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this is just a brief call and i would like to thank you for your support

andrew

well i haven't given you any support and i am in disagreement with your approach 

: o )

  lifeline

bye

audio

but still the same advaita mistake, this confusion of the now or seeming or awareness as being of the infinite

in fact this understanding that there is some tangible “infinite” is what it is all about and this takes time  : o )

don't put yourself in a situation of being judged by your inferiors, i do that all the time, the terminal condition of  “competent depressives”  : o (

this is of course beyond you lot  : o )

this is the real letting go of the self, not the spaced out blather of zen and advaita and the arrant nonsense of christianity

i was thinking that advaita, zen and religion generally were like melville's experience of jerusalem

all the gloss of a lot of history and the associations and stories in the bible, but the reality is an unattractive arid city with alot of stone, muggers and petty thieves  ;  o)

actually

the

heartless

brutality

if

you

can

see

it

“Mr. Melville has survived his reputation,” one critic wrote in 1851 of the “imposing” novel, with its diatribes, tangents, and verbosity. “If he had been contented with writing one or two books, he might have been famous, but his vanity has destroyed all his chances for immortality, or even of a good name with his own generation.”

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living

dead

my

living

dead

moment

just

seems

to

consist

of

a

succession

of

periods

of

insanity

just

seems

to

consist

of

a

succession

of

periods

of

insanity

the big huge problem is you have to go along lines that hurt, and straight away that sorts the sheep from the goats

none of those posters on the new hczb can do that, indeed, think it abit sick

but actually brad who has some insight can, tho not enough to be useful to him : o )

all that prattle about buddha, but it hurts too much to investigate wether he was really an actual historical person and not some building of cardboard pasted together over the ages : o )

advaita is a fiction that depends on censorship  : o (

i

thought

i'm

one

of

them !

dreary

dullards

permuting

vocabulary

fo-r

ever :

dreary

dullards

permuting

vocabulary

fo-r

ever

why are people in it? tolle is in for the money which makes sense, renz is in it for sexual opportunity or used to be, that promiscuous travelling life style, the vast majority are in it because they are schizophrenic and autistic queens bees !

in actual fact i think the mirrors that teaching creates for teachers is so distorting and full of hubris that “ he needs must not see himself ” in the famous words of sir henry neville  : o )

my helen keller links

she wasn't simply blind, but had that super visual intensity of autism  : o )

sir henry neville is very autistic too, and suzanne foxton and her family and me and ...............

yeah the neurobiological paradigm leaves advaita in the dust

the autistic and developmentally disabled puppets swaying in life's cruel breezes  : o )

female

philosophy

the

most

intelligent

man

is

dumber

than

the

dumbest

woman

female

philosophy

the

most

intelligent

man

is

dumber

than

the

dumbest

woman

about

as

sensible

as

anything

else

i've

seen

in

terms

of

religious

belief

about

as

sensible

as

anything

else

i've

seen

pauls  reply

odd  nerdrum

that's

why

the

middle

east,

northern

middle

east,

and

afghanistan

are

like

they

are?

have intense stare

i was very young but picked up the cast ur eyes down in their presence very quick

mum didn't even need to emphasis they give off an aggressive aura

ed. reply  to

i feel basically she is talking rubbish and wonder where these supporters come from and then i thought, well this is the new jehovah's witnesses

i am going through this in a zen board at the moment, you just sorta stand in front of them stupified, they are so wilfully ignorant  : o )

and the fact your brain , like brad's doesn't work properly  : o )

brains need ferritin too, the pools of iron in the body are not that interchangeable and you have to eat liver to get ferritin : o )

yeah i take 1000 iu of vit D daily, use a homebuilt uvb lamp and get high solar noon sun on the skin in summer

my cardiovascular health is very good and so is my brain  : o )

only an idiot would think doctors know anything about nutrition or health  : o )

you may claim to be a buddhist but like christians what you really worship is medicine for its ability to bring you back from your own dietary stupidity  : o )

i love medicine, the way it half kills the suckers with chemo, hiroshima-like doses from CAT scans, brain damage from open heart surgery (which is what has happened in your case), making entire generations schizpohrenic and autistic with vaccines and lack of sun on the skin

yes

humans

deserve

it

so these very high protein, very high iron diets don't suit us either !

the specific carbohydrate and bioflm carbohydrate diets are not low carb diets, but selective of carbs that don't feed bad biofilm or gut flora !

the bcd diet is complex and i know you guys are incapable of the level of work it requires, you like this sort of thing like you like zen, easy bullshit is wanted and real discerning work that gets results, well.................

speaking of easy bullshit, brad warner's new blog has degenerated pretty quickly the moment i stopped posting hasn't it?

actually, i think to brad's credit he's not capable of moderating it, he understands the problems, but jayce renner is your usual ignorant as pigshit but self assured buddhist twit and he's got the control of that site  : o )

eliminate sugar and honey

with the odd excpetion store brough fruit juices are toxic

really, grains should be eliminated

   people are not universally going to listen to you : o )

veg pizza's that sort of thing, and not particularly informed on the veg/fruit side

brad warner is going to come out a zombie which is what happened to him last time  : o )

nice spot, but like prison, slow execution by a very toxic diet

unleavened bread is the worse, no denaturing of the wheat proteins ! : o )

i have voluminous writings on the subject

i would be a dead duck if i hadn't done this

i think this is basically what i have learnt from the hczb, everyone is running in circles or falling down some toxic hill and it's that the brains are failing due to diet, micronutrient deficiencies and age

people are not meant to be like what is showing here, malfunctional beyond belief  : o )

brad warner is a paradigm for here, schizophrenically rigid, starting to get into the area of failing health, just a liability to those that know him, yet he is an able person  : o (

america is an unbelieveably medicalized culture, you are all damaged from too many vaccines and bad scheduling of them and excess medical interventions and lack needed things like sun on the skin which is discouraged and have poor quality food

that said, i do notice americans place more weight on superfical politeness and australians are rougher in manner and more straightforward

cultural differences

can't

reason

an

idiot

out

of

idoacy

can

you?

put down the clichés, leave the buddhism in the garbage and step into what is hopefully a fresh you

the stench of your rotting flesh will abate : o )

i have never met such a bunch of obstructing and self obstructing half wits

even at work : o )

hell

state

all

by

yourself

with

no

light

do

we

have

so

much

trouble

seeing

ourselves

a

s

abroken

machine ?

mind to mind transmission is what zen is about, that happened with me and the sixth partriarch so that's the most senior appointment and i am boss

i'm not a messiah cause it's abit dangerous and who cares about saving the world, but the fact is i am the most senior zen/chan person alive and if you can't understand that direct link outside time then..............

don't

get

what

it's

all

about

ASPIE

FUCKER ”

yah well that's me  : o )

YOU (ed. comic brains)

why not step into your heritage : o )

yuanwu keqin (commentator of the blue cliff record and writer of zen letters) was not enlightened, but xuedou zhongxian the original collator/author of the koan's was, you you have to parse a bit reading the blue cliff record!

i would guess most of the people posting on this board (ed.hczb) have very little idea that there is an authentic zen literaure, their ideas about it having been derived from popular culture and psuedo stuff like moondog : o )

future generations can look forward to “sayings of the seventh partiarch” of course, no doubt thoroughly distorted and misinterpreted by the usual know nothing editors and commentators : o )

so actually attempts to steer oneself along or onto it are futile

there is only one steering star and that's infinity, projecting your ideas is just that, projecting and unless you are sensitive to what infinity or buddha is, it's futile and you will end up here (ed. hczb) blathering nonsense for ever  : o )

actually i do have some sort of sense of path looking back over my time here, sorta of a maturing and latter days “enlightenment”, just tediously slow and perhaps not more difficult than any other disaster area i have been involved with  : o )

back to watching  sniper  videos  : o )

i am amazed, i designed my own muzzle brake and it looks very like the one on the mcmillan tac-50

an interesting perspective on  sniping

heterosexuals can be as severely or even more gender blurred than homosexuals, look and you will see : o )

why not walk out of the failed buddhist conceptual box you have built around yourself?

khru, i think zen is selective for better intelligence, vipassana and tibetan are cretinous

tho i would also say that zen is also selective for poor emotional intelligence and extreme rigidity : o )

most religions, they don't bother what they believe, just some fluff one goes along with : o )

being over identified with being one sex : o)

just blend in and go with the flow i say : o )

@ fred

death threats are actually not much fun, but once you have had one it's abit ho hum after that  : o )

i know how it sux being such a nonentity that no-one wants to kill you, get over it  : o )

you are a person who would benefit by reading the cleary bros translation of the blue cliff record, zen is all about schizoid and autism, you and i being both of course !

the trick with schiziod is to move beyond it, there's no trick to autism except survival and taking what it offers  : o)

enlightenment is the complete understanding that we are shadows and infinity is all : o )

my remark about you being zoned out on wheat products abit close to home?

is zen about being more or less of a hypocrite?

what is the role of personal consistency in enlightenment?

the blue cliff record is really the basic zen text after the platform sutra, the cleary brothers translation is way the best imo

the cleary brothers translation of the blue cliff record is very good, you are all so interested in zen, why not read up abit instead of conscripting musicians like moondog as a reference!

to stand on the blue cliff, what is that ? find out !

the thing about bipolar is the mood shift is a pump, i think all genius has some degree of bipolar, but the only really effective med is high dose lithium which is a killer of the thyroid and general health

on my health web pages i have a write up about using very very tiny dose lithium carbonate in drinking water and low dose lithium aspartate and strontium can be useful as well.................

it's the expression itself that's interesting to me

i don't write for anybody, i am just happy if it has the weight of the infinite in it

i also publish it, like i use this blog material i write for my homilies and poems pages, but in a way it's not necessary others read it

the point of this blog and the people on it, their extreme make believe and estrangement from what it's about is it's an extreme that generates a very functional dissonance

it's not a dialogue, it's a storyboard, but the story is true............

wether people pick up on it or not i have no expectations and actually that would work not that well for me if people became less estranged, you in fact are about as close as it can get to be effective, you are actually at an optimal distance for effectiveness so i hope that doesn't change and i don't think it will

it's really fundamental to this "alignment" that being "offended, annoyed, upset and tuned out" be used in productive ways, like recognising in this case that valid criticisms are being made and needing to step down from a senseless and pointless self esteem bound up is the supposed mastery of some rediculous zen or advaita type vocabulary

but as i say these people are not capable of it and it's better that way : o )

they are totally opaque and it's like talking to walruses : o )

nothing would shock me more than comic brains saying, “i can see what you are on about,” fortunately it can't happen  : o )

as to where wonderland is and when it occurs, you get an intuition about it

yeah there are dangers, i don't necessarily recommend it at all having had some very close scrapes : o )

in these spaces you enter the timeless......................

don't

really

have

any

question

after

this

the

morons

babble

from

the

everyday

world

.

.

.

.

then why are you babbling back?

my

reply

well you think it babble

an every day worlder i guess, the majesty and beauty and awe of it all escapes you

it's not that it's babble back but what i write is that magical polished space and surface

so it speaks to all except the estranged

the scoffers of the everyday sit on the sideline, yelling abuse and disbelief

so my babble/writing is rooted in that identity and that's why it appears

my further reply

the quality of my writing and intensity of effort are in a way out of place on this blog, (ed.hczb) except that really i have no intention of convincing anyone of anything, amd what could it possibly matter, but that it's like a storyboard and i use what i write on my website

it's of a totally different order from just about anything i have ever heard, sadly his later recordings lack due to his age and alcoholism

there are no proper recordings of him in his prime. he was only recorded later when he hadn't owned a piano or practised properly in 40 years and he was usually very drunk.

he had ten wives before his death, one of whom tried to murder him and one of whom was the mother of a previous wife ”

moondog/louis hardin  “why spend the dark  night  with you”,  unfortunately i was unable to find the music without the dancing  : o )

it looks to me like a pretty slick machine to take cash from middle aged women

why are the most stupid, vacuous and talentless people involved in  “the spiritual scene” ?

teachers who can't cope with criticism, indeed so proactive in avoiding it it's not funny, and students who are some amalgam of emotional retardation, stupidity and cowardice?

balanced view guru candice o'denver   persuading  the disciples not to have children to keep the money for for the balanced view pot  : o ), but actually i can see her point, a good 50% of today's women shouldn't breed,  GO CANDICE  : o )

   is he who has a tongue to tell that must remain unspoken.”

is more than a token

i quite like his music, he was a real composer producing something, you can't even front up who you are?

yeah i am an autistic loser but buddha helps me when i don't turn away, happened so many times, my turning it makes me cry  : o (

no i don't get lonely cause i am the moon : o)

being rightside up is not rigidly excluding but being open and moving with the flow, very tai chi moving hands in fact ; o )

we are all offended, but can we move beyond that ?

i love these nicks : o )

  jesus joko beck was a toxic bitch, really mean minded women in the maezumi lineage   : o )

they/he are missing the essential insight 

   however you lot won't be told will you  : o )

the only reason you would want to not call these shits on it is if you don't see it

where the autistic spectrum (which you are also way on btw, you come across too clearly in posts to be neurotypical) comes in is that it gives some relief from social constructs of reality, that is socially received truths about how reality is supposed to be which are always malformed and misguided

yeah you are right about “deconstructive game ” forming my own ideas, it's really an exploration of reality, this is where the autism comes in, not having a neurological model of how people and social reality are i have to form one by experiment and experience, this board is good for that because the people are so stupid and extreme, sort of an ultra neurotypical that is so badly done, even i can see through it   : o )

i had to laugh at brad warners complaint about not being able to or interested in running a zen center, these little streaks of how autistic he really is flash through. you can actually pick it with him, he's not inclinded to take the socially transmitted version of reality, tho he has had made the mistake of picking up on buddhism to his detriment

you can see this by the way he scripts, just cludging stock phrases together, but sometimes he achieves something unique and through his life he became more able to express himself originally

all the inversions and doubling and then negating what he writes are in fact a clever giving of something sincere and original of one bound into the scripting of religious clichés

the endless people in zen vainly caught between being silently illuminated and unable to front up any real life presence ( maybe that wouldn't be silently illuminated then?)

masks, more masks and an endless stupidity about risk

frogs, mice and emaciated diseased lions

i think this process modifies the real self as well in a more productive and functional way

first

rule

of

fake

zen

is

to

behave

like

a

fake,

they

never

disappoint!

these

practiced

artists

of

male

manipulation