Thoughts
Rating-G
Author- Makoto-chan (But call me Mako-chan ^_^)
Author's notes-  This fanfic is kinda depressing.  I was in a depressing 
mood after reading "That's What it Took" by JHorizon77  It's excellent and 
I recommend you read it.  And I'd like to give a special thanks to Usako 
3000 for reading my stories and giving her opinion.  It helps a lot!   
Anywayz... Please send any flames, or comments to 
SailorChibiMoon3@hotmail.com  Oh and tell me what you think of the poems at 
the bottom.  Ja ne!!
Disclaimer-  Sailor Moon is not mine.

"Life's just a bed of rose,
Complete with thorns."
-Setsuna (Sara)-

@)---,-'---
In a small house somewhere in Japan...

Serena stretched her body out over her bed, wiping her tears from her eyes 
and remember the way it once had been.  When Darien had held her and 
whispered, "I Love You." in her ear.  But now those days were gone.  Lost
in the wind never to return.  She didn't even know why?  Why did he 
leave??  Was she too clumsy?  Or maybe she was too much of a baby?  Was it 
because he didn't like her hair?  Why?  Did he not like the age difference?
Or had her dad finally yelled at him once too often?  What ever the reason 
Serena was sure she could change if he'd just tell her.  For Darien she'd 
gladly chop off every inch of her majestic golden hair or study every 
waking hour until the end of time if he would come back to her.  She would 
learn to be more graceful and she'd stop whining and bickering if only he'd 
come back to her. 
	Serena rolled over again now face down in her pillow letting her 
tears disappear into the fabric.  How she wished he'd just tell her what 
was wrong so they could be together again.  She just wanted to be with
him no matter the price.  She'd gladly pay her life just to spent an hour 
in his arms...  'What should I do?' she asked herself as a new wave of 
sobs tore through her.

@)---,-'---
Across town....

Darien walked out onto his balcony and leaned against the railing.  He held
back his tears not allowing them to fall.  God how this was killing him...  
How he just wanted to run over to Serena's and gather her up in his 
arms and never let her go.  But he couldn't...  He had to stay away so she
could live and be happy.  Darien would do anything to see her happy even if 
it meant he had to give up his own happiness he would gladly pay the price.
	Darien turned and re-entered his apartment with tears still 
threatening to fall.  Was he doing the right thing?  Maybe this dream was 
just a trick?  But... did he really want to take the chance?  COULD he take
the chance?  He would gladly trade his life for hers.  She was his world, 
his heaven and his earth.  It tore at the depths of his soul shunning her 
like this but it was for her own good.  'Yes, for her own good...' he 
reminded himself as his tears did finally slide down his face.



I cry myself to sleep,
Each night I spend dreaming
Of you and your warmth.
The warmth that I no longer feel.
For you have left me all alone,
With no one but myself 
And bitter loneliness.



Slick tears stream down my face
Falling slowly to the floor.
Falling for what I have lost
When you walked away from me.
I lost your warm smile
As well as your cheery laugh
Your sweet voice 
And bright beautiful eyes.
I miss the way you could,
Light up a room with just a wink
Or make the dark days vanish 
With just a soft kiss.
But what I miss most
That can never be equaled
Is your Love.