

those

who

would

pass

over

it

without

taking

in

it's

meaning

which

might

be

you

i

guess !

no matter

where

one

is

in

one's

life

there

is

always

some

new

extreme

problem

occurring

is

there

a

real

interest

or

is

it

just

pretend ?

or

is

there

something

else

being

persued ?

a

working

machine

will

never

explore

what

it

is

it

only

only

permute

through

it's

parameters

as

it's

designed

to

do

a

broken

machine

will

explore

what

it

is

sometimes !

internet ads need to have the option to turn the flicking or any movement on the ad off, your customer won't be pleased with the bad feeling towards it that this inability incites !

allow any movement to be turned off so feelings of HATE towards the advertiser don't build

ads should draw in through real wealth in the imagery and be uncluttered, simple and to the point, there's heaps of viewing competition !

content

farms

are

the

true

paradigm

for

the

academic

arts

establishment

and

what

they

are

worth

unfettered !

fettered

of

course

they

are

worth

nothing !

“ sex

and

death ”

well

sex

is

the

maintenance

of

the

appearance

of

the

illusion

isn't

it ?

and

the

reality

is

that

sex

and

death

are

so

intermixed

they

can't

be

separated !

it's

a

sign

of

my

greatness

as

an

artist

that

david

walsh

will

never

know

of

me !

what

i

have

learnt

with

doing

something

is

the

cost

of

doing

it

is

not

what

you

do

but

what

you

don't

do

that

you

should

be

doing !

sometimes

doing

something

badly

costs

badly

as

well !

i

called

the

teatowels

teatowels

and

the

kittens

kittens

there

is

a

difference !

skepticism

atheism

randi

had

some

brains

i

wouldn't

say

the

rest

of

them

do !

leprechauns

are not non-existant

they exist as stories

gratuitous insults

show

inferior minds !

gracious is

open

to

being

wrong !

you

have

a

destructive

streak

too

prepared

to

hurt

yourself

or

careless

of

the

consequences !

relatives

people

you

are

stuck

with

yet

can't

deny !

hunger

has

different

dimensions

blood

sugar

feeling

full

you would have to be an editor's worst nightmare

i never thought of it that way before but one who destroys their best work !

well all three of those  poems  are amongst your best

why would you delete them ?

because they have disturbingly straight perception

a cutting recursion that erodes ones sense of self

i don't actually think poems are ever entirely personal property

i'm saying your perception of raw and what is in fact really raw are not entirely synchronized

i think its a universal human misperception

the 21st

century

is

talentless

this

woman

really

does

not

understand

her

subject

matter

the

book

of

serenity

has

it's

limitations

too !

wondered

why

all

the

crap

artists

liked

 it !

the  biofilm carbohydrate diet  which i have developed is very scientific and based on theory about biofilms

the nature of dietary theories is they are syntheses and not studies themselves for various practical reasons, one being there's never any money available for a study

it's not alternative and one day will be accepted as scientific fact, it's just really ahead of medicine and dietary science at this point

science simply means correct knowledge, the weakness of skepticism is it takes studies, usually in the form of blinded or double blinded medical trials as the only correct knowledge about health which is far from the case

 relativity  was always a correct scientific theory, but the actual confirmation by observation took many many years and is still not 100% so this issue of correct knowledge in fact versus studies (tho you seem not to want to read that chrons/celiac  study ) is central

if you in fact were truely interested in wether or not my writings were true or not you would say why specifically in detail and not just diss with the blanket statements characteristic of the skepticism belief system

i

challenge

you

not

to

waffle

and

come

up

with

something

specific !

i

think

you

could

say

i

am

anti -

religion

but

it's

not

clear

cut !

eileen

she

tends

to

delete

her

better

poems

a

bit

raw

for

her ?

which

is

not

actually

that

raw !

hopkins had chronic gut issues

extremely autistic

not much sun in ireland either

he was gay tho apparently celibate i guess cause he was so ill

that was the attraction of catholicism

that's about the time when catholicism started to go very gay i think

prior to that priests had  defacto wives

skepticism like homeopathy is a belief system

mixing

religion

and

writing

is

disastrous

for

a

writer

the

second

rate

ones

get

easily

mired

in

the

problems

of

faulty

schema

and

the

usual

bullshit !

first

rate

writers

like

john

of

the

cross

and

auden

are

not

so

affected !

hopkins

occupies

some

strange

no

man's

land

in

this

regard !

windhover

video

facts and  photo

i

don't

think

being

a

writer

and

being

religious

mix

you

have

confused

vocations !

what

is

enlightenment

i

think

it's

that

we

literally

see

that

we

are

nothing

but

seeming !

it's

quite

interesting

to

look

back

over

the

years

and

real

hard

to

see

things

that

were

quite

significant

that

were just brushed off

and

things

that

way

too

much

attention

was

paid

to

that

were

quite

meaningless

or

of

no

account !

i think writing is necessary, otherwise the thoughts can just go around

the

useful

get

lost

and

the

useless

just

repeat !

meditation

is

fatally

flawed

because

of

this

:

o

(

i

think

sylvia

plath's

problem

was

she

tried

to

do

too

much

and

got

killed

in

the

gaps

in

her

experience

and

knowledge

that

she

assigned

to

others

like

her

health !

a

not

uncommon

problem

or

rather

the

norm

almost !

sylvia

plath

was

medically

killed

rather

than

committed

suicide

she

was

given

a

mao

inhibitor

the

days

before

and

having

autistic

metabolic

issues

would have had rapidly

increasing

tyramine

levels

which

can

induct

among

other

things

brain

hemorrhaging !

people

are

like

stone

walls

and

about

as

mutable !

the

theory

of

evolution is as established as

that

of

relativity

but

more

important

since

relativity

will

be

fitted

in

some

other

context

like

string

theory

but

evolution

has

no

other

context !

well  he is in denial

and reaps the consequences

as we

all

do

men are often not afraid when they should be

zen

why

end

up

functionally

crippled ?

science does not support atheism because you have to define god before you can do that

the

great

weakness

of

the

skeptic

bandwagon

is

the

way

they

say

god

is

nonexistant

without

understanding

that

non

existant

is

a

category

of

existance !

the

price

of

being

partly

right

is

being

partly

wrong !

message

boards

are

ideal

you

get

the

public

exposure

without

almost

any

measure

of

fame

and

can

see

that

people

are

not

even

slightly

interested

in

what

makes

them

think

god

women

can

be

excessively

timid

about

the

wrong

things

every

potential

threat

looms

large

unweighed

by

probability !

whatever

else

i

don't

have

i

have

some

good

vascular

system

genes

well it was some sort of pivot you turned on !

cause

i

saw

you

turn

on

it !

you wanted out and it was in your view a point to turn on !

do

poets

lives

of

necessity

have

to

be

so

tragic ?

mines

not

maybe

i'm

not

a

poet !

actually

i

don't

think

i

am

i

don't

know

what

i

am

my

life

is

too

vaporous

to

be

anything !

experience

versus

natural

ability

and

youth

who

wins ?

myself

a

little

pragmatic

and

plain

utterly

unformed

unique

individual

and

about

to

fall

into

almost

every

trap

there

was !

at

the

end

of

the

day

there's

no

observations

just

space

-  - -   -   -

maybe

reading

this

is

an

acquired taste !

what

you

are

blinded

to

you

don't

have

a

good

memory

for

where

you

can

see

you

have

a

good

memory !

what

is

there

to

think

about ?

there

is

nothing

really

to

think

about !

well

it's

lonely

i

guess

what

i

am

looking

for

is

an

equal

mind

to

converse

with

but

they

are

just

not

around

separated

by

space

and

time

women

are

very

ambitious

for

their

children

and it

starts

with

the

choice

of

father !

there's

something

about

yews

and

cedars

that

pointed

wavy

shape

brushing

the

sky

if

you

push

a

pin

from

the

pointed

end

into

a

pin

cushion

you

are

going

to

get

pricked !

why

is

it

so

attractive

to

live

one's

life

through

another ?

fatigue?

people

don't

understand

what

the

internet

does

it's

rather

extraordinary

compresses

a

hundred

years

into a

few

if

you

are

lame

it's

better

to

limp

through

life !

there's

no

style

separate

from

content

content

carries

the

language

use !

nfl

is

it

worth

spending

your

last

30

years

in

constant

pain ?

the

players

are

the

losers !

she's

autistic

when

she

leaves

you

because

you

didn't

like

her

poetry !

i

wish

i

could

come

up

with

some

rule

for

dealing

with

cold

calls

they

are

all

different

but

they

are

not !

there

is

some

point

to

it

all

and

remembering

that

point

is

about

all

you

can

do !

it really fucks your brain to help some-one who doesn't return the favour

men are quite sensitive to that

i

had

to

get

my

benign

view

of

people

somewhat

destroyed !

health

appears

to

be

an

independent

vector

that

determines

much

of

our

lives !

women's

bodies

attract

men

and

men's

smell

attracts

women !

atheists

are

no

righter

than

religious

people !

at

the

local

abattoir

there's

a

butcher

who

has

lost

his

little

and

middle

fingers

on

one

hand

when

i

was

young

i

would

of

thought

“ what

an

idiot ”

now

i

think

“ there

by

the

grace

of

god ! ”

is

that

what

it's

saying

or

is

that

your

version

of

what

it's

saying ?

you

want

to

destroy

or

wipe

bad

taste

or

idiocy

from

the

face

of

the

earth

you

can't

it's

intrinsic

to

existance !

african

culture

is

fractal

teaching

snuffs

young

lives

the

grass

is

greener

is

immediate

reality

versus

optimistic

projection !

men

are

tools

use

keeps

them

sharper !

how

come

everyone

is

talented

except

me ?

genius

never

is !

of

all

the

intellectual

properties

poetry

has

the

least

protection

in

part

because

the

poet

is

usually

well

dead

before

he's

read

in

volume !

religious

belief

could

be

anything

it

doesn't

matter

a

belief

in

the

supremacy

of

polar

bears

for

instance

one

fly

can

create

a

lot

of

nuisance

:

o

)

what

americans

regard

as

funny

is

not

funny

as

i

get

more

disillusioned

the

more

amenable

and

nice

i

become

like

what's

the

point ?

it's

far

easier

to

deal

with

people

from

this

point

of

view

they

are

constantly

having

to

negotiate

with

you

for

your

attention !

my

worst

tendency

beating

up

old

ladies

i

did

it

to

clem

gordon

too !

i think

what

toni

packer

is

on

about

is

fictional !

aging

contracts

us

as

people

it

is

observable !

i

have

not

yet

reached

that

state

of

advanced

retirement

where

everything

just

flows

past

in

a

state

of

benign

decrepitude

people

are

very

different

with

different

ways

of

looking

at

things

and

on

balance

we

are

all

a

ghastly

mix

of

right

and

wrong !

kay ryan

good

but

her

tastes

are

a

bit

corny !

successful

women

in

politics

and

literature

are

always

gender

blurred

there's

a

great

mass

of

morons

out

there

and

i

don't

want

anything

to

do

with

them

poems

little

drops

of

infinity

shining

like

dew

drops

in

the

morning

sun !

the

talented

think

“ i

should

just

become

wealthy

and

have

people

lick

my

arse ”

but

not

all

think

that !

there's

some

point

to

graceful

exits

or

at

least

having

some

felt

power

to

them !

unbelievably

i

have

seen

the

light

don't

let

inferior

minds

waste

your

time !

i

am

some-one

who

people

write

about !

the

media

is

cruelly

inaccurate

cruel

to

the

reader

that

is

who

it

misinforms !

when

i

am

rejected

for

the

ten

thousandth

time

maybe

i

start

to

get

it !

andrew

i

love

you

so

much

not

a

trace

of

you

will

remain

in

the

model

when

you

die

suicidal

penguin

probably

mercury

they

have

a

very

fast

metabolism

and

eat

a

lot

of

fish

they

can't

drown

and

object to

being

eaten

and

mercury

gives

a

visual

intensification

so

the

mountains

are

what

they

head

to !!!

infinity

is

not

all

powerful

or

i

think

it

would

crush

the

crap

around

but

it

can't

defeat

itself

so

you

get

removal !

similarly

beauty

implies

its

obverse !

anyhows

you

can

come

at

it

from

a

number

of

different

ways !

everything

you

write

is

like

an

approximation

of

something

perfect !

you

really

just

cannot

get

even

if

you

think

very

hard

the

staggering

insanity

of

animate

life !

where

women

are

it's

just

a

nightmare

of

involvement !

charles

bukowski

he

lived

his

life

so

cruelly

for

himself

something

had

to

come

of

it !

superman

is

a

comic

for

the

mentally

retarded

a

good

brain

is

a

gift

from

your

parents

and

grandparents

perhaps

is it food

or

is

it

“ like

   food ” ?

you

can

get

caught

trying

to

understand

something

forever

that

is

not

understandable

i

reserve

the

right

to

tell

the

deranged

they

are

deranged

when

we

die

the

world

comes

to

an

end

nothing

continues

hello

my

uglies

i

mean

lovelies

:

O

 )

a

seething

mass

of

hormone

fixed

stupidity !

R.

I.

P.

i

wrote

some

good

poems

and

homilies

one

can

be

physically

alive

but

mentally

dead !

toni

packer

is

a

profound

intellect

she

made

sense

out

of

something

that

is

completely

schizophrenic !

that

is

zen

and

advaita

in

a

sense

she

escaped

them

completely

though

listening

to

her

sometimes

it

doesn't

sound

like

it !

i'm

walking

into

an

assumption

you

can

understand

what

i

if

i

relax

that

assumption

things

make

much

more

sense !

ed

witten

2nd

generation

physicist

ken

ono

second

generation

mathematican

myself

2nd

generation

metaphysician ?

same

for

janet

frame

frame

her

mother

worked

for

katherine

mansfield's

family

as

a

maid !

sylvia

plath

and

her

father ?

the

world

is

so

bizarre

that

seen

truely

it

makes

you

ill

why

is

it

like

this ?

i

don't

know

probably

it's

the

only

way

it

can

exist !

don't

talk

to

the

insane

lest

you

become

insane

the

lesson

of

communism

or

socialism

is

that

the

economic

efficiency

is

so

outstandingly

inefficient

or

incompedent

that

any

other

system

is

preferable

except

perhaps

national

socialism

:

O

 )

the

common

thread

is

insane

and

schizophrenic

power

cliques !

a bit of fish oil can improve neural plasticity

one or two or three teaspoons a day, needs to be kept in the fridge as it is fragile

the human brain is not designed to work on the modern diet

brain

sugars

and

combusting

nutrients

are

scarce

and

their

shortage

accounts

for

a

lot

of

problems

yes

right

nutrition

( and

i

don't

mean

the

university

nutrition

school

crap ! )

solves

problems

i

mean

lamb

brains

offal !

women

their

constant

delight

in

children

is

their

pitfall

and

strength !

believe

it

or

not

the

world's

best

worker

; o )

if

you

don't

go

outside

the

boundaries

of

yourself

you

are

like

a

blunted

knife

that

doesn't

cut

properly !

academics

don't

write

poetry

they

eat

sewage

and

regurgitate

it !

if

sex

wasn't

seen

as

the

be

all

and

end

all

of

life

how

many

disasters

would

have

been

averted ?

well there

mightn't

be

any

life ?

if i write  crap

induct a few blathery

cadences

pretentious academic

codswallop

slate

is

sure

to

publish

me

:

o

 )

you

can't

have

genetics

and

not

have

evolution !

hirst

and

warhol

played

the

art

market

for

suckers

i

guess

they

deserved

it !

god

sotheby's

is

a

sophisticated

racket !

liz

hurley

and

shane

warne

it

may

be

that

odd

thing

a

suitable

couple !

look

at

the

lower

face

you

can

see

the

male

in

katy

perry

mark

landis

unsophisticated

fraud

damien hirst

sophisticated

fraud ?

actually

i

think

landis

is

the

more

interesting

character !

people

don't

seem

to

be

able

to

see

the

overall

picture

at

some

fundamental

level

where

strings

join

infinity

it

will

be

fractal !

mathematics

the

trap

of

objectification !

what

is

the

connection

between

partition

numbers

and

string

theory ?

i

think

writing

is

just

displaced

reproductive

drive !

just

doing

something

takes

care

of

a

lot

of

the