I wasn't crying when I got to my room. I stomped up the stairs to my room and slammed the door. The thoughts were going through my mind that he must have still been mad at me for kissing Zac. He did the same thing I did. But then, Zac is my best friend. I then turned on the radio, full blast this time and my ears were greeted by the Backstreet Boys. "God!" I yelled as I went to turn it off. I decided to listen to it though. To the words of the song. It sounded like something Tay would have written that came from his heart, but no. I sort of sang along to the words thinking it had a lot to do with what I was feeling. "I don't care who you are, where you're from, what you did, as long as you love me." Tay must have gone home because I opened my window and heard th exact same song blasting from his room down the hall . I looked at him sadly. He was sitting in his window box frame, burying his head with his arms. I couldn't tell if he was crying or not. My thought's went back to the music. "....what you did, as long as you love me.." I don't think he saw me looking at him. I couldn't talk to him right then, I had too much anger in me. I noticed he was singing along, I then felt really bad. I mean, what if he had a story that went with what Ike had said. What if I'm pissed about nothing. I should have listened to him. I sat down at my desk, and I starting writing nonsence metaphors. Just then Ike and Zac entered my room with out knocking. "Linds, we need to talk to you about Tay." They startled me. "Can't you knock?" I asked sort of rudely. Zac came over to me and led me to sit down on my bed. Ike put his arm around me and said my name like he was going to finish his sentence, but he didn't. I thought I was going to cry. But that would have made matters worse. Then Ike spoke up. "Linds, Tay didn't,.... I mean I didn't know that... how do I put this?... Tay didn't mean anything when he was with Missy. I kept trying to interupt but he continued. I looked at Zac. "What he's trying to say is that there is something you need to know about Missy." He trailed off though. I said out loud. "Oh great, he really does like her!" Zac had to finish what he was trying to explain. "Lindsay, Missy is our cousin." My jaw dropped. "Your cousin?? Oh my gosh! That explain's the hugging and the kiss on the cheek, and the flirting." Ike said "Our mom always told us it was proper to kiss the cheek of family members, and we haven't seen Missy all summer." I was so stupid. "Well why didn't he just tell me???" Ike said "because you ran off so fast he didn't have time to explain it." I thought out loud. "Can I be alone?" They got up to leave with out saying anything. I added "Tell Tay ummm...nevermind." After they left I looked back across the street but tay wasn't in the window. My phone rang right when I saw Ike and Zac walk in their house. I checked the caller ID and it said HANSON, WALKER 446-3979. I picked it up. "Hello?" It was Tay. "Hi Linds, I uh, need to talk to you." I answered him. "I know, me too. I mean I need to talk to you..." I paused, then finished, "..but I need to see you." He said to me something like he had an appointment with some producer agent people so he wouldn't be back until really late at night. And that he was leaving now. I ddin't know what to say and obviously he didn'e either so he said. "Meet me at your balcony at midnight." I was like "Jordan, I don't know." I never call him Jordan anymore, but I felt like it that time. He said "just be there. And bring your rollerblades." then he hung up before I could say anything.

I was laying on my bed staring at the ceiling for what seemed like an eternity. I looked at my clock to see if it was almost midnight. The clock read 6:54PM. I couldn't think of anything to do but call ______(isn't her name Jenni or something? Her friend anyways) No answer. I let the phone ring atleast 20 times before I hung up. I don't know why I was so depressed. I mean, I already had almost the whole kissing the cousin thing worked out, but I don't was still missing something. I was bored, so I decided to take a nap. I must have fallen asleep fast, or have been reeeally tired because I woke up at 11:00PM and I had somehting to eat for dinner. I watched a little bit of TV, then I made my hair look all good, and I practiced what I was going to say to Taylor in front of the mirror. It sounded lame, but I figured that it would really help. Midnight rolled around and I put on a sweatshirt, grabbed my binaca just in case, and strapped my blades ove my shoulder. I walked out to the balcony outside of my room and Tay was standing there. He had his hair in a low pony tail, and he grabbed the ladder from the side of the house trying not to wake my entire family. I threw my blades over the railing and climbed down the ladder. Right away he wrapped his arms around me and we made out passionetely for like 3 minutes. When we came apart, the first thing he said to me was "There, that's who we're supposed to be kissing." I smiled at him and purposely fell on the ground and put my rollerblades on. I asked him "Do we really need to talk?" He said "No, let's forget this ever happened. Okay?" I answered him by softly pecking his lips until finally I got my skates on and he helped me up. "Tay, where exactly are we going?" He ignore my question and took my hand. "Come on!"