This song was written to express that feeling of knowing the right thing to do
but not being quite ready to take that action. A strained relationship with an
Aunt and Uncle gave birth to a situation which resulted in my singing the chorus
in my head while waiting in the car for Ed who was in Jules Restaurant picking
up our supper.
I KNOW I SHOULD KNOW BETTER BUT I JUST CAN'T KEEP IT TOGETHER WHEN IT COMES TO THIS GOOD ADVICE JUST SEEMS TO BE WASTED I GET SO ANGRY I CAN JUST TASTE IT WHEN I START TO DWELL CONFRONTATION'S NOT A SOLUTION WHAT YOU SAY'S JUST VERBAL POLUTION SUCH A WASTE OF TIME I CAN'T LET GO RIGHT NOW THOUGH IT WOULD SERVE ME MUCH GOOD I WISH I KNEW JUST HOW I WOULD IF I ONLY COULD I CAN'T LET GO JUST YET I GUESS IT'S GOING TO TAKE SOME TIME I CAN'T FORGIVE I REGRET I DON'T MEAN TO BE UNKIND BUT I CAN'T LET GO I KNOW I SEEM REALLY BITTER YOU SEE MY SKIN IT COULDN'T BE THINNER I CAN TAKE NO MORE I DON'T MEAN TO SOUND SO DEMANDING IN THE FUTURE I'LL BE UNDERSTANDING BUT NOT TODAY I CAN'T LET GO RIGHT NOW THOUGH IT WOULD SERVE ME MUCH GOOD I WISH I KNEW JUST HOW I WOULD IF I ONLY COULD I CAN'T LET GO JUST YET I GUESS IT'S GOING TO TAKE SOME TIME I CAN'T FORGIVE I REGRET I DON'T MEAN TO BE UNKIND BUT I CAN'T LET GO I CAN'T LET GO RIGHT NOW THOUGH IT WOULD SERVE ME MUCH GOOD I WISH I KNEW JUST HOW I WOULD IF I ONLY COULD I CAN'T LET GO JUST YET I GUESS IT'S GOING TO TAKE SOME TIME I CAN'T FORGIVE I REGRET I DON'T MEAN TO BE UNKIND BUT I CAN'T LET GO
This song can be found on "BLENDRE"ep (2000). Recording began on November 30, 1999. Because they lyrics display a vulnerability I wanted the music surrounding the vocals to be aggressive and guarded. I had a hard time deciding which way I wanted to handle the vocal arrangements. I ended up with the concept of a second voice being a conscience of sorts. This was achieved by using a vocal effect that sounded as if the voice was coming from a telephone held to the mic. The way I arrange my voice for Blendre is different than any other music project I've been in. My goal right now is to not have my voice stand out, to have it blend. This too was achieved. Overall I am at peace with this recording. Some days I second guess my choices but for the most part those days are far and few in between.
