this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here



pending poems  index



chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page



audio files can be complemented by listening to them  with the eyes closed !


















saundarananda  15.35



In this originally shattered world


Nobody is the beloved of anybody.


Held together by cause and effect,


Humankind is like sand in a clenched fist.




my retranslation



in this shattering


love is an illusion


as is the seamless continuity of being


our


lives


are like a handful of

sand


streaming


out !
















a bit of logical thinking makes life alot easier, tho it's not always right : o )
















a bit of logical thinking makes life alot easier  : o )
















a bit of logical thinking makes life alot easier
















brad warner tweets :


boredom and normality are illusions. nothing is boring and nothing is normal.



my reply :


spinning the crap huh? boredom and normality are real, everything is boring and everything is normal : o )



comment


brad warner is a fake, no wonder i sacked him : o)


deleted my tweet reply to him


he seems to be a bit sensitive to me being the 7th patriarch and him now without certification : o )

















lol, it took a minute but i got it : o ) very clever





ed. reply 
to
















i love it, it has a beautful flow and is  mystical  : o )
















i find it interesting that jesus was effectively illiterate because he never wrote anything, you would think the son of god was literate !
















well the prime minister of portugal (ed. cavaco silva in 1992) was a retard for banning  “the gospel according to jesus christ”  by josé saramago


surely religion is about truth and can sustain contradictions !


or


can


it?
















vision


i am in a large room,surrounded by a heap of broken toy-robots and am failing about and destroying them to keep a clear space around myself, but the sheer weight of numbers moves them closer and closer to me so it's the labour of


S


I


S


Y


P


H


US



and pointless


:


o


)


(



i have an ah ha moment and just get up and walk over them, then i have another and walk outside in the clear air and sunlight garden of life : o )
















i can tell you are in the drug scene , you lie and tell implausible untruths


just all way out stupid  “untruths”


lying, stupidity and violence are just second nature to those of that ilk !


you should be reading my  compendium  and address the issues you are self-medicating for


you won't !


have a very painful middle age and older if you last!


that's the bardo you twit !


the living dead with insomnia, chronic pain and the various metabolic disorders


dance with mysterion  : o )
















is


it


a


fact


or


is


it

phantasy?


is


it


the


real


life


blah


blah


;


o


)


(
















paul

rhyming

slang

you

have

yet

to

get

the

hang

offf

: o )
















the tibetan book of the dead and sidpa bardo


meaningless garbage !


that tibetan stuff is mentally retarded garbage


low iodine of course


like


you


khru


spitting


bloody


stupid !


:


o


)


(
















the tibetan book of the dead and sidpa bardo


meaningless garbage !


that tibetan stuff is mentally retarded garbage


low iodine of course


:


o


)


(
















the tibetan book of the dead and sidpa bardo


meaningless garbage !


:


o


(


)
















drugs ain't just biochemical, there's one called


 religious crap !
















khru, you are on a drug called  “religious crap ”
















well, like me you may look in the wrong places for interest when it's already there in what you do, have done and your own life !  : o )


 an ounce of our own stuff is worth ten miles of anyone elses !


 shove the bardo , the zen , advaita and spiritual plagiarism up your collective arses !
















well, like me you may look in the wrong places for interest when it's already there in what you do, have done and your own life ! : o )


  an ounce of our own stuff is worth ten miles of anyone elses !
















well  it's  fake compared to the plagiaristic reality of the jeus story


what the masses can accomodate


even tho its seems radical



when his grandfather suffered a stroke and was to be taken to lisbon for treatment, saramago recalled:


he went into the yard of his house, where there were a few trees, fig trees, olive trees. and he went one by one, embracing the trees and crying, saying good-bye to them because he knew he would not return
















the willingness with which we take on horrible burdens is always amazing to me


:


o


)


(





ed. reply  to

















eileen asks


 u mean the burden of love?



my


reply


yeah in part


general thing with life i think


love, sex children pregnancy
















the willingness with which we take on horrible burdens is always amazing to me  : o )





ed. reply  to
















life


just


seems


to


be


this


bizarre


mix


of


willing


and


unwilling


:


o


)


(
















life


just


seems


to


be


this


bizarre


mix


of


willing


and


unwilling


:


o


)
















i o a f m b


it's only a fucking message board/blog


f g s


for god's sake

















one thing i have learnt is if the root is poisoned the branches are poisoned !


so my question is why is the nishijima lineage (ed. of zen) so poisoned and incompetent?


the answer is that it is effectively a sawaki kodo lineage and he was a war criminal !


i'm not 
joking  !
















1 + 1 = 0


:


o


(


)
















1 + 1 = 0


:


o


)


(
















1 + 1 = 0  : o )
















hmm kodo sawaki was a militarist ! talk about reputation massaging : o )
















things


only


exist


in


a


state


of


anomalies
















things only exist in a state of anomalies ! : o )
















there's something to  that  , i really quite like it, expresses something : o )
















: o )


there's


something


to


it,


i


like


it





ed. reply  to
















this is the best  explanation  of the human female i can find, basically they are very simple repeating patterns ! : o ) ( .............................
















this is the best  explanation  of the female i can find, basically they are very simple repeating patterns ! : o ) ( .............................
















generally


people


who

get


writers


block

deserve


it


:


o


)


(


i

keep


praying


for


it


but


it


don't


come !
















generally


people


who

get


writers


block

deserve


it


:


o


)


i

keep


praying


for


it


but


it


don't


come !
















i


am


tired


of


being


hurt


but


can


i


stop


it


all?


somewhat


a bit?


not at all  !
















i


am


tired


of


being


hurt


but


can


i


stop


it


all?


somewhat


a bit?


not at all !
















humans are making the planet earth like a giant ant nest, defeaturing everything so they can live


:


o


(

















humans are making the earth like a giant ant nest, defeaturing everything so they can live


:


o


(

















which means getting away from the noise and crowd, not so easy these days !


most things are not that significant and nature and humans eat/consume all before them




ed. reply  to
















you


can


paint


with


words


better


than


paints


:


o


)
















“some people have even risked or even given their lives protecting others and helping to heal people along the way”



lol


that


wouldn't

be you or me would it ; o )



life is such an empty boil of the fatuous and meaningless with the occasional meaningful it's not funny ;o)




ed. reply  to
















gillian, imo the surest mark of authentic inquiry is using your own words and not repeating cliches ! ?


suzanne foxton exposes her own life in an objective way, what is that telling you?


advaita and zen are the same, everyone develops little patters that they permute and repeat carefully hiding their own lives


it doesn't work !


the endless rubbish i have read in advaita/non duality and zen, you wouldn't believe they were real people rather than spamrobots : o )


one of the big things to realise is the voynichy nature of standard quotes like “the moth is drawn to the flame”


like actually it's such a half and half mixture of sense and meaningless nonsense that it's not simply useless but a counterproductive way of looking at things, because in fact it's not looking but obscuration !


of all the blogs across the advaita universe this is the only one to permit reasonable discussion of these matters!


people want “protection” for their need to rabbit on their pathetic little intellectual investments !


of course, wasting one's precious free attention on bad movies is another approach  :/; o )





ed. reply  to
















i love


you


love


we

murder


:


o


)


(


it's


always


been


this


way





ed. reply  to
















birds nesting


quite early


they seem


to want to persist !



driving to devonport on the 5th of july 2012 to donate blood, i noticed one and possibly two hawks with nesting material and another bird as well, it was abit early i thought but the winter had been mild !


the hawk perched on a fence with hay straw in it's claws was very vivid !
















poor


anonymouse


the


serene


moonlight


and


frosted


fields


are


b


e


y


o


n


d


him


:


o


)


(
















what


makes


cancer


difficult


to


beat


is


it


is


an


evolutionarily


driven


process !
















what


makes


cancer


difficult


to


beat


is


it


is


an


evolutionarily


driven


process !
















love, like life


is


an


illusion  :/; o )


the


blind


morons


never


see


that


tho !





ed. reply  to
















well, my hunting experience is you don't bother with guilt or remorse but worry more about the missed shots : o )


then


there's


the


gutting !





ed. reply  to
















the road to hell is paved with love


: o )





ed. reply  to
















i'm not a humanist


my


god


let


the


species


be


wiped


out


i


don't


give


a


shit !
















the van gogh moment  


when you realise you can't make a living writing or in the arts and have to compromise artistic output to live at some sufficient level


i really want to cry


it's called van gogh because he would have been better in a life sense to have never picked up a paint brush
















 poem  by paul hardwick


  Why 2? 


Why do women

mistreat men

just to

    PASS T hE Time of day?




eileen's reply


why do men

take that take

instead of listening

   to what women say...;o)



my reply



it's a master slave relationship paul, it's your own brain that permits it


evolutionarily designed to reinforce traits that encourage more successfully breeding children  : o )


i


have


to


say


life


is


truely


frightening


when


you


more


clearly


see


these


basic


evolutionary


mechanisms


i'd bring


back


god


as


the


creator


of


all


if


he'd


come


:


o


)
















everything is just one vast web of uncertain traced paths


:


o


)

















the female is very disguising of herself being wounded


:


o


)


(
















women


are


very


disguising


of

themselves


being


wounded


:


o


)


(
















women


are


very


disguising


of

themselves


being


wounded
















most things develop the way that they do because of a lack of attention


:


o


)


(
















most


things


develop


the


way


that


they


do


because


of


a


lack


of


attention
















humans   are   a   disappointing   species   : o )



humans                       humans


are                              are


a                                 a


disappointing              disappointing


species                        species !


:                                  :


o                                 o


)                                  (
















joanna lumley is aboundary breaker


she's


actually


quite


A


U


T


I


S


T


I


C
















joanna lumley actually quite autistic, she is aboundary breaker
















all religion is  crap  !  (3:02)
















the


religious


twits


and


morons


(


i


include


advaita


buddhism


zen


and


new


age ! )


don't


understand


because


they


can't


( can't


equals


won't


:


o


)


(


understand


that


they


don't


understand !
















men


may


have


a


need


for


women


but


then


need


of


women


for


men


is


greater !
















iimssms!


if i may say so myself


:


o


)

















love


brings


hurt,


hurt


brings


love


hate


is


the


human


condition !
















love


brings


hurt,


hurt


brings


love


hate


is


the


human


condition





ed. reply  to
















onward ever onward to stop going backwards


:


o


)


(
















onward ever onward to stop going backwards !

















the point of writing is to  change  yourself in ways that are constructive !


this


is


an


art


that


is


not


well


understood


:


o


)


(
















no i'm saying it's all a scary disaster (ed. life), but there are some survivable corners which if you are careful are liveable


and part of being careful is to look ahead and do the work necessary and not go around in waste of time circles
















i understand the issue of spilling too much time on the net and the need for getting more back into the real world
















i understand the issue of spilling too much time on the net and getting more back into the real world
















life


is


full


of


mistakes


:


o


)


(
















life


is


full


of


mistakes


:


o


(


)
















cassandra austin's  watercolour  of jane


one


of


the


best


portraits


i


have


ever


seen

it


conveys


something


about her !
















eileen asks


y do u think ur done posting on the oldhardcore zen btw


or can't u answer that



my reply


it's just sorta come to an end, nothing to offer, they are seen for what they are


not interested in them or supporting their crap with my posting
















it's a wonder they bothered to pay the script writers the  script  is so bad and the one decent thing, they have plagiarized from the well known nag hammadi text “thunder, perfect mind”


i was sent forth from the power and come to those that reflect upon me


makes one cringe to see it turned into crap for the gullible !
















crafts are still very skilled areas


it's half a lifetime to master


a lot of people have the technical skills without artistic talent


it also works the other way around


which is why good stuff is so rare


in fact technical skills without artistic talent is 99%
















when


you


lose


a


war


you


didn't


get


something


right


:


o


)


(
















when


you


lose


a


war


you


didn't


get


something


right


:


o


)
















i have to say from what i have seen of american university english literature studies, they are not afraid to plum the depths of stupidity !  : o )



samuel  marshall  replied


i'm not entirely sure what any of this means.



my reply :


so you are missing comprehension skills? have a go, what might it mean  : o )


you know, step into an area you don't like to think about  : o )
















i have to say from what i have seen of american university english literature studies, they are not afraid to plum the depths of stupidity !  : o )
















sometimes if i see something good in the way of art or artwork on the web that i think will disappear into the chaos of time, i'll preserve it


there's actually occasionally some very good amateur stuff around that is actually better than the professional


:


o


)


(
















when you do  art  and i even include embroidery ; o )  you somehow leave the world of conventional meaning and in itself it's a better explanation of infinity than all the religious nonsense about god, buddha and the bleary advaita patter
















well brad warner has really destroyed what the hczb used to be by moderating his new blog and i am the only one keeping the old blog alive and more effort by me is making the same mistake as brad warner, putting my efforts in to keep a bunch of arseholes entertained and edified !
















amy


winehouse


everyone


dies


:


o


(
















amy


winehouse


everybody


dies

:


0


(
















amy


winehouse


everybody


dies


:


o


(
















gina rhinehart


because


of


her


wealth


everything


she


says


commands


her


problem


is


she


has


come


to


believe


in


the


veracity


of


those


commands !


plus loss of


hormones


of


course : o ()
















gina


rhinehart


because


of


her


wealth


everything


she


says


commands


her


problem


is


she


has


come


to


believe


in


the


veracity


of


those


commands !
















gina


rhinehart


because


of


her


wealth


everything


she


says


commands


she


believes


in


the


veracity


of


those


commands


hubris !


just


a


rather


conventional


up


herself


woman !
















gina


rhinehart


because


of


her


wealth


everything


she


says


commands


she


believes


in


the


veracity


of


those


commands

















what is the power of


making a little story ?


the creation of an


imagining or fictitous


world


what


is


the


power


in


that ?
















message boards


and


blog


comments


sand


in


a


sand


storm


abrasion


that's


about


all


it


is


:


o


)


(
















message boards


and


blog


comments


sand


in


a


sand


storm


:


o


)


(
















the


proof


of


the


pudding


is


in


the


eating


the


pudding


is


rancid !


:


o


)
















the


proof


of


the


pudding


is


in


the


eating


the


pudding


is


rancid !


:


o


)


(
















nada te  turbe  -  taizé
















it's


all


over


it's


gone


what


has


been


will


never


be


again


:


o


(
















it's


all


over


gone


what


has


been


will


never


be


again


:


o


(
















the


morons


they


don't


change


and


can't


change


it's


not


“ why


bother ”


but


that


i


destroy


myself


doing


so !
















sylivia plath's death was because she was given a very toxic antidepressant


one that had some very bad health side effects


she'd actually taken it years before and stopped because of the problems


yeah labyrinth after labyrinth


in


the


end


the


split


attention


defeats


you !
















sylivia plath's death was because she was given a very toxic antidepressant


one that had some very bad health side effects


she'd actually taken it years before and stopped because of the problems


yeah labyrinth after labyrinth


in


the


end


the


split


attention


defeats


you !
















a good zen master is a lame poet
















a good zen master is like a lame poet, dogen towards the end of his life was becoming a reasonable poet!


where does that leave the turds who call themselves acolytes or accomplished in zen?
















“ upon the old amusement pier i watch


the creeping darkness gather in the west.


above the giant funhouse and the ghosts


i hear the seagulls call. they’re going west


toward some great catalina of a dream


out where the poem ends.


but does it end?


the birds are still in flight. believe the birds. ”




jack spicer,  “imaginary elegies: iv ”



full  poem



another  good poem by him
















it's very interesting the way generations are isolated from each other, it's like a new language arises with each one that is not understood by the other !
















it's really interesting what a bit of censorship does in terms of permitting the most outrageous drivel to thrive and be promoted on blogs and messageboards


brad's new hcz tho is a poor second to the atrocities 
of  (read back through the comments)


my experience is you can't tell these people anything, the flowery talk disguises some pretty nasty behavior


but i have never been able to tell you (old hczb commenters) anything either  : o )
















the reason why university academics don't believe that sir henry neville wrote those plays and poems is this


would a colourless middle class drab (shakespeare) with a propensity to litigate over small sums and no concrete evidence he could write at all have written them compared to a very well educated and read upper class man with a large minded fabulous personality, super rich in life experience and fluent in languages of texts used as sources for the plays (sir henry neville)


yes, the academics plum for shakespeare : o )
















when i look at a video like  this,   is it/that somewhere women can't go but men can?
















if you follow a single road long enough


it


starts


to


pull


the


world


in


towards


you


:


o


)


(
















if you follow a road long enough


it


starts


to


pull


the


world


in


towards


you

















love


is


an


illusion


“ they ”


just


don't


get


this !


:


o


(


)
















love


is


an


illusion


“ they ”


just


don't


get


this !


:


o


)


(
















i can see why brad warner kept his old hcz blog unmoderated and permitting anonymous posting for so long, his actual writing and thinking are quite weak and this is exposed in his new restricted posting context and the forum for the reverberatory mastabatory pretend “enlightened ones ” it has become !
















sir henry  neville  NOT shakespeare


he at least  existed , which is more than can be said of jesus or buddha !


i think it's insulting to sir henry neville by those retards to insist that shakespeare wrote those works
















the dial ranges were spectacular in this early morning light, should have stopped to look but i didn't


i'm kicking myself for that, not the wasted trip (ed. to go back town to get a notebook that huh, i discovered under the car seat when i got down there)


well i want to cry now


might go tomorrow morning to look
















crazy


is


as


crazy


does


:


o


)


dull


little


anonymouse  (ed. hcz)


wanks


on


f


o


r


e


v


e


r


.



.



.




.
















one would hope that life gets simpler


it just


seems


to


continue


to


explode


in


unending


complexity !
















fuck the marines!


the  officers  (26:20)

are


nut


cases!


never


join


the


marines !