July 1st (290): Well here I am again, it's been a few months since I've even weighed myself. Of course, there was a 10 lb gain since the last time I've weighed in; I wasn't expecting a loss, but sure would have liked to at least maintained my weight the last 6 months. But...it's a new month heading on the downside of 1999 towards the year 2000 and I've got 6 months to make up for my lack of motivation this past year. I went grocery shopping today and stocked up on fruits and veggies and healthy food. I re-installed Dietwatch and started tracking my food intake for today. My goal for July is to drink at least 32 oz of water a day, swim in the pool at least 5 times a week, and to update my journal at least twice a week. This last goal I'd like to work up to updating every day, but it's going to take time to get back into that mode.

July 2nd (289): I managed to get through breakfast and lunch yesterday staying on plan...actually eating less than my plan told me to eat. Then Dinner came. Then late night snacking came. THEN..getting up at 3am to eat stale Oreo cookies and milk. Ugh. They tasted nasty, SO WHY DID I EAT THEM? Ok, quit beating myself up. I did stick with my plan for two out of three meals, so that's a big step considering the last year or so has been one big bingefest all day long. I went swimming last night, I can't say that it was very strenous, but I did move around in the water for 15-20 minutes, so it's a start. I'm going to get one of those paddle boards to put in the pool so I can kick my legs in the pool. I borrowed one from another girl in the pool and I could really feel it working my leg muscles when I used it.

July 5th: Happy 4th of July...errr I guess now it's Happy 5th of July. Didn't stick with any kind of program over the weekend. I totally blew it at the movie theater not once, but twice. SouthPark on Saturday and Wild Wild West on Sunday. Popcorn, coke, and butter fingers...don't think I could have gotten any worse. Tomorrow I start my new job...I start bright and early at 7:00 am. Yuck. I stocked up on Lean Cuisine frozen dinners, yogurt, fruit and veggies...and plan to eat healthy during the week.

July 8th: I forgot to weigh myself this morning, so will do that first thing tomorrow and update my progress chart. Nothing much to update with the past couple days...just been working my new job. Hate getting up so early =P

July 10th (290): Well, no loss this week, but no gain either. I guess I can't complain too much. I haven't been real good at changing my eating habits this week. The monsoon season has started here, so we've been getting these huge dust storms and rain, so I haven't been swimming much this week cuz the pool is filthy.

July 14th: Eating still going down the tubes. Ugh. Why can't I get motivated. My sister sent me a picture of the Maid of Honor gown I'm going to wear at her wedding. I'll post the link so you can see what it looks like. I can't imagine how awful that gown will look in a 26-28. Yikes. I've got to get going or I'll never get this weight off. I'm going to try Metabolife to see how it works. At this point, I don't see how it could hurt. Update: I added the picture of the dress I'll be wearing to my sister's wedding in April. I look at myself in the mirror and can't imagine how I could ever make that dress look decent at 290 lbs. My sister said the dress sizes go up to a size 44.. I can't even imagine...

July 19th: My daughter came back from Texas yesterday. She was gone for a whole month visiting both sets of grandparents. I missed her so much and am so glad she's back home again. We bought her a puppy, an adorable poodle mix that's white with brown spots. He just loves her to death and Alexis was so surprized to see him! We went shopping today and I stocked up on diet type foods to take to work...have been eating way too much fast food and vending machine junk the last two weeks.

July 24th: I started taking Metabolife on Thursday. I think it's helping a little, I'm afraid to weigh myself because if I don't see any loss at all, I'm going to be discouraged. I'm going to weigh in on Monday morning and see if I've dropped any. I feel like I'm eating less, although I don't feel more energetic. At 290 lbs, how much energy can one expect to have, though?

July 28th (288): Wooh Hooh! -2 lbs. First time I've seen a loss in sheeeeeze I can't even remember when. The metabolife helps curb my appetite a little, can't really say I've been following much of anything structured though. Baby steps, I guess...