Silver dreams, a shining light
Blinding me with pure delight
I close the door and darkness falls
The noise abtes, the silence calls
I'm staring hard, I'm trying to see
A vision now to set me free
But with the darkness comes the fear
That someone, something, is standing near.
I dare not move, I dare not breath
I dare not even blink
A statue, a stone, I stand alone
I dare not even think.
For if the thing that is my fear,
Feels the need to kill
Then I will be the victim
So I will stand here...still.


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The time I think most clearly, the time I drift away

Is on the bus ride that meanders

Through these valleys of green and grey

And I get to think about what might have been

And what may yet come true

And I get to pass the rainy miles thinking of you.


                      
~New Model Army




   
Untitled as Well *a song*



Seems like I've gone off the side of a mountain

Couldn't be sure I was even alive

Fallen from the icy heigth

Landed with a broken cry

And this valley of shadow is so safe.

Can you save me baby?

Nobody lives without love

Nobody gets to give up.

You can try to lock your heart away

But love will come back for you someday.

Noboldy lives without love.

Thought I could live my life as a stranger

Hide from the heartache love always brings

Make it to a hight ground

Try to turn the volume down

Couldn't stop the sirens from singing

Sing for me baby?

Nobody lives without love

Nobody gets to give up

You can try to lock your heart away

But love will come back for you someday.

Nobody lives without love

You came along like a flash of lightning

Crashing into my life like a runaway star

Feels like I'm falling from gravitization

And I'm here offering a stranger my heart

Nobody lives without love

Bobody gets to give up

You can even lock your heart away

But love will come back for it someday

Nobody lives without love

Seems like I've fallen off the side of a mountain

Couldnt' be sure if I was still alive

Thought I could live my life as a stranger

Nobody lives without love.


   
Explanation


I guess after reading some of that, 
you are wondering what the hell is wrong with me?
Well, I can say that some of that is not mine.
I guess that you can tell as well, 
that I have had a hard time with "love". 
I am afraid to fall in love.
I guess that is why it is so hard for me to believe that I 
am in such a great relationship with Graeme. He is my life.
I don't think that I have ever met anyone so special in my life.
I have always been afraid of getting hurt, therefor,
I didn't put any effort into meeting anyone. And when I did, those 2 times, 
I was hurt beyond belief and am still hurt after that. I don't think that I will
ever fuly recover from that experience. Needless to say, 
when I met Graeme, I was very cautious and afraid of getting hurt again. 
But I have learned that he would never do a thing to hurt me in anyway. 

~Newly Appointed PshycoTherepist Alissa