Popping up everywhere!
I have no idea if it is just my perception
right now, but it seems that everybody around me is pregnant! (well, half
of everybody) At the very beginning, there was Dennis Phillips and Darcy
who became new parents, and then the email from Alan. So, I got here and
met Alan's baby Julian. Not long after, I met my lab mate Tony's baby,
Adam. Pam and I attended a party to welcome Adam to the Alan Kingstone
Lab clan. Just recently, I discovered that another grad student here is
pregnant.
That is only here in Edmonton. You
remember Pam's cousin Melissa, who was one of her bride's maids? Well,
she and her sister are going to have babies! They are due a month
apart. Pam's aunt Geraldine (wedding photographer) just had her baby. This
can't just be my perception.
I am not trying to say that I am planning
to jump over that hurdle any time soon, but there is no denying that the
possibility exists. Pam and I have had the discussion a few times, and
we agree that no babies should grace our household for a little while yet.
When we left Halifax, Pam picked up a year's worth of pills. Once those
are gone she is very interested in not renewing the prescription. And then,
a number of months have to be observed while the chemicals are flushed
from her system.
Pam has a plan which sees us having
a child or children old enough to attend pre-school by the time I finish
my degree. We have not agreed to set this plan in motion, but even impartial
observers have commented on its merits. Pam would be able to return to
school during the day if we managed to get back to Nova Scotia, or even
if she found another institution she wished to attend.
There is some tension between us in
this area, but we are not letting it become an argument. In any case, I
still have over a year before any action is required. I tell Pam that,
right now, I am not interested in having children, and we shall see how
my feelings change in the future. Truthfully, I am definitely not opposed
to the idea in many ways. I just don't want the extremes of responsibility
while I have other important responsibilities. But will that ever change?
I want to have time to love my children.
This free-flowed
at 1:30 in the morning, when I was trying to figure out something which
was worthy of your page.
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