I donít own these characters they belong to 4Kids, Nintendo, and gamefreak. I am just borrowing them for my own twisted amusement I am not making any money off of this please donít sue me though if you ever read this you probably would but itíd only serve to embarrass us both cause I have no money.
Notes: This was inspired by Insomnia. I should warn you this has slash in it and is probably the only conventional Pokemon couple Iíll ever write. Hey as far as slash couples go this one is the norm in allot of Pokemon slash fics.
Surrender in the Dark Time
Ash turned over to stare at the clock on his bedside table. "1:00 AM great." He said softly to himself as he glanced over at Pikachu who was sleeping in the costume Pokemon bed designed by Brock. ĎUsed to be,í he thought sadly. ĎWhen I couldnít sleep Pikachu would sit up with me but itís been along time since he can go without a full nights sleep.í That thought saddened him he loved all his Pokemon dearly but Pikachu had always held a special place in his heart. Shaking that thought away both Brock and Professor Sketchit had said that pikachu still had a few years left if he took it easy and avoided battling so it wasnít time to start preparing for good bye yet. ĎBut it wonít be any easier when it is time.í He thought sadly and decided he needed to do something and quietly got out of bed.
Glancing around the room he smiled fondly. Even though this house was much larger than his old one, it still looked the same his mom ever practical had insisted they not buy all new furniture since the old stuff was still in great shape. He turned to look out the window and made a decision. ĎIíll go out and look at the stars.í He quickly shed his pajama bottoms and dressed in jeans and a T-shirt. Padding barefoot down the stairs grabbing his hat as he went once downstairs he laced up a pair of hiking boots and pulled on the leather jacket Misty had given him for his eighteenth birthday. Writing a quick note for his mother and grabbing one pokeball off the shelf just in case even though Pallet was less wild now there were still occasional wild Pokemon attacks. ĎBest to be prepared.í He thought as he closed and locked the front door behind him.
He glanced up at the moon as he turned off down a street some impulse making him long to see his childhood home again. ĎGuess I just need to see how itís changed now that we are gone.í He thought with a bit of nostagolic longing. He finally reached it and frowned to see it had been painted some hideous yellow color. ĎI guess the old saying is true you canít go home again.í He sighed at that thought. ĎI donít really have a home.í He thought sadly all his friends had homes.
Misty was currently living with a lawyer who had recently asked her to marry him. ĎShe certainly was happy when she called to tell me about it.í He thought with an affectionate smile. He knew Misty was looking forward to being an honest woman finally after a few disastrous boyfriends she had finally found the one she wanted to spend her life with.
He still remembered the time she said to him over one two many beers. "I canít believe Brock got married first I thought heíd be a bachelor forever." Privately Ash had agreed and Brockís wife of three years wasnít what heíd have pictured Brock settling down with. She wasnít any great beauty in fact she was rather plain. ĎBut the first time I talked to her I saw what he saw.í He smiled remembering the bold and yet still pleasant woman who had such a kind heart.
He felt an ache in his chest. ĎThey have homes I just have a place I stay when I come to visit mom.í He didnít know why that made him so sad after all heíd chosen this life. ĎThere have been plenty of offers to settle down but I just canít I have to be out there living the life Iíve chosen but I donít want to be alone anymore.í He thought sadly but he didnít know if he would ever find someone to share it with.
He noticed absent mindedly that he was heading down a familiar path that leads to the river. ĎThe place I always ran when I was little and needed to get away from it all.í Ash thought with the by now familiar mixture of longing and fond memories. He paused as he saw someone sitting on the rocks. He was about to turn back when a Houndoom raised itís head to look at him warily and made a soft growl to alert itís master.
Ash wasnít really surprised to see Gary Oak turn to face him. ĎAll us kids played here declaring we would be Pokemon masters someday.í He smiled at the memory. ĎItís fitting the only two that made it meet up here tonight.í He thought with wry amusement. He saw Gary watching him impassively. "So you couldnít sleep either?"
Gary turned to look back over the water. "Iím going to be an uncle May found out tonight sheís going to be a mother." He saw Ash start. "Try to act surprised when she calls tomorrow sheíd kill me if she knew I told you." He glanced out over the water. "So tell me Ash do you believe in fate?"
Ash paused and stared Gary normally insulted him or at most was only mildly civil that question had come totally out of left field. "I donít know sometimes I suppose I do and other times I donít." He said calmly wondering what had brought that question up.
"I mean I set there watching my parents hug her and tell her sheíll be a great mother and it just hit me Iím alone." he turned to regard Ash. "I mean you were lucky you had friends on your journey I had an entourage." He sighed. "I was an idiot I even pushed them away to travel alone after I lost thinking they were a distraction." He gestured toward the bank beside him.
"It worked your one of the greatest trainers alive." Ash said taking Gary up on the invitation to sit down. He felt the slightly damp grass threw his jeans but decided against complaining. "I mean your the only trainer who beats me fifty percent of the time." He expected the old bravado to resurface to see his rival again but only he got was a sad look.
"Iím tired of it Ash not the Pokemon training but the constant loneliness." He said with a hitch in his throat. "When my Umbreon died I lost my best friend in the world." He leaned a hand down to stroke the head of the Houndoom at his feet. "If it wasnít for Leopold here Iíd probably have given up on training and gone into research sooner."
Ash was frozen. "Your giving up on training?" He winced it sounded like an accusation but he was off balance Gary had voiced the same concerns he had. "I mean why your to good a trainer to give it up."
Gary smiled slightly. "Thatís what Iím sitting here thinking about thinking maybe I can find a place for myself there." He paused and glanced out over the water. "You want to know whatís really pathetic I donít want to fight anymore I always loved our arguments cause someone noticed me."
"People notice you all the time." Ash said seeing Gary shake his head no. "Oh so those girls at the matches wearing holding the signs saying I want to have your baby Gary Oak donít notice you." He watched the other man choke out a bitter laugh.
"They donít see me as a person Iím a sex symbol same as you no one really notices you either." He glanced at Ash and didnít say anything more just stared. "Why are you out here Ash?"
"Iím looking for home." Ash said without the slightest hesitation even though it did sound rather strange to hear himself. "I just noticed tonight I donít have a home; I mean all I have are places I visit." He met Garyís eyes and saw understanding and a similar feeling. "But youíd know all about that wouldnít you since you were just talking about it?" He saw Gary smile slightly.
Ash felt a rather strange impulse to kiss the other man whoís features were only barely visible in the fading moonlight as the moon moved beyond the trees. Normally such an impulse would have been rejected out of hand but in these dark times before dawn it seemed completely natural. He hesitantly placed his lips against Garyís and then pulled back quickly. He braced himself for a blow that never came the look on Garyís face was intense but not angry.
Ash opened his mouth to explain to find some excuse for his lapse but before he could Gary leaned in and placed a firm but gentle kiss on his lips. Ash lost it then he didnít care what the morning brought he just wanted some connection for the night a home if even for one night. He felt his back hitting the grass and a solid weight settling over him. Gary pulled back and looked down at him with longing filling his eyes. Ash felt all self control slip away as he pulled the other man back down for another kiss.
Ash fumbled with the other manís clothing and his own it was far from graceful nor was it very long but it accomplished what it needed to it allowed them to release their burdens and take comfort in each other. "Hey Gary in answer to your question earlier." Ash said as he felt the other manís cheek pressed against his bare chest. "After this I do believe in fate." His only answer was a contented sigh from the other man and soon he too was drifting off to sleep.
Ash woke up to someone shaking him he looked up to find Gary half dressed pointing at the blue sky. "Hurry up and get dressed Ash this isnít exactly a private room." He shook his head. "Houndoom has been chasing folks off but they will come looking for the wild Pokemon eventually."
The previous night came back to him in a flash and he hurried to dress. "Hey Gary um about last night shouldnít we like talk or something?" He saw Gary stiffen and suddenly felt uncomfortable at the unreadable look in Garyís eyes.
"It didnít mean anything we were just lonely." Gary said calmly. "We just wonít talk about it." With that he whistled for Houndoom and headed off at a trot. Ash watched him go wondering why he suddenly felt so alone again.
Delia Ketchum watched her son arrive with a sad look on his face that failed to brighten when Pikachu came bounding up to him. She watched him excuse himself to take a shower and saw the crest fallen expression on the little rodent. "Donít worry Pikachu heís just tired he was out all night after all." She saw the little rodent brighten.
Ash stood in the spray feeling the water flowing down his back. ĎHow dare he decide for me.í He thought angrily and then mellowed briefly. ĎWhy the hell am I so worked up over something that should never have happened in the first place.í He thought darkly. He leaned his head against the cool tiles and sighed memories of the night flitting threw his mind. ĎItís not what he would have expected after waiting so long but it had been good.í Ash stood upright and got water in his eyes shaking his head he grabbed the rag and wiped them out. Once the stinging subsided he repeated his last thought to himself. ĎI have wanted it for years he realized every time they went up against each other they had danced around it.í
"A dance that would have gone on if it wasnít so dark and both of us so lonely." He thought back on the years how once the bitterness of their childhood rivalry had faded they had formed an almost friendship that was made up entirely out of arguments. ĎWhat did he say I noticed him as a person just like he noticed me.í
Ash jumped out of the shower switching off the water. ĎI need to talk to him.í He thought it didnít matter rather Gary believed it was a mistake or not he needed to talk it out for his own reasons. Dressing quickly in the same clothes heíd discarded he ran down the stairs. "Pikachu lets go Mom Iíll be back soon I need to talk to someone." He saw her nod slightly in shock as he scooped up Pikachu and was out the door.
He arrived at the Oak residence to learn from a flustered May that Gary had been in that morning and packed. He congratulated her as he was running out the door in the direction she indicated not even remembering that she hadnít told him yet.
He finally caught up with Gary outside of town the other man was leaning against an Oak tree watching him approach. "Couldnít you have picked a spot closer to town to stop?" Ash asked watching Gary flinch. "We need to talk."
Gary nodded he could tell from Ashís tone it wasnít a question. "Alright Iíll start Ash why did you follow me out here?" He asked it in a quiet voice something in it that Ash thought sounded either like hope or dread or maybe even both.
"I donít know." Ash said calmly. "I just know I need to talk about what happened I mean weíve been dancing around it for years." He noticed Gary gave no retort. Ash fumbled last night it had been so much easier to talk. ĎCause it was dark and no daylight to make it real.í He thought and then had the answer. "So now in daylight Iím asking you are we going to keep dancing the same old thing or are we going to change the dance."
Gary answered him with a surprisingly cool tone. "Are you trying to say you think we are in love after one night?" He said knowing even Ash could read the sarcasm in that one.
"No but Iím saying in the light of day I want to give it a shot." Ash said calmly. "I donít know if itíll work or itís the worst mistake of our lives." He paused. "But I know I want to see if my home is with you or not." He was shocked when Gary kissed him.
Pikachu screeched in shock until Leopold the Houndoom that had been behind the tree explained it all to him. "Pika kachu" the little rodent said meaning he had a headache.
I know what your yelling thatís the end it didnít even say if they will work out or not. thatís cause this is Part one of a Trilogy. The next part will deal with their beginning Relationship and immediate families reactions and part three will show Misty and Brockís reactions. I just wanted a definate Ending place so if I get writers block and it takes me awhile to get the other parts of the trilogy out that it wonít be along wait for new parts. This can stand as the ending and leave it up to you if they work out or not in your head while waiting for the next parts.