Heys Peeps. I know this has not been out in a LONG time but I finally got time to do another part. I am really sorry about hte time this took and hope you can still find that bit of X-mas spirit in you to read on. I love this story, I just don't have much timed to write in it. I'd like to thank all the people who have writen with the compliments, complaints, and suggestions. I hope you all get what your looking for. I also now have a homepage so feel free to visit it a www.geocities.com/TimesSquare/Cavern/2924 PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do see it. It's still not done but Its pretty good. I am also looking for stories to put on it so if you have any, send them to me. Now on with the story! MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS Finding Christmas Love Part 5 Rated G Serena walked proudly away from the stunned scouts. They hadn't a clue to what had just happened. When Serena was out of sight she detransformed. She was happy that her hair went back to being brown. Explaining her change of hair color would have been tough with Darien and someone might of recognized her. She walked back to the apartment to get on with her studies and make dinner. She wondered why Tuxedo Mask wasn't there but didn't worry about it. Only she didn't know that the masked hero was lurking in the background. Darien had felt that he was needed and rushed to see what was up. What he saw was amazing. Sailor Moon came and saved the scouts and then starting to give them a speech. He got closer to hear her exact words..."... You taunted me, teased me and ridiculed my flaws to no end and I come back to find you all fallen? This is quite interesting. All of the people who thought that they were better than me would be dead without me?" 'What?' Tuxedo Mask watched curiously as the discussion continued. He figured out that Sailor Moon had been missing and now the scouts were mad. Sailor Moon seemed to be having the same problems as Serena. After the Scouts finished , Darien followed Sailor moon in Tuxedo Mask form. What he saw surprised him. Sailor Moon detransformed into a brown haired girl. She had medium legnth hair and the strangest aqua eyes. 'Sere?' he thought? 'Impossible!' He followed the small girl back to his apartment and detransformed. He walked casually up to his door and walked in to find Serena wrking on dinner. He smirked as he noticed the exhaustion she was trying to hide. He gave her a warm hug and started the normal conversation. "How was your day?" Serena started on what she learned and about oing to the mall. Darien watched her eyes. SHe never flinched, never stumbled, a natural born actress. Serena had been living with Darien for two weeks. She had found a way to fight and him not notice, or so she thought. Tuxedo Mask still came to her rescue but he had a new twinkle in his eyes.Darien was trying to decide whether he should share his secret with Serena or not. 'It's only fair,' he thought as he walked home from a fight, careful to take a different route than Serena. He walked slowly up the stairs and into his apartment to find the common sight of Serena trying her hardest to look energetic after a battle. 'It'd be cruel of me to keep making her do this charade,' he thought to himself. He walked up to Serena and gave her a big hug and small kiss. Shivers ran up and down her spine as Darien kissed her lips softly. 'Oh, I could stay in his arms forever,' Serena thought to herself as the two reluctantly parted. "Sere, I know that you've been keeping a secret and I understand that. I respect your privacy but I must confess that I know about your little charade." Darien said as he leaned against the counter looking at a very stunned girl. She barely flinched and only her natural blue eyes gave away her true feels of astonishment, surprise, and fear. Darien could almost see the wheels turning in her head as she tried to quickly think of a response. "Darien, I have no idea what you are talking about," she said evenly. "I have simply been here all day, everyday doing house work and studying . I go to the mall and arcade every once in the while but other than that, a very dull life." 'What am I going to do? What am I going to do? He's figuring this out. I can't let him figure this out. NO ONE'S SUPPOSE TO KNOW!!!!!!!! I am so confused. How am I going to be able to keep this up. If he's catching on, it won't be long before he figures out that I am Sailor Moon. He's safer if he doesn't know. He'll try to help, I know he will. I can't put him in danger like that. If I need to get away from him to keep him safe, atleast until we find the Moon Princess and I can take a break from being a scout. Once we find the princess, I'm out. She'll take over nad i'll be free, but I can't put Darien in danger like that. I will live on the streets if I have to. I will do anything as long as he's safe. I have to keep him out of this.' Darien watched Serena thinking. "Listen Sere, I know who you are and I have to tell you some- thing..." Serena cut in, "No, dare, you don't know anything. I am a normal girl. You have nothing to do with anything else, I have nothing to do with anything else. Understand?" She yelled at him in desperation. Darien looked at Serena in complete shock. His mouth hit the ground. Tears slid down her face. "Do you understand?" She asked more calmly now. Her voice was flat, all hope lost. A small hint of despration was in her plea and utter fear reigned over her words. Darien tried to explain again but she cut him off again. "No Darien. Do you understand or not?" Darien gave in. He would explain later. Atleast now she would hopefully stop trying to always look so energetic after a fight. "I understand, Sere." She nodded and went to her room. Darien watched his beautiful angel lock herelf in her room. He could kicked himself for not getting the truth out. She needed to hear the truth. He loved her and would always stand beside her. He stood beside her at every fight as Tuxedo Mask and would help her with every challenge as just plain old Darien. Tears trickled down his face. He cried for the first time in longer than he could remember. He stared at the door to Serena's room for a moment longer than reluctantly turned to the dishes waiting to be done. Indised her room, Serena was crying into her pillow. 'He can't know, he can't' her mind screamed but the truth was sitting very visible. He knew. It may not be the whole truth but hte young heroine didn't know that. All she knew was that she was putting the one she loved the most in danger. She looked arounder her pink room. She had wroked hard to bring life to it in Darien's dull apartment but now, even the bright walls seemed to fade in her misery. She couldn't continue to put him in danger. It was wrong of her from the start. Serena slowly and shakily stood up beside her bed. She pulled out her duffel bag and back pack which she stuffed with clothes. She had money that she was saving for a vacation with Darien when he got out of school. She was doing very well with the loose change she earned doing odd jobs for neighbors. She had earned over two hundred dollars which she stuffed into her backpack with the clothes. She waited patiently until Darien was asleep and she went and got ehr toothbrush, tooth paste, and hair brush out of the bathroom. She stopped by the cabinets and got some apples, and cookies for some food. The last thing she did before leaving was right Darien a letter. This is what it said: Dearest Darien, You have been a god sent to me for the past two weeks. You have housed me, held me, and kept me sade. I have grown to love you in more ways than one. You are my best friend, my companion and sometimes I wish more. You are all I have left. I would trust you with my life but you have found the one secret you shouldn't of found out. Yes, I am Sailor Moon. Since you know this I can no longer stay with you. You were in enough danger from the start but this is just too much. I can't put you in the danger you would be in if I stayed, especially if you lived up to your personality and tried to help out. I hope that one day it may be different. if the scouts find the Moon Princess I might have the luxury of quiting but right now I don't. The scouts may be cruel, and men, and never let me be but they are my friends and they need me. I can't let them down and I can't let you down either. This is the only way I can find that is best for both parties. Don't come looking for me or I'll hide even more. Don't try to help me or I will not speak to you. Don't try to find the other scouts or I will have them ignore you. I am their leader, like it or not and I must perform my duty for the people of Tokyo. Please understand this and never forget ther I LOVE YOU. I love you with all my heart and will never forget you, even if you forget me. You were my rock, my redeemer, but now, I must stand on my own. Thank you. Thank you for everything. Forever Your Love, Serena When she finished her note out it in an envelope and left it on the table. She silently crept out of the window as she had done since she discovered she was Sailor Moon. The she was gone. The next morning Darien woke up to go and try to explain who he was to Sere again. He knocked softly on her door but got no answer. He tried a little harder but still nothing. He figured she was asleep and went and filled a jug half way with water. He tiptoed onto his beloved's room and slowly pulled back the covers. No one was there. He dropped the jug of water on the ground and searched the room. There was no sign of her. Her closet was almost empty and drawers bare. I panick rose in his throat as he searched the room in shear terror. Then he searched the apartment only to find a letter on soft pink stationary. He read the letter and his eyes filled with tears. She was gone and it was his fault but he saw something else too. He saw a strong confident woman peeking out. He saw a new maturity in the delicate handwriting. He smiled for a moment, proud of what Serena had become, of what she would still be. Then the smiled left as he grabbed his jacket and ran out the door. 'I will find you my love, I will find you.' His dtermination became fierce as he left leaving a tear stained letter on the table. Two people's tears had been shed on the delicate paper and now two sould were ready to face the world. MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS*MERRY*CHRISTMAS This would almost be a good ending for the whole thing but ts not. Too many unresolves. I am soooooo sorrry this has taken so long. I hope to be able to pick back up on it now but no promises. I have no idea how much longer this will be but hopefully it won't be too much longer. Remember to check out my homepage at www.geocities.com/TimesSquare/Cavern/2924 Thanx MAS