Part 20: Flashbacks

Walker and Diana were the last ones to leave the Hanson household. Jessica and Avery were at their friend Katrina's house for the night. Mackie had gone to his grandparents house-Taylor had confidently reported to his parents that he was not responsible enough to take care of Mackie. (Delibritley, so he and Linds could be alone for the night). Zac was mystified at the whole situation and he just went over to his friend Justin's house to spend the night. Isaac had some idea what they were up to: Taylor could tell because Ike had asked him ifhe wanted to snoop around in their parents bedrooms. Isaac just oh-so-accidentally showed him wear the condoms were. "GOSH!" Taylor thought.

As Walker and Diana were giving Taylor the emergency #s, all the info on where they were gonna be all night. Taylor was polite and told them to have a good time. Taylor once again assured them that nothing was going to happen that night between him and Lindsay, that they wouldn't do anything they regreted.

And, he was (half way) telling the truth. He wasn't doing anything he would regret.

The door shut. Taylor ran up to Lindsays room.

"Hey, love...we have the whole house to ourselves. You know what that means."

Lindsay laughed. She patted the spot on the bed next to her, beckoning Taylor to sit next to her.

He sat down. She gently kissed his lips. "Taylor, I love you more than anything-you know that. But we need to talk."

"Ok...."

"I hear all these storys about these young couples who have sex-and then she gets pregnant or something and the guy bails. I dont want that to happen. Sex shouldn't drive us away from each other. I want it to bring us closer together. Its a big commitment, Tay..."

Taylor sighed and put his hand to his forhead. "You are soo right Linds. I wasn't going to leave you--I would never do that-ever. But its true--it should bring us closer together."

Lindsay smiled. "And I dont want to turn into one of those perverted horny people who just have sex sex sex all day and all night....and I dont want you to be one either."

"I wont. I'm not a horny person...you know I dont want to do this because i'm just a guy with, well you know, hormones, I want to do this because I love you..."

"I'm really glad to hear you say that."

Taylor embraced lindsay around the waist and starred dreamily into her eyes. Lindsay had a flashback...you know, one of those things you see in movies...she saw this:

Her face when she couldnt get tickets to the concert; waiting outside for Jenny; the phone call from that guy asking for her to come back; the first time she met Taylor in the video game room; the moment she won the contest; Candy and the girls from down the hall; the time when taylor cried because of the websites; when she talked to the guy on th ephone and taylor got mad so he listened on another line; the night he got her out of bed and asked her to go out with him; the time they were making out and mackie walked in; the day taylor said he loved lindsay rite infront of his parents; the sex class; the phone call; the crying and slow dancing in the rain; the night they slept together; the day she got home...

Lindsay froze.

"Are you ok, linz?" Taylor asked concerned.

She blinked. "I'm fine. I just...love you so much."

"I love you too...and that will never change."

Tayor gently kissed away the tears of joy that were about to stream down Lindsays cheek. He kissed one more.

Taylors lips were soft and gentil on Lindsays angelic face. He was always gentle...nothing fast or hard...just a soft peck...a little tounge hear and there, but mostly just tenderness..Taylor knew that this was the time. The perfect moment.

Before Taylor had time to say so, lindsay asked. "Are you ready?"

Taylor shyley nodded.


Taylor walked into Lindsays room wearing his navy blue bathrobe. Lindsay awaited in her queen sized bed wearing a tommy tank top and matching undies.

Taylor sat down next to her. He didn't know what to say. it seemed liked how ever shy he was in his whole life had come back to him and doubled just for this moment.

"Pretty awquard minute,huh?" Lindsay asked.

Taylor went for it. He put his finger to lindsays lips and "shh"'shd her. Lindsay knew this was it.

Taylor slowly began kissing her neck, softly. She wrapped her arms around him and began returning the feeling.

They finally were all ready for the big moment. Taylor smiled softly as, the spice girls would say "when 2 become 1."


the next morning...

Taylor, holding lindsay against his bare body, breathed the scent of his girlfriends hair deeply. Lindsay was asleep. The sheet was wrapped around them. Lindsay moaned softly.

Both Taylor and Lindsay knew that two people, 14 and 15, were way too young to be having sex. But they felt that they were so blessed with eachother that it was a way to express their love. They werent having sex because their hormones were driving them wild---they did it because they wanted to be ultimatley close to each other.

Lindsay opened her eyes.

"Lindsay?" Taylor could just feel the warmth of her reaching him.

"Taylor?"

Lindsay rolled over andlooked him in the eye.

"Lindsay, asking you out was the greatest thing I ever did. If you weren't here with me now I would be miserable, lonely and shy. Thank you..."

"For what?"

"For loving me so much."

Lindsay smiled and pecked his lips.

"I love you Taylor."

"I love you too Lindsay---I love you too."