Part 32: Coming Home

The plane ride was long and boring, but I was thankful I wasn't sitting next to Katie,Candy, or Delia like last time.

I walked down the long hallway that led to the airport. It seemed neverending because I was alone, but I kept walking. My head was high and my hips were forward. My eyes were tired and wanted to fall asleep.

I finally got to the end of the long corridor and saw my mom at the end.

"Lindsay!" She squealled.

"Mom!" I smiled weakly.

"You look so tired! Come on, let's get you home!"

Home, I thought. That's where I need to be. "Yeah, let's go. Thanks for picking me up."

She smiled and led me towards the car. The navy blue mercedes with silver tail and piping was waiting. THe tan leather seats were so inviting. I turned on the radio. "Ahh, I haven't heard this station in SO long."

"I knew i shouldn't have changed your station settings."

I smiled.


The big house looked so unfamiliar to me. I wanted familiar surroundings that were warm and inviting, that looked like something i knew. These came alot closer then the surroundings at the hanson household. I didn't care though, I let my thoughts drift off as I wandered up the stairs to my bedroom. I opened the french doors and sighed.

My room. I never knew how much i actually missed it. I fell down lazily onto my queen sized cream colored comfortor that was lying on my bed in the center of the room.

I threw my bags down on the floor before falling asleep. I put my backpack in my closet and eyed my CD collection, that had been untouched since I was there last time. I picked up Smashing Pumpkin's double album Mellon collie and the infinite sadness" and took out the light blue colored disc, twilight to starlight. I put the CD in the player after laughing at the large stack of Hanson CD's that were there.

I switched the song to 1979.

Shake down, 1979,
Cool kids never have the time
On a live wire, right up off the street
You and I
Should meet
June bug skipping like a stone
With the head lights, pointed at the dawn
We were sure we'd never see and end
To it all

And I don't even care
To shake these zipper blues
and we don't know
just where our bones will rest
to dust, I guess
forgotten and absorbed
into the earth below

Double cross the vacant and the bored
they're not sure just what we have in store
morphine city slipping dues
down to see

That we don't even care
as restless as we are
We feel
The pull, in the land of a thousand
Guilts____ and poured cemenet
Lamented and assured
to the lights,
and towns
below

faster than the speed of sound
faster than,we thought we'd go
beneath
The sound
Of hope

Justine never knew the rules,
Hungdown, with the freaks and ghouls
No apoligies ever need be made,
I know you
Better than you fake it
to see

That we don't even care,
To shake these zipper blues
And we don't know,
Just where our bones will rest
To dust
I guess
Forgotten and absorbed and obsorbed into earth below

The street heats the urgency of sound

As you can see there's no one around


I woke up the next morning suddenly. I looked around the room. Where was I?

I glanced at the stereo player that had played out the smashing pumpkins CD. I knew where I was. I was at home. I let out a deep breath. I hopped out of my bed and let my bare feet dig into the soft plush carpet. I opened the closet.

"MY CLOTHES!!!!" I squealed with delight. At the hanson house I was living on a few tube tops, one three quarter shirt, a few baisic long sleeved tees, and a few pairs of shorts.

My mom knocked on the door. I opened it. "I found my clothes! yay!"

"Hehe. Why don't you get dressed and then we'll take jenny and you out to breakfast."

"Sounds great! Be down in 10!"

She smiled at my happiness and went down to the living room.

I pushed through all the clothes in the closet and pulled out some stretchy, tight, black guess pants and a mint colored sweater that was form fitting and really comfy. I walked over to my makeup mirror and found my makeup bag I had packed away in my suit cases. I took out some tanish brown lip gloss and slid it on my lips. I spread my clinique superbalanced makeup on my nose, cheeks, forhead, and chin, then used some sparkly brown eyeshadow on my lids. I put a clear headband over my long blonde hair and picked up my phone.

"Hello?" Jenny's familiar voice came into the reciever and filled the warm with warmness.

"Jenny?"

"Lindsay!!!!!"

"Hey girly! We're going out to eat and we want to know if you want to come?"

"Uh, you're sorta far away..."

Then I realized I had not told Jenny home, or even that I was coming home for that matter. "Oh! Im sorry I forgot to tell you! We were on short notice...go out on your balcony!"

"Uh, ok...whats this all about?"

"Just go!"

I picked up the portable and walked out to my balcony where I could see Jenny opening her clear doors and walking out. She looked up at me. "LINDS!" She hung up the phone.

"Jenny!"

"You're home!"

"Yeah!"

"How did Taylor take it?"

"Well, ok, alot better than last time."

"That's good." She hesitated for a moment and then spoke up. "How's ike?"

"He's good, but he made me promise that when I came back in three weeks I was bringing you with me!"

"Three weeks! I get you for three weeks? Yay!"

I smiled.

"Well, I'll be there!"

"So, want to come to breakfast with us?"

"Of course! I'll be down in like 5 minutes!"

"Ok!"

"Bye!"

I stepped back into my room where I continued through it down the stairs and into the living room where my mom's face was burried in a Vogue magazine and some classical music was softly playing on the stereo.

"I'm so glad to be home, mom."

She looked up at me. "I'm glad too, honey. I'm glad too."