The Image of Blackness
"Black is all I feel so this is how it feels to be Free"(L.Staley)

Stared down at the lines
going by so rapid
on my way out
again and again this one time...
give me rehab
of the soul
give me detox
of the brain...
let this day not come again
when the sun shines
or with rain
and several cheap wines...
I just want to hide
without hiding from life
to be invisible
but not mediocre...
most of all
I want heaven to recognize me
ive been lost in the crowd
way to long...

--

Guess
go on
Guess
who I might be...
then whisper it
real quietly
so only I can hear
and only I can know...

--

we bled together
I know that now
our blood mixed
In the tears of spring rains...
Its ok
blaming you
was my biggest sin
so false I couldnt win...
Its ok
I could forgive
if you could forgive
at the expense of being held tight...
now ill stand
as the snow falls around
spouting my poem of apologies
to Michigans unforgiving wind...
It takes courage to really be heard...

--

LACK OF CONSCIENCE-*MONEY*-
its disrupting thoughts of normality
its all one big felony
and thoughts better be a rule
action is death no doubts to fuel...
what would you do
for mans paper trading tool?
the color green is a craving
it smells like freedom
with its oderless aroma.
want..want..want
needs and wants will ALWAYS
ALWAYS
become entangled when excess
plays chess.

--


the wicked smile
you have
the wicked smile
makes me feel infintile...
you fill up
with poisons
full
on the air that is your blanket...
your smile
has creased my skin
so often
that every scar seems connected...
see the sunrise
that will bring each new day
see them rest
from a similar grin...
I have inflicted
this smile upon me
in so many attempts
to give up a struggle so old...
but each struggle
gains wisdom
and each smile
grabs hold more savagely...
why does everything have to be a battle...

--

Like looking
through water
as still as glass
I see you there...
the other side...
I want to cross over
I want to confide
but it cannot be done
unless I cease to hide...
the open air
with all its hopes to care
is to much
for a man without a shadow...
I want to drown
In comfort and extasy
plague myself
In some love like fantasy...
I want to cross over
I want to be with you...

--

"Black fire change"

Ever found pleasure
In the presence of decay
crumbled buildings
and burned out homes.
we drew our pentagrams
with candles
in the sand
and called down the fires of atonement.
we called down the marker
on a society in debt
we made them pay dues
now theres nothing left to choose.
scurry rats
scurry to the caves
escape the bloodletting
of our midnight raves.
the fires of the dead
give others daily bread
as the ash piles grow
a few less arrive at the show.
so we call upon a leader
a prophecied anti-christ
with nothing
not a thing to loose.
one day we'll find pleasure
in ourselves again
one day we'll find ourselves
in contrast to a society.

--

Cross this heart
to heaven
to hell
to the west and east.
if it had been a close call
of the new found fall
I would have sunk upon knees
and cursed myself for god.
but we set ourselves
on staged plays
everyone gets the lead
and no ones the star.
glamour is a joke
in twisted metal
red and blue nightlights
and a crowd on the hill.
silent crowd
standning mute on mouring
in a white out morning
with holiday cheer slain before all...

Been waiting
around
waiting
for it all to come down...
running
for all it is
cant stop
the explosion behind...
every time
playing with fire
seems like a lure
to easily tempted to...
like a moth
heading for the flame
attracted by the light
attempting to come in...
everyone wants out of the dark...
kick back
pull up a chair
tis nothing
not even yet a dare...
we'll await this time together...

Why do you push
the dying
why do you kick
the dead.
spent lives
spent dreams
with you
thats all it seems.
end of a long line
a line we froze in
while waiting for punishment.
why do you do anything
when nothing has logic
play with your fire
burn and be another lier.
and stop painting
pictures
the pictures of false images
that may or not be a life...

--

Once it could have been
once or twice
it was always done
back with a dollar and clear eyes...
now its much more simple
now its just twilight
without a star
twilight black slipping in to far...
to find that your afraid
the whole time you acted brave
the anxiety alone
makes you braver then you thought...
finding sharp
the glistening metal
as it reflects from the streelight
goodnight sleeptight...
sigh the sighs of relief
sadness washing you
cleansing you
as you know that this is life...
your life...

Move away
the eyes
that is thee
trapped in purgatory...
I cannot see...
You are the calm
your own eyes
the calm
before and after the rage...
acompanying the storm...
the devils consistant
knocking
with pelting rain
drowns the face of the eyes that seek...
noah
and his cohorts
cant stop this flood
from tearing two apart...
averting the eyes
seems the simplest
next to drowning parched throat
with intoxicants...
a tear to touch
alone
a silence of death
among a crowd...
the simple sides of an impossible maze...


lay awake
when the lights are out
staring at the glowing spots
the friends of a mind...
a mind unknown.
think of all thats missed
if eyes glue shut
think of all thats missed
when the sun rises...
and the mind is still alive.
awaken to an angry day
then feel guilty
cause after all
you ARE guilty...

--

A floating ice berg
in a sea
endless in sight
its shrinking to see.
it floats lost
alone
and slowly disapearing
into a mass of shimmering moonlight.
no more fear left to disapear...

gentle souls
pray for the wicked
the lost
and the addicted...
gentle souls
pray
and that
Is more then I could say...

--

How can i fight
for nothing?
how can i believe
in nothing?
when you lack faith
you become the cornered animal
cowering
but dangerous just the same.
is that me
a dangerous coward
lost
in a huge corner called earth?

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authors note: if anyone should feel some poke of annoyance at the fact of me "borrowing" an image from them let me know and i will remove them. Poems the soul ownership of Nightpoet. Do not use without consent(ah the hypocrit I am).