Thursday
4 May 2000 |
Reading: Fire Watch - Connie Willis
Listening: white noise Thinking: chaos theory and time/space differentials (yes i really am a geek, i enjoy it) Drinking: hot white mocha, made me sick tho Ok-o-meter: 6 Quote for the day: You can blow out a candle, but you can't blow out a fire/Once the flame begins to catch the wind will blow it higher. - Peter Gabriel Weather report: sunny with clouds coming in. The dream last night started with me in some sort of store. I was looking at buying a vacuum cleaner and the lady demonstrating the machine for me was blonde and she was wearing a suit. She gave me something that looked like a lightswitch plate, and I had to go somewhere with it. I decided to stop by the store first to get something to eat, since I was on my lunchbreak. I drove there (I don't have my driver's license in real life). As I enter the automatic doors, I see a promo going on with the local radio station. A booth is set up and in the booth is my old friend Raymond. He is acting the DJ and I duck past him with my head down, hoping he doesn't see me. He sees me but isn't sure if it's me and he clears his throat to draw attention. I don't look at him. I'm nothing like I was and I'm fat and he hasn't talked to me in so long. I do some shopping, a bunch of things I don't need, raffia and lightswitch plates, bric a brac and not the food I actually came for. I finally look up at the clock and it's almost the end of my lunch break. I wasted time and didn't get food like I came here for in the first place and I still needed to deliver the object wherever I need to. I throw the bric a brac back on the shelf and go to leave and Raymond says my name. I think about just ducking out
but I turn back around and set my arms on the low wall of the booth.
We say hi and how have you been. He goes to touch my arm and I pull
away. He cocks his head as if to say what's wrong, I just shrug.
We're talking about banalities and some other guy is standing there behind
me and says hi and I wake up while still talking about nothing and missing
him. If I let him touch me I'd hug him and I wouldn't go back to
work and I'd spend the day catching up and I miss him.
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