Well..at this point I am hesitating to share the details of my life..because it has taken on quite a "SOAP OPERA-ISH" twist!!
The day I went for a sonogram of the baby ..I also had a sonogram on my left breast..a year earlier I had detected a lump..and had a mammogram...the surgeon said it was not a cyst but most likely a "fibroednoma" {I may have spelled that wrong} "We will watch it...see if it get's bigger " la dee dah....ok by me...no big deal...
Well...on the sonogram and with a second opinion the dreaded lump now looks "suspicious" and I am planning a bon voyage party for it ..on the 22nd of this month.It is an outpatient thing...I think the procedure is called an "excisional biopsy"...or a "lumpectomy" So ..in laywomen's terms...I am getting a hunk of my left boob removed..a very suspicious hunk,that is!
Things with the baby looked cool on the sonogram..still cannot tell the gender..I will know more when we go over the results on this next midwife visit....
I was up to 220 on my last visit and I do not think I have gained more than 2 pounds this month..I have been eating pretty sensibly..no binges to speak of.
I got a few maternity outfits..I can still fit rather comfortably into 18's or XL ...and for this I am greatful. Work sucks..I wish Ed McMann would show up with my million dollar check so I could turn in my two week notice.I have been watching OPRAH lately...the new OPRAH ,that is .. trying to do all the "self help" stuff. It is pretty interesting.
Well...hang tough!!
I MUST SAY ...I am a happy camper @ this point! I was so worried that I had the BIG-"C"! It was not so bad after all at the hospital..once the nurse got the IV in the right place on the 2nd try..at first I was squirting blood like a fountain..because he forgot to cap off the end of the tube with the IV thingie{that is a technical term..."thingie"} For some reason I thought it was hysterically funny that he messed up and I was spurting blood like a fountain...and that was BEFORE he slipped me the nice drugs !!!! Go figure..
I was wheeled into the operating room ..and my knees have never knocked together in such a way!! It was like a cartoon..I was so nervous..almost having a panic attack...then they prepped me ..and contorted my body so as to make it more accesible for the Dr.
I had visions of a miscarriage..I had every negative thought I could have...Since I was having a "local" with a light relaxant I was still in my "right mind" at that point...I had Art,the vampire nurse,who apparently got no higher than a c- in the phlebotomy portion of his nursing exam...adjust the headphone so I could try to concentrate on the Barb CD that was in my player....then the dear man Art gave me the best drugs I had ever had in my life!! In the nick of time I might add....
My knees stopped shaking..my hands stopped trembling..my "insides" were calm...and I think I poceeded to tell Art what a fine job he did on the selection of drugs...and proceeded to tell the surgeon and the rest of the operating team the condensed story of my life....I swear..as hard as I tried I just could not shut up!!!
When he got the "fatty tumor" {as he referred to it} out..he asked if I would like to inspect it..."sure ..why not"..I said.. And let me tell you right now..there must be some truth to the rumor that you are what you eat..because it looked like a Dunkin' Munchkin......perched on the end of his trusty hemo-stats...
Then I got a drain inserted and some stitches...and that was all there was to it....even before the stitches ..the lab reported back that it was not cancer...so I was elated to say the least.
The old man was with me...along with Miss.Daisy and Miss.Crazy..I must say..I do have a very caring family..they had all come to be with me in my hour of fear! I only had to stay in recovery for an hour..I asked Art if I could have another hit of whatever he gave me for the road...and that was that....
I go today to get the drain removed...
On to weight related news I gained 10 pounds between the Sept 21st and Oct 21st mid-wife appt. That shocked me!! as I am still fitting comfortably in the 18's..so I think the total is up to 15 pounds...I must be diligent and exercise...and continue not to binge..I just know that any extra pounds I put on will make the labor and delivery more difficult...Well kids...thanks for all the well wishes...I appreciate those of you that have stuck with the page ,even though I have not been updating as much lately...
xxoo Dianna