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KURT COBAIN!!
Dear Boddah:
A Tribute to Kurt Cobain
"I chose to do drugs. I don't feel sorry for myself at all, but have nothing good to say about them. They are a total waste of time!" -Kurdt Kobain on drugs
Birth Name: Kurt Donald Cobain
Born: Februaury 20, 1967 in Aberdeen, WA
Parents:Mom-Wendy Cobain (waitress)
Dad-Donald Cobain(mechanic)
Kurt Donald Cobain was the leader of Nirvana, the multiplatinum grunge band that redefined the sound of the nineties.
The whole show business was extremely hard for the really sensitive and vulnerable, insecure Kurt.
He produced two more albums after "nevermind" called "Insecticide," and "In Utero."
All during this time he had marryed Hole musician, Courtney Love, had a baby, Frances and become and heavy drug user and had been in and out of rehab centers a few times. He was mainly into heroine to cope with the stress, and to help his stomache ulcers.
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On March the 4th Cobain was rushed to hospital in a coma after what has been labeled an unsuccessful suicide bid in which he washed down about fifty prescrption painkillers with champagne. It was officially called an accident
On April 5th, 1994, Kurt Cobain put a gun to his head. On April 7th, a workman discovered his body.
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| kurt with money |
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| i need money |
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| i hate myself and want to die |
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| kurt with a stupid gun:( |
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| but he was so sexy here |
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| look at that face |
| courtney with kurt when he attempted suicide |
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| he was even sexy in a dress |
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| kurt with courtney and frances |
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| they looked so good together |
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| this is my fav pic of them |
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| good pic of kurt with frances |
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| cobain family at the awards |
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| courtney and kurt with wendy |
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| kurt with his mom and dad |
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Cobain was a happy child, always smiling, not being able to wait till the next day. But then matters were made worse when Cobain's parent's divorced when he was seven. Cobain later said he never felt loved or secure after that.. He became difficult, anti-social and withdrawn after his parent's divorce. Cobain also said that his parent's traumatic split fueled a lot of the anguish in Nirvana's music
After his parent's divorce Cobain found himself shuttled back and forth between various relatives and at one stage homeless living under a bridge.
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Now, there are a lot of theories about his death. I will tell you what some of them are.
He was supposed to be at his huge home (which he felt he didn't deserve) but when the electrician couldn't get in, he looked in the windows to find Kurt dead with blood in his ear.
Millions of people came to his concerts and he felt like he didn't appriciate it enough. Some say that's why he killed himself.
This theory is explained in the movie, Kurt and Courtney. Some people believe that Courtney Love had a man kill him for her, El Douche. He says that she offered him $5,000 to kill him, and once he said this to the public, he was killed a week later.(but this guy was fucking crazy so i wouldnt bielive any thing he sayed)
He once said his reasons for wanting to die was a combination of stress, burnout and not wanting his daughter to grow up with a heroin-adicted father around.
5,000 people went to Seatle to morn his death. That was the end of an insecure, kind, inspirational man, Kurt Donald Cobain.
To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, the ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury, who seem to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd, which is somehting I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know! I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miseraable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody, baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out then to fade away. Peace, Love, Empathy. Kurt Cobain.
Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar
Please keep going Courtney,
for Frances.
for her life will be so much happier
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