this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items that don't warrant a page by themselves or seem to fit better here



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



layout is done with the internet explorer text size setting at  largest  and with a zoom of 125%, though i don't have an opinion on any correct size per se



links are in the  times new roman  font  

















brad


warner


“ sex


on


the


beach ”


is


his


modus

operandii


:


o


)


(
















“ god was always an important part of mary baker eddy’s life. the bible was her constant companion. the accounts of healing were alive and real to her—an epileptic boy healed, a dying girl brought back to life, a woman who’d hemorrhaged for twelve years healed, an army commander’s leprosy healed, and many others. and she asked, “if those healings occurred then, why can’t they be happening today? ”    from



because they didn't occur then !
















infinity and the   return  of the footsteps


(ed.  you will need to watch all three parts of ray bradbury's “the lake”)


:


o


)


(
















horror

or


the


supernatural


has


it's


origins


in


a


sorta


uncompleted


infinity


if


infinity


is


completed


there


is


no


horror


but


still


there


is


a


type


of


supernatural


tho


it


can


still


kill


you


so

i


guess


that


is


horror !


:


o


)
















ray


bradbury


4


girls


and


no


boys


his


wife


was


damaged

a


damaged


woman


attracted


to

a


damaged


man !


to


their


children


you


were


born


to


two


extremely


autistic


people


that


might

help


you


understand


yourselves


better !
















fred writes:


“A man of no distinction living in

the deserted wasteland with only

the flytip blowing in the wind and

his just desserts, the ineffable,

for lunch and supper.”



just a bunch of clichés melded together in pure voynich


congratulations you have a talent :o )



and


yet


he


has


distinction


and


the


land


is


not


wasted


:


o


)
















i wonder if actually “sitting” or meditation is a form of magical thinking?



there


is


something


to


magical


thinking


btw


:


o


)
















“ doctors practice medicine.

lawyers practice law.

buddhists practice sitting. ”



in actual fact plumbers don't practice plumbing, that is in this context the notion of lawyers and doctors and engineers practicing is due to the high social status of professions compared to other work.


buddhism and meditative sitting does not have high social status and the way you are using it is something interesting i have noticed about american zen, that it has grafted the notion of  
practitioner  and practices from christian science, it's actually an alien notion to zen and buddhism !


american zen is suffused with christian science attitudes and vocabulary to a surprising degree, that sort of magical approach !


perhaps it's not so surprising because of mary baker eddy having an “enlightenment” experience


the koreans don't have this notion of “practice” and i think it's more closely related to the chinese zen (ed. chan) which got wiped by the communist revolution tho it had been in decline for centuries !


:


o


)
















fred, the proof of the pudding is in the eating and you removing my “missing the boat” post on your blog means you haven't got to first base yet


the difficulty of this work is way underestimated, if someone like dogen spent a lifetime trying to get it right and you lot blaze in like it's just a case of having coffee at starbucks !
















corporeal


objects


doing


something


corporeal
















“ a


sitting


practice ”


what


a

phoney


glamourization !
















a


monk


has


a prayer


practice


which


he


can

practise


or


practice


a


plumber


has


a


plumbing practice


which


he


can


practice


or


practise
















a dog


has


his


barking


practice


which


he


practises


or


practices


:


o


)


(
















lesser


minds


imagine


themselves


to


be


greater


and


that's


where


the


trouble


is


:


o


)


(
















on visiting a grave or tombstone


there's


no


point


the


dead


are


gone
















the


worst


feature


of


religion


is


people


are


prepared


to


die


for


it !
















god


murray


was



a nit


loyal


to


a

fault !
















the


dead


when


they're


dead

that's


it


:


o


)


almost !
















david


miscavige


is


not


even


like


stalin


he's


a


unique


combination


of


something !
















the


world


is


endlessly


full


of


dogen

clones !
















i don't think


evolution


is


necessarily

linked


with


atheism


darwin


wasn't


an


atheist !
















i


think


the


strength


of


scientology


is


that


you


have

a


very


coherent


and


uniform


public


front !
















with viruses affecting the lungs/chest gut and brain, i think the weakest link has it worst but they all get affected


then that's what kills us eventually, the weakest link, tho in terms of dying the weakest link may be different from what is affected most by viruses
















humans


are


surprisingly


oblivious


to


the


causes


of


fullness !


:


o


)


(
















humans


are


surprisingly


oblivious


to


the


causes


of


illness !
















  fred,  i'm not trying to be unpleasant but you are missing the boat ! there is an alignment between the conditioned self and infinity if you are open to it and in your case this means going back to square one and seeing you have advanced much further in your own mind than in fact !


you just don't read around enough for instance, poetry for instance which is more the native tongue of infinity !


also in practise you need to look at what you don't understand and accept that there may be things which make sense and you simply don't understand because of necessary shortfalls in the way you look at things
















all i can say is like you my education was that shakespeare wrote shakespeare but with the net and research one can move to a more informed realm !


i really would suggest you look at the henrynevilledotcom website and i have spent a full week i think on matching up the synchroncities and matching facts like shakespeare, his parents and his children were illiterate!


if you like “shakespeare” it's a revelation to fit sir henry neville's life into it, like his selling of cannon to denmark !


you won't be convinced if you don't spend that full week and most people won't have the time or interest, but it's more exciting than the da vinci code by a long way !
















there


is


a

fundamental


insight



that


you


are


all


missing !


what


is


that


insight?


that

w

e


are


not


:


o


)
















lying in bed with a digital voice recorder beats sitting by a hundred miles !


in my zen travels years ago i noticed that zen and other teachers hardly ever sat and i think the main reason apart from the fact it's easy to get sick of and has no real point, is once you get over 40, or even 30 with the state of health today, that constricted limb postion is distinctly and dangerously THROMBOTIC
















when


you


post


on


a


message


board


it


all


boils

down


to


does


it


benefit


you with information


processing !/?
















“ we make judgements about people without having walked in their shoes. does infinity have an opinion? ”


does infinity say hitler was bad and mother teresa good


  yes it does and so do i without having walked in their shoes !
















shakespeare


never


wrote


shakespeare


he


was


illterate


his


parents


were


illiterate


and


his


children


were


illiterate


the


same


cannot


be


said


of


sir


henry


neville


and


his


families in


the

generations


of


both


directions !
















the christian trinity


the


father


the


son


the


holy


ghost


is


it


true


or


is


it


voynich ?


it's


probably


a


combination


of


both


if


you


liken


the


father


to

infinity


the

son


to


it's


realization


on


earth


and


the


holy


ghost


that


condition


of

transparency


between


infinity


and

ourselves


ah


it


can


make


sense

















“ our


father

who


art


in


heaven


hallowed


be


thy


name


thy


kingdom


come


thy


will


be


done


for


ever


and


ever


amen ! ”


you


can


actually


see


the


sense


in


that !
















the christian creed


is


it


true?


no


i


don't


know


no


it's


not
















l.


ron

hubbard


genius


and


nut


case


nothing


he


did


worked


though


except


create


a


religion


appealing to idiots !
















a


very


typical


greek


intelligent


but


wrong


minded !
















scientology


zen


it's


the


same


problem


just


because


you


see


a


group


of


people


doing


something


you


think


it's


valid


:


o


)
















an email to the angry gay  pope,  (6/11/2011)



Hi, you won’t know me, i am in australia and have no connection to scientology, just thought i’d give you my opinion : o)


david miscavige is destroying scientology more effectively than anyone else can


all you are doing are forcing his resignation and some-one else will replace him and the organisation rise from the ashes under better mangement !


he will take plenty of money with him when he resigns as well !


you have won or are winning to the extent i feel you are in physical danger now, that day of the dead video is just to good !



the angry gay pope's reply



No I 'm not in danger. If I was an ex-scientologist I would be but I'm not. The sci's are too busy having a civil war to deal with me or my lawyer properly.


I really don't think anyone is going to replace Davide Miscavige as there is going to be nothing left but cash and empty buildings.


Yes you are right he is crazy and he, like LRH, invented something that is unsustainable.



my reply :



where


there's


cash


and


real


estate


there's


people !
















the


female

mind


is


not


more


complex


just


embroidered !


you


can


see


the


patterns

after

a


while !
















the


female

mind


is


not


more


complex


just


embroidered !
















soto


zen


is


a


literal


dogen


cult !


he


can


do


no


wrong


and


neither

can


they


apparently !
















deprogramming


dogen


take


a

picture


of


dogen


on


the


web


print


it


out


put


it


on


the

floor


and


shit


on


  it !
















dogen


as


an


idol


you


just


set


him


up

like

a


stupid


buddha


statue


and


obey


his


writings


whatever


that


is
















if


you


see


exactly


what


people


are


you


lose


interest !


:


o


(
















i actually think scientologists must be


intellectually


retarded


it's


such


   rubbish !
















humans


are


never


happier


than


when


fighting


:


o


)


(
















much


more


exciting


(ed. “angry gay pope and day of the dead” video)


than


zen


religion


cannot


survive


in


the


face


of


public


criticism


though


they


never


die


completely


like


the


living


dead


texts


in


sealed


jars

buried


in


the

ground


near


nag


hammadi


for


1800


years


can


resurrect


the


religion


witness


christian


gnosticism


and


the


gnostic


gospels


a


dead


religion


resurrected

from


these


texts

















is

it


that


sitting


meditation


screws


the


brain


or


it's


already


screwed ?
















Borges said: Life is a dream,

to which someone in the audience objected:

That’s a metaphor!

No, he intoned, it’s the truth.

And for some reason

everyone broke out laughing.



It was actually hard to say what made us laugh — partly, I suspect, it was from dislike of the questioner, who was a bit pompous, but it was also out of nervousness, I think, at the way Borges made him repeat the question and explain what he meant before issuing his pronouncement, cutting him down to size. But more than anything, I guess, it was out of surprise and shock, the way we laugh at an outrageous comedian. This was an auditorium full of academics. They don’t do “truth.”



(from   homelitics  by dave bonta)




my reply:



in another dream borges answered  “ for what? ”  : o )
















sometimes


you


see


voynich


so


good


you


can't


defeat


it


:


o


)


(
















mysterion writes:


“ if your practice is sitting 45 minutes on a chair or 15 minutes on a bench ”


that's the point isn't it, “practice” and not real


there's a billion monk hours gone into this sort of thing and they might has well have played golf !


you are all completely estranged from the fundamental insight yet write so definitively on here about what you are totally clueless about !
















if you want to see a distortion you will find it !
















you


are


forever


walled


off


from


the


fundamental


insight !
















zen teaching in reality, like all religious teaching is the learning of how to voynich !
















trying


to


do


things


i


get


hurt


leaving


things

a

s


they


are


i


get


hurt


:


o


)
















it's the gap between the (ed. zen) teacher's understanding or his ability to create the appearance of such a gap and yours that drives an interest in retreats !


when the gap disappears or the illusion of the gap is penetrated the interest disappears


until that gap disappears you going to be caught up in all sorts of nuttiness like collective or individual sitting


i will say that a lot of teachers are very skilled at creating the appearance of a gap


i started and finished with john loori, a bloody good voynicher and went on to toni packer who is way straighter but in fact most of the work was done with john loori so i guess it may not matter much
















dogen is the biggest screw up to ever hit zen because he's such an unholy mixture of right and wrong !


his last poem is right, his early stuff is wrong and a fucking curse on him for that !
















steve

irwin


pyschologically


you


may


be

a


lizard


or


whatever


but

your


body


reflexes


and


brain


are


of


a


land


mammal !
















steve

irwin


pyschologically


you


may


be

a


lizard


or


whatever


but

your


body


reflexes


and


brain


are

a


land


mammal !
















“ the


greens ”


incoherent


leftism !
















i


don't


think


you


have


to


ask


what


life


is


about


you


can


see


what


it


is


:


o


)


(
















the


american


approach


to

poetry


is

to


sit


in


wide-


eyed


wonder


at


what


is


not


necessarily


deserving


of


wide


eyed


wonder


!


:


o


)
















the


american


approach


to

poetry


is

to


sit


in


wide-


eyed


wonder


at


what


is


not


necessarily


deserving


of


wide


eyed


wonder

!


:


o


)
















satire


(ed. scroll four pages down to the frontispiece)


the


monkey


and


pig


:


o


)
















the


hormonally


“ suffused ”


woman


is


on

a


permanent


high !


:


o


)
















i


think


“ constructive


criticism ”


means


what

i


agree


with


:


o


)
















i don't think you can criticize a poem per se, but you can criticize an approach !


re-writing a poem is in effect a translation, and not wanting to be offensive, i don't think this   poem  warrants it !
















the


world


is


just


one


vast


attention


deficit


dis-order !
















why


does


teaching


poison


the


character ?


it's


because


we


impose



without



getting


feedback


it's sorta saying something about life that's there's so much that goes wrong all the time that we can't go very far at all without needing correcting feedback !
















i


actually


think


teaching

poisons


the


character !
















“ it's


not


permanent ”


like


losing


money


is


not


permanent !
















i


don't


think


teaching


is

particularly


healthy


for


teachers


less


healthy


for


teachers


than


students


actually !
















this


is


just


something


i


have


noticed


with


translations


over


the


years


the


impossibility


of


getting


the


full


meaning


with the translation or what it's translating like the poem is um inextricable or inextricably linked from all the associations of the language and the sound and the tones
















i


think


you


have


to


understand


the


problem


with


translation


it's


never


right


ever


with


the


odd


exception


i


think


can


be


improved !
















i


think


you


have


to


understand


the


problem


with


translation


it's


never


right


ever

















to


those


who

have


been


criticized


on

these


pages


look


at


the


quality


of


your


company


to


those


who

haven't


i


apologise


:


o


)


i


don't


really !
















to


those


who

have


been


criticized


look


at


the


quality


of


your


company


to


those


who

haven't


i


apologise


:


o


)


i


don't


really !
















it's sorta like the end of a bed time story, everything has ended happily or unhappily and the listeners and readers tucked up comfy have all gone back to their little worlds


the hard core zen blog after the semi-removal of anonymous posting !
















it's sorta like the end of a bed time story, everything has ended happily or unhappily and the listeners and readers tucked up comfy


:


o


)


have


all


gone

back

to


their


little


worlds



    the hardcore zen blog after the semi-removal of anonymous posting !
















“ i


am


a


poetry

teacher


and


know


what


i


am


on


about ! ”


indeed


you


are,


i


bet


robert


pinsky


wouldn't


ban


you


from


the


comments


section


of


his


slate


poetry


column


:


o


)


(
















the


light


infantry


got


sent


in


then


the


the


heavy


artillery


turned


up


but

it


still


wasn't


adequate


:


o


)
















i'm


at


a


disadvantage


i


just


don't


compose


and


don't


think


i


could


:


o


)
















you


can


take


anything


you


can


praise


it


and


you


can


criticise


it


anything

is


capable


of


that !
















criticize


my


poem


criticize


me


is


the


female


motto


:


o


)
















criticize


my


poem


criticize


me


appears


to


be


the


female


motto


:


o


)
















no


capitals


and


full stops


it's


just


the


way


i


write


you


can


call


it


retarded


and


some


do


:


o


)


(
















i don’t know about that “zen thematic in modern poetry” and frankly don’t think of such things in composition. in this one i am simply aiming to use small concrete fragments as guides into memory, and perhaps that gives this effort a more lyric restraint which makes you feel some things are missing. but precisely, the  poem  is about absence.


is it that “small concrete fragments” are a guide into memory, or are they memory themselves ?


i feel in that difference there is a less inhibited poem that mightn't be about anything in particular


:


o


)



the problem with the zen thematic is you don't have to be concious of it but it's just everywhere and it's runious imo !
















the


net


is


a


page


so


big


the


writing


never


stops


:


o


)
















summer 2011 sunbathing is upon us again : o )


nov 4th sunbathed 1.05 (64.15º sun altitude) to 1.23pm (63.8º), uvb meter reading started at 60 at 1pm and peaked about 67 at 1.25, clear sky


how the informed sunbather sunbaths


sunbathing is what it's called in new zealand, sunbaking in australia, “getting melanoma” in the us?



i


feel


a

bit

mean


posting


from


a

more


benign


mooded


australian


summer !


:


o


)
















officers


get


killed


really


easy


you


can


be


killed


by


your


own


men


you

can


be


killed


by


the

enemy


you


can


be


killed


by

your


own


stupidity !
















“ by three methods we may learn wisdom: ”


wisdom is a sententious prat!
















it


distorts


reality


to


think


shakespeare


wrote


shakespeare


and


not


sir


henry


neville


which


is

actually


what


has


happened !
















it


distorts


reality


to


think


shakespeare


wrote


shakespeare


which


is

actually


what


has


happened !
















of


course


they


are


morons


they


lap


up


the

da


vinci


code


and


consign


the


far


more


exciting


sir


henry


neville


really


wrote


shakespeare


to


the


dust


heap !
















message


boards


and


blogs


can't


escape


their


owners


:


o


)
















the


moronic


masses


just


will


always


be


blind !


:


o


)
















the


moronic


masses


will


just


always


be


blind !


:


o


)
















“ who


knows


what


women


want ?/! ”


what

they


can


get


their


need


is


endless


:


o


)
















now ken wilber is by own his  admission  a good example of what i am talking  about  cfs/me/stealth virus you name it


he has an incompetent dietary and supplement approach and just pumps vacant air for thought !


i nominate him for the reclining buddha !


actually i am sure ken's problems are more than half self inflicted by his sheer incompetence about these matters !


i have noticed with people with these serious undefinable conditions, it's more than half self-inflicted through their attempts to remedy their health, i have noticed this with myself, one makes big mistakes it takes quite a while to uncover !



to


be


fair


to


ken


he


has


written

a


good


book


but


treya


was


the

one

with

sense


and


imagination


not him !


he


turned


into


a


dry


husk


without


her


it


was

a

good


synergy


while


they


were


alive


together !
















may


your


bones


lie


gently
















ah


the


objectification


of


death


it


never


happens


:


o


)


(
















tiberius divorced his wife


vipsania


agrippina


who


he


loved



for political


gain


and


paid


the


price


ever


after


mean

minded


and


twisted


until

the


end


of


his


days !
















the


gate


visual


intensity


   unrealised !



   “ constructive criticism is always welcome ”


:


o


)



i don't know why, i feel there's something asynchronous or missing?


thematically distorted?


the gate not green and rusting in patches, the gravel scrapping along the walk...........


towards the mountain nothing is seen.......................


it's amazing what sleep deprivation will do ; o )



------------------------



my comment the next day : o )



i feel there's a more "quantum" version of the poem, something less constrained by what the author feels the meaning should be, too shackled by a zen thematic which is a big problem in modern poetry


“the radiant heads of orchids”


“the radiant blue green-heads of orchids !”


: o ) i don't think you can successfully rewrite some-one else's poem !
















people


get


hung


up


by


all

sorts


of


barriers


they


erect


between


themselves


and


objects !


:


o


)
















the


more


men

start


to

understand


women


the


more


they


should


be


frightened


of


them


:


o


)
















buddha


is


insane


:


o


)


there


i


said


it !


but


god


isn't


i wonder


why ?

maybe


god


is


abit


if


you


read


the


old

testament


the


new


testament

unfortunately


is


just


social


blather !
















i


think


part


of


being


mentally


ill


is


incompetence !


there


are


plenty


of


people


that


would


be


classed


as


mentally


ill


if


they

weren't


competent


phil


spector


for


instance


:


o


)
















i


think


part


of


being


mentally


ill


is


incompetence !


there


are


plenty


of


people


that


would


be


classed


as


mentally


ill


if


they

weren't


competent


buddha


for


instance


:


o


)
















i


think


part


of


being


mentally


ill


is


incompetence !


:


o


)


(
















we


carry


this


huge


burden


of


stuff


around


with


us !


:


o


)


(


if


only


we


could


just


release


it !


walk


away


from


it


so


to


speak ?


or


would


too


much


of


us


be


left


behind ?
















we


carry


this


huge


burden


of


stuff


around


with


us !
















is


my


writing


not

being



read


because


it's


not


good


enough


or


are


people


not


good


enough?
















is


my


writing


not


good


enough


or


are


people


not


good


enough?
















am


i


out


of


the


woods


yet ?


NO!
















buddhism


always


has


been


intellectually


retarded !
















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