Do your thoughts upon me dwell
As much as mine on you?
Wishing you could see in my sight
Do as I would do.

When I'm in the shower
And when the sun is sear
Anywhere my thoughts alight
There thoughts of you appear.

When I'm lying here in bed
When I fold the clothes
Walking down a midnoon street
When the door is closed.

Anywhere I think of you
There I appear as well
My sight should appear as yours
In truth, a harder sell.
                    RDa 070900

later. . . 
Life really suck sometimes.  I can't kill myslef, cause I'm not liek that.  I can't cheat on him cause I'm not like that.  I think it might be easier sometimes if I was that kind of person.  Maybe then I could calm myself down.  I'm on a hormonal rollercoaster.  My body is telling me it's time to have another baby.  It's trying to make me get ready for another.  When I have sex, I need more.  That's when I'm not too depressed to do it, cause I know it won't do any good.

I need more room, more sex, more baby stuff, less food, more sleep and more exercise.  If I didn't know better (and I do) I'd wonder if I wasn't already.  I have a couple people asking if I am.  I do have this IUD in and I've had my period.  If our bills weren't as bad as they are right now, if we weren't just starting to get things under control, I'd go ahead and do it.