October 15th, 2000 - 11:15pm EST

I guess I owe you all an apology and an explanation. I DID say I was going to update my stories and the ones I still host and continue to update them until they were finished.

Unfortunately, I can no longer do that.

Let me explain myself...

I started writing this kind of fanfiction nearly three years ago. I never imagined that I would grow to love it so much. But I did and I enjoyed writing my stories and updating my site more than I can actually express in words. I also promised myself that the second I wasn't enjoying it anymore, I'd stop.

I'm not enjoying it anymore.

It's become a chore to update the hosted stories and an even bigger one to update my own. I am so sorry because I did promise you an update and I didn't follow through on it.

I know that I am going to receive some very nasty e-mails from this but quite honestly, it isn't fair for me to force myself to do something I don't want to do and that I no longer have interest in. A lot of people have written, asking for the next update and I couldn't write back to them because I didn't know when it would be. Now I know and I'm sorry.

I loved updating and writing these stories but it no longer makes me happy. Yes, I am still writing, just not this genre of fanfiction. How can I just have decided this? Well...think of it this way. I was eleven or twelve years old when I wrote my first Backstreet Boys story. I'm now fifteen (Ooo...my age!) and I guess I've somewhat...grown out of it and of the characters I created because they no longer fit with the way I want to write. For Heaven's sake, don't start screaming at me and telling me that I am no longer a fan of the 'backstreet's'. That isn't true at all. I love the music and that's what they do. They make music of which I enjoy.

I guess what I'm saying is that I can't update any longer. I physically and mentally cannot do it. I'm very sorry and for the people who e-mailed me and did not receive a reply, now you know why.

For the time being, the site will remain up so that authors can tell their new hosts (if their case dictates) where to find previous chapters of their story. I am tempted to take down mine but I will leave any co-written ones I had (I think).

Thank you for your encouragement and support over the past three years and I hope you'll understand why I have to do this.

Good luck to you all, Kim

Just a note: I will not be shutting down the hosted part of the site. I am not willing to hand over my stories for someone else to finish and I will not be handing the site over to someone else either. Thank you to those who offered though.