November 1st (239): Ugh. I hate Halloweeen. Hate having candy in the house. I'm trying to stay away from it, but its difficult. I've eaten more candy in the last day than I've eaten in probably the last 6 months.

November 3rd (239): Starting to get a little bit more on track over the last day or so. Alexis donated half of her candy to her school so they can give it to kids that didn't get to go trick-or-treating. Better the less fortunate kids have it than having it go straight to my hips, thighs, and butt!

November 5th (239.5): Oi. I've been having a hard time sticking with my program since Halloween. I've decided to go back to the gym and see about getting another membership. I'm worried about paying for another membership and not using it. Last year we spent $858 for a year long family membership... of which I went maybe 10 times and Pat never went once. This time around I'm just going to get a single membership for me... $45 a month. I'm going to see if maybe I can sign a contract for less than a year in case I don't use it. I know that I need to do this...I need to get some more of this weight off so my knees won't give me so much trouble. I want to start doing some circuit weight training also to help build up my muscles. Last year I gained 13 lbs from Thanksgiving to New Years. I don't want to repeat that. I've been doing my weight loss program for 6 months now. The first 3 months I lost 35 lbs. It took me 3 more months just to lose 11 pounds. I want to get back closer to the numbers I had the first three months of my program. I think if I can get myself to exercise more I'll see those results. Ok... enough talking about it. I'm going to take a trip to the gym to see what kind of memberships they have to offer.

November 8th (239): I went to the gym yesterday and had a good workout. I really like the personal trainer there. He is a martial arts expert and he had some really good pointers for me. More than likely I'm going to sign up for a membership there and start working out. I need to do something drastic because since Halloween I've been getting further and further off track each day. Today we went to see Wizard of Oz at the movies and I ate 4 !!!!!!!!! Reeses peanut butter cups AND medium buttered popcorn. Ack. Ugh. Oi.

November 11th (241): YIKES! YIKES! YIKES! What is the matter with me???!?!?!?! I've been so out of control the last week or so. I'm having a hell of a time trying to get my car to pass smog so I can get it registered. The past week has been spent running around to different car places to get this or that fixed and then back to DMV to get an extension because it still wouldnt pass smog. SHEEESH. I don't know why I'm letting this control my eating habits lately. I need to stop this crap. I'm back up 2 lbs and I do NOT like it one BIT!

November 15th (???): It's been so hard to keep on track the last two weeks. I just don't know why I let myself get into these slumps. I'm looking forward to getting finished with this semester...maybe I can get myself motivated during semester break to start doing something productive.

November 17th (241): Well, I finally decided it's time to get off my ass and start exercising. I joined the gym again and *hopefully* this time will make good use of it and actually GO! I know that in order to get this weight off I'm going to have to start exercising. Yeck. Wish there were an easier way. Actually, I just wish I enjoyed exercising like I used to. Its hard to believe that two years ago I was so obsessed about exercising that if I missed a day, I was a GRUMP!!! I had it once... I can have it again if I just decide that I want it bad enough.

November 27th (245): GRRRRR Tripod has been giving me problems for 10 days now...haven't been able to log into my account to update. Oh well. Not much good news to tell anyways...as you can see by the numbers, they are going up, Up, UP again. I started taking Prozac a few days ago...this depression I've had since August has just been eating away at me. I hope it helps. Guess I'll find out in a few weeks. Hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving Day...of course mine was full of too much food and not enough exercise.

November 29th (???): I haven't weight myself since Thankgsgiving, I'm almost afraid to step on the scale. Its been a bad eating weekend, to say the least. We had company in from Arizona and it was basically an eating frenzy from Thursday til Sunday. I've got to somehow get back on track or I'm going to gain back the 35 lbs that I've lost this year.