"So can i see you?" LeighAnne asked Brian softly but before he could say anything AJ interupted

"Hi GUYS" he said smiling at them and eyeing Brian with the slightest hint of a warning.

Clearing his throat Brian looked down as LeighAnne looked at them quizically "Actually.....I have to tell you something....." Brian muttered under AJ's watchful eye.

LeighAnne nodded "Ok" she said slowly.

"Uh. . . Cordy is pregnant and I love her" he finally said not looking at her.

Taking in a deep breath LeighAnne finally smiled "I am happy for you Brian. Truly" she said kissing him on the cheek and then walking away.

"Thanks for letting me know Cordy. . .I think. . ." JC said staring at her.

Smiling she nodded and turned to walk away

"Are you Ok Cordy?" he asked.

"I am---I will be." she said looking at him, and in that instant her heart ripped softly but she felt tears fill her eyes. She missed him so much. More than she could bear. Stiffling a sob that came from nowhere she hung her head.

Watching her he wanted to take her in his arms. But he knew if he did-he would never let her go. Never. So he did the only thing he could. Turn around. He would not destroy her honor anymore.

Cordelia stared out the windsheild at the house Brian had bought for her. Her prision it had almost become. There was a time when she loved him more than life itself. More than JC. Now she didn't know what happened. Somewhere along the way he must have done something to make her fall out of love with him. . .or was it him? 'Maybe it's me. . .' she thought in pain. Burying her head in her hands as she cried softly,

"I am not ready for a baby God. . .Please. . .I can't-Not yet" she whimpered.

Stumbling into the house Cordelia wiped at her eyes angrily as she headed straight for the kitchen sniffing as the tears continued to curse silently down her cheeks she opened the medicine cabinet and pulled out a bottle.

"Shit" she hissed as she opened it to find it gone.

Throwing it against the wall she barely heard the clatter it made as it hit a mirror and nicked it as it then fell. Crumpling to the ground she rocked herself

"This is your fault. You did this!" she yelled to the walls but they didn't answer her.

"This is your fault. . Your fault. . ." she whimpered as she held herself.

"What the hell?" a voice demanded as Cordelia turned her blurry eyes to see a figure.

"CORDY?" the voice cried out.

Surprised but knowing it was Brian's voice she didn't wave him away as he knelt before her. How much time has passed the rational part of her mind asked. But she didn't know. She could not see his features clearly. He reached his hand out and touched her wet cheek as he couldn't stand to see her in so much anguish. Feeling his own heart ache he pulled her to him

"My Cordy. . ." he whispered "shh"

Cordelia clung to him and let the sobs of ache and greif consume her as she let it fill the air as Brian could do nothing but hold her.