[CAPTIONING MADE POSSIBLE BY U.S. DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION] [KNOCK ON DOOR] CAMERON: YOU'RE 48 HOURS TOO LATE. I ALREADY FIXED IT MYSELF. AMANDA: CAMERON? CAMERON: AMANDA? CAMERON: I THOUGHT YOU WERE -- I THOUGHT YOU WERE MAINTENANCE -- OR WHAT PASSES FOR IT IN THIS BUILDING. I CALLED THEM A COUPLE DAYS AGO. AMANDA: HMM. CAMERON: I WAS JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU. AMANDA: I WAS JUST GETTING SET TO DREAM ABOUT YOU. AND THEN I THOUGHT, WHY JUST DREAM? YOU CAN HAVE THE REAL THING. JOSIE: WHAT DO YOU THINK? GARY: I KNOW THAT LOOK. JOSIE: I DIDN'T HEAR YOU COME IN. GARY: OH, I KNEW WHAT YOU'RE DOING. YOU'RE HATING ALL YOUR NEW CLOTHES AND, "OH, WHY DID I BUY THIS? THIS MAKES ME LOOK FAT --" YADDA, YADDA, YADDA, YADDA, YADDA. WHY DO WOMEN DO THAT? DON'T YOU KNOW YOU'RE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING ON TWO FEET? JOSIE: OH, STOP. GARY: AND LUCKY FOR ME, YOU'RE ALL MINE. JOSIE: NO, I AM THE LUCKY ONE. GARY: YEAH? JOSIE: YES. GARY: YOU'RE PROBABLY RIGHT. BUT ONLY THE TRULY LUCKY GET PRESENTS WHEN IT'S NOT EVEN THEIR BIRTHDAY. JOSIE: GARY, WHAT DID YOU DO? GARY: COME ON, IT'S NO BIG DEAL. IT'S NOT A PRECIOUS STONE OR ANYTHING. IT'S JUST SOMETHING A LITTLE SYMBOLIC. OH, WHAT'S THE MATTER? I KNOW. MR. TAKES EVERYTHING AT FACE VALUE KIND OF GETS SYMBOLIC ON YOU. THAT'S KIND OF WEIRD, I KNOW, BUT -- JOSIE: GARY, I CAN'T. GARY: OPEN IT. WELL, SURE, YOU CAN. JOSIE: NO. GARY: WELL, WHY CAN'T YOU? JOSIE: I -- I CAN'T ACCEPT SOMETHING THAT I DO NOT DESERVE. CASS: YOUR MOUTH IS OPEN. LILA: OH, FORGIVE ME. I THINK I'M HAVING AN OUTER BODY EXPERIENCE. I THINK YOU SAID WHAT YOU COULDN'T POSSIBLY IN A MILLION, TRILLION YEARS HAVE SAID, DID YOU? CASS: IF YOU'RE REFERRING TO MY ASKING YOU TO MARRY ME, WHICH WORD DIDN'T YOU UNDERSTAND, THE "MARRY" OR THE "ME"? LILA: WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? CASS: WHAT? LILA: DID SOMEBODY MAKE A BET WITH YOU THAT YOU COULD GET ME TO SAY YES? CASS: AS STRANGE AS IT MAY SOUND, I HAVE NO MONEY RIDING ON THIS PROPOSAL. MY STABILITY, MAYBE. MY SELF-RESPECT, QUITE PROBABLY. BUT, NO, I DIDN'T ASK YOU TO MARRY ME FOR THE PURPOSES OF ANY REMUNERATIVE GAIN. I JUST DID IT BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU'D WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH SOMEONE WHO GIVES A DAMN. LILA: AND THE WEDDING PART -- YOU ENVISIONED THAT HAPPENING WHEN? CASS: WELL, LET'S TAKE IT FROM THE BABY'S POINT OF VIEW, ALL RIGHT? IF WE GET MARRIED TONIGHT, THAT WOULD GUARANTEE THAT WHEN THE NEW GUY COMES INTO THE WORLD, HE'D COME INTO IT WITH A -- WITH A NAME. LILA: TONIGHT? CASS: OH, NO, YOU DON'T. THIS IS NO TIME TO GO ALL PALE AND SPEECHLESS ON ME HERE, LILA, NOT WITH MY GUTS LYING IN A LURID PILE ON THE GROUND. SAY SOMETHING, LILA. THIS IS A ONE-TIME-ONLY OFFER. IT REQUIRES AN ANSWER. LILA: UH -- I CAN'T GIVE YOU AN ANSWER, CASS. I MEAN, I CAN'T GIVE YOU AN ANSWER UNTIL ONE THING IS ABSOLUTELY CLEAR. I MEAN, THIS PROPOSAL -- DID YOU -- ARE YOU SAYING THAT -- THAT -- I MEAN, ARE YOU IMPLYING THAT -- OH, HELL, CASS. DO YOU LOVE ME? ZAK: WINTHROP SAID SOMETHING ABOUT A PARK. MAN: FIND HER. ZAK: YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. LILA'S NOT AN EASY PERSON TO KEEP TRACK OF. SHE'S UNPREDICTABLE. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO WINTHROP. MAN: CASS WINTHROP WILL NOT INTERFERE WITH MY PLANS FOR MS. ROBERTS. FIND THEM. CASS: LILA, I'VE SPENT A FEW MORE YEARS ON THIS PLANET THAN YOU HAVE, AND I'VE FOUND THAT IT DOESN'T HELP TO BE TOO ANALYTICAL ABOUT THESE THINGS. YOU KNOW AS WELL AS I DO THAT THERE ARE AS MANY DEFINITIONS OF THE WORD "LOVE" AS THERE ARE PEOPLE ON THE PLANET. SO TO PIN SOMEBODY DOWN TO A VERY SPECIFIC -- LILA: HANG ON A SECOND. CASS: ONE-LINE -- LILA: I'M NOT INTERESTED IN THIS SILVER-TONGUE ORATOR THAT YOU DO -- THIS THING YOU DO IN THE COURTROOM. SAVE IT FOR THAT. AND I DON'T WANT A HUNDRED DEFINITIONS OF "LOVE." I JUST WANT ONE, YOUR PERSONAL ONE. CASS: YOU WANT MY PERSONAL DEFINITION OF LOVE? LILA: YES, AS IT APPLIES TO ME -- I MEAN, IF IT APPLIES TO ME. OH, CASS. HELL, YOU JUST CAME OUT OF THE BLUE WITH A MARRIAGE PROPOSAL. ISN'T IT FAIR FOR ME TO ASK HOW YOU GOT THERE? HOW DO YOU REALLY FEEL ABOUT ME? CASS: HOW DO I REALLY FEEL ABOUT YOU? LILA: YES. CASS: I FEEL SCARED SPITLESS, SWEETHEART. SCARED FOR MY HEART, MY SOUL, WHAT'S LEFT OF MY MIND. THANKS TO YOU, I CAN'T EVEN DIGEST A DECENT MEAL ANYMORE. YOU'RE LIKE SOME KIND OF CRAZY BIOLOGICAL STATIC CAUSING MAJOR INTERFERENCE IN MY CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM, WHICH I SUPPOSE ALL LEADS TO THE CHILLING CONCLUSION THAT, YES, GOD HELP ME, I DO LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOUR MOUTH. I LOVE YOUR CHIN. I LOVE YOUR BEAUTIFUL BLUE EYES. I LOVE YOUR WICKED SMILE. I LOVE YOUR GORGEOUS, SILKY HAIR. I LOVE YOUR DOGGED PERSISTENCE AND YOUR SEARCH-AND-DESTROY APPROACH TO LIFE AND THE WORLD AND YOUR UNBELIEVABLE, UNBEARABLE MOXIE -- DO I HAVE TO DRAW YOU A MAP? I LOVE EVERY PREGNANT INCH OF YOU. LILA: OH, MY GOD. I DON'T THINK YOU'RE KIDDING. CASS: DOES THIS FEEL LIKE I'M KIDDING? CASS: APPARENTLY, I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH FEELINGS HERE. LILA: NOW, HOLD ON JUST A MINUTE. CASS: NO, NO, NO. YOU FORGET IT. THAT KISS TOLD ME EVERYTHING I NEED TO KNOW, SO YOU CAN -- YOU CAN STOP YOUR SCHEMING, TEEMING LITTLE BRAIN FROM WORKING RIGHT NOW. COME ON, YOU GOT TO LET YOUR HEART DO THE THINKING FOR ONCE. MARRY ME. WHAT? LILA: OH. OH, MY GOD, THE BABY JUST KICKED ME SO HARD. THAT'S THE HARDEST IT'S EVER KICKED ME. DO YOU THINK MAYBE HE'S TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING? CASS: WELL, OF COURSE HE IS. THE KID'S NO FOOL. HE WANTS HIS MAMA TO BE HAPPY. THE BIG QUESTION IS, IS SHE READY TO BE HAPPY? IS SHE GOING TO LET HERSELF BE HAPPY? LILA: SHE WILL. CASS: YOU WILL -- YOU WILL? WHAT? LILA: I WILL. I WILL MARRY YOU. JOSIE: IF ANYBODY SHOULD BE BUYING ANYONE GIFTS, IT SHOULD BE ME. I MEAN, YOU WERE THE ONE IN THE HOSPITAL SO SICK. GARY, WE DIDN'T KNOW WHEN YOU WERE COMING HOME OR HOW. I MEAN, I SHOULD HAVE FILLED UP THIS ROOM WITH PRESENTS FOR WHEN YOU CAME BACK. BUT INSTEAD, YOU'RE OUT SHOPPING FOR ME, MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I'M THE SPECIAL ONE. GARY: BECAUSE YOU ARE. JOSIE: NO, I AM NOT. GARY: HEY, IF YOU TRY TO ARGUE WITH ME, I'LL HAVE YOUR HEAD EXAMINED. JOSIE: GARY -- GARY: SHH, SHH. SHH. NOW, ARE YOU GOING TO GET THE BALL ROLLING, OR WHAT? OK. GARY: IT'S A DATE BOOK. HERE, TURN TO THANKSGIVING. JOSIE: "THANKSGIVING. GARY AND JOSIE SAVE WISHBONE FROM TURKEY. WISH EVERY YEAR WILL BRING US MUCH TO BE THANKFUL FOR." GARY: WELL, DON'T STOP THERE. TURN TO CHRISTMAS. JOSIE: "CHRISTMAS EVE. SET TABLE FOR FIRST FAMILY CHRISTMAS. NEW YEAR'S EVE. GARY, JOSIE, CAMERON, AND AMANDA TOAST THE COMING NEW YEAR AND POSSIBLE ADDITION TO THE FAMILY." GARY: HONEY, THERE IS NOTHING THAT WE CAN'T GET THROUGH -- NOT A FIGHT, NOT A SETBACK. DO YOU KNOW WHY? BECAUSE WE HAVE THE GIFT OF THE FUTURE, AND THERE IS NO REASON WHY WE CANNOT LIVE FOR THAT. AMANDA: I KNOW THIS ISN'T EXACTLY WHAT WE TALKED ABOUT. CAMERON: I THOUGHT YOU SAID WE WERE GOING TO TAKE IT SLOW SO WE COULD GET PAST BOCA LYNDA. AMANDA: YEAH, YEAH, YEAH. I KNOW, I KNOW. BUT I DIDN'T HEAR FROM YOU AT ALL TODAY, AND I WAS SITTING AT HOME ALONE, AND I THOUGHT MAYBE YOU WERE SITTING AT HOME ALONE. AND SUDDENLY, THE IDEA OF PATIENCE AND CAUTION JUST SEEMED REALLY LAME. MAKE LOVE TO ME. AMANDA: WHAT'S WRONG? CAMERON: IF YOU ONLY KNEW HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME TO SAY THIS. AMANDA: WAIT, WAIT, WAIT. I'M CONFUSED. I NEVER WOULD HAVE COME OVER HERE UNLESS I WAS SURE. I THOUGHT YOU WANTED ME. CAMERON: THERE'S NOTHING MORE THAT I WANT RIGHT NOW. BUT IF WE RUSH INTO THIS, IT'S A STEP THAT YOU CAN'T TAKE BACK. AMANDA: WHY WOULD I WANT TO? CAMERON: REMEMBER YOU SAID SOMETIMES YOU WISH YOU HAD KNOWN ME MORE THAN YOU DO, HOW YOU NEVER WANTED TO MAKE THAT SAME KIND OF MISTAKE THAT YOU MADE BEFORE? AMANDA: I WAS TALKING FROM FEAR. I'M NOT AFRAID ANYMORE. CAMERON: AMANDA, WHEN WE MAKE LOVE, IT CAN'T BE BECAUSE WE JUST JUMP INTO IT WITHOUT THINKING. OTHERWISE, THERE'S GOING TO BE LOTS OF REGRETS. AND WE'RE TOO GOOD FOR REGRETS. I PUT YOU THROUGH HELL IN BOCA LYNDA. I WANT YOU TO TAKE ENOUGH TIME TO GET PAST IT. AMANDA: I AM SICK OF BEING VICTIMIZED BY WHAT HAPPENED IN BOCA LYNDA. I DON'T -- I'M TIRED OF WAITING. I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANYMORE. I WANT MY LIFE BACK. CAMERON: BUT CAN YOU HONESTLY SAY THAT YOU PUT ALL THE BAD STUFF BEHIND YOU? THAT YOU'RE NOT HURT? THAT YOU'RE NOT ANGRY ANYMORE ABOUT WHAT YOU SAW? AMANDA: OK, OK, I KNOW THAT AMANDA: OK, OK, I KNOW THAT I WAS A LITTLE HARD ON JOSIE LAST NIGHT. MY FEELINGS TOWARD JOSIE AND MY FEELINGS TOWARDS YOU ARE VERY SEPARATE. CAMERON: MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT, OK? MAYBE YOU'RE READY. BUT WAS THERE AN IMPULSE -- DID YOU GO ON IMPULSE WHEN YOU CAME OVER HERE? AMANDA: MAYBE I DID, BUT THERE'S SUCH A THING AS A GOOD IMPULSE. CAMERON: AND THERE'S SUCH A THING AS BEING SURE THAT YOU'RE READY. I WANT YOU TO BE READY, AMANDA. BECAUSE WHEN WE MAKE LOVE, IT'S GOING TO BE THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. IT IS. AND I DON'T WANT TO LOOK AT YOU AND SEE YOU HAVING SECOND THOUGHTS WHEN IT'S OVER. CAMERON: I'LL BE WORTH THE WAIT. AT YOU AND SEE YOU HAVING SECOND THOUGHTS WHEN IT'S OVER. CAMERON: I'LL BE WORTH THE WAIT. I PROMISE. AMANDA: ONE DAY I MAY THANK YOU FOR THIS, BUT RIGHT NOW I WANT TO STRANGLE YOU. CHEERFULLY. AMANDA: YOU'RE GOING TO REGRET THIS, PAL. CAMERON: I ALREADY DO. THERE'S NOT GOING TO BE A COLD SHOWER THAT'S COLD ENOUGH. AMANDA: YOU SURE YOU DON'T WANT TO RECONSIDER? CAMERON: GET OUT OF HERE BEFORE I STOP BEING SO DAMN NOBLE. [TELEPHONE RINGS] CAMERON: HELLO. JOSIE: IT'S ME. CAN YOU TALK? CAMERON: HOLD ON. I SHOULD NEVER HAVE WENT INTO BUSINESS WITH MY BROTHER. I'M NEVER GOING TO HAVE A MOMENT'S PEACE. AMANDA: GIVE GARY MY LOVE, OK? AND -- CALL ME TOMORROW. CAMERON: DEFINITELY. AMANDA: OK. CAMERON: JOSIE, WHERE ARE YOU? JOSIE: I'M AT HOME. LISTEN, I'M GOING TO TELL GARY I HAVE AN EMERGENCY AND I HAVE TO GO TO THE STATION, OK? I NEED TO SEE YOU. CAMERON: WHY? WHAT HAPPENED? JOSIE: I FINALLY KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO, CAMERON, ABOUT THE BABY AND ABOUT GARY. CASS: THEY'RE A LITTLE SCRAWNY, BUT EVERY BRIDE DESERVES TO HAVE A WEDDING BOUQUET, AND I WASN'T SURE IF WE'D BE ABLE TO FIND A FLORIST THAT WOULD BE OPEN AT THIS HOUR. LILA: WELL, I'M SURPRISED YOU FOUND ANYTHING STILL IN BLOOM. CASS: THERE ARE A FEW HEARTY VARIETIES STILL OUT HERE. AND LATELY I'VE -- I'VE LEARNED THAT THE THINGS THAT ARE MOST BEAUTIFUL, THE MOST ELEGANT, TURN OUT TO BE TOUGH AS NAILS. LILA: SOMETIMES THEY DON'T WANT TO BE. CASS: YOU'VE HAD A LOT TO HANDLE ALL ON YOUR OWN, LILA. BUT NOW YOU GET TO SHARE THE LOAD WITH SOMEONE, YOU KNOW, AND TO SHARE THE GOOD THINGS, TOO. HEY, YOU KNOW, IF WE GET OVER TO THE HOUSE AND BREAK IT TO CHARLIE, THE THREE OF US COULD MAKE IT OVER TO THE STATE LINE AND FIND A JUSTICE OF THE PEACE BEFORE MIDNIGHT. OH, LILA. LILA: WHAT? CASS: LILA, IF YOU DON'T MEAN THIS, IF YOUR YES IS THE VERBAL EQUIVALENT TO PUSHING ME IN THE SWIMMING POOL, YOU GOT TO TELL ME NOW, PLEASE. LILA: CASS. HOW COULD I SAY ANYTHING BUT YES? I MEAN, NOBODY -- NOBODY IN MY WHOLE LIFE HAS EVER LOOKED AT ME LIKE YOU DID, NOT EVEN SHANE. I MEAN, IT MADE ME WANT TO LAUGH AND CRY ALL AT THE SAME TIME. I MEAN, IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE -- GOD, I'M GETTING CARRIED AWAY HERE. IT MADE ME FEEL LIKE -- LIKE I WAS SHIVERING AND SOMEBODY PUT A BIG, WARM BLANKET AROUND ME. DOES THAT SOUND SILLY? CASS: I WON'T LET YOU DOWN, LILA. I PROMISE. I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU WANT TO BE A PART OF A FAMILY. OH, WE COULD MAKE SUCH AN INCREDIBLE FAMILY -- YOU AND THE BABY AND CHARLIE AND ME. OH, WAIT A SECOND. YOU HAVE TO BE SURE THAT YOU'RE READY AND WILLING TO GIVE UP YOUR FIXATION ON THE CORYS. LILA: ARE YOU GOING TO MARRY ME OR WHAT? CASS: YES! YES, I AM! WHOA! [THUNDER] CASS: IT'S OK. IT'S OK. IT'S JUST A LITTLE LIGHTNING. LILA: OH, GOD. OH, CASS. CASS: SHH. LILA: NO, NO, NO, NO. WE CAN'T GET MARRIED IN A STORM. CASS: HEY -- SIT DOWN. LILA: NO. CASS: I KNOW YOU HAVE THIS THING ABOUT THUNDER AND LIGHTNING, HONEY. LILA: OH, BUT EVEN IF I DIDN'T, DON'T YOU KNOW GETTING MARRIED IN A STORM IS BAD LUCK? CASS: PLEASE, PLEASE, NO SOUTHERN-FRIED FOLKLORE. BAD LUCK ISN'T COMING AROUND TO YOU ANYMORE, AND YOU KNOW WHY? BECAUSE I WON'T LET IT. I WON'T LET ANYTHING BAD HAPPEN TO YOU EVER AGAIN. CASS: YOU KNOW, I KNOW THAT A JUSTICE OF THE PEACE ISN'T THE WEDDING THAT YOU DREAMED OF EXACTLY. SHH. [THUNDER] CASS: IT'S OK. BUT I PROMISE YOU, WHEN THE BABY COMES, WE'RE GOING TO HAVE THE RECEPTION TO END ALL RECEPTIONS. LILA: A GREAT BIG ONE? CASS: THE BIGGEST ONE AND THE GAUDIEST ONE. LILA: OH, STOP. CASS: WITH HUNDREDS OF WHITE DOVES AND A 50-PIECE ORCHESTRA AND AN ICE SCULPTURE THAT'S CARVED IN THE SHAPE OF A DOLLAR SIGN. ANYTHING YOUR OSTENTATIOUS LITTLE HEART DESIRES. COME ON. LILA: WELL, NOW YOU'RE TALKING MY LANGUAGE. CASS: COME ON. LILA: WHERE DID YOU PARK YOUR CAR? CASS: DON'T YOU WORRY. IT'S RIGHT OVER -- NO. THIS IS NOT HAPPENING. LILA: WHAT? WHAT'S HAPPENING? CASS: SOMEBODY STOLE MY BLOODY CAR, THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING. [THUNDER] LILA: OH, CASS. I THOUGHT YOU SAID THE BAD LUCK WAS OVER. CAMERON: YOU CAN'T DO THIS. THIS ISN'T GOOD FOR YOU OR FOR THE BABY. JOSIE: YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND. GARY GAVE ME THIS BOOK. CAMERON: A BOOK? JOSIE: YES. IT'S LIKE A DATE BOOK, A CALENDAR. AND INSIDE, HE WROTE THE SWEETEST, MOST SIMPLEST THINGS THAT WE WERE GOING TO DO TOGETHER. AND IT WAS LIKE SUDDENLY I COULD SEE ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE STRETCHING OUT BEFORE ME. YOU KNOW, LIKE WE WERE GOING TO BE WAKING UP TOGETHER EVERY MORNING AND GOING TO SLEEP TOGETHER AND THE FIRST DAY THAT WE WOULD BRING OUR CHILD TO KINDERGARTEN. CAMERON: JOSIE -- JOSIE: NO. I HAVE TO DO THIS, CAMERON. IT WAS LIKE -- YOU SEE, I'M THE ONE WHO'S GOING TO HAVE TO TURN AWAY WHEN HE SAYS TO ME, "LOOK AT THAT TERRIFIC KID. DO YOU THINK HE HAS MY EYES?" I CAN'T DO THAT, CAMERON. I CAN'T DO THAT TO THE ONE PERSON I LOVE MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE IN THIS WORLD. CAMERON: SO WHAT ARE YOU SAYING? JOSIE: I HAVE TO TELL HIM. SOMEHOW I HAVE TO FIND THE STRENGTH TO TELL HIM THAT I AM CARRYING YOUR CHILD. LILA: YOU HAVE YOUR CELL PHONE ON YOU, DON'T YOU? CASS: NO, I -- I DON'T. LILA: WHAT DID YOU DO WITH YOUR CELL PHONE? CASS: WELL, IT'S IN MY BRIEFCASE, WHICH IS IN MY CAR, WHICH WAS STOLEN. LILA: OH, GOD, CASS. [THUNDER] CASS: SHH. COME ON, NOW. IT'S OK. SIT DOWN. WE'RE SAFE NOW. COME ON, LILA, WE GOT A ROOF OVER OUR HEADS. AND NOW THAT YOU SAID YOU'RE GOING TO MARRY ME, ALL'S RIGHT WITH THE WORLD. [THUNDER] CASS: OH, COME ON, BABY. HEY, HEY, HEY, HEY. LILA: OH, CASS. OH, CASS. CASS: WOULD YOU EXPLAIN SOMETHING TO ME. LILA: WHAT? CASS: I NEVER DID UNDERSTAND WHY A WOMAN WHO'S SO GUTSY COULD HAVE SUCH A TOUGH TIME AND GET SO SPOOKED WITH A LITTLE WEATHER. LILA: I DON'T KNOW. I'VE BEEN LIKE THIS EVER SINCE I WAS 8 YEARS OLD. CASS: DID SOMETHING HAPPEN TO YOU WHEN YOU WERE 8? LILA: WELL, YEAH. I MEAN, A LOT OF THINGS HAPPENED. NONE OF THEM GOOD. WHY DON'T WE JUST SKIP IT, OK? CASS: NO. I DON'T THINK WE SHOULD DO THAT. LILA: OH, CASS, PLEASE. LOOK, I -- I HAVEN'T TOLD MANY PEOPLE, AND I REALLY DON'T LIKE TALKING ABOUT IT. HONEST, I DON'T. CASS: LILA, I'M GOING TO BE YOUR HUSBAND. MAYBE IT'S NOT SUCH A BAD IDEA IF WE START SHARING CONFIDENCES. DON'T YOU THINK? I WANT A REAL MARRIAGE. I WANT TO KNOW YOU. I WANT YOU TO KNOW ME. LILA: I WANT THAT, TOO. CASS: YEAH? DO YOU? LILA: YEAH. CASS: THEN TALK TO ME. WHERE WERE YOU LIVING WHEN YOU WERE 8? NEW ORLEANS? LILA: YES. CASS: YEAH? LILA: WITH MAMA. I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH YOU'VE FIGURED OUT BY NOW, BUT SURELY YOU'VE SENSED SHE WASN'T MOTHER OF THE YEAR. CASS: WELL, I'VE GOTTEN THE IMPRESSION THAT SHE LIKED TO PARTY AND THAT MAYBE SHE WAS MORE INTERESTED IN DOING THAT THAN TAKING CARE OF YOU. LILA: "PARTYING'S" A GOOD WAY TO PUT IT. DIFFERENT, ANYWAY. EXCEPT MOST PEOPLE DON'T GET PAID TO PARTY. MAMA WAS A PRO. CASS: DID YOU KNOW THAT WHEN YOU WERE 8? LILA: UM -- I DID AND I DIDN'T. YOU KNOW, MOSTLY WHAT I KNEW IS THAT THERE WERE MEN AROUND ALL THE TIME AND -- SOME OF THEM MAMA CALLED BOYFRIENDS. SOME OF THE REGULARS WANTED ME TO CALL THEM UNCLE SO-AND-SO, BUT I NEVER DID. SOMETIMES MAMA WOULD GO OUT EARLY EVENING AND THEN SHE'D GET HOME AROUND 3:00 OR 4:00 IN THE MORNING. CASS: SHE'D LEAVE YOU ALONE ALL THAT TIME? LILA: WELL -- SHE WOULD SET ME UP IN FRONT OF A TV. WE HAD THIS LITTLE, YOU KNOW, BLACK AND WHITE. IT WAS ALWAYS ON THE FRITZ. AND SHE'D GIVE ME A GREAT BIG OLD BOWL OF CEREAL, AND I'D MOST OF THE TIME DOZE OFF. IF MAMA CAME HOME WITH A BOYFRIEND, I'D BE ASLEEP, USUALLY -- SOUND ENOUGH SO I DIDN'T HEAR ANYTHING. CASS: DEAR GOD. LILA: THEN THERE WAS THIS -- THIS ONE NIGHT. IT WAS A STORM. GOD, IT WAS SO LOUD. AND THERE WAS THIS TREE OUTSIDE MY DOOR. AND IT FELL, AND IT WOKE ME UP, AND I RAN INSIDE MY CLOSET, AND I HID. BUT I COULD STILL SEE THE LIGHTNING FROM UNDERNEATH THE CRACK OF MY DOOR, AND IT WAS SO STRONG, I FELT LIKE I WAS GOING TO -- [THUNDER] LILA: I FELT LIKE IT WAS GOING TO BURN A HOLE RIGHT THROUGH THE DOORS. I WANTED TO GO WHERE MAMA WAS, AND I HEARD HER IN THE OTHER ROOM WITH ONE OF HER BOYFRIENDS. AND HE WAS YELLING AT HER. HE SEEMED TO WANT SOME MONEY. I WANTED SO BAD TO GO IN THERE, BUT IT SOUNDED LIKE HE WAS HURTING HER AND -- AND I WAS AFRAID THAT IF I WENT IN THERE THAT HE WAS GOING TO HURT ME, TOO, SO -- CASS: POOR BABY. LILA: BUT I HAD TO, YOU KNOW -- HAD TO GO DOWN THE HALL, AND I HAD TO FIND SOMEBODY THAT WAS GOING TO TELL ME THAT I WASN'T GOING TO GET KILLED IN THIS STORM, SO -- I HID BEHIND A DRESSER, AND THEN I PEEKED OVER IT, AND I SAW HIM STANDING OVER MY MOTHER WITH A KNIFE IN HIS HAND. CASS: NO, DON'T TELL ME THIS. DON'T TELL ME YOU SAW SOMEBODY GO AFTER YOUR MOTHER WITH A KNIFE. LILA: HE KILLED HER, CASS. HE STABBED HER OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER -- CASS: SHH. OH, MY GOD. OH, MY GOD. I CAN'T TELL YOU WHAT I WOULD GIVE TO ERASE THAT MEMORY FROM YOUR MIND. OH, MY GOD. NO CHILD DESERVES TO SEE -- IT'S UNSPEAKABLE WHAT YOU SAW. I DON'T KNOW HOW YOU LIVED THROUGH THAT. LILA: I RAN BACK TO MY CLOSET TO HIDE, AND I DON'T THINK HE EVER KNEW I WAS THERE. I'VE DONE A LOT OF RUNNING SINCE THEN, CASS. CASS: WELL, NOT ANYMORE. I PROMISED TO YOU. YOU'RE GOING TO BE SAFE NOW. BECAUSE WHEN THE LIGHTNING AND THE THUNDER COME ALONG, I'LL BE THERE. WHEN ANYTHING BAD COMES ALONG, I'LL BE THERE, FOR A LIFETIME. LILA: NO. NO. NOBODY CAN DO THAT FOR A LIFETIME, CASS. THIS IS WRONG. I CAN'T DO THIS. CASS: WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT, LILA? LILA: YOU HAVE TO GET ME BACK TO THE CORYS RIGHT AWAY. CASS: LILA, FOR GOD'S SWEET SAKE! LILA: I JUST HAVE TO GO BACK THERE. CASS, I CAN'T DO THIS. I CAN'T MARRY YOU. [THUNDER] LILA: WHAT AM I -- WHAT AM I DOING -- WHAT AM I DOING ABOUT MY BABY? AM I GIVING MY BABY TWO FATHERS? ALWAYS EXPLAINING TO EVERYBODY WHO'S WHO? THAT'S NOT RIGHT. THAT'S NOT A PROPER FAMILY, CASS. CASS: PROPER? LILA: IT'S NOT. CASS: WHAT'S A PROPER FAMILY? A FAMILY IS PEOPLE WHO LOVE EACH OTHER AND AGREE TO BE THERE FOR ONE ANOTHER. LILA: MATT? WHAT ABOUT MATT? I MEAN, HE'S INVESTED IN THIS BABY. WHAT IF HE DECIDES THAT HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU HAVING CUSTODY OR BEING THE FATHER OF HIS BABY? WHAT IF HE TRIES TO SUE ME FOR CUSTODY AND TAKE THE BABY AWAY? CASS: HONEY, YOU'RE JUMPING THE GUN. PEOPLE WORK THESE THINGS OUT ALL THE TIME. LILA: YOU'RE ASKING ME TO RISK LOSING MY BABY, CASS. CASS: NO, I'M ASKING YOU TO MAKE SENSE FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE. YOU'RE FIXATED ON SOMETHING THAT HASN'T EVEN HAPPENED YET, THE WAY YOU WERE FIXATED ON SOMETHING THAT WASN'T GOING TO HAPPEN WHEN YOU SET YOUR SIGHTS ON MATT CORY. DO YOU REALIZE HOW MADDENING YOU ARE? LILA: YOU SEE? THIS JUST PROVES THAT WE SHOULDN'T BE TOGETHER. LOOK AT YOU. ONE MINUTE YOU ARE AS HAPPY AS A CLAM, AND THEN NEXT YOU'RE FURIOUS WITH ME, CASS. CASS: WELL, OF COURSE I'M FURIOUS AT YOU! TWO SECONDS AGO YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO MARRY ME, AND NOW YOU SAY YOU WON'T! LILA: I SAID I WAS GOING TO MARRY YOU BECAUSE YOU CAUGHT ME WHEN I WAS VULNERABLE. YES, YOU GOT ME WHEN I -- WHEN I -- I -- YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME! CASS: EXCUSE ME? LILA: YES, YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF ME. CASS: I TOOK ADVANTAGE OF YOU? LILA: YES. CASS: AND I SUPPOSE THAT IT WAS A DREAM WHEN YOU KISSED ME LIKE THERE WAS NO TOMORROW. HONEY, IF YOU DON'T STOP DENYING HOW YOU REALLY FEEL, YOU'RE NOT GOING TO HAVE LIFE. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO LIVE. LILA: STOP IT. JUST STOP. STOP TELLING ME HOW I FEEL BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW. CASS: ALL RIGHT, FINE. OK, IT'S A FIGMENT OF MY IMAGINATION. WEEKS, MONTHS OF ELECTRICITY EVERY TIME WE'RE IN THE SAME ROOM TOGETHER -- AN ILLUSION. SO GO. GO BACK TO MATT CORY! GO ON! GO BACK TO A MAN WHO DOESN'T LOVE YOU AND NEVER WILL. GO BACK TO A FAMILY THAT, WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE, IS DEEPLY EMBARRASSED THAT YOUR BABY IS GOING TO BEAR THE CORY NAME. CRAWL BACK AND GROVEL FOR THEM TO THROW YOU THE OCCASIONAL BONE BY FORCING THEMSELVES TO BE CIVIL TO YOU. GO ON! LILA: GETTING HIT BY LIGHTNING WOULD BE BETTER THAN TAKING THIS ABUSE FROM YOU. CASS: GO RUN AWAY. GO AHEAD. I'M NOT COMING AFTER YOU THIS TIME! DAMN IT, LILA, DON'T DO THIS! DON'T DO THIS. JOSIE: YOU SEE, THIS IS THE THING. THIS IS THE THING. I'M NOT JUST LYING TO GARY. I MEAN, THAT'S BAD ENOUGH. BUT I'M ALSO LYING TO THIS CHILD ABOUT WHO HE IS AND WHERE HE'S COMING FROM, AND THAT'S LIKE PLAYING GOD WITH HIS IDENTITY, AND I CAN'T. I CAN'T DO THAT. I DON'T THINK I HAVE THE RIGHT TO DO THAT. CAMERON: MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT. BUT I THINK BEING A FATHER HAS MORE TO DO THAN WHOSE D.N.A. YOU GOT. GARY AND I HAD A FATHER. HE WAS OUR NATURAL PARENT, AND HOW DID HE TREAT US? DID HE LOVE US? DID HE CARE FOR US? NO. WE BOTH WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER OFF WITH SOMEBODY WHO WANTED US, SOMEBODY WHO CARED ABOUT US, SOMEBODY WHO WANTED TO BE A FATHER. SOMEBODY LIKE GARY. BUT IF YOU TELL HIM THIS, I REALLY DON'T THINK THAT HE CAN HANDLE IT. JOSIE: BUT MAYBE GARY STILL WILL BE A FATHER TO THIS CHILD. I MEAN, IT'LL BE LIKE HELL FINDING OUT AT FIRST, BUT -- CAMERON, GARY TOLD ME TONIGHT THAT THERE WAS NOTHING WE COULD NOT GET PAST WITH THE LOVE THAT WE HAVE FOR EACH OTHER. CAMERON: WELL, THIS'D BE A HELL OF A TEST, JOSIE. JOSIE: FOR YOU AND AMANDA, TOO. I MEAN, THIS IS REALLY MESSING THINGS UP FOR YOU. AND I WISH THAT THERE WAS SOME OTHER WAY, BUT I CANNOT LIVE WITH A LIE THIS BIG. I CAN'T. CAMERON: YOU DO WHAT YOU GOT TO DO. JOSIE: TONIGHT. I'M GOING TO TELL HIM TONIGHT. LILA: ZAK. ZAK. WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? ZAK: SCOUTING LOCATIONS FOR A BILLY RUSH VIDEO. WHAT'S YOUR EXCUSE? [THUNDER] ZAK: IT'S GOING TO POUR ANY MINUTE. LILA: I JUST WANT TO GO HOME. DO YOU HAVE YOUR CAR HERE? CASS: FOR GOD'S SAKE, LILA, DON'T BE A FOOL! LILA: DO YOU HAVE YOUR CAR HERE? ZAK: YEAH, IT'S OVER THERE IN THE NEXT LOT. LILA: PLEASE HURRY. COME ON. JUST GET ME OUT OF HERE, PLEASE. ZAK: A PLEASURE. YOU NEED A RIDE? LILA: HE'S MISPLACED HIS CAR. I'M SURE IT'LL TURN UP. COME ON, LET'S GO. CASS: LILA -- LAST CHANCE. LILA: TAKE ME BACK TO THE CORYS', PLEASE, AND I'LL JUST BE FINE. CASS: I REALLY SHOULD BE GRATEFUL. YOU SAVED ME. I ALMOST DESTROYED MY LIFE TONIGHT, BUT YOU SAVED ME! SO THANK YOU! THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. CAMERON'S VOICE: DEAR AMANDA, TONIGHT WHEN YOU WERE HERE I FELT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG, LONG TIME THAT WE WERE HEADED TOWARDS A PLACE WE WERE ALWAYS MEANT TO BE. THAT'S WHY IT'S SO HARD FOR ME TO SAY WHAT I NEED TO SAY TO YOU RIGHT NOW. THE ONLY REASON I'M NOT TELLING YOU IN PERSON IS THAT SOMETHING HAPPENS TO ME WHEN I'M WITH YOU. I LOOK INTO THOSE BEAUTIFUL EYES, AND I CAN'T FACE SEEING DISAPPOINTMENT THERE, ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M THE ONE CAUSING IT. THE THOUGHT OF YOU HURTING TAKES ALL MY WORDS AWAY AND EVERYTHING COMES OUT WRONG. AMANDA'S VOICE: SO I'M WRITING THIS DOWN SO I CAN TELL YOU BETTER HOW I FEEL. IT'S SIMPLE, REALLY. AND YOU ALREADY KNOW IT. BUT SO MUCH HAS GOTTEN IN THE WAY SINCE THE LAST TIME WE SPOKE THESE WORDS TO EACH OTHER. I LOVE YOU. CAMERON'S VOICE: I LOVE YOU. LET ME START WITH THAT BECAUSE IT'S MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYTHING ELSE. AND IT'S NEVER GOING TO CHANGE, NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL AFTER WHAT I HAVE TO TELL YOU. JOSIE: THERE'S SOMETHING THAT I NEED TO TELL YOU. GARY: I KNOW. AND THERE'S SOMETHING I NEED TO TELL YOU, TOO. SO LET ME GO FIRST. JOSIE: NO, I WANT TO -- GARY: PLEA-- I DON'T MEAN TO PUSH YOU. I DON'T. BUT I'VE BEEN DOING A LOT OF THINKING. THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING. JOSIE: GARY, THAT'S NOT WHAT I WANT TO TALK ABOUT. GARY: I KNOW YOU KNOW -- I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT MY HEART IS IN THE RIGHT PLACE. I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT. BUT I SAW YOUR FACE WHEN I GAVE YOU THAT DATE BOOK, AND YOU FELT PRESSURED. ALL I WAS TRYING TO DO WAS TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU AND LET'S START FROM SQUARE ONE. BUT WHAT YOU HEARD -- YOU HEARD WAS "COME ON, JOSIE. CHOP, CHOP. FORGET ABOUT THE TRAUMATIC SYNDROME AND ALL OF THAT OR WHATEVER IT MIGHT BE," INSTEAD OF ALLOWING YOU GO TO AT YOUR OWN PACE. I MADE YOU A SCHEDULE. I TREATED YOU LIKE -- LIKE I WAS YOUR PERSONAL TRAINER. JOSIE: NO. NO, GARY. THAT BOOK WAS PERFECT. THAT BOOK WAS THE MOST THOUGHTFUL, LOVING THING I COULD THINK OF. GARY: THERE'S ONLY ONE MESSAGE THAT I WANT YOU TO TAKE FROM THIS AND THAT IS THAT I LOVE YOU AND I DON'T WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU. SO PLEASE MAKE SURE I NEVER HAVE TO. OK? OK. NOW I'VE SAID THAT. NOW I HAVEN'T GIVEN YOU A CHANCE TO TALK, SO, PLEASE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO TELL ME? ZAK: ARE YOU ALL RIGHT? YOU SEEMED A LITTLE UPSET ON THE WAY HOME. YOU DIDN'T SAY MUCH. WAS IT THE STORM? LILA: NO. I ALMOST MADE A REALLY BAD MISTAKE TONIGHT, ZAK. IF YOU HADN'T COME ALONG -- THANKS. CASS: IT'S A LATE-MODEL LUXURY SEDAN, ILLINOIS LICENSE PLATE. YES, I'M SURE IT WAS LOCKED. SOMEBODY MUST HAVE -- HELLO? HELLO? I DON'T HAVE ANOTHER QUARTER. OPERATOR, MY CAR WAS STOLEN. I'M JUST TRING TO REPORT -- THIS IS INSANE. HERE I AM TRYING TO EXPLAIN MYSELF TO A RECORDING. DAMN THE TELEPHONE COMPANY! DAMN WHOEVER STOLE MY CAR! AND, LILA ROBERTS, DAMN YOU MOST OF ALL! JOSIE: WHAT I WANTED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH THAT NEW YEAR'S EVE ENTRY YOU WROTE ABOUT, THE TOAST TO THE NEW ADDITION TO THE FAMILY. GARY: AND YOU MAY NOT BE READY FOR THAT. AND THAT'S OK. IT'S UNDERSTANDABLE THAT YOU WOULD BE SCARED. YOU'D BE SCARED TRYING TO GET PREGNANT AGAIN BECAUSE YOU ALREADY LOST ONE. IS THAT WHAT THIS IS ALL ABOUT? LOOK, HONEY, IF THAT HAPPENS, THEN WE'LL EXPLORE OTHER OPTIONS. WE WILL. LIKE ADOPTION. I READ AN ARTICLE THE OTHER DAY IN THE PAPER ABOUT A COUPLE THAT DID THAT A FEW YEARS AGO. AND WHAT THE HUSBAND SAID WAS -- HE SAID THAT HAVING A CHILD IS ABOUT COMMITMENT. IT'S NOT ABOUT BIOLOGY. YOU DON'T THINK SO? JOSIE: NO. NO, ACTUALLY, I DO. SOMEBODY ELSE SAID THE SAME THING RECENTLY. GARY: I WANT THE CHANCE TO DO ALL THE THINGS FOR A CHILD THAT MY FATHER NEVER DID FOR ME. AND HOWEVER AND WHENEVER, THAT'S UP TO US. JOSIE: THANK YOU. GARY: WHAT ARE YOU THANKING ME FOR? JOSIE: FOR LOVING ME. LETTING ME LOVE YOU. GARY: JOSIE. JOSIE: GARY, LET'S MAKE THAT BABY. GARY: JOSIE? JOSIE: NO. I WANT TO. I WANT TO. I THINK THAT WE'RE BOTH READY. [CAPTIONING MADE POSSIBLE BY U.S. DEPARTMENT OF EDUCATION] [CAPTIONING PERFORMED BY THE NATIONAL CAPTIONING INSTITUTE, INC.] [PUBLIC PERFORMANCE OF CAPTIONS PROHIBITED WITHOUT PERMISSION OF NATIONAL CAPTIONING INSTITUTE]