First day of my life I feel like I'm stoned, I wanna be alone. Just for a while unknown. Weeks on a road a long way from home. just shut off the phone And you say, I'll heal you. I'll always be yours. And you say, I kill you. If I do something wrong. Still feels like the first time, to stand here by your side. Together regardless. We walk through the darkness. Still feels like the first day of my life. Remember the times, together we swore. To never give up this life. Still hanging on, still going strong, here I belong. And maybe, I'm crazy. But I just can't slow down. Yeah maybe I'm crazy but at least I'm still around, yeah, yeah. In The Shadows No sleep, no sleep until I'm done with finding the answer. Won't stop, won't stop before I find the cure for this cancer. And sometimes I feel like going down and so disconnected. But somehow I know that I'm haunted to be wanted. I've been watching, I've been waiting, in the shadows, for my time. I've been searching, I've been living, for tomorrows, all my life. They say.. that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe. But I... I'd rather kill myself than turn into their safe.. And sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder. Cause somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder. Lately I've been walking, walking in circles. Watching, waiting for something. Feel me, touch me, heal me, come take me higher... Still Stading I wish you were here tonight with me to see the northern lights. I wish you were here tonight with me. I wish I could have you by my side tonight when the sky is burning. I wish I could have you by my side. Cause I've been down and I've been crawling. Won't back down no more. Can't you stop the lies falling from the skies. Down on me, I'm still standing. Can't you roll the dice, I might be surprised. Conscience clear I'm still standing here. Burns like a thousand stars, though you're light years away. Burns like a thousand stars or more. You're up there, you're always with me. Smiling down on me. It's something sacred, something so beautiful. Something quiet to ease my mind. When the pressure's taking me over and over. Cause I've been down and I've been crawling. Pushed around, always falling. You're up there, you're always with me. Smiling down on me. Time to burn Fear of the dark tears me apart. Won't leave me alone and time keeps running out. Just one more life, I'm so sick and tired of singing the blues, I should turn my life around. Tell me why do I feel this way. All my life I've been standing on the borderline. Too many bridges burned. Too many lies I've heard. I had a life but I can't go back. I can't do that, it will never be the same again. And I know I don't have any time to burn. They follow me home, disturbing my sleep. But I'll find a place, place where they cannot find me. Maybe I'm lost, and maybe I'm scared. But too many times I've closed the doors behind me. Leave it all behind. Cross the borderline. Face the truth, don't have any time to... Don't have any time to burn. Guilty I feel guilty. My words are empty. No signs to give you. I don't have the time for you. You say I'm heartless. And you say I don't care. I used to be there for you. And you've said I seem so dead, that I have changed. But so have you. Guilty, guilty I feel so Empty, empty you know how to make me feel. I put a shield upon you. I didn't mean to hurt you. You used to be there for me. So don't you leave say goodbye. Cause you have changed but so have I. I never thought that the time and the distance. Between us made you so much colder. I'll carry the world on my shoulders Not Like the Other Girls No more blame I am destined to keep you sane. Gotta rescue the flame. Gotta rescue the flame in your heart. No more blood, I will be there for you my love. I will stand by your side. The world has forsaken my girl. I should have seen it would be this way. I should have known from the start what she's up to. When you loved and you've lost someone. You know what it feels like to lose. She's fading away, away from this world. Drifting like a feather she's not like the other girls. She lives in the clouds she talks to the birds. Hopeless little one she's not like the other girls I know. No more shame, she has felt too much pain, in her life. In her mind she's repeating the words. All the love you put out will return to you. The One i Love Haven't slept in a week. My bed has become my coffin. Cannot breath, cannot speak. My head's like a bomb, still waiting. Take my heart and take my soul. I don't need them anymore. The one I love is striking me down on my knees. Drowning me in my dreams. Over and over again. Dragging me under. Hypnoticed by the night. Silently rising beside me. Emptiness, nothingless is burning a hole inside me. Take my faith and take my pride. I don't need them anymore. This bed has become my chapel of stone. A garden of darkness to where I'm thrown. So take my life, I don't need it anymore. Back in the Picture There were times in my life I was down on my knees, now it's over. Deep inside my heart I know. Simply put I've been stabbed in the back ever since I remember. Deep inside it hurt to let go. I'm back in the picture. I wonder what took so long, so long. Dedicate everything I create to my friends I would die for. But you will always be the one. Memories that you can't overrun, memories I could cry for. I thought I'd always be on the run. Funeral Song I dumped you again. I don't understand. It's happened before. Can't take it no more. These foolish games. Always end up in confusion. I'll take you back just to leave you once again. I died in my dreams. What's that supposed to mean? Got lost in the fire. I died in my dreams. Reaching out for your hand my fatal desire. I've failed you again. 'Cause I let you stay. I used to pretend that I felt OK. Just one big lie. Such a perfect illusion. I made you mine. Just to hurt you once again.