CHAPTER 20 -- the final chapter

“So, I’m here. Now what?” he asked. I couldn’t help myself. Temptation was literally staring me right in the face and I had to do this. I kissed him. Well, it was more of a mutual thing. At first I just stood there and stared into his eyes and he was staring into mine. Then we both kissed each other. He read my mind.

Only a small quick kiss, it was still a kiss and it meant oh-so much to me. I took his hand in mine without saying any words and pulled him up to my room. He hesitated at first, but then he knew what was going to happen, so he followed me. My hands started to get clammy, and I didn’t know why? Was I nervous? Was I scared? I couldn’t tell what emotion I was feeling.

Out onto the roof of the porch we sat, staring up at the star filled sky, letting the end of summer breeze gently blow by us, causing my hair to flick and fly in so many directions. Hand in hand we sat there, not saying a word because no words needed to be said.

“Just wanted to be with me, eh?” he finally asked.

I shrugged and looked his way. “Yeah.” I said. “I haven’t gotten to spend much time with you lately and I just wanted to be with you. I mean, I want to be with you, and I’m glad I’m here with you.”

My words sputtered out, making me sound like a rambling fool. He smiled.

“I’m glad because I want to be with you, too.” The stars reflected in his eyes and they looked so beautiful. I became lost in their caramel color and I drowned in the deep depths of them. I wanted that. I wanted to lose myself every time I was with him. Losing myself was only half the fun. Finding myself in his eyes is what made me realize how much I needed him in my life.

Dismissing my promises to myself about taking things with Zac nice and slow, we kissed again, only this time it was a lot more than just a short little kiss. We slowly leaned back and for some reason, this scene was fresh in my mind and I was having the weirdest feeling of déjŕ vu ...