Irreplaceable You.
L. Kathleen Mathis
Under the bright Fall moon I kneel,
The sand cold and wet beneath my knees.
The breeze off the ocean
Curls about
and gently caresses the curves of my face,
My shoulder,
My neck,
Like your touch,
Your breath,
But this chills my skin,
As I close my eyes
And think of you.
Lifting my gaze to the heavens
The sorrow empties my soul,
Like the tears regretfully falling down my face,
And I am woefully devoid of all
That was me.
How my soul keens
As I lift my voice into the wind
Unfettered to release the pain,
The anguish,
The void.
I didn't know love could be like this.
I didn't know it was possible
To empty one's entire existence
Into the spirit of another.
I cannot understand.
You gave me wings,
Made visions and dreams
Come alive in my soul.
Made me hunger and thirst for a life
I never knew existed in me,
And I lived.
I lived!
because of you.
And I poured it into you.
With joy,
And reckless abandon
I gave it all to you.
It was the most natural thing to do,
To love the perfection in you.
Now I am curiously
And painfully
empty,
My dreams swept away in the shadow of your passing
And I wonder
would I do it again,
if I could do it over?
Would I give up the joy in the magic of your love,
The delight of your soul rejoicing in me,
The ecstasy of your spirit washing over mine,
Drawing me out of the shadows
Into the light of you?
Would I relinquish the thrill
of learning of you,
The inspiration,
admiration,
dreams
And longings
you conjure in my soul
with your words,
your life?
I could not.
Ask me to release the hope
And strength,
And joy
Conjured up in your gaze,
Full of faith
And pride
in me,
and I would not.
I could not.
All you've given to me
Is more precious than this night,
Memories of you
Will pierce through this darkness,
A radiant light to sustain me,
Even if the morning never comes
again.
I'd rather to have known the perfection of your sun
and live in eternal night,
Than to have never known you
And endured the twilight of my former life.
It's awfully cold here, though.
I'm glad I have you in my mind.
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