We had returned to the Hanson home in the morning. To our complete shock, his parents were not angry with us. They understood that we needed a break and said that they would forget about it if we didn't hold it against them in an argument that they questioned our relationship.

The phone rang at about 10 o'clock in the morning. Diana called me downstairs, it was for me.

"Lindsay?"

"Mom! Hi!"

I was so happy to hear from her. "How are you doing Lindsay, is all well?"

I paused for a moment. "Everything is great mom. Whats up?"

"Oh, nothing. I just wanted to let you know that I am going to Hawaii for a week with your father. We would very much like you to come, but unfortunatley this trip is for buisness. You would have to sit in a hotel room all day."

"That's allright, I'm fine here."

"Lindsay, I have been talking to Diana and I was wondering if you would like to come stay with me for a few weeks? Your dad has been gone alot lately and I get sort of lonely in this house. I could use some company."

I thought about it for a minute. "That sounds cool mom, but something is nagging on me. I think I have something to do. But I really will think about it. I miss you alot."

"Alright, dear. Call me when you have decided. Bye now."

"Bye." I put down the phone.

That night, i lie awake in my bed for a few hour at night. I didn't know what was keeping me up, but I just couldn't fall asleep, no matter what.

I think I missed my mom. I had been living with the Hanson's for about a total of 8 months and I really needed a dose of my family and friends back in L.A.

I hadn't talked to Jenny in about 2 months---jenny! Oh God, I thought...She probably thinks I forgot about her.

I made my decision. I was going to stay with my mom for 3 weeks.

But something made it seem like 3 weeks was not enough. Four.

That still seemed like nothing to me. Why didn't I want to stay here? I was so confused.

THen it dawned on me. Taylor.

We were getting too close, and I couldn't believe I was admitting this, but Diana and Walker were right...we were too young to handle this.

Last night, we hadn't even used a condom. I wanted to be responsible about this, and I could be pregnant, even now! As much as Iloved Tay, I knew that this wasn't right. I shouldn't have lost my virginity when I was 14. I didn't regret it, I just wish I had waited.

I would tell Taylor in the morning. I was going to stay with my mom for a month.