this is work in progress or homilies or miscellaneous items

that don't warrant a page by themselves

or seem to fit better here

pending poems  index

chronological order is from the bottom to the top of the page

audio files are best listened to  with the eyes closed !

the layout is done with the internet explorer text size setting at  largest  and with a zoom of 125%, and my text rendering is done for these settings though they should be somewhat tolerant of a zoom setting or two up or down

because you have that feeling for infinity

of how alienated all the human circus is from it,

so you too feel that alienation

  and  only half believe what you do in life !

because you have that feeling for infinity of how alienated all the human circus is from it, so you too feel that alienation and only half believe what you do......!

it's really about getting into a more dealable life space

not full throttle into old age so to speak

it sucks about nishijima (ed. on his being a con!  my comment to mike cross who was complaining about him being  “largely full of shit” ) and one just has to bite 10 or fifteen years of wasting our lives, we all do this in similar and different ways :-)

buddhacarita 4.45 to 4.39,  aśvaghoṣa  almost at his best and well  translated  by mike cross !

ok,   4.45  is aśvaghoṣa at his best and mike cross successfully captures it's depth and ambiguity !

see or become the sorrowlessness of an asoka tree : o)

palliation of a lover's sorrow,

where bumble bees buzz

singed by fires

no skin off my nose you being a fake and you know it, just posturing without anything real !

please continue !

addresed to yet another crap artist on  (alain)  on sweeping zen !

one  could  just  weep  from  dawn  to  dusk,

one's  stupidity

ability

inability

it's  just

one

vast

vale

of

tears

 audio

high friended  facebookers

 fat, broke,  schizophrenic

  and in debt :o)( ?

high friended facebookers

  fat, broke,  schizophrenic , and in debt :o)( ?

high friended facebookers fat, broke,  schizophrenic , and in debt :o)( ?

“ buddhist practice ”,  the operative word being  “practice”,  that is doing for pretend and not for real, like you wouldn't have a real identity and not some usual net  “nameless name”  where we can hide and write any sort of nonsense and pretend to ourselves we are doing something meaningful?

“ buddhist practice ”,  the operative word being  “practice”,  that is doing for pretend and not for real, like you wouldn't have a real identity and not some usual net  “nameless name”  where we can hide and write any sort of nonsense?

mike  dorko  port  writes

evolution being about survival of the fittest and karma being about extinction of all species

my reply

evolution is more about  horizontal  gene transfer and karma is about reality having a deeper seated substrate than our ordinary gain and loss decision making :o)

dorko  also quotes from donald lopez’s execrable book,  “the scientific buddha: his short and happy life”

“ my suggestion is that we allow the buddha to remain beyond the world, completely at odds with the world and with science ”

my

reply

   buddha doesn't have to be allowed anything btw :o)

schizophrenia is not simply a lack of reality testing,  it's a denial of the need for reality testing,  so the delusions and malfunctionality occurs regardless

and

the

delusions

at

least

are

wanted

:

o

)

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schizophrenia is not simply a lack of reality testing,  it's a denial of the need for reality testing,  so the delusions and malfunctionality occurs regardless

and

the

delusions

at

least

are

wanted

:

o

)

(

my  comment  to eileen

you might try  that  with men's faces, you can get the face to break up into parts

eileen's  reply

i was going to say women don't have to do that

they already do look at men's faces for character

they don't split them into sexual parts

anyway

it's a male thing

ur homily made me want to weep

my  reply

not sexual parts, it's the face decomposes

eileen's  reply

i mean women look at a man's face straight off not his sexual parts

and doesn't have to tell herself not to do that

cos she doesn't

not initially

she wants to

know his character

if he is safe

    not wether hes got a big......

  \ : o {

ur homily left me wondering y i want to see u actually to be perfectly honest

that's what if i'm clever i wouldn't tell u

my  reply

that's just how life is, we are monsters, blind and grasping persuing honeyed illusions, so contrary to the fact of what we are

  women ; o)

they have to figure out

what's

in

their

best

interest

and

then they

have

to

act

in

their

best

interest

hurdles

too

far?  ; o)

what's wrong with the lotus position

damaging joint tension on the knee,

a twisting action on the hip

( hip damage is permanent,

the knee repairs somewhat more readily )

and severely restricted (thrombotic!)

blood circulation

     these people are very very  stupid !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what's wrong with the lotus position

damaging joint tension on the knee, a twisting action on the hip (hip damage is permanent, the knee repairs somewhat more readily) and severely restricted (thrombotic!) blood circulation

   these people are very very  stupid !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

politics is a nightmare and best kept well clear of !

politics is a nightmare and best kept well clear of

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if you are going to steal, do

it

without

remorse

:

o

)

(

if you are going to steal, do

it

without

remorse

:

o

)

if you are going to steal, do

it

without

remorse

with women,  look at the face  and behavior more  and the breasts less

if you look carefully you can see the face sort of fragment up into it's parts and that gives an indication of the true character,  it is always suprisingly brutal,  thuggish and stupid :o)

  communication with a horse fly while sunbathing !

horsefly

   i am buzzing around like this to let you know i am intending to land and bite !

me:

swats at horsefly with a sunhat

horsefly

  “ it's not worth dying for ”  and buzzes off  : o)

:

o

)

(

i think where you have liturgy  you have a clergy and religion !  robes,  a service,  hierarchical positions,  talks,  zazen,  zen is a religion

why brad who has lived in japan would think he wasn't a member of a clergy i don't know, except he seems very good at eliminating what he doesn't want to think about :-)

that would make him well qualified for zen of course  :-)

it was on my mind when i woke up yesterday morning and had to rush out and  record  it !

  then i went back to sleep : o)

the idea that we are already whole is an advaita heterodox view ! zen really coalesces with mystic christianity and argues that we are not already whole and only god/buddha is complete !

relationship is a breeding machine, designed to deliver the next generation, modern zen buys into this  (hence all the sex scandals)  and really is subservient to this paradigm...........what can you do?
it wins cause it creates the next generation

the male brain is designed to be blind about women, if you can walk outside those blinders you will be much happier : -)

to these  facebook  and  message board/  blog responders/  commenters

you will find that being  blankly uncritical/sycophantic  is neither helpful to yourself, or the writers who need a shot up the bum for their maudlin nonsense :‑)

anyone of any integrity would come down hard on this sort of nonsense in a reply !

to these  facebook  and  message board/blog  responders/commenters

you will find that being blankly uncritical/sycophantic is neither helpful to yourself, or the writers who need a shot up the bum for their maudlin nonsense :‑)

anyone of any integrity would come down hard on this sort of nonsense in a reply !

rafe martin writes

“ the peace and quiet, the sense of oneness that comes through ongoing sitting  (ed. meditation)  is not yet the end of  me and mine ”

my reply

mostly it appears to be the end of common sense and life functionality :‑)

the earliest buddhism,  that is,  what is in stone inscriptions  implies that buddha was a merchant banker,  full of sage advice about  lending  money :‑)

gregory  schopen  would be the leading buddhist scholar today !

he's a very good  speaker !

interesting  study

i think writing poetry and homilies greatly improves the signal to noise ratio

interesting  study

i think writing poetry and homilies greatly improves the signal to noise ratio

  “ if you only make synapses stronger and never get rid of the noise or less useful information then it's a problem ”

beyond the forest thicket,  in the dark night

stands

the

moon

:

o

)

v2r1

v2r2

beyond the forest thicket,  in the dark night, stands the moon

v1r1

v1r1.5

v1r2

like cats eat mice, so are we/humans picking berries

we are a berry picking species

 (ed. thoughts as i was picking ripe gooseberries : o)

like cats catch and eat mice, so are we/humans picking berries

we are a berry picking species

 (ed. thoughts as i was picking ripe gooseberries : o)

the problem with zen is not that you can't make limited progress in a certain direction. it's that to make progress in a life sense, and this is were it gets tricker because in a life sense there is this vast huge gulf between those celibate and those with familes

if you are celibate your life is actually meaningless in a conventional life sense and actually you are a failure the way most people look it

if you have a family then you already have meaning in your life and this is the way zen is adopted now, it's a family person practice and zazen is used as a therapy for that sort of life................... some sort of awareness and reorganizing, in theory anyway :-)

however that's not what zen is about and to discover that you have to be motivated by a complete emptiness and meaninglessness in your life and an interest and feel for what is essentially beyond all that :-)

you have to literally live through a hundred different life times to have moved far enough and though there is a a natural aspect that doesn't really vary throughout your life,  in fact you are heavily dependent on reading over the whole of human written experience to garner those gems and small nuggets which enable you to leapfrog lifetimes !

this is what i mean zazen is an introduction, but the way  “ family zen ”  takes zazen is that the recursion and negation that zazen in theory might provide is sufficient, hence they say well just keep sitting !

well i have never seen it work like that, in fact my observation is zazen in that way inducts a sort of schizophrenia, that is people who do zazen become more rigid, closed and very set in their ways, this is a literal observable fact !

the last genuine zen master was the korean monk kusan who was never able to give transmission to a suitable   “heir”,  if you read about him you will realize how very very difficult it all is and what a wreck of fakeness the current zen claimants are

so the point i am making is that what it is all really about requires a breathtakingly rapid pace of progress that is not only not delivered by the way zen is taught, but actually strongy inhibits

there's no absolutes

in terms of solutions to life,

tho not intended as such,

everything is a compromise,

muddy and

muddles

:

o

(

)

there's no absolutes in terms of solutions to life, tho not intended as such,  everything is a compromise,  muddy and muddles :o)

brad, the real bowing to buddha is not censoring what shows you up :o (

you have no one but yourself to blame for being a fake !

duh! its just a stupid statue :o)

ed. reply to brad warner writing

“ there is usually a statue of buddha in the central room of most zen temples. it’s traditional to stop and bow toward the statue whenever you pass in front of it on your way somewhere else. nishijima roshi never once told me to do this. but one day i happened to see him do it. that was how i learned of this tradition ”

the norm of the human condition is insanity !

something done for thousands of years is simply thousands of years of insanity :-)

( ed. reply to zafrogzen who was defending seated meditation as something that has been done for thousands of years ! )

funny i was hearing some tiny mews in the garden for a while that i couldn't identify, was it a cat or was it a bird ?

 feral kittens : o)

one piece of bullshit praying to another

i don't

think

humans

count

for

much

in

the

scheme

of

things

i don't

think

humans

count

for

much

in

the

scheme

of

things

:

o

)

(

i don't

think

humans

count

for

much

in

the

scheme

of

things

i can't see wether you  (ed. taigu - sweeping zen video)  are sitting cross legged or not,  but i'd really watch that thrombotic restriction of circulation from sitting like that ! : o)

i just lie in bed in the morning or slump in a chair with my feet up and a red light in the late evening  (the red light is so as not to disrupt the circadian rhythm!)

i really think cross legged sitting  (ed. meditation)  is  a  pre   modern cardiovascular research   relic   and  should be obsolete : o)

i know of several people with strokes from sitting and lots with hip and knee joint damage : o)

you would have to be crazy to sit in the traditional way over 50, or even 40 and some as young as 20!

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(reply to a reply by zafrogzen to my comment above)

there's huge decrements in cardiovascular health as one gets older, once you get over 60 i think 50% of the population starts to microstroke in the brain

the other problem is we don't do much physical activity daily now

the advantage of lying down or slouching on or over a chair is your attention is not being spent on holding a position and you are not having to deal with too much discomfort

if you are concious of having to concentrate and thoughts do not flow free and naturally, something is quite wrong, but hey zen is full of life wasting their time wrecks ! ;o)

formal zazen is just a stage you go through, mainly because the teachers are so ignorant they don't know any better, the way zazen is taught as some sort of lifetime answer is quite wrong

zazen is an introduction to a type of solitary or recursive thinking, it's just an introduction to a lifelong process

it's nothing to do with posture and everything to do with the mutation of ourselves and lives via the recursion and reflection that occurs

how can a seating postion have priority over a recusive and relfective/reflexive process?

  it's  the traditionally made  wine,  omegas 3's in fish,  olive oil?  and herbs?

3  glasses a day is alot tho,  better to  evaporate  the alcohol off  !

the problem with the net is the entanglement of people you don't know and never will !

the problem with the net is the entanglement of people you don't know and never will

v2r1                    v2r2

the problem with the net is the entanglement of people

v1r1                    v1r2

it is  known  that raw goat's milk has the potential to carry toxoplasmosis

  audio

the human adult is like a block of granite,  that knocking the tiniest chips off causes untold grief and suffering

:

o

)

(

the

human

adult

is

like

a

block

of

granite,

that

the

tiniest

chips

knocked

off

cause

untold

grief

and

suffering

:

o

(

the human adult is like a block of granite,  that the tiniest chips off  cause untold grief and suffering

  audio

the   press/media   are   madmen !

the press are madmen !

the press are madmen

  audio

everything is back to front because it usually is !

everything is back to front because it usually is

  v2

everything is back to front cause it usually is !

everything is back to front cause it usually is

v1r1                             v1r2

the fluidity of meaning, as fluidity,  is the correct expression of insufficiency

:

o

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)

the fluidity of meaning,  as fluidity,  is the correct expression of insufficiency

:

o

(

)

the fluidity of meaning,  as fluidity,  is the correct expression of insufficiency

v2

the fluidity of meaning,  as fluidity,  is  a  correct expression of insufficiency

v1r1                            v1r1.5

v1r2

is

dogen

  garbage?

dogen

is

garbage,

dogen

is

  garbage !

 r1.5

 is dogen garbage?

dogen is garbage,

 dogen is garbage !

 r1

is dogen garbage?   dogen is garbage,   dogen is garbage !

r1

meaning  is  insufficient

audio

some old  buddhism

  a bit before the sixth patriarch i think :o)

  “ throughout the centuries, people have  explained

the rainbow in various ways ”

r1              r2

 well rays of light dawn even with me : o)

adam  tebbe, your approach is so typical, well actually de rigueur of all these zen and advaita fakes, that is  you yack endlessly  “about”,   but never actually do anything  real  like in this case i am censored !

zen has this huge issue  with being a celibate tradition,  that is you can do things without dependants  (co-dependants lol)  that are imposssible and not wise  for people with dependants and relationships  to engage in !

the real backward step for you is to put the continued survival of sweeping zen on the line by permitting comments like mine which rightly undercut the reality (unreality!) of current zen !

most likely subscriptions would collapse as the  “real”  zen is far too hard for those who claim to do it !

so you are in some sort of  no-man's land ,  am there myself, so it's not like i am criticizing the material failure of what you do, rather it's this divide between what it's actually necessary to do and the inane and half minded yakking about  “what to do”   that occurs

noticing we are going around in circles is an important part of getting out of this :o)

my last or first  word  on the subject : o)

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i posted the above as link in his comments section, not asking him to post it, just read it, you are me i guess :o)

soporific  or  sophorific?

i

think

i

prefer

sophorific

as

more

   onomatopoeic : 0 )

:

o

)

(

soporific  or  sophorific?

i

think

i

prefer

sophorific

as

more

onomatopoeic : o)

:

o

)

(

soporific  or  sophorific?

i

think

i

prefer

sophorific

as

more

onomatopoeic : o)

:

o

)

humans do  this  to other humans all the time, just not physically !

when jeff foster says  the deepest acceptance,

i think he means  of his fake persona !

when jeff foster says  “the deepest acceptance”

i think he means of his fake persona

audio

an image of the moon, just so insubstantial

:

o

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)

v3r1

v3r2

an image of the moon, just so insubstantial

v2r1              v2r2

an image of the moon, just so insubstantial

:

o

)

(

  v1