Heal My Wounds


Many lives had I led before and
Despite my sufferings still hope had I
Albeit not strong, it made me decide
To return once more to mankind and try

To heal my wounds, the scars on my soul
The burden I'd carried for so many years
To relieve my heart, rekindle my spirit
And find the strength to overcome my fears

Inevitably I had to face new hardships
Many scourges this here life entailed
In the shadows of doubt despair was lurking
Eventually it seemed like anguish had prevailed

More and more I found myself alone
Lacking the faith to let anyone near me
But I came to realize I needed another
And so I prayed to whomever would hear me:

Heal my wounds, the scars on my soul
The burden I've carried for so many years
Relieve my heart, rekindle my spirit
And teach me how to overcome my fears

At that time I was just looking away
From the problems which were a part of me
Clinging to just about anyone
In fact I was no longer willing to see

I knew this could not be the answer
For each time I came across someone new
I kept on pulling them towards me until
In the end, they turned their backs on me too

So now I'm aimlessly wandering around
Contemplating things of which I repent
I look at the skies, then look at myself
Listening to my heart's lament...

Heal my wounds, the scars on my soul
The burden I've carried for so many years
Relieve this heart, rekindle my spirit
And help me overcome my fears

I've learned that I myself have the answer
The Light I now know I've always carried
Uncovered by simply facing the many
Layers of darkness under which it was buried

Of course it hasn't been all that simple
Looking at my feelings without hesitation
But somehow I've attained peace with myself
And that moment to me was like a revelation

I've healed my wounds, the scars on my soul
The burden I carried for so many years
Relieved is my heart, rekindled my spirit
At last I have overcome my fears


Jeroen Holthuijsen, October 11th 1997.


Copyright 1997 by Jeroen Holthuijsen.

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