Title: Solitude
Author: kira-nerys
Codes: G/B
Rating: NC-17, PWP … testing the waters 's'all…

Summary: Garak is alone in his quarters fantasizing about the young
Doctor when he gets a surprise visit.

Disclaimer: I am so tired of these, and you all know what I am going
to say anyway. They belong to Paramount/Viacom and I claim no right to
them. I just happen to love to play with them…

Feedback: Yeah, kira-nerys@geocities.com

Archiving; Yeah, ASC, Cardassia Sutra and Star Trek Slash Archives are
okay - others ask first.

*** Solitude ***

Garak stared at the wall and sighed deeply. How thickheaded could that
Human be anyway? He tried it all, Cardassian style flirting, Human
style flirting, Bajoran style flirting… nothing helped, nothing
worked. He sighed again. Maybe Julian had understood and simply wasn't
interested and he was just making a fool out of himself every time he
tried to get through to him?

Perhaps he should just give up and finally accept the fact that Julian
Bashir was not interested. Perhaps the easiest thing would be to
simply look for love elsewhere. Find some willing male who wasn't too
particular whom he went to bed with. But the sad truth was that nobody
on the entire station attracted him the way Julian did. And certainly
nobody else knew him well enough to be attracted to him… and the
simple fact was that it didn't matter. All he wanted was Julian.

He sipped his kanaar and let it swirl through his mouth. The
bittersweet taste of the aged liquor filled his mouth and he leaned
his head back and savored the taste and texture of it. Was it maybe
too late? Ever since he found out about Julian's enhancement he felt
more agitated around the young man. Oh, he knew why. Ever since that
fact came out, the possibilities felt endless. Julian's enhancements
meant that he wasn't so weak as he seemed…

Garak had always looked upon Julian as a rather fragile being, unable
to really be a worthy partner of him. Not mentally - no - Julian had a
keen mind. Perhaps a bit naive and gullible, but that was what was so
charming about him. But to be quite truthful he worried about Julian's
strength. Could the young man really withstand a Cardassian's passion?

Garak smiled bitterly. Julian was such a mixture of interesting
contradictions. He had a very beautiful appearance, which was the
first thing that had attracted him to the young man, but the
Cardassian had soon realized that there was more to Julian than simple
looks. He had a sparkling wit that Garak had not anticipated that day
when he made his first pass at Julian. But the naiveté had caused
Julian not to understand his blatant flirting and strong come-on.
Since then Julian had gotten older and simply more desirable for each
year that passed.

Garak closed his eyes and let his imagination run free. How many times
had he dreamed about reaching out to touch that perfect, silky soft
skin? How many times had he left their lunches hard and aching for
Julian's touch, while the young man seemed totally oblivious to the
sparks that flew between them whenever they were together? Garak felt
himself stiffen once more as he thought about Julian, Julian's lips,
his long, slender fingers - those surgeon's hands kneading expertly at
his neck-ridges….

Garak moaned silently and the trousers he was wearing suddenly felt
all too small. He felt a bit resigned at the fact that a mere thought
of the young Human could put him in this state, but he was tired of
sitting there all alone, satisfying his needs in solitude.

He closed his eyes as he put the glass of kanaar on the table next to
the sofa, then swiftly unclasped his trousers and slid his hand down
between his legs to start stroking himself in that age-old rhythm.
"Oh yes," he moaned. He was imagining Julian's slender hands touching
him and the arousal grew steadily. He leaned his head back and thought
about how it would feel if Julian's soft lips were closing around
him….

That's when the doorbell rang. Guiltily, Garak stopped what he was
doing and buttoned his trousers. He winced at the feeling of his
hardness being restrained into the unforgiving pants.
"Who is it?" he said. Even to his own ears his voice sounded harsh and
unsteady.

"It's me, Julian, can I come in?"

Garak hardened even more at the sound of the young man's voice, but he
couldn't think of one single reason not to let Julian in, short of
telling him the truth.

Of course, Garak thought to himself. I can just see it now. I'll just
blurt out. Oh Julian, I'd prefer it if you'd come back later. Right
now I was in the middle of satisfying myself. I was imagining how you
were giving me a very thorough blowjob, and if you come in here right
now I don't know what I'll do…

"Enter," he said against his better judgment. He checked his clothing
one last time as the young man entered.

"Hello, Garak."

"Doctor, what can I do for you?" he said as calmly as he could but he
turned from Julian to sit in the armchair. He fidgeted a little and
crossed his legs to hide the state he was in. Okay, he thought, just
think of something else. "Come in and sit down," he said and gestured
politely at the sofa.

Julian stepped in and sat on the couch. "I just felt like some
company, Garak, that's all. I hope I didn't disturb you."

"No, never, Doctor," Garak lied.

"Are you all right, Garak? You seem a little tense… "

Oh yes, I am tense all right, Garak thought to himself and swallowed
carefully. "I am fine, Julian. I am just a little… Never mind, Doctor.
It will pass."

That was the completely wrong thing to say to Julian. He knew it as
soon as the words left his mouth. The young man rose from the sofa and
came closer. His eyes were shining with concern. The doctor in Julian
awakens, Garak thought bitterly.

"Doctor, there is nothing wrong with me, I assure you," Garak
protested when Julian leaned forward to check his temperature in the
normal human manner. He pressed his hand against his forehead.
Normally that wouldn't be so bad, but now, when he was already
achingly hard with need, it felt like Julian's hand was made of pure
fire. He gasped involuntarily and closed his eyes.

"Julian, would you please not do that…" he begged.

"What? I am just checking your temperature. You seem a little
flushed."

"Well, uhm. It is a little warm in here. I felt cold when I got back
from the shop and turned up the heat a little too much I am afraid,"
he improvised while he none too gently took Julian's hand away from
his face. If the young man did not stop touching him there, he would
do something he would regret.

"Garak, there is obviously something wrong. Why don't you tell me what
is going on?"

Garak fidgeted once more. Julian was scrutinizing him rather
intensely. It was only a question of time before the young man would
see the state he was in unless he could divert his attentions to
something else. Regretfully he could not get up and offer Julian a
drink, since that would expose him immediately. Go away, he addressed
his uncooperative companion but the erection refused to subside. Quite
the contrary - it seemed to grow even more and he felt like he
couldn't sit still any more. Oh Julian, get out of here before I do
something that will really, truly shock you.

"Oh," Julian gasped as his eyes fell to Garak's crotch.

It was too late. Garak closed his eyes for a second, and then he
opened them again. Julian's face turned a lovely crimson color and
Garak watched in fascination as his friend's face changed from shock
to - something else. Could that be a glint of desire, deep down in
those hazel eyes, Garak wondered.

"Oh, indeed," Garak said dryly. "You just couldn't leave it alone,
could you?"

"I'm… I'm sorry Garak. I was just worried. You never tell me if
there's anything wrong with you so I have to be rather… persistent. I
didn't mean to… "

"I know you didn't," Garak growled. That's part of the problem, he
thought. If you wanted to arouse me I'd be the happiest Cardassian
alive. Garak rose from the chair. He no longer had any reason to sit
there and try to hide it. So he walked over to the replicator.

"Would you like something to drink, Doctor?" he queried politely.

"That's it?" Julian said. His voice was full of amazement. "I realize
that you have an… an… "

"… an erection?" Garak filled in for him.

"Yes, and that's it…?"

"What more do you want me to say?" Garak queried and turned around. He
had not expected Julian to pursue the topic. Now he was positively
intrigued. "Do you want me to say 'Please go doctor so I can do
something about this' or perhaps you want to talk about it in depth? I
thought the best course of action would be to just drop the subject. I
assume this is something that has happened to you as well on occasion.
At an inconvenient time, of course… "

"Of course. Uhm…" Julian silenced. "Garak, I am sorry. I shouldn't
have brought it up at all."

Julian licked his lips nervously and Garak nearly hissed at the
innocent, but arousing gesture. Then Julian looked up and into his
eyes. "Can I just ask you one thing, Garak? I'd like for you to be
completely honest for once."

"I will not promise anything, Doctor, but if it is within my power to
do so I will answer honestly."

"Why?"

"Why what?"

Julian fidgeted a little and then he continued. "This is a terribly
personal question, but why were you aroused?"

"Well, I was thinking about someone - special."

"Of course," Julian murmured. "Garak?"

"Yes?"

"Are you still aroused?"

"Yes," Garak admitted coarsely
.
"Does this have to do with this - special someone?"

"Yes." Garak moved restlessly back to the armchair and sat down.

"This special someone, could that possibly be - me?"

"Yes." Garak admitted breathlessly before he could stop himself and
watched as Julian rose from the sofa and came over to him. He turned
toward the young man, gasping when he saw that he too, was excited.

"Garak?"

"Yes?"

"Do you want me?"

"Oh, yes!" Garak admitted and moaned as the young man simply straddled
his lap and flung his arms around him. Guls, Garak thought. This can't
be happening. Was it this easy? I should have just told him, is that
it?

"Why didn't you ever say something?" Julian asked.

"What was I supposed to say? It isn't really in me to walk up to
someone and casually say. 'Oh, by the way, dear Doctor. Would you mind
terribly sharing my bed?'"

Julian laughed softly and leaned closer. His mouth stopped only a
fraction of an inch from Garak's lips. "You could have voiced it a
little differently, you know," he teased.

"How?" Garak asked and felt his mind dissolve into a frenzy of lust.

Julian was definitely aroused by now, and his hardness pressed against
Garak's own. "Oh, I don't really know, but I am sure you could have
thought of something. That mouth of yours is so talented…"

Julian leaned in to close that fraction of an inch and pressed his
lips against Garak's. The warmth of Julian's mouth and tongue wreaked
havoc with Garak's senses and he moaned helplessly. The young man's
hands moved curiously from his shoulders over his neck-ridges and
Garak gasped.

"You like that, Elim?" he whispered.

His given name from those lips….

"Oh, yes, press just a little harder with those long fingers of
yours."

Garak didn't say much for a few minutes. His breathing became ragged
as he reveled in the sensations Julian's hands were giving him. He
kissed Julian enthusiastically and let his hands move over the younger
man's lithe form. He couldn't believe Julian was there, sitting in his
lap, pressing willingly against him obviously every bit as aroused as
he was.

"Julian," Garak hissed.

"Yes?"

"You are driving me crazy. I need to…"

Julian slithered out of Garak's lap and pulled him to his feet. "Oh
yes, it appears that you have a bit of a problem, don't you?  Shall I
remedy it?" Julian teased and pressed his hand firmly against the
bulge on Garak's pants.

"I would very much appreciate that," Garak admitted weakly as he felt
Julian's slender but strong fingers squeeze him expertly. It wouldn't
take much…

"Are you close?" Julian queried softly.

Garak simply nodded. "You kind of - uhm - interrupted me…" He felt a
little silly to admit such a thing to Julian, but on the other hand it
was rather obvious anyway.

"Then let's take care of you first," Julian murmured and got down on
his knees. With nimble fingers he undid the clasp of the Cardassian's
pants and pulled them down in a swift movement.

"Oh, such beauty!" Julian's voice purred and Garak clenched his teeth.
The words sent shivers through his body. Never before in his life had
he been so excited - if he had, he couldn't remember it…

In a flash he realized that he was about to experience first hand what
he had been dreaming of only a short while ago, and he forced his eyes
open to watch as Julian's beautiful face came closer and took him
inside that hot, warm mouth. He couldn't keep his eyes open for long
though and his eyelids fluttered shut as he surrendered to the
pleasure Julian was causing.

"Oh, Julian…" he groaned and rested his hands on the younger man's
shoulders to steady himself. "Oh, gods. That feels so good!"

The hot and wet tongue traveled his entire length, only to seconds
later suckle and lick as he was engulfed inside that soft mouth again.
Up and down, in a steady rhythm that swiftly pushed Garak closer to
release. When Julian's teeth lightly grazed against the ridge at the
base, Garak moaned helplessly and his knees nearly buckled as he shot
his seed into the younger man's mouth in almost violent convulsions.
Julian licked him clean with an impish smile on his lips.

"Elim, my dear. You don't know how long I have wanted to do this, and
it was every bit as tasty as I had imagined."

Garak opened his eyes to look at Julian. Then he grabbed the younger
man's hands, and pulled him into his embrace. "Then - my sweet Julian,
I hope you will let me fulfill one of my dreams as well… "

Julian smiled at him and Garak still couldn't believe what was
happening when Julian pulled his head closer. The nimble human fingers
dug into his hair, and Garak felt shivers run down his spine. He
couldn't wait to taste that smooth, golden skin. What would it taste
like? They kissed again and already Garak could feel his arousal grow
once more.

He hadn't been so close to another being for so long, let alone
someone he felt so incredibly attracted to. He slid his arms around
Julian's slender shape and held him close while he enjoyed the young
man's mouth. He could have stood there kissing him forever. He tasted
so good. Garak felt like he couldn't have enough and he hissed when
Julian's hard erection pressed against him.

"Garak," Julian whimpered.

Garak withdrew slightly and watched the younger man's eyes. They were
darker than he had ever seen them before. His hair was disheveled and
he was staring at Garak passionately.

"Yes?"

"I want you to… touch me. Please." Julian's voice caught in his
throat, and he closed his eyes, his face filled with abandon as
Garak's hand slid down between them and started stroking Julian
through his pants. Julian pressed against him eagerly, rocking his
hips back and forth in an almost desperate motion. Garak swallowed
hard as he realized that Julian was as aroused by him as he was by
Julian.

"Oh, Julian," he whispered and scooped the young man up in his arms
and carried him to his bed.

"You know, Garak. If I wasn't so painfully hard, I would find this -
embarrassing…" Julian admitted hoarsely.

Garak only smiled. "I think this is the quickest way to get you into
my bed, and quite frankly, my dear Julian, I feel like I am in a bit
of a hurry."

He put Julian down on the bed and rid himself of the last pieces of
clothes that he was still wearing and then he leaned over the younger
man to pull off his coverall. He pursed his lips appreciatively when
Julian's smooth, golden skin was revealed to him. The slender body was
wonderfully shaped - wiry, but muscular enough to be very pleasing to
the eye.

"Julian," Garak whispered, suddenly self-conscious. "You are so
beautiful."

"So are you, Garak," Julian responded, and Garak stared into those
amazing hazel eyes quizzically. His gaze bore deep into Julian's, but
however deep he looked he saw only honesty and admiration there. He
relaxed and enjoyed it when Julian lifted his hands and let them
travel across his body, but only for a brief moment. He could see the
need and sense the desire that was burning inside Julian, so he
reached out to satisfy both of their needs. Julian's need to be
touched and his own need to explore that wonderful man lying so
trustingly before him.

He straddled Julian's legs and leaned forward, first kissing his lips,
savoring the taste once more, then he let his mouth wander downward,
slowly, teasingly. Julian writhed underneath him in youthful
impatience.

"Garak, please…" he managed, and his hands shot up to dig themselves
into Garak's hair, and Julian firmly pushed him downward.

"If you insist," Garak chided.

"Oh, I do," Julian gasped. "I need this now, Garak. You can tease me
later."

Garak felt happiness at the words. It meant that Julian would not be
satisfied with this one encounter. There would be more to come.
Satisfied with this he obligingly moved downward and took Julian in
his mouth. The young man let out a series of inarticulate moans and
sounds in appreciation.

"Oh, Garak… *gasp* …yes, just like that… *whimper* … ohh, feels so
good…"

Julian's sounds sent a wave through him. He felt himself harden at the
young man's obvious pleasure and at the taste of him in his mouth. The
scent that rose from Julian was exquisite and the feeling of the
hardness inside his mouth was the most arousing thing he had felt in a
long time. Eagerly, Garak licked and suckled on Julian, mirroring the
pleasure the younger man had given him only moments earlier. Soon
Julian was writhing in ecstasy and moaning helplessly.

"Garak, Oh - Elim, I…."

Garak's mouth filled with the bittersweet taste of Julian's pleasure
and he swallowed eagerly. As the younger man relaxed, Garak slid up to
lie beside him.

"Julian," he whispered. "You are so beautiful…"

Julian simply turned toward him and pulled him close and Garak's heart
tightened at the feelings he saw there. Warmth, tenderness - love? How
long ago was it that someone had looked at him that way?

"Garak - Elim. Why did this take us so long to see? I've wanted you
like this for so long…"

"Oh, I don't know Julian, but now that we have, let's enjoy it as much
as we can."

Julian smiled. "That's a very good idea, my dear tailor. Let's enjoy
it indeed."

Garak tightened his grip on Julian, and as they drifted to sleep, he
realized that he wouldn't have to satisfy his needs in solitude for a
long time to come...

~ the end ~