Chapter 36
"Kim. Can you stand, sweetheart?" JC, who remained sober at his own party, took Kim home.
She was slow, and very much out of it. She shook her head laughing. "Uh, yeah." He helped her get out of the car and walked behind her to the front doors. Natasha's car was in the driveway, which proved she was still at the house. She probably decided to stay for the night because she didn't want to drive home so late.
Kim stood before the doors but didn't go inside. "Please, JT, I mean JC. I love chocolate. Can you buy me a house made of all chocolate. I can eat the whole thing in an hour. Honest, I can." She started to back away and collapsed.
He caught her in his arms. "I think you had a little too much to drink, girl." One of the front doors was unlocked and he carried her inside. The security system was on, and it beep every few seconds as a warning to put a code in, or it was going to go off. JC put Kim down.
"What's the code to the alarm?" JC asked looking at the security control.
Kim bit her lip. "Um...I think it's Kim!"
He shook his head with a laugh. "There are only numbers on here."
"Oh, thats right. It's five...nine...zero....two....oh, and one."
JC quickly put the code in and it worked and stopped the alarm. "So are you going to be alright, Kim? Do you need something? Haha, do you think you would be able to make it up all of those stairs?" He pointed to the staircase in explanation. Justin was standing right at the bottom of it. It scared him nearly to death. His face was emotionless. His lips were not smiling or frowning, they were just...emotionless. He didn't move at all and just watched them. "Um...hey, Justin. I bought her home for you."
He didn't say anything, but crossed his arms.
"Well, I must be going. I have to get back to my house. Its a wreck and the party is still going on. Bye Kim...bye Justin."
JC waved while leaving the house.
Kim didn't know what to say. She ran her hand over her face, trying to wipe away the evidence of her being drunk.
Justin looked into her eyes, which were rimmed with smeared mascara. He stared her down as he approached her. Kim hated when he was upset and walking towards her because he was so tall and big compared to her. He was so intimidating. He looked down at her seriously, directly into her eyes. "What do you have to say about yourself?"
Her eyes were sparkling too much because she was drunk. "I have to say, I had fun. JC's party was the bomb digity!" She tilted her head back and laughed. "Oh no, I'm not suppose to laugh am I?"
"You don't have ANYTHING to say about that guy kissing you and touching you? ANYTHING?"
"Nope!" She said clearly. "I don't have anything to say about it!" His eyes gleamed at her so coldly that she could see the icesicles in them. She shrugged. "Okay, you know what, Justin? I should have KNOWN that guy WASN'T you! You never kissed me that deeply before. You are a good kisser but you never kiss me like that..."
His face dropped. "HOLD UP! HOLD ON!" He looked back then at her again. "YOUR TELLING ME YOU KNEW? You knew it was another guy messing with you? NOT ONLY DID YOU LIE TO ME, YOU PURPOSELY HURT ME!"
"COME ON! I TOLD YOU I 'SHOULD' HAVE KNOWN, BECAUSE YOU DON'T KISS ME LIKE THAT! BESIDES IT WAS A DAMN KISS! A DAMN KISS!"
He didn't know how to feel with the information he received.
"GIVE ME A BREAK, JUSTIN! IT'S NOT LIKE WE ARE MARRIED YET!"
He took a deep breath and tried his hardest to keep his tears back. "OH, THAT WAS SO WRONG OF YOU TO SAY! WELL DAMN, I GUESS THAT RING IS ON YOUR FINGER IS THERE FOR NOTHING! I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU! NOT ONLY DRINKING LIKE AN ALCOHOLIC BUT FLIRTING WITH GUYS AND LETTING THEM TOUCH YOU LIKE YOU A FREE-GIVING PROSTITUTE!"
She stepped up in his face. "JUST SHUT UP, JUSTIN! STOP BEING A BABY! YOU CRY AND COMPLAIN ABOUT TOO MUCH! THIS IS NOT THAT BIG OF A DEAL AS YOU ARE MAKING IT SEEM!"
"YOU WERE FUCKING KISSING ANOTHER MAN! LETTING HIM TOUCH YOU! AND YOU KKKKKNNNNEEEEEWWWWWW! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO FEEL ABOUT THAT?" His anger level rose. "GOD DAMN YOU, KIM! THIS IS UNBELIEVABLE! HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSE TO FEEL IF I AM TRYING MY HARDEST TO PLEASE YOU IN EVER WAY POSSIBLE AND YOU ARE OFF GETTING FREEBIES WITH OTHER MEN? WHAT ELSE HAPPENED? ANYTHING I SHOULD KNOW?"
She hesitated. "I DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOU EVERYTHING! REMEMBER THOSE WORDS?"
He swallowed and a tear ran down his cheek. "WELL, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? DON'T TELL ME YOU..."
"NO, I'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING WITH ANYONE ELSE EXCEPT YOU!"
At the top of the staircase appeared Natasha. Who was partiallly asleep. She adjusted her shorts and sports bra as she spoke. "Oh, you guys are home? I hope you don't mind me staying! Are you okay? Because you were yelling really loud and it woke me..."
Justin rolled his eyes at Kim. "We are so sorry you have to hear this. WE are okay. You can go back to bed. We are so sorry for waking you, Natasha. We'll be okay, sweetheart!" He snatched Kim's arm and pulled her through the house.
"JUSTIN, YOU NEED TO STOP PULLING ON ME." He was dragging her now, because she didn't have enough stability to walk.
He pushed her into the pool room, and slammed the glass door behind him. "YOU WILL TALK TO ME ABOUT THIS! YOU SAID THAT I DON'T KISS YOU AS WELL AS THAT OTHER GUY DOES! WELL, WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT? AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU, KIM? I THOUGHT WHAT WE HAD WAS LOVE AND NOT INFATUATION! ARE YOU SICK OF ME OR SOMETHING? WOULD YOU LIKE TO TAKE SOME TIME APART AND SEE OTHER PEOPLE? BECAUSE..." He licked his lips. "BECAUSE...I WOULD BE FINE WITH THAT!" He lied.
She stomped her foot. "NO, JUSTIN! NO! YOU ARE GETTING THE WRONG IDEA! I LOVE YOU! I WANT YOU! I WANT NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU! I WAS JUST SAYING THAT THE KISS I HAD WAS DIFFERENT! IT WAS NICE BUT IT WASN'T YOU! AND YOU ARE ALLLLL I WANT! WHY ARE YOU SO UPSET ABOUT THIS? WHY ARE YOU MENTIONING SEPARATION? GOD, JUSTIN! YOU SHOULD KNOW BY NOW, THAT YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING! EVERYTHING THAT I NEED! YOU ARE THE BEST AND MOST AMAZING PERSON I KNOW! NO ONE CAN MAKE ME LAUGH LIKE YOU! KNOW ONE CAN MAKE ME SMILE LIKE YOU! NO ONE CAN MAKE ME SCREAM LIKE YOU! YOU ARE SO GOOD IN BED! DON'T YOU REALIZE YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE THAT HAS GOTTEN THAT FAR WITH ME? A KISS WAS ALL! A LAME KISS! NO ONE CAN REACH ME THE WAY YOU CAN! I WON'T LET ANYONE! BECAUSE ALL I WANT IS YOU! I JUST GOT CAUGHT UP IN THE MOMENT AND HAD A LITTLE TOO MUCH FUN TONIGHT! DON'T WORRY! I KNOW I AM STILL DRUNK, BUT I'M BEING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW!"
His voice softened "Kim, I'm overprotective of you because I cherish you and love you so much. I feel that you belong to me. I don't want to be sharing you with other people. I don't want other guys kissing you and definitely NOT touching you." In most relationships he had with people, it seemed they felt they were lucky to be with him. But when it came to him being with Kim. He felt he was lucky to be with her. And he wanted her all to himself. She could have any guy she wanted, but he wanted her with him and ONLY him. He was close enough to her that he could look down at her closely. Her feathered shirt cut like a "V". He placed his hand on the bare skin she showed and couldn't believe that another man had placed his hand in the exact spot.
"I feel so bad for disappointing you." Her voice was still somewhat slurred. "I just don't want you to be mad at me, Justin. I'll do anything to make you not mad."
Justin used his hand to lift her head so he could observe her lips. "I can't get mad at you for the kiss. I'm just shocked. It's kind of hard for me to see some other guys tongue in your mouth, and I was the one who ever kissed you. I just...it's hard for me. I can't look at you the same. How can I kiss your lips knowing someone else's were...I just can't believe it. I owe you and apology for calling you a bitch and leaving you at the party. I'm sorry for pulling you and being so mean. That was wrong on my behalf, and I'm sorry."
She blinked slowly and tears bloomed from her eyes. She wrapped her arms around his neck. "I'm so sorry."
He wrapped his arms around her as well, and squeezed her tight apologetically. "I am upset about what happened, but I'm not mad at you."
"I love you so much, Justin. And I didn't mean to kissed that other guy. I didn't want him. I'm so sorry for embarrassing you like that. I just don't want you to be mad at me. Please don't be mad." She pulled herself on him and wrapped her legs around his waist. He held her supportively. "I'm SO sorry." She cried loudly. "I didn't mean to hurt you so badly!"
"I'm not mad, baby girl. I'm not mad." He felt so much better, knowing that she loved him so much she wasn't interested in anyone else. That was how it was suppose to be anyway. Once again, they overcame another horrible fight.
She buried her face in his neck. She was probably crying so hard because of side effects from drinking . "Oh, Justin. I love you so much." She sniffled.
"I love you too." He told her wistfully. Kim cringed and he heard her gag. "What's the matter? Feel like you wanna throw up?" She nodded quickly. "Lets get you upstairs then." Justin brought her upstairs and sat her on the bed. "Okay, so do you feel sick? Would you like me to take you to the toilet so you can throw up? Do you want to go to sleep? You want asprin? How can I help you, sweetie?"
"I'm sleepy." She mumbled with a babyish tone.
Justin managed to smile. "Okay, so you DON'T need to throw up?"
"I'm drunk. I'm sleepy." She slapped him across the face once, and then again with the back of her hand. "You called me a bitch back at the party."
"OW! God, I'm sorry. I was mad, okay? Da...darn. Your tiny hands hurt so bad."
"I'm a little tea pot short in stout..." Her head was drooping to one side and her eyelids were growing heavy.
Justin warily kissed her on the cheek. "I'll be right back. I'm going to get you some clothes to sleep in." It didn't take him long at all to gather some clothes items for her. When he exited the closet, he saw that she had gotten under the covers, and was snuggling with them. "Kim. Get up, honey. It will only take a second to get you changed." She didn't budge so he pulled the covers from her. She had taken all of her clothes off except her underwear. "Kim...there is no way you can sleep almost naked."
Her eyes opened. "Why not?"
He looked at the ceiling to try to ignore the disturbance. "Well, Natasha is here and what if you get up and forget you are...like that. And you never sleep like that, so don't try to start now." He cautiously sat down near her. "Come on, baby. Sit up and raise your arms up." He held up a red nightgown by it's spaghetti straps to show her. "Cute, huh? Once again another Victoria's Secret piece." He chuckled and placed the clothing over her head. He pulled her arm through the straps. One by one.
"I like this nightgown. It's so pretty and red just like a lady bug. Lady bugs are so pretty. They are red too."
"And you are drunk, baby girl." He pulled the gown down so it fit over her chest correctly. He cough. "Whoa...they are bigger than I thought." He pulled the gown down the rest of her. Kim pulled her gown up some. "Kim, put your gown back down."
She shook her head and pulled him on top of her. "NO, I will not! Justin, I want you now. I want you to kiss me now."
"But...I'm not ready. Natasha will hear. I don't want to..." She tugged his neck down and made his lips press against hers. Two seconds later Justin pulled away. He spit and wiped his mouth with his hand. "I told you. I wasn't ready...I wasn't..." He halted his speech when he realized he spit on the side of her face. "Oh my..." He used his shirt to wipe it away. "Kim...I am so sorry. I know that is just gross. I just didn't want to kiss you because that guy...never mind. I'm so sorry." She sniffled and looked like she was about to cry. "Now don't cry. I didn't mean to...can we try it again? I mean, may I kiss you? I WANT to kiss you." He really didn't but...
"Kiss me." She whispered.
He stared down at the woman beneath him. She was so beautiful but he couldn't drop the fact that she was touched by another man. It wasn't that big of a deal, or was it? Maybe he was making the matter harder than it should have been. He knew it would be really hard to willingly kiss her lips. He closed his eyes and licked his lips. His head lowered. Just as he could feel her body heat blowing on him he pulled back slightly, and it took a few stalls before he pressed his lips against hers. He was so uncomfortable doing this.
Her mouth was still sweet. Even after all the alcohol she drunk. Her head turned and he felt her tongue enter his mouth. He pulled back completely. "What?" She asked.
He shook his head. "Nothing." He picked up where they left off. Only this time he stuck his tongue in her mouth. Her mouth opened wider for him. He had to kiss her harder and deeper than the guy at the party did. He had to make himself feel better by kissing her like he never kiss her before. It was a reconstructed goal he had. She moaned in his mouth and it made him moan because it was exactly what he wanted to hear. He broke away from her, and smiled. "Good enough kiss for you?"
She nodded frantically with a pleasing smile.
"Good." He said with a laugh. He shook his head. "You better smile now. You are going to have hell to pay in the morning from your hangover." She was drunk, but not too drunk. She pinched him. "OW!"
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August 11, 2002 (morning - three days later)
Justin grew comfortable on his side. He continuously moved Kim's strands of hair to one side. She was huffing and breathing erratically. He was too.
"Justin, I think I'm pregnant."
He laughed and reached over and kissed her nose. "Really?"
"There's a chance. I totally forgot that yesterday I had a doctors appointment. I forgot to get my shot. Whoops. And with the way we are carrying on. I can be pregnant or is getting pregnant right now. Don't forget how you are, Justin. What's gotten into you anyway? I CAN'T think, because my brains are scattered over the floor." She wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him close. "Have I told you how much I love you?" She inhaled a large breath of air.
He kiss her on the neck. "You told me about forty-five seconds ago. Don't worry about being pregnant. If you are, you are. If you aren't, you aren't." He laughed again.
"If I am, thats bad. We already don't spend enough time with Jade."
He kissed her shoulders. "So, we're busy people. Lets do something with her today then. As for what's gotten into me...I have to show you out, girl! Show you what Timberlake can do. Because I want to have you so whipped you won't dare kiss another man." He looked up and winked.
She giggled. "Oh, I wouldn't kiss another man. I wouldn't even look at one now." She lowered her head and kissed him on the lips.
Justin's hand rested on her bare stomach and he moved up some to allow better access to her mouth. The incident at the party definitely brought them closer. They were closer then they had ever been. They were more loving, more respectful. More wild. More fun. More of anything that had to do with love. His fingers tickled the skin he was touching and Kim pulled away from him laughing. It caused him to laugh as well.
"Stop it, Justin. HAHA!" He tickled her harder. "STOP IT!" She took a pillow from underneath her head and hit him with it.
"PILLOW FIGHT!" He took his pillow and hit her with it continuously. Kim hit Justin with her pillow also, but she was less successful. Justin used his pillow and covered her face as he playfully tried to smother her. When he took the pillow from her face, he saw one of her fist fly up at him and he ditched the hit by rolling away laughing.
"That Is SO not funny, Justin. You almost KILLED ME!" She kicked him.
"HAHA!"
She kicked him again.
"HAHA!"
She kicked him a final time and knocked him out of the bed. He took the covers with him and was still laughing. "Justin, give the covers back!"
His head peeked up, and when he saw her, he broke down laughing. He held his stomach and was slobbering on himself. He held up her bra and spun it around. "Missing a few things?" Struggling with laughter he picked up the covers, along with all of her clothes and threw them outside of the bedroom door. "Kim...haha." He fell to his knees, in the middle of the doorway, laughing to near death.
"God, Justin! you are SO childish." She hopped out of the bed and slipped on a shirt of his, that was in the middle of the floor.
Justin turned on his stomach and kicked and punched at the ground as he sobbed with laughter.
"Oh yeah, THAT WAS SO FUNNY, MAN." She looked him over. He was only in his boxers. She sat on top of him. "Well, what do ya know, Calvin Kline boxers. I just love Calvin Klein boxers." She grabbed the top of them and tried to yank them down.
"Haha, Kim. Stop it!" He reached back and tried to pull them up.
"WOW! You really do have an ass!" She had pulled them halfway down his butt.
"Haha...I told you to stop, Kim. Don't make you flash you. Don't make me turn around and give you an up close and personal view of Justin Jr."
She ignored him and pulled him boxers all the way off of him, to his knees. "Now laugh, Justin. Laugh about THAT!" He seriously was still laughing.
"Okay...haha. I warned you." He turned on his back. Just before Kim could see something, she jumped off of him and ran screaming. Justin gripped her ankle with his hand, and she fell to the ground, catching her balance with the palms of her hands. "I told you I'm gonna flash you!"
Kim closed her eyes and tried to kick her leg free from his grasp. "No! No! I was just kidding! You have your boxers. Leave me alone."
Justin stood up, still holding her ankle, and pulled his boxers up. "Open your eyes , Kim. So I can flash you! HAHA!" He let her leg go and immediately she took off running down the steps.
"You better stop playing with me, Justin. I told you I don't want to see that thing."
"You seemed very interested. Especially since you tried to strip me! I'm coming to get ya, Kim." He chased after her.
Both of them were running through the house, like mad people. Justin wasn't attempting to run very fast because he knew he would catch her sooner or later.
Kim stood on top of the couch and pleaded. "Haha. Justin, your a goofball! Why don't you just leave me alone?" He jumped on the couch and she jumped off of it and ran down the hall.
By the time Justin got in the hallway, she was gone. "You can run but you can't hide, Kim. You might as well reveal yourself. I'm gonna get ya...eventually!" As silly as it was, he enjoyed playing with her. He opened the doors to all of the rooms he came in contact with, and still he couldn't find her. He was smart and he knew Kim. He had a pretty good idea where she was. He went straight for his studio. He opened the door of it, and closed it behind him. Next, he went into a booth, and sure enough Kim was balled up, hiding in one. "Hey, baby girl." He closed himself into the booth with her.
He scared the life out of her and she let out a long scream. "OHHHH MY GOD! You scared the SHIT out of me!" She held her heart and gasped for air. "JESUS, JUSTIN!"
He wrapped his arms around her and kissed her all over. "I'm so sorry, Kimmy. I didn't mean to scare you."
She acted as if she didn't want his kisses. "Get away from me. You flasher. And the name is Kim. You don't have the privilege to call me Kimmy. Only Mom does."
He laughed. "Hey, I didn't flash you yet. I was kidding. I would never do that to you! Oh my God, you called my mother Mom! how cool is that!" He picked her up and brought her out of the booth into the bigger part of the studio. He placed her down and looked into her eyes. "You are so beautiful."
She giggled when he placed her cheek against his. "You are so beautiful. And yeah I called you mother Mom. She told me to."
"Ut oh. There goes that echo again. You are so beautiful. No YOU are so beautiful." He held her with his arms and spun her, along with biting on her neck gently. "God, I am SO in love with you."
Kim held him tight. "I love you too."
He put her down and kissed her on the lips. "What a great way to start the morning."
Kim held his hand and kissed it. "I know what you mean! I know I had an AMAZING morning!" She kissed him back on the lips.
"Okay, sweetie. So, what are we going to do today...you said we need to spend time with, Jade. She's three months old. Where can we take a three month old? Like should we go to Disney World or something? The movies? The park?"
Kim smiled. "The park would be nice...but don't you have something to do today?"
His forehead scrunched in questioning. "Do something?"
"Yeah, like a photo shoot. or something. I think you told me the other day, you had something to do the eleventh."
"Oh my GOD! I forgot! I have a photo shoot to do for the new album! OH SHIT!" Kim pinched him. "Ow, what time is it, honey? Do you know."
She paused in thought. "I think nine something?!"
His eyes widened. "NINE SOMETHING? I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE AT THE PLACE BY TEN!"
Kim pulled him. "Come on. Let's get you ready."
He followed her. "I know. The guys are going to kick my ass if I'm late. I need to take a shower and get dressed. I won't make it. I hate when they all double team me. They are going to kick my ass."
Kim pulled harder on his arm so he would walk faster, along with pinching him twice. "You will make it!"
When the got into the bedroom they went their separate ways. "Justin, you pick out something to wear, while I get your shower ready."
"Okay." He agreed, going into the closet. He picked him out some blue jeans and a yellow shirt.
"Alright, Justin. Your shower is awaiting." Kim yelled from the bathroom.
"Good. Thanks so much, baby girl. Every little bit helps..." He entered the bathroom to see the shower door open with Kim inside. "But...I thought you were making the shower for me?"
The water ran down her rhythmically and she turned her head to the side innocently. "Oh it is for you. I'm just in here."
He looked around the bathroom. "But, why? I thought you were afraid if me."
"I WAS. But we are getting married and I need to learn how to cope with certain things. I'd like to take a shower with you if you don't mind."
"Are you serious? Because I am running really late and I don't have time to be playing around."
Her eyebrow raised. "Justin, I'm serious. Get in HERE!" She played with her fingers.
He hit her with a smile that showed all of his teeth. "Your getting pretty bold, girl." He undressed and stepped into the shower with her. "Are you okay with this?" He moved her wet hair out of her eyes and lifted her head which was looking down. "Looking at something?"
"I was just curious."
"So you are alright with me now? "
"Yeah I'm okay." A smiled slowly crossed her face. She nodded. "I'm perfectly fine." She turned around and put her back to him. "Soap my back please. And hurry, because you have to be going." She picked up her hair with one hand.
"Yes, ma'am."
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Kim quickly tied Justin's shoes as he fixed his hair. "Okay, baby. Your all ready to go." She looked him over and fixed his belt for him, when she saw it was not fastened.
"Okay, got my cell phone. Pager. I have everything, right?"
She nodded. "Yup, you have everything."
He kissed her on the lips. "Thank you for helping me, sweetie! Tomorrow I promise we will take Jade to the park. I love you."
"I love you too. Now go. You might make it!"
He kissed her on the lips again. "Okay. I'm going. I love you, baby. Okay?"
"I know you do. I love you to. Now go, Justin."
"Um...okay." He walked out of the room.
Kim looked on the dresser and saw his keys there. She grabbed them and ran after him. "Wait, Justin. Your keys." She ran down the steps and handed them to him.
He held her by her waist and kissed her on the lips again. No matter how late he was, he couldn't stop kissing her. He couldn't get enough of her.
Kim kissed him to the door. She opened one of them and stepped outside with him, as they continued to kiss.
Justin walked down the entrance steps backwards. On the last step he almost trip as Kim pounced on him, and wrapped her legs around him. He was able to get to the car but he didn't want to stop the wild kiss. He sat her on the car and pulled her body closer to his as they kissed. It got to the point where he couldn't breath anymore and he couldn't tell if he was breathing or not because his breaths grew as hot as the morning air. He broke away. "Dang, we always do this when I am about to go somewhere. Now is NOT the time to be turning me on." He let up on her and kissed her on the cheek. "I am so late." He kissed her lips.
"Yes, you are." Kim hopped off of the car, and Justin opened the door and sat down. Just as he started the car up, Griffin pulled up in the driveway. He raised the window down. "Bye, Justin I love you."
He kissed her one last time on the lips. "I love you too. I'll see you later. I'll call you. I think I may be gone all day. Please...PLEASE make some fried chicken for dinner. You know I'm from the south. I love my Southern food, baby. Your chicken is...just make it, okay?"
She fixed one of his curls. "Will do. Have a great day, sweetie." She waved at Griffin. Who was approaching them. "Hey G!"
He smiled. "Hey, girl. Hey, Justin."
"Hey, man. You owe me a game of basketball. Maybe some other time, 'cus right now. I got to go. See you Grif. Bye, baby girl. I love you." He pulled off.
