this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files are best listened to  with the eyes closed !



the layout is done with the internet explorer text size setting at  largest  and with a zoom of 125%, and my text rendering is done for these settings though they should be somewhat tolerant of a zoom setting or two up or down

















“  She goes kissing    


everybody's lips


      whirling snow  ”


and


melts


 immediately



( ed. pierre tesuten's poem and my reply)
















“  She goes kissing


everybody's lips


 whirling snow


and


melts


 immediately



( ed. pierre tesuten's poem and my reply)
















  why not let the cracks in the paper appear and step into your life !
















what i have noticed with some people is they are very two faced, smarmy where they think it's important  and bastards where they think it's not !
















what i have noticed with some people is they are very two faced, smarmy where they think it's important and bastards where they think it's not !
















jundo cohen  “writes” :


   i say  “writes”  because such expertise in packing clichés together is not often come by !


“ Many roads up the mountain (anyway, What Mountain?). The only question is which paths lead to a good place (which is ultimately No Place At All, Here All Along), and which merely have one chasing one's own tail, or lead into the brambles! ”


shouldn't you be working on a construction site or something?
















i


can't


believe


what


i


do


takes


so


much


time !
















this  is amazing, weirder than science fiction or a monster movie!


 ichthyosaur veterbrae placed by an ancinet giant octopus to resemble it's sucker pattern


a giant octopus eating sea monsters and making pics out of their vertebrae


in it's little home


now


answer


me


where


was


buddha


or


god?
















the thing


about


blogs


is


blogs


can


disappear


if


you


are


writing


then


you


want


it


to


always


be


there !
















the

most


valuable

manuscript


in


the


world


is


the


voynich


manuscript


it's


what


you


would


call


a


fake


but

it's


a


great


work


of


art !
















do


you


have


that


essential


visual


insight ?
















it


is

better


to


be


mocked


than


denied !
















“those who greatly realize delusion are buddhas. those who are greatly deluded about realization are ordinary beings.”


   the above is a bit of a crappy translation of dogen, my rectification is below !



to


be



a

buddha


is


to


understand


yourself

as



a process


of


mistakes


to


not


understand


yourself

as


a


process

of

mistakes


is


just


the


usual


human !


btw


i


don't


think


jundo


is


any


more


mistaken


than


me !


about


infinity


anyway !
















“those who greatly realize delusion are buddhas. those who are greatly deluded about realization are ordinary beings.”


   the above is a bit of a crappy translation of dogen, my rectification is below !



to


be



a

buddha


is


to


understand


yourself

as



a process


of


mistakes


to


not


understand


yourself

as


a


process

of

mistakes


is


just


the


usual


ordinary


human !


btw


i


don't


think


jundo


is


any


more


mistaken


than


me !


about


infinity


anyway !
















don't


worry


in


three

hundred


years

there


will


be


a

bunch


of


idiots


claiming


descent


from


the


seventh


patriarch !
















no-one


is


being


asked


to


do


anything


i


am


just


doing


what


i


do !


wether


i


will


visit

anyone


i


do


not


know !


probably


not


i


don't


need


to !
















“so maybe brads distress as in lack of bling can be looked at as part of being a zen priest? maybe he is doing it right after all? ehh?”


that's a good nietzsche  quote  btw


the


trouble


is


zen


has


died


it's


not


the


sixties

anymore, eckhart tolle, katie byron and neo advaita have gutted the field


they


are


the


winners


why


do


you


think


i


am


stepping


in

as


7th


patriarch


my


first


move


has


been


to


disestablish all but three teachers


to


put


some


order


into


the


transmission


mess


and


travesty


of


incompetents


ruling


the


roost !
















harry writes:


“No patriarch here (my missus wouldn't be long beating that notion out of me, I hope)... I'm not even ancestor to myself!”


well done, there's a good karma to not claiming


what


you


are


not!


however there is an insight


   one day that your missus won't beat out of you but be in awe of !
















i'm


really


gratefull


to


see


people


so


avoidant


sometimes


i


think


there


is


hope


but


obviously


there


is


none !


the


idiots


crowd


in


again


wanting


what


would


burn/ kill


them !
















i'm


really


grateful


to


see


people


so


avoidant


sometimes


i


think


there


is


hope


but


obviously


there


is


none !
















basically buddha, god whatever is seen in the failure and destruction of human !


it's


so


simple


and


no-one


wants


to

get


it


building


new


towers


on


the


bodies


of


the


crucified !
















that's an interesting  link  thanx mysterion but i don't dispute that


an interesting  hypothesis  that the ORPHEOS BAKKIKOS stone is an archaeological link between the cult of Divus Iulius, which commenced as the roman imperial religion in 44 BCE, and christianity, which became its substitute from the second or third century onward.


the stone itself fits on the apex of the flamines Divi Iulii  (figure 35)


however,  this  is what you don't what to see


it's


not


some


mythical


figure


up


there


but


you


and


me !
















“c'mon jundo, be real and reply to this !”



   shunya jundo said...



my mirror is spotless, it has no peer

your black stream darkness is full of fear

the silvery fields and moon filled dew drops

illuminate the mindful seer.



-------------



wow a reply, by whom it's hard to say, however it's so voynichy i can't bring my self to write a poem in reply but it's a first step and probably a last lol


the thing about poetry is that it doesn't have to be right because that different more holistic mode of expression is the right medium for expressing what zen is about, prose doesn't cut it so congratulations !



poor


buddha


assailed


with


a


mirror


and/ of


the


mindfull


seer !
















mysterion writes:


“ moral behavior is action for the benefit (and not detriment) of self.


ethical behavior is action for the benefit (and not detriment) of others. ”


mysterion, your brain is like a twisted napkin !



what


is


christ


on


the


cross


about?


how


does


it


fit


into


your


scheme


of


things


i


don't


mean


religion


i


mean


crucifixion !
















“ flat translucid bed   


of the river kamo


    i am dying for a  nap



wouldn't


that


be

a


bit


hard?
















brilliance


can


only


seen


across


the


generations !
















brilliance


is


only


seen


across


the


generations !
















jundo


cohen


you


don't


think


origami


is

a


better


career


choice ?


:


o


)
















accepting


something


that


is


not


satisfactory


but


liveable


compared


to


going


for


broke


and


getting


broken !
















“ harry


what


is


a koan


without


the


need


to


explain it? ”


“ just


a


pile


of


rubbish


with


the


odd


diamond


glinting


through! ”
















harry


what


is


a koan


without


the


need


to


explain it?
















you


can


tell


a


zen


master


they


have


clams


for


lips !
















shikantaza


like


the


moon


between


the


clouds


or


the


moonlight


silvered


fields


trees


and


stream


or


what ?
















shikantaza


like


the


moon


between


the


clouds


or


the


moonlight


silvered


grass


or


what ?
















a


bus


sized


ichthyosaur


eating


octopus


made


a


self


portrait


with


the


bones !
















by


any

measure


zen


is


full


of


stupid


rigid


half


wits


who


were


probably


not


as

badly

that


way


before


they


started !
















zen


is


not


meant


to


be


hidden


the


way


it


is !
















at


some


point


you


will


come


to


the


nasty


realization


that


people


will


only


pay


you


good


money


if


you


tell


them


what


they


want

to


hear !


ie


entertainment !


if


you


tell


them


what


they


need


to


hear


but


don't


want


to


hear


instead


they


willtry


to

hang


you !
















i


don't


explain


why


that


why


will


be


moving


me


forward


on


reasoning


they


don't


see !
















“ there's


a

lot


of


junk

out

there


that


looks


like


zen


but


it's


not ”



the 7th patriarch !
















“ there's


a

lot


of


junk

out

there


that


looks


like


zen


but


it's


not ”


7th


patriarch !
















“ you're


an


arrogant


arsehole ! ”


what


am


i


if


i'm


not


an

arrogant


arsehole ?
















“ you're


an


arrogant


arsehole ! ”


what


am


i


if


i'm


not


an

arrogant


arsehole?
















about zen teachers not deregistered


you'd think it would be simple but like everything else shades of grey rule !


registration is not the same as approval, i just think there's something to them and they are not the usual toxic blight that zen teachers are !


brad warner has passed my posts on his message board and this is definite bodhisattva territory, just this huge practical step of non exclusion unlike all the rest !


george bowman i also like and think sorta on target, he would be better known except for his health dragging him back, thyroid issues ?


i also think diane rizzetto is helped in a real way by her work with developmentally disordered children and tho i don't know her, it seems she is worthy of being registered


there diane, what you haven't asked for but deserve !


she's dead now of course but i always though joko beck was an interesting on and off track, she was wrong about not reading and doing sitting tho, she did get the fundamental insight but was on the wrong road and kept to it !


toni packer who i approve is not a zen teacher so doesn't come under this ruling, one of her “dharma heirs” is also ok i think !


anyone interested in this approval/transmission question, if it's given by humans and not infinity the bar is pretty low so to speak, most people could jump over the level i set if they are at all real which unfortunately is not the case at all !


“ so that's warner, bowman and rizzetto not deregistered, the rest are and if they want to contend they have to engage in some dialogue with me !


Andrew Levin 7th patriarch
















“being a buddhist and being a 'business man' is as unrelated as being an orange and being from florida.”


being a buddhist is being a "business man" you are in the business of being a buddhist !


busi-ness !


see ?
















the problem is that the web has destroyed the ability to make a living as a writer tho it gives huge distribution


in the same way the web has destroyed photography as an occupation with cheap sophisticated digital cameras and umpteen billion photos on-line !
















“ I believe this is why many bhikkhus who take a vow of poverty are no less happy than anyone else ”


when i was in korean zen there was this huge issue with extremely unhappy monks who wished the hell they had never gotten into it and once they get past a certain age it's to late to get out


they


just


wanted


to


be


happily


married


living


the

usual


life !
















“ :D As for the question of making retreats more accessible, why not? ”


my view is that retreats en masse are actually doomed because the population is now in general so unhealthy !


the 1950's to 80's were a period of unusually good human health !
















the


physical


process


of


dying


by


cancer


is


absolutely


horrific !
















once


i


thought


i


knew


it


all


or


could


see


i


might


know


it


all


but


now


i


can


see


that


will


never


happen !
















once


i

thought


i


knew


it

all


or


could


see


i


might


know


it


all


but


now


i


can


see


that




will


never


happen !
















if


you


want


to


tell


that


zen


is


in


decline


it's


all


old


there's


no


young

people


coming

into


it !
















if


you


want


to


tell


that


zen


is


in


decline


it's


all


old


there's


no


young


people


coming


into


it !
















i'm


telling


you


in


all


seriousness


i'm


the


seventh


patriarch !


it's


not


something


i


sought


it


just


happened !


at


least


some-


one


values


me !


it


was


an


appointment


by


infinity !


or


maybe


i


have


a

psychotic


streak


that


is


truely


running


lurid


:


o


)


(
















i


have


given


up


on


everything


all


hope


vanishes


has


gone


into


the


hills !
















i


have given


up


on


everything


all


hope


vanishes


has


gone


into


the


hills !
















i


think


i


am


a

lot


like


dogen


i


bind


myself


all


the


time


as


i


get


older


i


bind


myself


more !
















“ shikantaza ”


is


the


unbound


condition


sitting


doesn't


do


it !

a



lot


of


dogen's


life


was


getting


more


and


more


bound


it


may

not


have


been


until


he


was


dying


(ed. tuberculosis)


that


he


let


go !
















“ shikantaza ”


is


the


unbound


condition !
















you


are


a


bit


of


a


curmudgeon


though


it's


not


necessarily


a


good


thing


even


though


you


think


it's


a


good


thing !
















zen


 is 


was



a

60's


paradigm !
















what


we


give


attention


to


it's


binding


that's


what


the


problem


is


it


needs


to


 give 


 a 


return


does


it ?
















the


japanese


involvement


in


wwII

sprang


out


of


a


social


weakness


on


their


part


too


much


control


at


the


top ,


same


with


fukushima


same


problem !



simply


put


too


much


power


in


too


few


hands !
















it's


one


of


the


keys


around


which


human


life


revolves


the


female


attachment


process !
















zen


is


a


product


of


japanese


feudal


society


it


does


not


fit


with


any


osrt


of


synchronicity


into


the


modern


world !


and


you

need


some


synchronicity !
















you


are


just


a


bunch


of


warfarin


addled


rats


obnoxious


and


vulnerable !
















you


are


doing


real


“ zen ”
when


you


walk


down


the


street


and


people


chase


you


and


try


to


kill


you !
















watch out


for


hubris !


any


successful


person


has


this


problem !


for

instance


steve


jobs (had lol)


warren buffet


and


bill


gates !
















zen


fit


a


simpler


world


it


just


doesn't


fit


today's


society


anymore !
















“ andrew won't be here forever. ”


how do you know? if brad passes this post on which i am going to post again the  one  that “disappeared” he's not going to be “deregistered” as a zen teacher by the 7th patriarch (me)!


gotta give credit where it's due tho looking at an mri  scan  of his brain he has up in his photo's it's a bit frightening


sorry about the scan brad, read my  compendium, take some fish oil at least please !


also look at the sun sections and vitamin D


congratulations on being re-registered brad
















spiritus


sanctus


by hildegard


norma gentile


chants and


translations


( spiritus sanctus vivificans vita down near the bottom of her page !)
















these “creationists” take the cake ! brain damaged at birth ?
















it's


just


not


appropriate


to


argue


with


ratsheads !
















pascal


is


very


overrated


he's

a


bit


of


a


nit !


his


vision !
















the


problem


with


being


sane


is


you


have


to


keep


within


boundaries


it's


not


until


you


go


outside


the


boundaries


that


you


see


what


it


is


about !
















i


think


you


can


have

a


vision


but


it


has


no


semantic


depth


or

a


contrary


to


reality/


infinity


sense


more


a


dream


or


mechanical


image


than

a


vision


it's


the


semantic


depth


that


is


so


rare


and


just


about


always


lacking !


hildegard


of


bingen


was


lacking


in


semantic


depth


imo !


omg


“And it came to pass ... when I was 42 years and 7 months old, that the heavens were opened and a blinding light of exceptional brilliance flowed through my entire brain. And so it kindled my whole heart and breast like a flame, not burning but warming... and suddenly I understood of the meaning of expositions of the books... ”


lol


maybe


a


bit


close


to


menopause ?
















“ why


would


anyone


pay


attention


to


you? ”


but


haven't


you


just


paid


attention


to


me !


that's


why !
















years


ago


i


saw


a

painting


on


the


web


of


what


i


call


a


“ hairspray


jesus ”


beautiful


hair acne free skin a bit catholic, you could just about smell the perfume and a bit of a hunk all the same


i


emailed


the


owner


of


the


site


and


let


rip


with

a


bit


of


criticism


about


the


“ hairspray


jesus ”


and


she


angrily


replied


that


it


was a


vision


i


may


have


replied


again


in

a


caustic


manner


but


in

fact

i


should


have


asked


about


the


vision

as


i needed


to


extend


my


knowledge


of


what


other


people


might


mean


by


vision
















years


ago


i


saw


a

painting


on


the


web


of


what


i


call


a


“ hairspray


jesus ”


beautiful


hair acne free skin a bit catholic, you could just about smell the perfume and a bit of a hunk all the same


i


emailed


the


owner


of


the


site


and


let


rip


with

a


bit


of


criticism


about


the


“ hairspray


jesus ”


and


she


angrily


replied


that


it


was a


vision


i


replied


again


in

a


caustic


manner


i


think


but


in

fact

i


should


have


asked


about


the


vision

as


i needed


to


extend


my


knowledge


of


what


other


people


might


mean


by


vision
















any zen “teacher” claiming lineage descent or even claiming any right to teach at all can appeal against disestablishment by a bit of dialogue on this  board,  it will  soon   sort out !


for all the bullshit about dharma combat and the freeness of the old masters in different situations i can guarantee that not one has the courage to poke their nose onto the comments section of this board !


brad warner has, i am afraid, led the way, denial, censorship and suppression !



if


you


don't


get


the


drift


they

are


almost


all


purblind


fools


pretending


to


an


understanding


they


don't


have


and


certainly


don't


live


which


is


actually


proved


by


their


lack


of


participation


on


this


blog !
















to


unwind


yourself


properly


from


zen


is


extraordinarily


difficult !
















if


you


deny


me


as


the


seventh


patriarch


you


deny


infinity !


i


disestablish


every


zen


teacher


today


claiming


lineage


for

a


start !
















if


you


deny


me


as


the


seventh


patriarch


you


deny


infinity


and


buddha!
















if


you


deny


me


as


the


seventh


patriarch


you


deny


infinity !
















i


think


brad

warner


is


censoring


me


being


the


7th


patriarch !


which


is


ignorant


as


i


am


the


only


approved


zen


“ master ”


alive


today


i'll


put


this


post


on


his


board


and


see


if


he


passes


it


or


not !


your


last


chance


brad !
















ok brad warner is DEREGISTERED from patriarch zen !


it's funny what it takes to upset me, he removed this  post  from his blog


that is, he's got some limitations and i  DON'T APPROVE HIM !


he's uncomfortable with my presence on his blog anyway, but i'm not posting there anymore, too painful to see really good posts of mine removed cause he's just the typical zen master wanker in the final analysis, when it comes to the crunch they way they behaves sucks !

















people


really


have


very


little


understanding


and


want


less !
















life


is


full


of


voynich


fictions !
















there


is


no


method


to


shikantaza


it


is


neither


method


or


methodless !
















shikantaza


has


no


reference


point


not


even


in


terms


of


an


adequate


description !
















africans


a


subtle


and


intelligent


people !
















the zen notion of  “practice”  is like a blindfold
















the notion of  “practice”  is like a blindfold
















“last thought. i don't get why some of you think steve jobs is any less of a buddhist than you are just because he is a successful businessman. it could be he is a successful businessman because he is more of a buddhist than you are.”


zen is

not actually about buddhism or being buddhist !


at


least


in


terms


of


the


patriarchs !


yeah


i


know


if


you


have


money


people


worship


you !
















she


left


me

because


i


write


homilies !

















she


left


me

because


i


wrote


homilies !


:


o


)
















why


be


wrong


when


you


can


be


right !
















god

as


if


they


said


anything


ane


it's


all


inane !
















sometimes


i


am


jumping


out


of


bed


about


10


times


early


in


the


morning


to


write


down


homilies


the


opposite


of


writer's


block


writers


flow
















at


the


end


of


the


day


he


who


laughs


last


laughs !
















now


i've


seen


everything !


suicide


by


cancer !
















zen


it's


all



voynichated


maybe


it


was

never


true?


it's


odd


you


do


see

the


odd


thing


that


is


quite


clear !
















the


death


of


ambrose


bierce


is


the


most


extraordinary


thing


violent


and


surreal


like


his


short


stories !


an


owl


creek


occurrence


that


didn't


happen


that


way !
















the


death


of


ambrose


bierce


is


the


most


extraordinary


thing


violent


and


surreal


like


his


short


stories !


an


owl


creek


that


didn't


happen


that


way !
















why


do


i


have


to


be


so


mad


does


any


contact


with


zen


or


similar


contaminate ?
















why


do


i


have


to


be


so


mad


does


any


contact


with


zen


and


similar


contaminate ?
















when


you


buy


shares



you


are


lending


without


security !
















the


zen


teaching


system


is


a

load


of


shit !


all


it


does


is


create


sex


mad


wankers !
















why


don't


you


wake


up ?


zen


has


been


routed


neo-


advaita


is

walking


all


over


the


body


of


zen !


the


proof


of


the


pudding


is


not


in


the


eating !
















i


think


toni


packer


has


effectively


destroyed


zen


because


she


opened


up


the


gates


to


neo-


advaita !


not


that


zen


wasn't


doomed


anyway


with


it's


crazy


system


of


teacher


student


transmission


and


absurd


training


system


but


it


would


have


been

a


lot


slower !
















zen


has


got

itself


into


a


corner


it


has


been


completely


routed


by


neo-advaita


and


is


dying !
















“ but i often wonder, if a person is practicing (ed. zen “practice”!) for a very long time, would he or she still have a reputation for having a nasty temper and all the negative things i've heard about steve jobs? ”


he was pescetarian, that is ate no meat except fish, shrimp etc and shell fish, you will accumulate heavy metals including the cancer causing arsenic and brain skewering mercury if you eat like this, doomed by his own ignorance !


i have to say my observation of people who have “practiced” quite a while is they left their critical facilities out with the garbage many many years prior !
















what


we


call


the


present


and


moment


is


itself


memory !
















the female


brain


is


highly


crafted


for


men


management !
















the female


brain


is


highly


crafted


for


man


management !
















michel


proulx


i


hope


there's


more


to


your


life


than


zen


robes


and

a

lot


of


denial !


consider


yourself


upbraided


by


the


7th


   patriarch !
















karl


hungus


(ed. actor peter stormare in the white coat, porn stage name “karl hungus” !)


the


germans


always


worry


me


thank


god


they


lost

the


world


wars


:


o


)


peter


stomare


is


abit


of


a

loose


cannon


actually !


a


fucking


viking


a


bezerker !
















what


you


do


with

a


blog


comments


or


message


board


is


all


to


do


with


what


they


do


for


you !
















what


you


do


with

a


blog


comments


or


message


board


is


all


to


do


with


what


it


does


for


you !
















i


quite


like


kobun

otogawa


anyone


who


can


drown


trying


to


save


his


daughter


called


maya


and


have


her


drown

a

s

well


is

ok


in


my


book


:


o


)


makes


much


more


of


a


“ splash ”


than


the


usual


decrepit


zen


leaving


anyway !
















kobun otogawa


“you can speak of self as no-self upon the absolute. only real existence is absolute”


the


world


is


full


of


voynich


:


o


(
















the glamorization of steve jobs is zen shooting itself in the foot again !


he's


a


successful


interesting


and


innovative


businessman


but


he


also


got


arsenic


inducted


pancreatic


cancer


from


eating


too


many


shrimps


: o )


just


goes


to


show


the


buddha


of


too


much


in


one


direction


and


not


enough


in


another


is


everywhere !
















i


am


endless


and


inexhaustible


and


go


on


forever . . . .


:


o


)
















last


night


i


sat


down


on


some


rushes


by


the


stream


listening


to


the


tinkle


of


water !


:


o


)


that


is


“ right


sitting ”


why


be


crippled ?
















meditation


recollecting


yourself


a


bit


or


a


lot !
















one


lives


another


dies


what


does


that


mean ?

















what


does


that


mean ?


one


lives


another


dies
















it's


the

nature


of


a

vision


that


you


do


not


get


too

fixed


in


historical


reality !
















cause i'm the 7th patriarch where i am zen is so i don't need you lot neither do i have to do anything
















unforged anonymous writes


“i am honestly curious how long andrew will be able to keep on doing what he does.”


if you are going to talk to me civilly that's probably a sign that the involvement is going to tail off


burst of energy for what? where is it going? where has it gone, was it a total waste of time?


i


don't


know !
















it's

as


simple


as


not


giving


something


attention


if


you


are


not


giving


it


attention


then


it's


not


getting


your


attention !
















it's

as


simple


as


not


giving


something


attention


if


you


are


not


giving


it


attention


then


it's


not


getting


attention !
















they


have


got


their


own


problems


in

iran

a


bunch


of


militias


ruling

a


very

opposed


population !
















in


the


end


you


get


an


idea


about


something


you


may


or

may

not

be


right


but


you


can


test


it !


does

what


actually


happens


accord


with


it


over


long


looking ?
















women


don't


divulge


their


ages


with


good


reason !
















the “forged andrew” asks


“Hey (the real) Andrew, how old are you? You have written extensively on health issues, and admit to having had age/liver spots on your face, so I am guessing you are 60 or so?”


i was driving with eileen and we got pulled up in a random check and the policeman though we had stolen the car we looked 10 years younger than the ages on our licenses !


the


compendium


really


works !
















a


real


vision


is


definitely


an


altered


state


of


conciousness


it's


quite


short


somewhat


dreamlike


and


has


a

very


heavy


semantic


content !


it's


that


semantic


synchronicity


with

infinity


that


is


really


important


and


can't


be


duplicated


or


faked !


it's


not


something


constructed


when


it


happens


you


will


know


and


be


very


surprised !
















“ tell us about your vision when you became the  7th  Zen Patriarch ”



good question, i have thought about what i am going to say and really it's one of those things, you won't understand until you have had a real vision so i am not going to talk about it


you also need to understand what a vision is which is a direct communication by infinity or buddha to you so it's an exceptional event to exceptional people, i.e. those few who can see and accept their own crucifixion for infinity  : o )


it


happened


in


1990


and has


taken


21


years


to


make


sense

of


it !


the


real


event


happened


much


earlier


when


i


was


six


or


seven


i


saw


the


sky/clouds


fold


and


thought


that


must


be


what


people


call

“ god ”  !
















i have actually worked with people before


what


happens


is


they


see


something


and


then


kick


you


in


the


face !


it's


better


they


kick


you


in


the


face


to


start


with


then


you


are


under


no


illusions


:


o


)


















the "forged andrew" writes


"trying


to


spin


me


as


a


lunatic.


very


nice."


i don't think you are a lunatic at all, quite sane actually


just autistic with bad biofilm issues a compatriot in life long crucifixion : o )


you


are


already


at


one

with


all


the


zen

patriarchs !
















michel proulx, you want to be a real monk or a fake monk?


then


reply


to


me


plenty


of


room


for


cowards


in


that


sort


of


life


i


notice !
















the "forged andrew" writes


"i literally HATE you right now "forged andrew" sick of your shit to be honest" nup


you


are


good


for


me ! : o )
















to the "forged andrew" you write "If voynichese is like pretend or made up, couldn't you say that about everything? What is really real is infinity."


no voynichese is also of infinity, just the usual story of distortion ! infinity is both real and unreal


try


reading


"the


hunting


of


the


snark" !
















“Tell us about your vision when you became the 7th Zen Patriarch.”



good question, i have thought about what i am going to say and really it's one of those things, you won't understand until you have had a real vision so i am not going to talk about it


you also need to understand what a vision is which is a direct communcation by infinity or buddha to you so it's an exceptional event to exceptional people, i.e. those few who can see and accept their own crucifixion for infinity  : o )


it


happened


in


1990


and has


taken


21


years


to


make


sense

of


it !
















in actual fact being a "hungry ghost" is our condition, it's not like you can't or shouldn't be like that ! life is this bizarre universe of hungry ghosts pretending they aren't hungry ghosts !
















ok the anonymous spammer posted this (ed. on the hardcore zen blog !)


"Infinity's looking over


your


shoulder


and


the


other


side


of


nothing


wants

to


meet



itself."


now that's actually wrong, you can imitate but the result is bizarre !


what is "the other side of nothing"?


there's no such thing and to write like that speaks an alienated condition, however i can see by your references you are reading a bit of my writing and i guess for you this is your way of processing so i don't grudge it, you are certainly making progress


understanding is not instant, literally a life time of serious work, but you need what makes it worthwhile, that seeing and being of infinity and buddha which is really just a case of recognizing it and valuing it !
















michel proulx a quote from kodo sawaki


"Buddhism means no self, nothing to gain. You must be one with the universe and all living beings'

now


answer


me


this


what


do


you


gain


by


my


removal


from


this


blog? the


monk


had


no


reply


as


usual !
















proulx michel writes :


"Please, Brad, get us rid of Andrew..."


what a hypocrite you are, talking about kodo sawaki as an example in one breath and then seeking my removal in another


he would know what i am talking about !


but


you


you


just shrivel


like


poked


slug


when your inconsistencies are pointed out
















i'm


always


getting


murdered


one


way


or


another


:


o


)


(
















just have added a  photo, want to see if it comes up


yeah, i quite like it!


must travel out more this summer!


that's the sort of thing you should be doing too anonymous, (ed. blog commenter) relax your contracted existance so you can handle more open-ness in your life and not throw spaz attacks everytime you come across something that forcibly contradicts your mistaken views of which apparently there is no shortage !



it


wasn't


any


accident


those


monks


lived


in


the


mountains
















steve


jobs


dead


hung


onto


the


last


what


good


did


it


do


him?


god


the


media


is


full


of


bullshit !
















steve


jobs


dead


hung


onto


the


last


what


good


did


it


do


him?

















thank


god


i


am


not


in


pessoa's


situation


a


trunk


full


of


25


thousand


bits


of


writing


would


depress


me !
















being


the


seventh


patriarch


i


get



certain


privileges


in


heaven


though


i


draw


the


line


at


drinking


with


monkey !
















don't mess with me mate, call me vindictive but i just went to the department of rebirth assignment in heaven and they have reassigned you to the next 20 million rebirths as lower life forms, a good 700 thousand as a fly for a start


happy


buzzing !



yah


gotta


have


the


right


contacts !


you


of


course


can


only


pretend


which


you


do

and


will !


oh


btw


i


sneaked


a


view of

your


death


date


and


manner


of


going !


ugly !
















zen


has


got


right


off


track


visions

are


extremely


important


i


don't


mean


hallucinations


or


substance


induced


i


mean


john


of


the


cross


stuff !
















“ orange blob andrew, why do you care sooo little about us as to hurt our eyes and brains with those endless one word/line posts? ”


but


that's


zen


you


are


going


to


get


your


eyes


and


brains


hurt


or


more


truely


just


see


the


hurt


already there tho some extra hurt and a capacity to tolerate it is necessary


if


that


wasn't


the


case



everyone


would


be


enlightened !


i'm


not


the


seventh


patriarch


for


nothing


you


know !


maybe


it


is

for


nothing


:


o


)



(ed. note, i think i am going to duplicate this on the 7th zen patriarch blog to transit off the hardcore zen comments blog, let anonymous be king in brads realm !)
















“ i was part of a sangha here in philly that was organized by doug achtert. he trained with noah levine for several years before being authorized to teach.”


i had a vision in which the sixth patriarch authorised me to teach !


so i'm the seventh patriarch


i


really


am


wish


he


hadn't


done


that


btw


caught


me


unawares !


i


actually


have


come


across


one

other


instance


of


where


this


happened


in


zen


historically
















“ NUTTER ”


to


the


insane


sanity


is


insane


you


don't


get


zen


even


slightly


do


you !


or


even


tibetan


buddhism


“ crazy


wisdom ”


is


actually


“ wisdom ”


the


world


disappearing


in


the


flaming


mass


it


always


was !
















what


neo


advaita


has


done


is


because


it


allows


anyone


to


set


themselves


up


and


teach


independently


is


there's


no


quality


teachers


in


zen


anymore


and

that's


what


genpo


merzel


is


showing


a


rat


leaving

a


sinking


ship


brad


warner


is


unusual


because


he's


the


old


style


misfit


not the over socialized


patsies


that


zen


is


bloated


with


these


days !
















noah levine,  this  is what it's really about


breeding !


pretty tattoos, but the heavy metals in the ink screw the brain and he sure shows signs of that !


well


tacky


in


fact!
















“ i think they're (ed. association zen internationale) very particular about having only people from their lineage speak at their places. fair enough. ”


that's not zen, that's the usual religious closed minded, what do they think they are doing?


the


problem

zen


has


is


eckhart


tolle


and


neo


advaita


have


gutted


it


and


it's


a


permanent change


going


back


to


toni


packer !
















“ methinks the lad has come unhinged. ”


the door has always been off with me, that's why i can see past your shallowness !


hinged buddha, you really are totally clueless aren't you !


look i am the light you are drawn too, can't stop yourselves replying can you ?


you


know


i


know


and


you


know


you


don't


know !
















dogen was autistic and you just can't stand any reality about it can you cause it interferes with your wanking on buddha !!!!!!!!!!!!


it completely fucks your stupid sitting, stupid shallow lives and crazy crazy buddhist beliefs


i'm the only thing live here, look at you all, moths flying around my candle getting burnt !


oh i forgot, zen buddhism means mental masturbation, that's so fucked it can't be more fucked
















if


i


don't


look


i


am


not


going


to


see


what


upsets


me !
















the


surest


evidence


of


insanity


is


to


be


posting


on


the


hardcore


zen


blog !
















hated


by


the


1000


buddhas


hated


by


the


100


demons !


:


o


(
















there's


no


justice  !


idiots


and


arseholes


rule !
















i


didn't


have

a


clear


picture


now


i


have

a



clear


picture !


o   o


°
~













i


don't


have


to


go


anywhere


where


i


am


christianity


is
















i


don't


have


to


go


anywhere


where


i


am


zen


is
















i


don't


have


to


go


anywhere


where


i


am


springwater


is
















i


can't


believe


the


fucking


potholes


i


fall


in!
















self


injury


is


literal


you


get


injured


not


just


emotionally !


your


brain


gets


done


in

as


well


as


other


costs


from


giving


attention


to


what

hurts


you !
















well


i


can't


save


you


from


yourselves


can


i ?


why


should


i?


the


best


punishment


i


can


give


you


is


just


leave


you


to


yourselves


and


excise


the


“ hardcore


zen ”


blog


from


my


browser


done !
















you


are


all


bad


mannered


lazy


shits


it's


actually


an


injury


to


post


again


so


fuck


off !
















where


i


am


authentic


zen


buddhism


is


i'll


leave


you


lot


to


continue


to


self-


murdering


yourselves !
















where


i


am


authentic


zen


 buddhism  


is


i


don't


have


to


worry


about


you


lot


self-


murdering


twits !
















you are all fucking laughing aren't you, pissing on the problems of parents desperately trying to improve their children's lives,


that's nothing to do with buddhism is it, i wank on the buddha three times a day and will go to samadi heaven............


i


have


a

koan


for


you


was


dogen


autistic?


you deny autism


you


deny


him !
















i'm ok jack and everybody else can go to hell, isn't that right, you buddha masturbator !
















it's


the


power


of


knowledge


things


could


have


been


so


different


if


only


you


had


known !
















most


of


life


is


a


struggle


not


to


inadvertently


kill


ourselves


:


o


)
















 gatha


infinity


looks


over


my


shoulder


and


guides me

infinity


looks


over


my


shoulder


and


guides me

infinity


looks


over


my


shoulder


and


guides me
















if


you


live

in


an


estranged


condition


then


anything


that


unestranges


you


is


going


to


hurt !


do


i


hurt


you ?
















well


if


you


tell


the


truth


no-one


wants


you !
















infinity


looks


over


my


shoulder


and


guides me

















this is what they always do, if they can't kick you out of a monastery they shout you down or in this case fill the board/blog comments with junk !


i must be writing well !


infinity


looks


over


my


shoulder


and


guides me


: o )
















what


am


i ?


infinities


natural


son !
















“ If autism is the optimal state, why do you offer nutritional advice to parents on how to correct it? ”


it's a murderous condition and i would far rather be a blind normal going thru life thinking what i am doing has meaning !


plus you usually die young, when i was travelling through zen years ago they all knew what i was but cocked a snook at me cause they knew i wasn't going to last, well chew stones you arseholes, i am alive and well !



of


course


you


lot


are


on


autistic


spectrum


but


only


seem


to


be


interested


in


making


yourselves


more

blind !
















it's interesting that prion diseases and susceptibility to prion diseases spring out of an anti-oxidant system in the brain, just the other side of it so to speak


some

very bright people go on


to


develop


alzheimers


and


i


can

now


see


why !
















“ autism is the true paradigm of reality, not zen ” Explain why.


-------------


autism is the deconstructed condition which is naturally open to infinity


human completeness is the obstruction of infinity or buddha if you will


human incompleteness/deconstruction/destruction allows the light and actuality of infinity or buddha ! the greats of zen were all extremely autistic


the mistake that just about everybody makes is to build some new model of completeness, called “zen” in this case, christianity, judaism, islam or atheism in other cases


a lot slide along under agnosticism which is a tenth way house !
















autism is the true paradigm of reality, not zen


it's odd, i can cope with other people on a blog owned by some-one else but i could not cope if i owned the blog myself !


i actually think brad warner is a bit the same and the way he copes with it is to distance himself and have a complete hands off attitude and allows it just to run, a phemonenon of nature so to speak !
















an


ounce


of


your


own


creativity


is


worth


ten


million


tons


of


regurgitating


others


bullshit
















michel proulx writes:


“ i'm not sure that citing (ed. louis-ferdinand céline ) a rabid antisemite (even though praised as a great writer, but I won't take the trouble of checking out by myself) is a good example of what zen ought to be.”


my reply


are you are aware of zen's role in the massacre of nanking and the general brutality of the japanese approach in ww2 ?


“ the sword that kills is the sword that gives life ” and that sort of duplicitous crap !


a lot of the prominent japanese lineages in the usa have this descent taint and are not worth a shit imo


celine like the rest of us is uneven, goethe was also anti-semitic


you can admire their work without repeating their mistakes !


i think you claim some sort of zen lineage, what's in that one? care to look?