"I did this. And at least now...I can set it right" Cordelia said gently.

JC stared at her his eyes filled with tears. "I DON'T want it to be set right" he hissed at her.

Rubbing her gray eyes Cordelia turned away from him "This isn't your choice" she said quietly as she kept the quiver out of her voice even though all she wanted to do was keel over. The relization of the effects this would have began to make her physically ill.

"Jesus Christ. Just like that..." He mumbled as he wiped at his tears angrily.

"I shouldn't have left Brian. You know that. And all this sneaking around and trying to keep it from him...I cant do it anymore" Cordelia said as she turned around slowly.

"Fine then we won't hide it anymore." he said hopefully as he absently began chewing on his nails.

"It doesn't work like that...JC....I'm sorry" she said quietly as she sunk down on to her recliner.

"Why the hell do you have to go back to him?" he demanded as he stared at her intensely, he too becoming physically sick at the thought of HIS Cordy in bed with Brian. "Shit.." he muttered. "It's the end of this discussion."

Cordelia said as she looked towards the door. "Fine. If this is how you want it. Then I hope you can live with your decision" JC snapped to hide the feeling of sorrow that threatend to overtake him.

Clenching her eyes shut as she heard the echoing thud of her bedroom door slamming Cordelia sighed as she rested her head between her knees and tried fighting the onslaught of a migraine forming.

2 months later

"morning sunshine" Brian whispered cheerily in Cordelia's ear.

"i am going to pretend that you don't exsist for another 5 minutes" she muttered into the pillow.

Running his fingers through her smoky hair he lifted it to his nose and inhaled the scent.

"I am so glad to be back in Orlando.....I thought the European tour would never end...Not that I mind being with you in strange places...I just like the comforts of home" he said as he ran his fingers along the indent of her spine.

Feeling the chills race up her spine Cordelia wasn't sure if it was due to that fact that he was arousing her or the fact that JC might be in town...'Oh JC' she thought silently as she buried her face deeper into the pillow to hide her tears. 'Brian is so sweet, and tender. Why can't I give all of me to him' she thought silently as she cursed herself.

Feeling a sudden weight on her back Cordelia knew that Brian had laid himself on top of her.

"Brian I am not suppose to know you for another 5 min" Cordelia moaned.

Placing a kiss on her neck and down her bare back he whispered in her ear

"Have I ever told you that I find it incredible sexy you sleep naked?"

"Ok enough is enough" Cordelia said with a forced laugh as she rolled over and caused him to roll onto the mountain of pillows and blankets.

"Ok what is it?" Brian asked noticing the haunted expression in her eyes.

"Nothing. I am just suffering from jet lag" she said smiling more convincingly at him.

Sighing he rested his head on her chest "Oh...I almost forgot to tell you! That Charity concert then dinner tonight...N Sync has agreed to join us! That means more money for Howie's Foundation, and that means you finally get to meet our rivals" he said with a half serious laugh.

Brian watched in surprise as Cordelia's face drained of color and her gray eyes turned a deep blue as they did when something was really bothering her. "Cordy? Cord? you ok?" Brian asked sitting up and brushing the stray hairs from her face.