inconvenient to clean up
its a japanese custom to smash a valued piece of pottery owned by the mother when the daughter leaves home?
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i wanted to smash them all
scary
i try not to be self destructive or destructive of others but when damage occurs you can't keep the collateral damage under too tight a reign
how intensely personal one's grief is, cuts no ice with others
do i have to hurt so much for ever?
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the lesson of breaking the plate
its not anything symbolic, but if you break something you lose the use of it, its inconvenient and bother to clean up
in the end i am minus a useful plate and will have to replace it