i worry that my work may not fit the criteria for the nobel prize for literature
or maybe not so deep!
it really boils down to this work having an idealistic nature
which in fact it does
because it's voluntary
it is in fact a category breaking idealism
that of infinity pursued
untrammelled by worldly realities
money
family
fame
category breaking is really like a joker
it can be nominated
to be anything
to be fair to the nobel committee
they occasionally give very deserving awards
and its not easy for writers in non-english languages
their main weakness is the way commercial success is basically a criteria
tho they have given it very occasionally without a real commercial backdrop
i know the value of what i write but no-one else does
i can actually see it all disappearing with me when i die
its going to disappear when i die i know
sad and not sad
its value is what it is
and wether it persists or not
that doesn't change