Dear Reader's: I know your probably thinking it took me long enough, but yes part two is finally here. Thanks everyone who e-mailed me and Mina, disclaimer is at the bottom. The poem below is MINE all MINE I wrote it and no you can't copy it. The author, Shalom Secret Smiles They are sent in small packages invisible little packages with big bows They're the smiles you can hear and even feel over the phone They're those smiles that every once in a while creep over a tear stained face they're genuine smiles that make you want to laugh and shout for joy when you receive them from someone They're secrets shared between a sad face and a good friend by Shalom C '99<---copyright, keep that in mind, no copying. Only Time will Tell Two weeks later... Mamoru was released form the hospital shortly after surgery his blood count had been to low so he had to stay there a few extra days until it was back up again. Usagi helped him into the apartment they shared the radiation therapy hadn't worked that's why he had to have the operation. "I'm so glad to be out of that hospital." Mamoru said smiling at Usagi Usagi was glad he was home and snuggled into his warm embrace "Me to Mamo-chan, me to." It felt so comforting for just an instant before she saw that it was hurting Mamoru to be hugged "That's still a little sore from the operation, Usako" he said and gave her a weak smile. "Did the doctors say anything about Chibi-usa?" Mamoru asked as he sat down on the couch. "They said they couldn't really be sure until she was older but so far she has no trace of it." Mamoru smiled "I've missed you both" so much he took Baby Chibi-usa into his arms. Suddenly the doorbell rang it was Makoto. She stood there smiling wearing her green college sweat shirt "Chicken Soup!" "It's the best thing for anything" she set the soup down on the kitchen counter and began cleaning the apartment. "Makoto, if you don't mind we would like some time to ourselves." "Of course Mamoru sorry, I didn't know, I didn't mean, I'll just leave. Chicken soup five to 10 min in the microwave." With that she closed the door to their apartment. "How has everyone been?" "Fine." The conversation went nowhere until finally Usagi asked "What's wrong, why don't you want to spend time with me what did you just tell Makoto didn't you want to spend time with me you aren't going to be here forever and I'm..I'm.." She closed her eyes trying to fight back the tears and the pain "I don't really want to talk about it Usako." Mamoru got up and walked into his bedroom "Mamo-chan..." Usagi squeaked Mamo-chan stopped for a minute his fists clenched then he let out a sigh and turned to Usagi staring back at him were her tear stained eyes "Mamo-chan." She said again more pleading but in her voice tone. "Usako..don't cry..please don't cry." "I..I can't help it." Usagi burst into tears Mamoru put his arms around her she didn't lean back like she normally would but sat up straight so not to lean back on to his chest. "I don't like this Mamo-chan!" "What Usako?" "This me not being able to hug you why did you just walk away from me! Do you think your the only one who is suffering here!?" she burst into loud sobs "Usako.." Mamoru reached to touch her hair he couldn't bare to see her like this but he couldn't say why he didn't want to talk about them he and she and baby Chibi-usa. It caused him to much pain what if he couldn't beat this what if he couldn't protect his family anymore. He turned away from Usagi so she didn't see him crying "Mamo-chan?" Usagi asked after a while she turned to see Mamoru his eyes were a bit red he was scared they were both scared. Everyone had been scared she remembered a few months ago when they had first found out about it. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Cancer!?" Rei yelled Ami's face had turned all white Mina smile slowly faded into a frown Makoto had tried to keep a straight face but she couldn't. Hotaru had a horror stricken look on her face. Setsuna looked like she always did but she stared ahead at the wall. Michiru had grabbed a hold of Haruka's hand and squeezed it Haruka just squeezed back. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Usagi looked for words of encouragement but she couldn't say it would be ok that he could beat this what if he couldn't she burst into tears again. She thought about her friends and then about Setsuna and Hotaru not once had she ever seen Setsuna cry she stopped crying and just closed her eyes for a minute she thought of her friends how brave they all were. "Mamo-chan?" "What Usako?" Mamoru shifted his position so he could see her more clearly "Will...." She began but then stopped she knew in her heart he wouldn't be able to answer that question it held on her tongue after a few seconds she spoke "Never mind Mamo-chan." They were silent for a while until Usagi got up and went over to the counter "Want some chicken soup?" ````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` The long pink bunny sled ran quickly and smoothly over the ice as Mamoru pulled the sled Baby Chibi-usa smiled happily in her seat as he went up and down the hill soon he was tired but smiling since the operation he was still a little weak and tired but not much. "Having fun?" Usagi asked as she poured a cup hot chocolate for Mamoru. "Yes, this was a great idea Usako." Usagi smiled and took a sip from her own glass. "Mamo-chan?" Usagi's eyes lit up "What Usako?" "Want to make a snowman?" "Sure let me finish my hot chocolate." He quickly gulped it down and helped Usagi make a snow man. Soon they were done, but the snowman did look slightly deformed. Baby Chibi-usa was still smiling as Usagi held her up to see the snowman better. She set her down and laughed. "Mamo-chan?" "What?" *TWACK* a snow ball hit Mamoru in the face. Mamoru stooped to pick up some snow as Usagi ducked behind the snowman. She had left her hair in her Odango style. She turned to run as *TWACK* Mamoru's snowball hit her in the back of the head. Before long they were running around laugh and throwing snowballs at each other. After about an hour Usagi decided it was time for them to go back because Chibi-usa was probably getting cold. The sparkle still hung in Usagi's eyes as she entered their small apartment. Mamoru sighed but tried to keep a smile on his face. He had just started Chemotherapy hoping that it would remove what was left of the cancer because they couldn't get all of it. Usagi looked up at Mamoru and the sparkle in her eyes faded as she saw how sad he looked. Usagi hugged him she couldn't say to him what she wanted say she couldn't say: "Everything will be all right." She just sighed along with him. The answer in Machine was beeping meaning that there were messages Mamoru went to play them as Usagi got baby Chibi-usa out of her parka, gloves and cap. "Hi, Usagi it's me Rei I just wanted to know how your doing, me and the inner Senshi were hoping that maybe we could all go do something together if you wanted." Rei's voice sounded far away and kid like. Beep "Hey Mamoru, it's me Motoki, just wanted to say hi and make sure you were doing ok, bye." His voice sounded sad but in a higher octave then normally. Beep end of messages. Mamoru went back into the family room Usagi had Chibi-usa down for a nap. "There's a message for you from Rei." Mamoru said as he sat down on the couch. Usagi called Rei "Hi, Rei, it's me Usagi." "Hi, Usagi." "How are you doing?" "Great!" "Really you are?" "Yes, Rei I really am, I had fun today I acted like I was an awkward fourteen year old playing in the snow." "That's great Usagi." Usagi could almost feel Rei smile her voice sounded happier and not so far away. ````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` Mamoru sat in the other room watching television suddenly his chest started to tighten and he began to cough and choke out for air. "Usa.." He started to say but choked on the words he couldn't breathe while he was coughing his coughing grew louder. Usagi gasped into the phone and hung up the phone. She rushed over to Mamoru she picked up the phone on the table next to the couch and dialed the emergency number. "Hang in there Mamo-chan." Her voice sounded tiny and afraid but she managed to talk. "Hello, This is Chiba Usagi we live in apartment I crystal plaza apartments on klevin ct. My husband Chiba Mamoru has cancer and is choking he can't breathe, get someone up here." Usagi began to panic now she looked over at Mamoru who has just passed out. "OMG, he's unconscious!" Usagi tried not to cry it was no time to panic she had to be strong for Mamoru's sake. "I want you to stay on the phone with me Usagi, I've dispatched an ambulance they should be on their way." "Try to stay calm for your husbands sake." A few minutes later the ambulance arrived they stabilized Mamoru Usagi had gotten him to breathe again from the help of the woman over the phone. His breaths came out raspy though instead of normal and his eyes remained closed though every so often he would open his eyes and look up at Usagi. Usagi would smile at him and then he would usually close his eyes again. Usagi held baby Chibi-usa in her arms as she sat in the waiting room. Her friends sat their to trying to encourage her to go home and get some rest. Mamoru wasn't going to get out of the hospital any time soon by the sound of things. Usagi wasn't allowed in the room that was all the doctors had told her. "Come on Usagi you need some rest." Rei was persistent and didn't want to give up. "But I can't leave Mamoru." "Usagi he will be fine just go home." Ami looked at Usagi sternly "Ami, how do you know." Makoto whispered Ami shrugged "I don't but I'm really concerned about Usagi." "Usagi, if you don't get some well needed rest you won't have enough strength to be here for Mamoru." Setsuna finally said Usagi sighed and gave in "ok" she said weekly and quietly. Her voice sounded tired and small. "Do you want one of use to drive you home?" Makoto asked "Oh, uh, sure." Usagi said sleepily and mumbled something to herself. Makoto stood up and walked with Usagi out to her car. ````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````````` Dear Readers: I know that is kind of an odd ending but I like to leave people clueless or on a cliff hanger and so far my luck has been with clueless. Sorry most e-mails I got for part one were what happened to Mamoru well I hope this chapter explains it for you. If it doesn't reread it maybe you skipped a whole paragraph. My e-mail address is I INSANE00@aol.com title it SM Fan Fic, SMFF, or Only Time will Tell, so I know it's not spam, junk etc. Let's give a round of applause for Mina and Clare-chan they have given me ideas not to mention there great friends. ::glares at reader(s):: you better be clapping(joke). I need imput so e-mail me with your comments. -Shalom Disclaimer: None of these characters belong to me! They belong to NT and all those other people.